and, as always, it's bittersweet.
I'm happy for Jie -
yet it's one more of those standards
I can only hope to match up to.
The tragedy of my life.
I want Be Thou My Vision to be played at my funeral.
It's The Hymn for me -
the one that I can practically memorise
(Mom says she sang it to Jie and me when she was pregnant),
that brings me near/to tears every time we sing it in church.
It's just lovely -
there's no other word for it.
Such a poignant reminder of how we ought to live,
and the beauty of GOD's love.
Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.
Be Thou my Wisdom, Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee, Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.
Be Thou my battle shield, sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s shelter, Thou my high tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward, O power of my power.
Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my treasure Thou art.
High King of Heaven, after victory won,
May I reach heaven’s joys, O bright heaven’s sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all.
I think religion is a great comfort.
The thought that I don't just terminate when I die,
that GOD is the 'strength of my heart, and my portion forever',
that He is in control and I am part of his Plan,
no matter the circumstances.
That GOD is the Alpha and the Omega,
the beginning and the end
(you know, I only recently grasped
the enormity of that oft-quoted statement:
that He has been since the start of Time,
and will be there when all else has faded),
but even in all His omnipotence and power cares for each puny human being.
Isn't that a humbling thought?
I've just finished Galileo,
which brings the list of Jdramas I've watched
to a respectable 11
(which Nobuta remains at the top of).
Next on the list: Code Blue,
then possibly Ryusei no Kizuna and the rest of Liar Game
(haha, just realised that all three have Toda Erika)
Then - if I'm feeling up to it, since it's apparently pretty draining -
Sora Kara Furu Ichioku no Hoshi.
So much to do and so little time. xD