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Monday, July 11th, 2011
12:31 pm - Writer's Block: Going the distance
Would you uproot your life and move to another city for someone that you love?

Absolutely. I have, and I'd do it again in a heartbeat.

Home is where the heart is. My life isn't complete unless you're in it. There's no use in pretending.

(We don't care anymore)

Friday, May 21st, 2010
11:52 pm - Is it possible for the world to look this way forever?
Some people write birthdays off as just another “X” on their calendar. They make callous statements along the lines of, "It's just another day" or "I'm only a day older than yesterday."- But deep down it is blatant they care. Before social-networking sites such as Livejournal, Myspace, and Facebook, it was a big deal to receive a "Happy Birthday" from someone. It was a time where there weren't any reminders, any alert emails; but pure, unadulterated, respect for a person. I believe this is why Birthdays are so important. To me, knowing that someone cares enough to remember a day that is specific to you- that is significant for the sole reason it brought about your existence... means something to people. Just the notion that someone was thinking about you, no matter how much you would like to pretend otherwise, can mean the world.
So- with that preface- here is my unadulterated respect. My thought of you. My homage to your existence:

May 22, 1991, God (the only entity I can blame for such a beautiful girl) placed you on this earth- and 19 years ago, months before I was born, the first half of my soul came into existence. While I have had my doubts about religion, I am a firm believer in fate. I believe doors close so others can open and you shouldn’t settle for ones that are just slightly ajar. Embrace the world, embrace love, embrace you.
Had you asked me 6 months ago whether I saw us ever being this in love- I would have laughed. However, had you asked me 6 months ago what I imagined love to be like… no explanation I would have formulated could ever compare to the things we feel now. That I feel. You are the biggest part of my life and I wouldn’t want it any other way. My entire world could crash and burn and shatter into a million pieces in front of me and as long as you were standing next to me in the rubble nothing significant would have been lost. I know I risk sounding like a cheesy hallmark card or a bad movie in saying these things, but it’s the only way I can describe the gravity of what I feel.
You are by far the most Amazing (with a capital A) woman I have ever met. The normal things aside- your beauty, your intelligence, your compassion- it’s the unique factors that I discover every day that make me fall more and more in love with you. I love the faces you make when you’re trying to be obnoxious. I love the voices you make when you talk in character. I love that you care enough about what people think to be upset when they dislike you, but not enough to change who you are for them. I love how you’re honest (even about the gross things you do), I love when you’re goofy beyond belief. I love that you risked our lives by driving with your knees JUST so you could Air Guitar to Bohemian Rhapsody. The list could go on and on, but I’ll spare you. Like I said- this doesn’t even cover the normal things.
I love the way your eyes light up, how the corner of your lips curl up when you smile big, how beautiful your teeth are (even when I accidentally knock them out), how your nose scrunches when you think, how your body fits against mine, how you rub your face in the crook of my neck, the way your hair smells, how you can put no effort into your appearance and still be the most beautiful thing I’ve ever viewed.
Your existence is going to better the world. You are going to find your calling and you’re going to live a successful happy life, with a career you love. You deserve that much. You are going to (directly or indirectly) make a difference in so many people’s lives. You already have. You’ve changed my life drastically. You have brought sunshine in to all of your friends’ lives and you can guarantee they recognize that and how amazing of a person you are. Even if sometimes they don’t show it. Your parents love you and all the things the put you through are their way of caring- even if it’s a pain in the ass 95% of the time. You’re amazing and it’s impossible not to love you. Remember that forever.

To make a long story less long- you are the best girlfriend/best friend I could have ever imagined. I’m glad you were born, because without you so many people’s lives would be dull- and at sometimes- meaningless. I know mine would be.

I love you, and I look forward spending this and the next 80 birthdays reaffirming that.

(We don't care anymore)

Monday, November 30th, 2009
5:28 pm - Friends only... for the most part.
Comment to be added and all that shit.

(6 Say they've lost everything |We don't care anymore)

Thursday, June 25th, 2009
3:25 am - with a new computer comes new graphics
I was a little stingy on the icons, but I'm sure you'll forgive me.

1 Jessicka Wallpaper
2 Jack off Jill Wallpapers
1 Scarling Wallpaper

4 Jessicka icons

(Covet, Love it.)


(We don't care anymore)

Wednesday, May 20th, 2009
6:48 am - My "thank you" card for Summers.
The front says "God Bless you. EAch and every kindness is a beautiful reminder of God's great love.

then I wrote a note inside that reads

Mrs. Summers,

I felt as if this card was extremely appropriate. For I and Jesus alike, want to thank you for your hard work and dedication throughout the years. And you know, for not writing me up when I hit you with that shoe in 9th grade. Know that I truly enjoyed working on the paper, organizing things for SADD, and even messing up your copies. :)

You have been a wonderful mentor, and friend. So, I suppose it's okay you toally love Alanna Delfino more than me. Just kidding. Sort of.

For real though, I hope you have a wonderful summer, and a great additional two years in P-Tap. Don't let the asbestos and Radon get to you.

Then the left of the card says "He who refreshes others will himself be refreshed. rpvervs 11:25 NIV"

and the right says "Thank you and bless you for being so nice"

PS I was not facetious at all. It's sometimes hard to judge)

I feel as if its all appropriate.
I'm probably going to miss her a lot.

(We don't care anymore)

Tuesday, April 28th, 2009
6:17 am - Writer's Block: Wild Life
How long could you survive on your own in the wild?

Surviving wouldn't be hard.
I could make shelter and find/prepare food fairly easy... drinking water may be a challenge, but I'm pretty proficient in fire building, so boiling unsanitary water would probably be my method (unless I was stranded in the wild with chlorine tablets? you never know)

I think when I died, it would either be by suicide, because I get lonely and sad easily, or by some sort of very large animal eating me.

If I had a gun, this wouldnt be an issue.

If it were an island like on Cast Away... I could totally be Tom Hanks.
But as soon as I saw fucking Helen Hunt married my dentist? I'd kill myself.
Fuck that shit. I didn't survive on an island for years just to come home to my woman putting out to someone who gets paid to floss peoples teeth.

(We don't care anymore)

Monday, April 27th, 2009
6:54 am - Writer's Block: Musical Affliction
Have you had an earworm lately? Exorcise it by inflicting it on your friendslist. Post the lyrics or - even better - a video.

theres no real video.
this is lame.
but the song has been in my head for a week.

"The candles have blown out, baby, at the party in your head
you're making me so nervous from all the things you've said
you can close your eyes, honey, let the moments melt away
Jesus loves your mouth, sugar, just not the things you say"

(We don't care anymore)

Monday, March 30th, 2009
10:08 pm - Writer's Block: Prison Time
If you were sent to prison for an undefined amount of time, what would you miss most?

free porn

(We don't care anymore)

Thursday, March 19th, 2009
6:39 am - Writer's Block: Change for the Better over a Decade
How are you a better person today than you were ten years ago?

I guess I'm better now because I have lost all of my baby teeth.
No other reasons.

(We don't care anymore)

Sunday, March 1st, 2009
11:34 am - Writer's Block: If Animals Could Talk
If you could ask your pet any question (and they could answer you), what would it be?

Whyyyy did you have to eat my fucking Fig Newtons, Jordin?
Fuck you.

(We don't care anymore)

Tuesday, February 24th, 2009
6:40 am - Writer's Block: Daily Grind
Describe your morning routine.

My alarm goes off at 5:30
I go back to sleep.
My alarm goes off at 6:00
I go back to sleep
My alarm goes off at 6:25
I get up

(6 Say they've lost everything |We don't care anymore)

Wednesday, February 18th, 2009
6:07 am - Writer's Block: Animal Instinct
What creature would you choose as your spirit animal?

a leopluradon.

(We don't care anymore)

Thursday, February 12th, 2009
7:23 am - Writer's Block: Dream Job
If you could have any job in the world, what would it be?

I would be an ice cream man :)

(We don't care anymore)

Friday, February 6th, 2009
5:05 pm - Writer's Block: Seven
Which of the seven deadly sins—sloth, greed, lust, gluttony, anger, envy, and pride—are you most likely to commit?


Sloth, lust, gluttony, anger, envy and pride.

But if I had to pick ONE
it's Gluttony because I'm a fat ass.

(We don't care anymore)

Saturday, November 29th, 2008
9:51 am - Writer's Block: Little Women
Fans of Little Women often divide along Jo/Amy lines. Jo was independent and smart, but Amy always seemed to get what she wanted and have more fun. Are you in the Jo camp or the Amy camp?

Jo, even though she fucking DIES.

(5 Say they've lost everything |We don't care anymore)

Sunday, October 19th, 2008
10:05 pm - Writer's Block: Forbidden Reading
From Judy Blume to V.C. Andrews, there's always a book circulating among teens that their parents don't want them to read. What favorite book did you have to hide from your parents?

My pent house.

(We don't care anymore)

Thursday, July 24th, 2008
12:45 am - letter from amanda =)
Hello love. How is everything going? I'm sorry it took me so long to write you back but we really dont get a lot of personal time, lol it's week five and we are still in freaking red phase. sigh. whatever. But it's sunday and i don't feel like cleaning so I'm hiding in the laundry room writing letters. This is my day to catch up. You should send me a picture of us, if you can find one... how was camp? You excited for school this year? Senior year is a big one. Do you think you could let me know about my myspace? like print out my comments or soemthing? You should put my address on there too llol I'm such a pain in the ass I know. But anyways, you know LTC sent me chocolate like they would really let me eat it... then he sent me cameras. They took those too. But he sent me pictures and oh my god his grandson is just too cute. If you see vallar tell him I hope he is okay. and make sure LTC is keeping a proffesional relationship with my grandma.. she has hairy knees, lmao, has he started with your hairy knees yet? Lol. and yes I'm just a squad leader but my drill sft wants to switch to a female PFC platoon guide soon and he looks at me every time he says it... I don't know if I want to be in charge though... I do but I dont you know? of course you know. Were you in charge at camp? Are you nervous about the inspection? I will be back in time to help you if you need it... well you don't need it, if you want it it's yours though. Oh my god, I miss you so much. I don't have anyone to talk to about dirty perverted things lol. No one understands the oral B toothbrush thing. Lol. Ok well Ive still gotta write LTC and CSM, so I'll wirte you as soon as I get a change. I love and miss you

Love always,

Guys this was the best birthday present ever.

(We don't care anymore)

Wednesday, June 4th, 2008
11:13 pm
To this day, Henry Wadsworth Longfellow is considered one of the most renowned Romantic writers. Struck with numerous tragedies including the death of two wives, Henry Wadsworth Longfellow escaped through literature that reflected his life and religion.(cite LB) One of his most famous pieces is entitled “The Tide Rises, The Tide Falls”. This three stanza poem focuses on death as well as closure and exemplifies the themes of Gothicism and Romantic Escapism. In the first stanza it states “The twilight darkens, the curlew calls”. In almost all Romantic literature darkness refers to death and is no exception in this piece. A curlew is a shorebird, and in this particular instance symbolizes death calling for someone to take them away. Furthermore, in the second stanza it states “darkness calls” which further proves death is summonsing the subject.
Later in the poem it says “The little waves, with their soft, white hands, Efface the footprints in the sands, and the tide rides, the tide falls”. This particular statement illustrates both the erasing of a persons life and how nature is infinite. Saying the waves were soft and white represents innocence and purity cleansing the sins of the person who has passed. The waves erasing the footprints not only signifies life being erased but shows how even though many people “walk the beaches” of life nature is eternal and will always outlive them.
Although carrying depressing themes of death and forgetfulness, the poem “The Tide Rises, the Tide Falls” also carries themes of hope and closure. In the last stanza Longfellow writes:
“The morning breaks; the steeds in their stalls
Stamp and neigh as the hostler calls;
The day returns, but nevermore
Returns the traveler to the shore,
And the tide rises, the tide falls”

Life still goes on as seen in the phrase “the morning breaks; the steeds in their stalls”. The traveler has moved on from his loss, and has gained closure. This is made evident through the whole poem; the darkness takes over, forgiveness is granted, memories are erased, and life goes on. The traveler realizes all of these things and doesn’t return to the shore because he has made peace with the loss. It could be said that this poem is in reference to the death of Longfellow’s first wife. Shortly after she died Longfellow wrote “A Psalm of Life” which had a very negative tone. The whole poem was about how life is meaningless because after death is when your real life begins. “The Tide Rises, the Tide Falls” takes a happier tone, suggesting that he’s more content with his fate, and has come to terms with the fact he will eventually die. If you look at the poem in terms of this, it will become blatant that figuratively he is the traveler on the beach, and his wife is who darkness has settled on.

(We don't care anymore)

Sunday, May 18th, 2008
11:45 pm - Prom
here are pictures, because Kaite is a bitch and wants to see them.

I look bad.

by the way, I broke up with Trey. Via text message. So you know, I'm an asshole or something.

If you're dreaming are you dreaming of me...Collapse )

(2 Say they've lost everything |We don't care anymore)

9:59 am - Prom
So I went to prom... I looked a hot mess.
My hair was too curly, my dress was too small..and my boyfriend displeases me.

Actually, he'll only be my boyfriend for a few more hours.

he wouldn't dance with me. At all. i tried to make him dance, and he wouldnt. I was like "I've never done this before, but I think this is what you're supposed to do," and I like turned around and went to put his hand on my waist and he's like "I dont dance like that" and dropped his arm and CONTINUED to stand there and do nothing. then I tried dancing like a dork, and he tapped his foot a bit. It was awful.

Then Amanda and her date Tyler came over and started dancing by the tiles on the floor in which we occupied and I was ready to die. ONE because Amanda was like "aww katie you look beautiful" TWO she was all "COME ON YOU TWO DANCE" but he STILL wouldnt and THREE she does the most adorable thing with her lips when she dances and it made me want to touch her.

Oh, and before we left my mom had to tell Trey to make sure he told me I looked pretty every chance he got. Thats embarrassing on so many levels. First off, my mom should not have had to tell him. Second, its really bad when your MOTHER has to tell your boyfriend to make a positive comment about the way you look, because she knows he wont. She should have kept her mouth shut.

I texted my mom and told her to mind her own business, because she cant do things like that... and my dad said she cried a lot. i feel bad. She thought she ruined my night.. my night was ruined a month ago when I decided I really dont like him anymore.

I texted brittany parks (amanda's sort of best friend) and told her that I think i like Amanda a little more than I thought, and asked her to talk me up. But it wont do any good.
I'm ugly and fat, and she can do better...so she will.
The only thing I really have to offer her is hospitality, and niceness. But shes not looking for that. She's looking for a hot fling. I'm not the person people go to for that. I'm for when they're ready to settle down.

(We don't care anymore)

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