I've been meaning to write, but I found that I never made time for myself to do it. Every time I felt like doing it, I was at work & I didn't want to start trying to do this & continuously be interrupted. I suppose now is a good time to write finally. It's been another one of those living in the past kind of days, which was brought on after seeing some of the Linkin Park tribute show back in the fall just a couple of days ago, & completely breaking down after seeing them play "Numb" with a spotlight on an empty mic, adorned with a wreath. The audience, the Linkin Park Family, sang in Chester's place, & it was tough to watch. I saw a few people who were singing, but also crying, & that was also me. Jonathan Davis joined as guest vocals for another song, & that was something really special to me since Korn was one of the big 3 for me in high school. (And is the only one left now, since Wayne Static died)
It's been so long since I wrote, I never wrote about my little vacation of sorts in March, so I'll try to recall it as best as I can. On <b>March 22nd</b>, Eric & I hoofed down to Connecticut to visit Mohegan Sun for the very first time. We weren't there for any gambling though. Judas Priest was playing there that night. We were going to stay the night in the area, but after seeing a map of the Casino property & realizing that the hotel, casino, shopping areas AND arena were all connected, the idea of just walking back to our hotel room & not even setting foot outdoors won us over & we splurged & stayed the night there. The show being on a Thursday helped us out there, so the room wasn't as expensive as a weekend night, but it was still very pricey. Eric was happy for the getaway, even for just one night, as it was FINALLY a break away from home & a brief breather of something different. So we got there, got checked into our room, & headed down to wander around. I have to admit, Mohegan Sun was a LOT of fun, as it felt like a shopping mall geared towards adults, with bars & restaurants everywhere. There was even a nice bar with a huge waterfall immediately behind it that I really enjoyed. We ate at Frank Pepe's Pizzeria, which was REALLY good. I was sad we didn't eat at Ballo, where they have a flaming wheel of cheese they use to do table-side mac & cheese, but that pizza was so damn good! (Coal-fired!) We went into the venue much earlier than we would've liked, not knowing that they did re-entry until it was far too late. Judas Priest was amazing, & it was nice to finally see them on the general admission floor instead of being stuck to a seat. They played a great set, & Glenn Tipton even made an appearance towards the end of the set. Eric was so excited, he grabbed on to me because he nearly fell over. He was ecstatic. After the show, we tried to find some place to get a late bite to eat, & the only place still open with room was Bobby's Burger Palace, which is owned by Bobby Flay. It was different, ordering a burger at the counter & sitting at the counters with our number, but holy moly was it a good burger! The fries & the fry sauce were good, too!
The next day was the Boston World of Wheels show. We trekked up there, with a pit stop in Providence to see our friend Brian. It was good to see him, & he got so many cats since we last saw him! We headed up to Boston soon afterwards, & we ate lunch at a place I had seen on Phantom Gourmet called Babbo. I guess it's partly owned by Mario Betali, so I ended up hitting up another celeb chef's restaurant, but the pizza I had seen on Phantom Gourmet & on Yelp photos looked so good that I wanted to try it anyway. Eric wasn't too enthused with his pizza, especially after doing coal-fired pizza the day before, but I loved my pizza. (Wood-fired this time) We went over to the Seaport Center & hit up the show & saw a lot of nice cars there before doing Kowloon for late night dinner. When we left, we spotted a message left on Eric's car that was written on the salt: "BILL DEE SUX" & "NOR'EASTER" We knew who wrote that after running into the Helgers & Squiggy indoors.
The next noteworthy trip was my annual New York Trip, which this will be more involved so this will be a multi-paragraph story. As much as I wanted to stay with Carrie, I ended up staying with Bonnie at that same hotel again. (The bathroom there was much more appealing, as a shower was necessary & I do love the shampoos they give you there) After nearly missing the bus & literally having to run to catch it, I arrived there on Friday the 13th, & Bonnie & I wandered around Times Square briefly before heading back into Brooklyn. We hit up the Hard Rock Cafe, where I saw some cool stuff on display, & hit up a Starbucks so I could FINALLY have something to drink. My mother called as I was in Times Square of course, so she asked where I was & I told her, & she said "What?!" When we were waiting for our Lyft, I saw the Naked Cowboy across the street. I wish I saw him performing, but apparently I had just missed him. We got back, I dropped off my stuff, & we headed to a bar one street away called Lucky 13. The game plan was to drink there for a while, go get food at a BBQ place Bonnie found, & then go back since it was Friday the 13th & getting drunk there was too perfect. I found out on Instagram that Carrie was working there that night, so I got to see her when we returned from noms at Dinosaur BBQ, which was only one street away yet again! (Of course my semi-drunk ass fucked up the directions so we walked for a while before figuring out we were close anyway) We got situated at the bar & I noticed that they had the Friday the 13th movies playing on the TVs in the bar all night. I happily drank all night long while watching the movies, talking with the bartender whose name I unfortunately forgot by now, & I even was tipping Carrie as she came across the bar. (Holy shit can she spin like crazy on a pole!) Another perk of being there was that it wasn't far to walk back to the room, so that worked out very nicely. Oh, & the weather was BEAUTIFUL that day. So nice & warm, & it was the first day I had been able to walk around in just a t-shirt instead of sweatshirts, etc.
The next day Laura met up with us with her son Chris. Bonnie & I tried to make a dash to the Black Swan beforehand because their mac & cheese, but just as we arrived Laura got to Duff's, so we had to dart over to meet them. We headed over to Barboncino for pizza, & while it was warm when we arrived, by the time we left it was quite chilly. We hurried over to Prospect Park though to visit Peter's Tree though before heading back to the hotel for the others to get something warmer to wear. I was still refusing to wear a sweatshirt because I knew I'd regret it once I got to Duff's, which I got there & was proven right. It was PACKED, & it was still early, something like 9:30 or so when we arrived. We didn't get our usual seat at the bar, but I recognized the guy that did grab our seats as the guy who spotted me recording last year & was singing really loud. We finally added each other on Facebook, whcih I found out his name was Joel, & he & I were singing Type O for a while. (By this point in time, I had gotten a seat & Laura got one next to me) Lots of drinks were had, especially because a few people bought us drinks. Aaron got me a drink early on, & then we all did a shot of Jesus Juice. (Chris didn't know what to think of that haha) Some guy who had to reach between Laura & I bought us "lovely ladies" another drink. Joel got me one. There was so much alcohol had that night, & I lucked out & only had to pee once haha. Johnny Kelly was there again this year, but I didn't get a chance to get a picture with him unfortunately. I tried to get one with him & Jimmy (the owner of Duff's) but missed out, but I scored a free slice of pizza instead so it wasn't a total loss. By the end of the night, things got a little hectic, & Laura & I ended up heading back to the hotel while Bonnie & Chris stayed behind. Laura snagged the last room so she could crash there & head out in the morning.
The next morning, Laura met up with Chris back at Duff's, & Bonnie & I headed to Cent'Anni for lunch. We went back to get my things before heading back into the city, which it's a good thing I allowed myself plenty of room because we did an Uber Pool & it took a while. Well, maybe a good thing anyway, as the bus was delayed yet again. I got priority boarding for nothing & didn't get a window seat again, so snoozing on the ride back home was tricky. I gotta say, the weather went really downhill for Sunday. It was chilly when I was in Brooklyn, raining when the bus left Port Authority, & by the time we hit CT it was a snowy/wintery mix mess with slush. There were so many accidents along the way back & it took ages to get back because of how awful the roads were. Dealing with wintery conditions mid-April when I'm coming back from this thing is out of the ordinary, so it was a long ride back. Eric & I were going to go to Kowloon once I got back like we usually do, but I got back so late & the weather was so awful that we had to scratch that idea. Overall though, the trip was a wild success & I had a great time. It was good to see everyone, I liked all the drinks met some cool people, & got to eat some fantastic food.
May was slightly uneventful. Eric & I did hit up a cat show on the 5th though, & that was a LOT of fun! I got to see so many gorgeous cats, fell in love all over again with the Oriental breed (and the Siamese with the same body shape) & even got to meet a very special cat named Wiggles, who has cerebellar hyperplasia. I nearly started crying when I held him because it was so precious. His owner had to tell me how to hold him, since he couldn't support his own weight, so I had to support his bottom & lean back so he could lean against me. He seemed pretty content there, as I heard purring & he licked my arm. It was so precious. May 12th, Theresa came up & we met up with Liza & her daughter to go to the Beach Plum & go see Super Troopers 2. Oh man was that movie funny! Eric & I ended up catching it, since he wanted to see it, when he had his show in Manchester on the 19th. I heard my first rumbles of thunder on May 3rd when I was grocery shopping. Holy moly did it pour, & of course I had the rotten luck of being out grocery shopping while it was happening. I leave Market Basket, I hear thunder. I get to Shaw's, & it's a downpour while I'm in there with more thunder just as I left. The rain lightened up, I push my luck by trying to hit up Starbucks, & time it all wrong with another deluge of rain as I pull up to the drive-thru window. My left side was soaked! It was pretty hilarious though.
April 26th! Silly me, I nearly forgot about this! I finally achieved a goal I had had since 1999, when I was just a kid & my obsessions were Pokemon, Dragon Ball Z, & Monster Rancher. I FINALLY got THE Charizard card. THE holofoil. It cost me a pretty penny as they're still desirable enough because of folks like me wanting shit they had/wanted as a kid, but it was worth it. My 11/12 year old self would've been so happy. Gosh I remember kids who had that card being the top dog, & losing one was the worst thing in the world. I remember seeing flyers at school where someone lost their Charizard, as the wind blew it away, & I felt bad for whoever had lost it. I still am so happy I got it though. My old self would've been so happy. I thought about that old self recently, when Sarah & I would sit in that closet room of sorts & try to watch Dragon Ball GT episodes online on shitty dial-up internet because GT was so unknown that we thought it was cool. I started watching it on Hulu recently & thought of this, but i'll come back to that later.
Anyway, onwards to June now. It got off to a very exciting start so far. June 1st, we made the trek back down to Mohegan Sun, this time for SLAYER. Unfortunately this show fell on a Friday night so staying the night there again was absolutely out of the question, so we took advantage of the re-entry to get merch & bring it back to the car. We got there, & our first task was hitting up Frank Pepe's yet again. (We got there late & missed Testament, so we just went straight for food while Behemoth played) The pizza was good, though it didn't seem quite as good as last time. My margherita got some grated parmesan on it so it ruined it slightly & made it look funny, but it was still good. Eric overestimated how hungry he was & got a pizza that was too big, but he enjoyed it. We headed in to see Anthrax play, & they were great. During Lamb of God, we took that time to run shirts out to the car & we stopped at the bar over at Bobby's Burger Palace, where I enjoyed a couple of VERY good Tito's & cranberries. Even Eric liked it & I almost had him persuaded to order one, but no such luck. We hurried back as LoG was ending, blabbing with Steve B while we waited for them to finish. We hurried to the floor once LoG was done, & we waited, & Slayer hit the stage with an impressive display of upside down crosses, pentagrams, & eventually their logo being projected on a thin curtain acting as a sort of screen. You could still see behind it, & we could see the fire lighting up on the stage, some of which they had set up to ignite their logo & it looked really cool. Holy shit was the show LOUD! Slayer did a spectacular job & played some great songs, & Tom sounded amazing. I was sad when the hour & a half was up & they kicked into Angel of Death. After the show, we ran into Brian just outside in the casino lobby. As we're trying to talk, the crowd walking out of the show kept bursting into cheers & screams of "SLAYER! FUCKING SLAYER!!!!" I couldn't help but laugh as I thought about the casino regulars listening to us. Even the hoard of people going up the escalator onto the second floor were shouting & it was impressive. We hung around for a little while & eventually drifted back to Bobby's Burger Palace, where I ran into Ashley M & we had a few drinks & some cheese fries before we left. (I really wanted more Tito's & cranberry) It took us a while to get home, & we didn't get back until nearly 4 am because we had to stop for Eric to sleep a while.
The next day, we hit up New England Dragway for the Funny Cars Under the Stars event. We lucked out in that there was only one bout of rain, which came as HEAVY downpours along the way. Just as suddenly as it had hit though, it stopped while we were on the backroad to the track, & it was windy as hell when we got parked & got out of the car. I had hoped that the humidity was finally on its way out, but no such luck. It was pretty humid for most of the day, so I hit up that lemonade stand for hydration. I saw a lot of funny cars that I hadn't seen in a while, like the Time Bomb, Total Insanity, Super Camaro, Warpath, Agent Orange, Excalibur, & more over there, as well as others I hadn't seen before like the Iron Outlaw & a Corvette I didn't really recognize. I had a lot of fun here as well, & even Bruce made an appearance, after I hadn't heard from him since last August. We went to Applebee's late when the event was done, & then headed home.
Well, that about sums it up. It's a long entry, but I had a lot of catching up to do. I'll have to write again soon, as I got into one of my nostalgic ruts again today. I spent today listening to Linkin Park after seeing that video, & it brought me back to when I was a high school kid. I'm in the middle of re-reading the Harry Potter books again right now, & that combined with the albums I was listening to, it just brought me all back to then. Waiting for the new Harry Potter book to arrive after persuading my dad to order it, since my mother refused to buy books. Role playing in Yahoo chat rooms & steering clear of the creeps. That was actually a lot of fun, & I miss that group of friends. I wonder where they all are now? I dunno, it was just an odd coincidence, my listening to those albums just as I'm re-reading the books. (I'm just starting Half Blood Prince now) I miss those days.
Someday, I really hope to get out of this rut. I need to find a way to move forward so I can stop dwelling on the past. I'm not even in my 20's anymore, I shouldn't be sad & longing for a time that's a decade & a half ago now. I just don't know how to move forward. I know I need to get out of retail, but I'm so unconfident in myself that I don't see what I could do instead. I haven't gained any skills anywhere that could be beneficial for non-retail work, I never did go to college, & I still don't even know where I'd like to end up! I never did find out a career because I don't even know what I like to do. I like to type, but that's about it, & that's not enough to get me anywhere. I still need a degree or a year or more office experience, which you can't get because you need experience of course, & half of the jobs that are data entry are accounting & I'd need a BA or something in that. I just feel rather discouraged, so I've been stuck in this rut for years & I'm not sure how to proceed & get out of it. If I could finally do something that would make me less miserable at least, maybe I can finally look forward instead of looking back. Of course, years of retail have soured my outlook on a lot of things, too. At this point, I don't even want to work with the public anymore. I've had enough. Hell just on THursday night, the night before the Slayer show, I had two drunk customers screaming & yelling at me, calling me a "fucking moron" & everything else because they came in as I closed & refused to leave & made a big mess with their arguing. I am tired of an environment like that. I was happy when I entered in Rewards for a couple of shifts at Staples because I was behind the scenes, & I was typing, & it was fun. Again, it goes back to needing experience or even a degree in something i"m not at all interested in just to do that. If I could've done that for a living though, I would've actually been happy. My dad hasn't been helpful with trying for a state job, as the only way in for me it seems is a liquor store job. Again, it's retail of a sort. I'm not interested in that. I'm beyond fed up with retail/customer service, but for the moment i'm a bit stuck
Someday I'll figure this out. I have to. I can't keep doing this forever. It's messing with my head, & these days I loathe going in to work so much that I feel angry/depressed the night before just thinking about it. I can't even take a vacation to get a break from this job, so there is no reprieve. I'm not even doing a good job at trying to look like I'm happy at work anymore. I fit the stereotype of a sullen employee, because I've fucking had it with it all.
Anyway, that's enough rambling for me. I'll update again soon.