So much for trying to keep up with this. It's like Gaia. My friends on there must wonder what happened to me yet again. I make a post or two & then disappear. xD
I suppose the latest noteworthy happenings was an online friend passing away a few days ago. I was at work on Saturday, skimming on my phone when the store was empty, & I saw Kendra tagged in a post. I can't recall the exact wording, but it was an old photo of her & two friends, & the friend that had posted it had said something along the lines of "I can't believe your gone." It got my attention, & I tapped her name to be greeted with a swarm of RIP posts & photos of her that people were sharing. It hit me like a ton of bricks, like someone punched me as hard as possible in the gut. I didn't know her personally, as Carrie had introduced me online to her since Kendra was her landlord. (In fact, many of the items in Carrie's apartment that I liked so much were actually Kendra's, a clue to her unique personality) I did enjoy seeing her posts though, as she loved cats & had an adorable cat namemd Stinky. She always took care of the strays, who knew she was there to help & would come to her for food. She had a food truck as well, The Head Hunter, which specialized in different meats. (Which I would've LOVED to try!) I loved seeing photos from the beach when she was at work, & new fun colors she'd put in her hair. She had gone with blue very recently, & I thought it was cool. She just seemed like a cool person from what I could see online, plus from what Carrie had told me.
I know she had been suffering from various health issues, & I had forgotten until this weekend that she had gotten into a very bad car accident a few years back that left her with severe pain. I think someone even said that her spine had been crushed, & it was a wonder she had survived. Well, at the start of last month, she had mentioned her high blood pressure causing trouble. Unfortunately, her insurance had run out, so she was stuck waiting to get back on it to get medication for it. She passed away overnight Friday-into-Saturday from a stroke, at a young age of 47, so I'm thinking she may not have been able to get back on medication. This is particularly heartbreaking, because if it weren't for the lapse in coverage, she'd probably still be here with us.
It makes me sad to think that I won't see her posts anymore. I won't see her sharing what she's doing for decorating, or see her cats or funny cat posts, or neat photos from days working at the food truck. It's like a flame has gone out, one I will never see again. Today is Monday, & her page is still being flooded with posts of remembrance, which has been popping up on my Facebook news feed/timeline/whatever it's called now. She was loved by many, many people all over the world. In fact, there is going to be a gathering in the spring in NYC for her, giving her friends plenty of time to prepare for a trip (particularly those across the country/world) & because spring symbolizes life. What better time to celebrate her memory than when everything is coming back in bloom & the city is coming back to life? I certainly plan on going to New York for this, though I do find it sad that my two planned trips to New York next year are both related to the passing of people.
That's been making me feel really down. It was all I could do to control myself at work when I first found out. Being at work was the worst place to read such news, particularly since I don't get breaks or can't go home early if something happened. Within a few minutes of learning, a customer walked in of course, so I had to try really hard to hide the fact I was crying & try to stop. Another customer came in shortly after & gave me a funny look since I looked like a mess, but I had just explained to him that I had just received bad news, & he was sympathetic & brief with his shopping. Saturday was awful because of this, & of course Eric didn't help. He told me I was overreacting because I had never met her in person, & he told me this when Michael (H) died back in 2013. I may not have met her, but it's still upsetting because from what little I did know of her, she was really cool. I checked back on my Facebook posts to see what I could find for a last comment or like, & the last post she liked was from October 24th. It was one of those unseasonably warm days we had, where it was 70+ with foliage going & even with some rain. I went for a drive & went down that favorite back road I discovered last year when I had to bring Eric to & from work every day for the fall, & I took a few pictures during the tree-tunnel part & uploaded them when I got home. She had hit the Like button on it, as she loved fall. "Kenny Kendra liked this." I'll miss seeing that.
Anyway. She'll be missed. I wish she were still here. It's just like before.... She was just here. Someone even posted a screenshot of a conversation they had right before, where it said Kendra was last active 15 hours before. Fifteen hours. She was still here. (And unfortunately, it was not a good message. It was rather creepy, as Kendra had said something expressing concern that she may have a full-blown stroke.) She was just posting last week. One of her final posts was of her elderly cat Squirrel, who I have met. It's just hard to wrap my head around, just like before with Tamara, with Michael, with Tom, with Tyler...
Other happenings... Um. Last weekend, the 4th & the 5th, I went up to Maine for Dustin & Desiree's annual gathering. There was the added benefit of the clocks going back an hour, though I wasn't awake to take advantage of it like last year. I wish that we had been all able to go to breakfast like last year, but it was just Dustin, Desiree & I, & Dustin was feeling really crappy when we ventured to Ihop. The attendance was smaller this year, too. The last two years, it was always so packed. I'm not sure what happened this year. Jared was one of the very few who dressed up, which he dressed up as William Wallace from Braveheart. I stepped out on the front porch when he arrived, saw his costume, & got air-knucks when I said "Freedom!" He had the face paint going, & he even had a sword. I mean a proper replica sword of Wallace's sword. It was the coolest thing. Later on, after much alcohol had been consumed, him & one or two other people ventured away from the crowd at the first fire towards the side of the hill, & they started flinging the sword in the air in an attempt to get the sword to land upright in the ground just like at the end of the movie. Surprisingly, they managed it in just a few tries, & there were loud cheers all around. They decided to leave it like that, though I have no idea how long that actually managed to stay. (Especially because most of Jared's costume had been left behind & we found bits of it around the next day. His plastic drinking horn in the garage, his sword elsewhere in the garage, his plaid shirt in the house... Desiree was worried he may have left his kilt behind & wondered if he went home naked) So I suppose that was fairly exciting. I got to FINALLY use those Eggies colored fire starters & the flame packets for the fires, so I was briefly treated to fun colors in the flames. I guess other people noticed as well, as Desiree was asked about it a few times. I hope to remember to order a ton more for next year, especially since the egg carton starters got the fire up & going in seconds.
The weekend before that, Sunday the 29th, Kyle FINALLY came down to visit me. We were supposed to go to Six Flags for their Halloween event, since it was the Sunday before Halloween, but a big storm came rolling in that day & cancelled any plans that involved being outside or traveling. We watched some of the latest Pirates of the Caribbean movie, which we never finished, & then I brought him to Telly's. I got soup & buffalo tenders, & he got french onion soup & seafood primavera or something like that. (Which of course he ate too much junk food before we left, so he didn't finish. He ate the seafood parts once he started to get full, but didn't bother with leftovers) We went back & we played that Wheel of Fortune game I got when I had the Xbox Gold thing. I kicked his butt of course. The wind started to pick up not long after we got back, & I had to go outside to make sure I didn't leave anything in my car. I ended up having to tell Eric's mother to bring her plastic light-up ghost outside, & she thought her pumpkin had it wedged securely in place. I had to reiterate that they were calling for 60 mph gusts, & her pumpkin wasn't going to do anything. She did bring that in, but didn't bother with anything else, so the next morning her plastic chairs had been blown around, the cushions were resting against my car, spray bottles were all over the driveway.... She doesn't listen. (And this happened yet again on Friday, where I went out to my car to find one of her rotted pallets had fallen against my car's front tire & had left small scrapes on my car. I'm still not happy about that) Anyway, Kyle ended up staying the night becuase of the wind & rain, so he left earlyearlyearly the next morning for work. When I woke up at 5:30, the power had already gone out, & Kyle told me when he woke up briefly at 3-something, the power had already been out then.
Oh yeah, so that was a first. I had to come to work despite no power, & it was the weirdest day of work. There was no power at home when I wanted to get ready, so I had to be careful with the limited water in the pipes & clean up with face pads & everything else. I got to the store, & no power, so I spent a lot of the day sitting in my car & telling people I could do cash sales. One guy started to just wander around & browse though, despite claiming he knew what he wanted & would be quick, so I had to rush him. I made it all the way to 6 without power, & it was getting dark, so I was able to close when it got too dark. Unfortunately, I still had no power at home & had no where to go, so I sat in the parking lot. I sat there too long. Suddenly, the power came back on, at about 6:40. If I had power at home, I could've had my first-ever short day at work there. I opened my stupid mouth though, & had to go back in & reopen & finish the day. I needed the full-day's pay anyway, so I guess it wasn't so bad, plus I FINALLY had access to running water & a flushing toilet, which I so badly needed. It ended up being the easiest 3 hours ever. (It took me 20 minutes to make it inside because I was trying to ask Eric what to do, but his store's landlord was there because the power was partially out in the plaza & half of his lights weren't working) I even ordered food, treating myself to the chicken alfredo from up the street, & not even that brought in business. I got paid an extra 3 hours to do nothing but eat & poop. I did watch TV briefly, but then Comcast went out & I had no phones, internet, or cable, so even if I did have someone walk in I would've still been cash-only.
Hmm. What else occurred in October? I just double-checked, & I last updated on September 23. We still had warm weather then. I was feeling crushing anxiety because i was having a hard time accepting the season change. I'm still struggling, but it's worse because it gets darker earlier, & then the time change made that way worse. It's dark by 5, so my days off are all out of whack now. I used to be able to watch DBZ & play WoW with daylight lasting until well after 8 pm, almost 9 pm. If I ate a snack/lunch at 3, it wasn't dark an hour & a half later. It's totally dark by 5, even earlier when it's cloudy, & it's messing with me. It hits 6 pm, & I feel like it's after 9 already, which makes my appetite all out of whack since I ate around 8 all summer long. (To coincide with Dragon Ball Super's English dub airing at 8 pm on Saturdays. If it wasn't Saturday, I just watched a DVR'd episode) The temperature thing is out of whack, since I have to use the heat now. At least when it was hot, I could open windows for fresh air, or the AC would feel refreshing. To make matters worse, it was warm up until a little over a week ago. Friday the 3rd & Monday the 6th were the last days that got to 65 or higher, & that Monday was quite humid apparently, making it feel even warmer. Unfortunately I had to work both those days, so I missed out on what was likely the last of the unseasonable warmth. The temps shfiting to cold has not helped for sure since it happened so quick, so it seemed to just be another nail in that. I can only hope that winter goes as fast as the summer did. Hell, I found the picture I shared of that Angry Orchard glass with the two seasons of DBZ (8 & 9) & saw it was from April 30th. I remember it being warm towards the end of April, when Pinball Wizard closed, as I was doing my DBZ & WoW thing back then. Heh, that's when we also had the bird flying into the window. Unfortunately, his mother just had that tree cut down, so I won't see the nice flowers outside my window or see the green. I was okay with a trim, since it was needed due to the branches growing against the house, but she cut it down entirely. This makes me sad.
I think I should wrap things up. Eric just got here, so I should go. My background stopped appearing on here for some reason, though the link still works & i was able to bring up the image separately. (And resaved it, just in case. I made that in high school, & I have no idea where that file went over the years) I need to figure out how to repair it, but it seems my custom color settings are all erased as well, like my colors for links & stuff. I just want my background back, so I need to find out how to do it without messing anything else up... Which may be asking the impossible.