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Drew Santos
20 November 2008 @ 03:44 am

"Things have changed for me and that's okay --"
Panic! At the Disco

It's queer and I don't say if I'd like it that way  but my friends never wonder where I am. They wonder where each other are and text with all that hackneyed fervor - quite cute really. It's fun being a spectator, seriously. Though, I miss the action and most specially the weed.

Some of my classmates are also cute with their mundane bouts on the joys of talking about boys and the latest trends on candy magazine ;D The frugality of youth. LOL

I think, I've changed. No longer impatient, no longer patent, and no longer easy to talk to or amused. Well, I was never really easy to talk to. Have you ever heard me discuss anything? Grabe, pare --- sabog e. *sarcasm*

I'm tired of being insecure. Whatever goes, whatever goes. :)

Drew Santos
24 September 2008 @ 10:56 am
1..The song you've been most singing to yourself recently?
- LDN - Lily Allen

2. What do you currently want right now?
- no classes tomorrow

3. What did you do today?
- eat dinner with Kat at Pho Hoa

4. Are you hungry?
- nope, I feel fat

5. What have you been thinking about most today?
- dirty dirty thoughts ;D

6. Do you ever just sit outside and watch the stars?
-  there are no stars in Manila

7. What is your current annoyance?
- a lot of things

8. Do you want a new cell phone?
- nope.

9. Are you waiting for someone right now?
- nope.

10. Name two things you're looking forward to for next month?
- new books and new month?

11. Can you make new friends easily?
- guess so... well, not really

13. Do you plan out what you wear the day before you wear it?
-  nope. I'm spontaneous :D

14. What is life to you?
- a big bag of m&ms to be sorted out by color and the brown ones to be expelled from the face of the earth :3

15. Have you ever fallen for your best friend?

16. If you had a chance to save someone significant to you, would you?
- kaya nga significant e...duh

17. How many times do you eat each day?
- twice na

18. How do you feel right now?
-  Bored

19. Are you a morning person?
- nope. the sun blinds me

21. Think of one person, stick with it. You don't have to say their name. Would you pick them up alone 100 plus miles away if it was your birthday?
- yeah. joy ride!

22. If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
- no

23. Give two reasons why you get distracted while studying.
- I hate the word study. I never do. :))

24. Do you think it's funny when people get hurt?
- Sadly, no.

25. Would you rather go to Tokyo or Paris?
- I want to go to Siquijor

Drew Santos
17 September 2008 @ 10:26 am
kanina nalate ako sa klase kase iniisip ko kung tungkol saan yung poem ko. kanina nagkalat ako kase impromptu nanaman yung ginawa ko. i feel really bad, though because i never study or do anything planned. ayan... ineffective :)
resolution: KAILANGAN MAGING PREPARED... as in sana binasa ko muna yung poem ko ng mabuti XD

hmmm divi shopping. guess who we saw? sarabells! XD

tsss... i need new shoes... :) i want those really cool ones from hk XD WAHAHAHA *gastosera*

random blog entry.

Drew Santos
12 September 2008 @ 02:53 pm
distance makes the heart grow fonder
as like absence would be an efficient word
as to every poem that makes no sense
when it bleeds with the absence of a character

distance stabs the thought of reality
of thoughts fulfilled by slight chance

                                                                   >>> there is a space between our fingers,
                                                                           a space way too much

eventually time will pass and you will forget,
as others have forgotten.
change is the disciple of time
as fire of an elapsed furnace

but somehow, at this very moment,
i take you in my arms longingly
selfishly eating every part of you
finishing your life with one resonating thought

an idea of ones phantasm
so delicate like alabaster
of this thought, perfection
so enticingly sweet

like honey and tears combined
so sweet like the thought of you
in awkward hours i cannot mouth
all intelligence is lost of one thing i cannot prove

this virginal barbaric feeling
this tetragrammaton
this notion that pleads:
take me in, fold me up, remember


The sun bore no contact to the city’s edifice as this temporal muck subdues the entirety of this country. A typhoon is slowly creeping itself in the city and here you are discussing who scored highest in this week’s game; disillusioned that you lost a weeks allowance on betting to that. Veering away to another thought, you question existence by mere chance due to depression, applied.
“What is our purpose?”
Appalled I cognitively answer, “To feed and breathe life into indifference.”
“But if our purpose does not meet this hunger?”
“Then we are food for such calamities like this typhoon.”
Slowly, reassuringly you stand up, out of your seat to grab a bucket and a mop. There’s a long night ahead… a very long night ahead.

Drew Santos
21 August 2008 @ 11:51 pm

The Wild Rose

Random Brutal Love Dreamer (RBLD)

The Wild Rose

shmolorful, but unpicked. You are The Wild Rose.

Prone to bouts of cynicism, sarcasm, and thorns, you excite a certain kind of man. Hoping to gather you up, he flirts and winks and asks you out, ultimately professing his love. Then you make him bleed. Why? Because you're the rare, independent, self-sufficient kind of woman who does want love, but not from a weakling.

You don't seem to take yourself too seriously, and that's refreshing. You aren't uptight; you don't over-plan. Romance-wise, sex isn't a top priority--a true relationship would be preferable. For your age, you haven't had a lot of bonafide love experience, though, and this kind of gets to core of the issue. You're very selective.

The problem is them, not you, right? You have lofty standards that few measure up to. You're out there all right, but not to be picked up by just anyone.

Your exact female opposite:

The Dirty Little Secret

The Dirty Little Secret

Deliberate Gentle Sex Master

Always avoid: The Bachelor (DGSM)

Consider: The Vapor Trail (RBLM)

Link: The Online Dating Persona Test | OkCupid - singles | Dating
My profile name: : blaaah88
Drew Santos
14 August 2008 @ 01:43 pm
my failed attempt at realism... in 45 minutes or more. tsk. as always, done in photoshop.


can't draw anime. i tried... lol XD errr yeah.

Nothing much to say today. Just that the Ellaine and moi created a story out of thin air while we were stranded in Jaribi due to the flood. ;D As usual it's pervy-licious... :3

Drew Santos
13 August 2008 @ 03:18 am
pucha! tubig ata ang pinaka ayaw kong inumin. nakakalunod. nasa baso na nga nalulunod ka pa.

after listening to m'music, past those many months of not listening to any --- feels good, brah. feels like you're being consumed by some cosmic force from the heavens. w00t!

kanina yung test sa political dynamics. ayos! pucha linis ng papel ko ;D alam ko na marami sa inyo ang mangiyak-iyak ngayon dahil dun... pero may naobserbahan ako... yung mga babaeng ka-test... parang lahat naka make-up. la lang ;D it was a keen observation and i congratulate myself for it... yes, amidst the state of utter political dying :) *dances*

i read some of my journals way back when... i never knew i was *that* emo. and fuck it's almost 5 am wahahaha~ gnite :)
Current Music: creep - stone temple pilots
Drew Santos
11 August 2008 @ 11:10 am
the freshman - the verve pipe

Cinnamon mints are the only things I buy from Starbucks. I mean they get me off from chain smoking *shrug*

Besides, I don't need cigarettes anymore. I have to buy a shit load of things that'll only be hindered by spending for cigarettes. For example, I want a really cool kaleidoscope! I mean I can buy that now if it weren't for these damn expensive Russian cigarettes. LOL Oh well... maybe if I get myself addicted to guitars again... hmmm but those are more expensive than D: lol

Oh well... I got nothin' more to say. I have to finish this pack so I can fully quit. The End.
Current Mood: calmcalm
Drew Santos
11 August 2008 @ 02:14 am
I remember that time when I tried to suffocate myself with a pillow. It was when my mother said, "You cold, unfeeling wretched child. You killed this child in my womb. I bet you wished my child were dead all along. You're so selfish...See? You're not even crying.. you treat everyone like animals." Those words stung so bad, brah... lol, it still stings now. Look at how mothers can easily call their children monsters. I'm guessing I am one judging by how people treat me... I mean, not monster per se, more like half-breed, spawn of Satan-ishy. But still, hearing that from your own mother... it makes you want to kill yourself.

Come to think of it, suffocation was never really my thing... cutting too. Maybe I should try using a gun? But shit, I'm too old to feel depressed and go on trying to kill m'self. I'm just gonna go take it out on humans instead. I'm going to go do that Guillermo Vargas Habacuc stint on a 5 month old child. Let's starve the damned kid and see if it ends up like that dog (btw that whole animal cruelty shit was a hoax). ;D
I'm going to state that --- Here in the Philippines thousands of children die because of malnutrition and improper handling by their parents. Look at this child --- it would've died in the streets anyways. I'm just making a point. This is art. *rolls eyes*

Someday when I am no longer a monster and have been enlightened... yeah, I'd probably be dead by then. LOL

I'm not unfeeling as opposed to what people say. I probably know what love is. Problem is it's what people say... and I have no say on general opinion because it is, in fact general. "You don't know what love is, Drew." I probably don't. Do you?

Haha... this entry is so disgusting...

oh look an outpour:
one day i came across baby rats. i like baby rats... i put them in paper cups, fill it with water and smash them one by one with a hammer. but that's way beyond me now. now i want to put unborn baby humans in my stomach and digest, digest, digest! someday when my prince will come i will cut off his dick and i'll feed it to my un-dead baby mutant rats. when they're done with it, they will want more and devour any penis they find. so on and so on and so forth...
Current Mood: soresore
Drew Santos
10 August 2008 @ 09:15 pm
"a phone number is what separates strangers from acquaintances"
- yesterday's movie (for free) at CCP, 7pm showing
AND we even saw Prof. Galan. As usual, he ignored us just because... lol XD

That line says it all. True, innit? How a phone number can be the defining factor between two people. Some would say, "Ah, how fallacious --- what if you don't have a phone?" or some other blahs just to sound witty--lol. But in a sense when you have that basis (ie phone number) it defines that factor thus you're strangers no more but acquaintances. For if the presence of communication is alleged then the distance of relation is removed.

Veering away from the topic of phone numbers, I just got bitch slapped by Jay. "It's your call," he says. It was, apparently. From the moments of yesterday up to that time when I had this presence of doubt stupidly lingering through my system I had no idea that it was my call. Yes, I had been reduced to a stupid heap of human flesh for a time, but now enlightened, somehow I've figured how stupid I was. Well, we all have our moments. True, how I don't need other people to decide for me... but if you base it on my zodiac sign (in which I take for granted) I really do need a second opinion to make sure something's more perfect and not just certain. Oh well. Problem solved. Movin' on.

It stinks, being alone. But I'd rather be in this state rather than the opposite. Everything depresses me somehow... I can't fathom anything I achieve. It's not that I fear things that I don't understand, it's what what I understand that bothers me.

Honestly, I probably make up the population of random people who post shit on the internet. I'll come back when I have the guts to "show off" again. Now, more training ahead. *cough* workshops *cough*

... (last one & Kat says it's very different from my usual style which is also known as bahala na tong gagong to style joke)
a man died today
it was all over the news
it said he hung himself
on a traffic light post

on the picture, a green light
his dead body swinging
over a pool of blood
all for the world to see

they said he wasn't mental,
a normal man with a loving wife
who loved another but loved
him on occasions like this one

she was crying in that picture
all for the world to see
and in the background
a bunch of kids, posing for the camera

Yes, I know I'm not worthy but W.H. Auden's Musee de beaux Arts sort of inspired me. LOL... fuck that shit! MORE BOOZE T'NITE! YEOWZIE!!!
Current Mood: depresseddepressed