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(no subject) [Oct. 26th, 2010|01:28 pm]

To tell you the truth i'm just a girl living in a suburb of completely ignorant and closeminded beasts who destroy all forms of nature, be-little intelligent thought and follow eachother as if they were tied one neck to the other in a heard about to walk off of a cliff.
I have always been an observer, and someone who questioned why things are the way they are. I remember one of the first times i did this was in elementary school. I was practicing my spelling and my dad told me i couldnt write the way i was writing because thats not the way that people normally write (i mean in, my font was different then the regular font) and i just didnt get it... why couldnt i write it THIS WAY if this is the way that i perceive writing.. 

I've always been like that...
When I was handed my first film camera i treated it as if it were a tool that was just introduced into society. Like it had never seen a camera before, and i had no idea how to use it. i disregarded all forms of photo technicality and never thought about what was right or wrong in art. I'm someone whos always believed that the only true form of art is complete self expression of the soul. If there is rules on how to create then how can someone express their soul in an accurate way without having to bend ones own form of creativity to fit the technical aspects of creativity? So i never woried about what teachers would tell me or what photo books would teach me.. i just thought of it as so mundane to just follow what has already been done a thousand times...

I am in no way shape or form someone with an ego - or someone who precieves themselves as anything above anyone. The comments and emails and letters i recieve from fans make me smile ear to ear and gives me a little happiness, but i cannot stress more that if i didnt recieve comments or letters or any of that, that i would still be doing just what i am doing right now.. still. I get hundreds of emails asking about magazines or projects like (nylon mag or something) and i'm just not interested in contributing... The reason why is mainly because i don't REALLY see the point. I'm not looking to be famous, im not looking to be the next tim walker or want to me americas next top fashion photographer... no... i live and breath and walk this earth to worship nature. To absoltely WORSHIP the power inside of nature. To expand my mind to be able to see the supernatural inside of nature. To understand and question life.. To seek beauty in nothing and feel whole inside of myself without needing anything. I take these photos to express how much magick can form inside of nature right before your own eyes... you just have to look hard enough.

I live on Long Island .. can you get anymore mundane then that? I'm looking to move to washington state next year... I truly enjoy the simple things in life. my favorite thing to do is to smoke a joint in the woods and allow the woods to infuse inside of me. I like driving long distances in cars because of the way music sounds when its encapsulated inside of a mobile. I love the smell of old books, and stare at photographs from the past for way too long. I have a friend or two but i spend 90% of my time alone, looking out my window or watching movies. I am so human its scary.
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(no subject) [Oct. 19th, 2010|12:55 pm]

Just a quick update for yo that are interested!
The books name is Challenges of Change, author is Stanley Fulham...
I found this incredible interview with him that just happened three days ago where he is asked about what happened on Oct 13 and more in detail what else is happening...
this interview answered SOOO many questions for me.. if you're interested please listen it's simply amazing.

Its hard trying to convince people so im not in the game to do that ... but i knew some of you girls would understand.

I'm having a kind of difficult time not telling everyone i know but i realize now that if we make it, there will be no convincing to be done.. it will just happen.

Although, i think its very important for as many people as possible in the world to understand what is happening so that they accept it !

the interview::
It starts at 3min -- he describes his background in this one.

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this is embarrassing [Oct. 16th, 2010|12:35 pm]

5th dimension & UFO appearances on Oct 13 2010 from ▼▲ on Vimeo.

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Too much film over log 1- Camping + Birthday [Sep. 16th, 2010|12:42 pm]

we were in the woods. it stormed all weekend.

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(no subject) [Aug. 19th, 2010|01:20 pm]


life, has been so generous to me lately. Not only do I have six rolls of film from the last three days of non-stop amazing photo shoots with mika katee and emily.. but also, have two rolls of film coming back from portland developed and ready for me to view. First off, I met Mika ( http://jevousenprie.livejournal.com/ ) this week, and we've been hanging out everyday non-stop.
I think we're kind of inlove with each other...hehe. I dont know .. it's always been so difficult for me to find any girls that are like minded, and genuine... but this girl is amazing, and we can relate so well to each other.Shes such an amazing artist, model and creature.. i am just fascinated by her. Mika and I did three photoshoots this week, and two of them we collaborated with our friend Katee, who is this incredible and surreal clothing/costume designer. you gotta check out her work HERE.. it's amazing I have never worked with clothing of this quality, or brilliance, so it was a totally new experience .... I simply cannot wait to see how the photos came out.. it's something totally new to me so i feel like these photos are going to be like a new step into a sister dimension.

anyway, this morning mika and i went to an estate sale that was more like a gigantic vintage wearhouse of old costumes and oddities... things were kinda pricy since it was the first day (im going to go on saturday too cause i think they will lower all of the prices on the costumes and such) but i found some amazing treasures that i will have my whole life... including that mask in the first photo. It's hand made out of real owl feathers!!! I also got those pink feathers, that black velvet huge bowtie,
elf ears, a witch nose, a huge sparkly white wooden moon for photos, old clown face paint and glittery tights... i could have bought everything.. these are truly the only kinds of things i spend my money on.. they're just too unique and awesome to pass up.

I guess it's just been really great hanging out with like-minded ladies,
and creating with them.
i'm feeling happier and happier each day.
i love you all.

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all the things you've ever known [Aug. 15th, 2010|04:22 pm]


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An Interview for a small magazine [Aug. 9th, 2010|10:29 pm]


1.       First of all, the most standard question in the book: How did you get into photography?
i guess it all started when i was a young girl .. completely obsessed with all details and textures... But It was only until i received my first 35mm camera when i was 15, that i found a way to capture the beauty i felt and saw around me. So i kind of became obsessed with photography -- it was an outlet... a way to describe the life i saw, and the never ending beauty nature can create. I started doing some experiments with photography in the darkroom ... it came to me really naturally..like, i never felt like i had to learn technical aspects of photography, or follow a rule book or anything like that. So i really started understanding the camera as more of a paintbrush, rather then a technical documentation tool. My camera has been my third hand since then.

2.      Tell us a little about where you live.
Well... I live in a suburb.. it's pretty lame, but i've found some secret spots over the years that i crawl away into a lot.. and that makes things better. It's a place I call home, but not a place i will always call home. i live a lot through my dreams... much more then in my waking life. There - it usually has an incredibly dense, blue fog hovering at the stumps of tall redwood trees... where i'm digging through old attics, being chased by witches and hiding in hidden compartments... i like it better there.

3.      Did you study, or are you studying, photography? If not, how did you learn?
I took a few classes in high school where i kind of just taught myself through trial and error over time. I have also taken a couple of classes in college, but thats always funny for me... cause the professors try and tell me how to do something and i just kind of laugh... not intentionally at them or anything.. it's just that, these professors always try and teach me photography like there is a right and wrong way of doing it... where i truly believe there is no "right" way of doing any kind of art. I usually laugh because although they are giving me advice, it will never change how i am doing things, or what i am photographing.. because it's just the way i do it.

4.      What camera do you use primarily?
I was using a old dead stock russian lc-a for a while, but every-time i bought a new one, it would drop into the ocean, or disappear into the dirt.. so recently my friend lent me her camera.. it's some kind of minolta slr with a macro lens on it. I tend to use any camera thats available at the time.

5.      If you could go anywhere in the world to take photographs, where would you go?
Iceland and Himalayas.... but, anywhere will really do.

6.      Do you always have preconceived concepts of what you want to shoot?
I usually just have a setting in mind, but hardly ever have a dead set concept on what i'm going to shoot. Mostly all of my photos are my best friend and I exploring with a bag of costumes on our backs and a camera around my neck. Really, all I'm ever trying to do in a photograph is to capture that ultimate, ebbing beauty nature holds... I just wait for the right moment when you can see it glow, and take the photo.

7.      If you could be anyone for a day, who would you be?
My cat raja ... it always seems so lovely napping all day in the sun.

9.      Describe your average day.
I wake up during a time when the sun is already golden before sunset ... go into my garden, collect cherry tomatoes and pop em' into my mouth even before they leave the vine, wait for twilight hour, take a walk and collect natural specimens, work on my etsy shop a little bit, read, drink some tea, look through old family photos, ignore modern civilization as they watch their late night televisions and watch my dark night sky on the grass in my backyard... and then, after that.. it's fare game.. but i usually make it to sleep around 4 or 5am, and start over.

10.  What is your favorite book and why?
I really enjoy old fables and folklore. My favorites include Aesops fables and a book called "The Heart of The Ancient Wood" .. I enjoy them most because they are life lessons, wonder and old-wordly tales all in one... they remind me of bed time stories that make you dream of big castles and long golden hair. But i think also, i enjoy them mostly because these tales are a lost piece of our past, that has seemed to have stopped being recycled to our children of modern times.. and are no longer being created by great wise thinkers.. but only being read by the ones who love the past just as much as i do.

11.   What would you say is the most important quality in an artist?
Being 100% genuine to oneself. Only creating because you need to create, not because you want to be an artist.

12.  What do you do when you have a creative block?
I mostly wait until i feel something again.. But rarely create, or try and induce creating if not inspired.

13.  Describe your most vivid dream.
The last dream that really sticks out in my mind was one i had a couple of months ago. I only remember one very strong visual... walking in deep forest, coming across a group of nude humans circling a hole in the ground... going up to the hole and seeing it slowly draining a murky muddy water.. and as the water drains i see bits of hands, arms and fingertips that are pushed into the inside of this hole... as the water drains more, it becomes apparent that these limbs are attached to many bodies .. they are living but slightly disformed. I hear squealing and see everything wiggling.. and they start freeing themselves from this mud. I turned to grab my camera in my bag and when i looked back up the hole was completely drained, with only long golden vines hanging from the sides now. The people surrounding the hole were gone and only a single fingernail was still attached to a piece of the hole wall..
That was a good one.

14.  What is your most treasured possession?
i have a package of my most beloved original photo prints that stays by my door at all times incase of a disaster .. so i can grab it and save it from the flames before it is destroyed.. this is my only true possession..

15.   What’s the weirdest thing that’s happened to you while taking photos?
While shooting photos for the musician TwinSisterMoon I was mistaken as an actual ghost in a psych-ward by three young boys. It was actually quite refreshing to be thought as a spirit rather then a human for a few moments...

16.  What are your future professional plans? Do you plan to pursue photography?
My goal is to move out to the pacific north west, buy a small home in the woods, and start a large garden.. I don't have much profesional plans, as i can never see myself as a professional. But, photography will always be my main passion, and will be consistently worked on.

17.   What advice do you have for your fellow up-and-coming photographers?
Be true to yourself. Don't listen to anyone who tells you that you need to know the rules before you take a photo.

18.  Any last words?
thank you.
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4.14 am [Aug. 1st, 2010|04:13 am]
continuously restless.
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Giovanni Segantini [Jul. 19th, 2010|07:23 pm]


ohh, how i'd love to live in one of his paintings.

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