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May 22nd, 2009 (08:57 pm)

Note to self:  Next time you want to let selfish assholes, who have a complete lack of regard for people, back into your life because you think they've changed, do yourself a favor, and save yourself the hurt, and tell them to fuck off.  You'll thank me for this advice a couple weeks down the road when promises have been broken, and you've been lied to, and you're blamed for the whole thing because you weren't understanding, and you gave too many ultimatums. 

Funny thing is, I would have understood if I would have been given the chance to.

Note to him:  There's so much I want to say about how much of a shitty person you are, and, believe me, you more than deserve to hear it, but I digress.  You don't care enough about yourself to be the person you want to be, so you won't care at all about what I have to say. 

Just know this, I knew Monday that you would blow me off on Wednesday.  It's so true to your character that I just accepted it, even though I wanted you to show me differently.  I wasn't surprised by that at all.  What I was surprised about was that on Wednesday, after you had decided to blow me off, I saw you at Wegmans with your friends, well before you even saw me.  I was 5 feet away from you at the Redbox next to yours.  I didn't say anything to you, not because I didn't have plenty to say, but because I have class and I didnt want to publicly air how much of a tool you are to all of Wegmans.  You, on the other hand, ran away like a fucking coward.

And, in that moment, it occured to me that, that you're a sorry excuse for a human being, and that you don't have as much guts as you think you do.  At least I sucked up my issues with you and still went to rent a movie, knowing fully well that you'd be there when I got there.  You couldn't even handle being there, and that is sad.

I hope that you regret the choices you've made in regard to me for the rest of your life.  You will never get another chance from me, and I hope that it eats at you.  I deleted you, virtually, from my life, and I don't want you back in it.  Crystal may be your best friend and you may love spending time with her, but I don't see her wanting you the way that I wanted you.  You're going to be lonely for the rest of your life because she'll get married and have kids, and she may even move on from you, and if that happens, you'll be completely alone.  And when that day comes, I just want you to know that you deserve it.  You absolutely deserve it.