I AM SO FUCKING PISSED! I AM QUITING THE OLIVEGARDEN. NEXT WEEK THEY HAVE ME WORKING T/W/FALL DAY SATURDAY AND ALL DAY SUNDAY! I NEVER FUCKING WORK FRIDAY NIGHTS OR ALL DAY SAT. AND THE MONEY ISNT EVEN GREAT I STILL ONLY MAKE LIKE 100.00 A WEEK. SO FUCK IT! I HAVE NO TIME FOR A SOCIAL LIFE AS IT IS!
Christmas was good. ill tell you everything i remember
-265$ from family. -Jewelry Box.. -DIGITAL CAMERA! -NEXTEL. its about fucking time i got a cell phone again! -A really pretty ring -A Sweater -A Shirt from andrews sister -40$ from andrews mom [she signed the card: Love, Nancy]..they love me. -THE PRETTIEST RING I HAVE EVER SEEN; from andrew :) -Candle -Bath Stuff -TOO MUCH MAKEUP -20$ to target..? -Hair shit. -The Sims Deluxe Pack -Some Facial Stuff From Mom -Life; my favorite board game.
doesnt sound like much; but it doesnt matter. its not what christmas is about :)
Family came over at about 1230. Ate. Hung Around Went to the movie at about 530 with Andrew; saw Darkness..it sucked!! Opened my presents from andrew. Went home to my moms. christmas was good this year. <3333
Guidelines 1. Write something about 12 different people. 2. Don't say who they are. 3. If someone asks you which one is about them, don't tell.
1] We used to be bestfriends. Couldn't be seperated and now, we barely ever hangout. i miss you :( 2]I've known you since i was about 9. You Have always been a good friend to me, even though we've had our rough times but, who doesnt. I love you, and wish you the best of luck in life. 3]You are everything to me. I couldn't imagine my life without you in it. I know i can be the biggest bitch & im sorry. I don't mean to do things to hurt you. I LOVE YOU WITH ALL OF MY HEART and i always will 4]We've been through alot in the last year. You were my bestfriend last year. I miss you. I miss having someone I can call crying my eyes out because I'm having problems. I'm sorry I fucked with your feelings last year. I Love You. 5]I never thought we would end up not talking.. I miss you very much. & I'm sorry for everything. I hope one day we can become friends again. 6]We were becoming pretty close. What happened? I still love you though, And im always here for you, remember that. 7]I think your awesome, and im glad we are friends again. I hope you find that special someone, because you deserve to be happy. 8]I hate you. You are a fucking nasty bitch. You need to start wearing clothes that actually fit you. & get a tan! oh yeah! FIX YOUR FUCKING TEETH! 9]You are the first person to break my heart. I hate you. 10] I think your the coolest cool person ever :) I really hope you come see me soon. I havent seen you in so long. 11] I hope I meet you soon. I enjoy talking to you. & I'm glad I know i can talk to you if i need you. 10 hours on the god damn phone!(she must be special) 12]We used to hate each other. Why? i cant even remember. We are too much alike i guess. i love you though.
this weekend wasnt great. but; today was better. me and andrew are starting alll over again... i cant help it. i love him so much. saturday sucked without him. i cried all day! from 2pm-4am on sunday. it sucked. i have never been so depressed in my life. i went crazy.. i love him. he is my life. i am nothing without him. & i dont care what anyone thinks; because he is what gets me through every day, regardless if we are at each others throats or not. Ill write more about this later this evening...
wow. this month really isnt my month. to start off me and andrew are on a break for a while. i dont know whats wrong with me lately. im constantly thinking i am over it. i cant do this anymore blah blah..and then when i see him, i get this huge smile & it wont go away!what the fuck is that? or sometimes, when i am around him i am a bitch, and when he tries to touch me i get all weird(not all the time, but..)i told my dads girlfriend and she said it could be one of two things..either, i dont like him anymore ORwe just need some time apart. i think its that one. cause i know, i still love him; obviously, but i dont know. its really weird. last night we kinda got into and i told him i never wanted to talk to him again, and that i was serious,and he called like 2x's last night and i was so proud of myself, i answered and said i couldnt talk and hung up. it took alot to do that! i know it doesnt sound like much, but its a big step for me. well i guess he didnt get it cause today he was waiting for me before school by my class..i ended up talking to him for a few minutes. he kept telling me to kiss him and everything. its like i wanted to, but i cant always think that im always gonna be there! i have to somehow get it across to him that one day, im just gonna be gone. and that he needs to start taking my feelings more seriously. today wasnt too bad, only went to school for about 3 hrs. just to take my 1&2pd finals. then tomorrow i dont have to be at school till 11, so i can take my 3&4th period finals. im so excited this semester is almost over:)