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| Tuesday, May 20th, 2008 |
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| Friday, September 14th, 2007 |
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alright i'm making two entries in one day mainly because i'm feeling girly and gay. so, when you've LIVED with someone every single day for nearly a year, its good that you still feel like you have a huge goofy crush on them, right? its so hilarious that i used to hate him. i can't imagine my life without him. he feels like home. and i feel all breathless and stuff sometimes around him and he makes me smile even when i'm soo mad at him. loveeeeeslovesloves. I miss him like hell, haven't seen him in like 8 hours and all i can think about is how giddy i'll be when he comes home, even though all we'll do is go to bed. i'm going to marry that son of a bitch i swear to god. SEE I TOLD YOU I'M TOTALLY GAY. I'm going to eat ravioli now. |
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DEER DAIRY. Hi everyone. I'm killing time and feel the need to express my thoughts via text. I am in lovelovelove forever. AND EVER. Erik rules, we just got back from a mini-vacation in Treasure Island which was pretty awesome. He is at work and I am not so the internet is my friend. I'm hungry and my cat is dying, she's really old. Peace out until another like 6 months from now, LJ. It's been real. |
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| Thursday, April 26th, 2007 |
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So, tomorrow is officially my last class at PHCC. Graduation is Tuesday. A semester later than planned, but I just HATE biology. I need to study for my final. AA bitches what! Actually, its like the peon of college degrees. I still haven't decided if I'm going to FSC in the fall or taking a semester off. Erik started his CNA classes yesterday. I'm superproud of him. And I guess we're going to Daytona in June. Blah blah blah. Life is work school eat sleep. Drinks on the weekend but I do need to go shopping for shoes. I have 6 or 7 that will go with my dress, but I figure I'll buy more anyway. I feel sort of old and retarded lately. I don't know where I am going with this. I think my dad is buying me a new car for grad. Sweetness. Jesus I am boring. You guys should stop reading now, if you are at all. 'Tards. |
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| Thursday, March 8th, 2007 |
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My cousin's ex girlfriend was on Miami Ink the other night. ... It's weird seeing people you know on TV... |
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| Wednesday, March 7th, 2007 |
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Oh my fucking god. The pup chewed through my AC cord. I have 19% left on my laptop battery. And $0 to be spending on any extras. This. Shit. Sucks. So. Bad. I'm going to go to my dad's tomorrow and try to sweet talk him into buying me a new cord... or maybe a new computer. And I'm about ready to gut that damn dog. |
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| Sunday, December 24th, 2006 |
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Watching Erik and my Dad do drunk karaoke together may have been the highlight of my year. Things are good. Its my birthday. Happy Holidays, everyone. |
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| Thursday, December 14th, 2006 |
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So my dad gave me one of his older laptops and I'm sort of.... stealing wireless internet from someone in the complex. I don't know if it's stealing... I just have a wireless card and it picks up the signal... kind of crappy but I still got the internet. I dunno. It only works in the bedroom though, and I just touched up the paint in here so the fumes are getting to my head. In nine days I can legally be drunk. As for now, I'm about to take a shot or two of this cheap ass rum. Drinking on a budget is delicious. Not. I guess Erik and his mom are taking me out and getting me slap-trashed... and maybe buying me a bottle of Patron Silver!! It doesn't feel like Christmas. My grandparents are coming down in a few days, I haven't seen them in two or three years, it should be great. It still doesn't feel like Christmas though... I think we're all at that age where the magic is gone. I hope it returns when I am older, less angsty, with kids. Then I can be the magic maker, and it might mean something again. I don't want any gifts. And I only feel obligated to buy for people. I don't actually WANT to. I'm just not in the mood this year. i don't know what this is about/ |
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| Tuesday, December 5th, 2006 |
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With absolute MINIMAL effort this semester, I've managed to obtain two passing C's and probable A for three of my classes. Now, if I can catch up with the other two in the next three days, I might graduate. Which would make me EXTREMELY happy. Pray for me. This is going to take some SKILLZ. The funny part is that I feel better when I completely WING a class/test and pass rather than working hard a getting an A. Psh. Anyone can study, right? |
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| Wednesday, November 29th, 2006 |
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Apathy is even easier when nothing is going right. If you've ever been in a relationship with someone that is EXACTLY like you in their thought processess/logic/emotional reactions/values/stubborness... then you would realize that you can do one of two things: 1. Build each other up. 2. Tear each other down. WAY DOWN. You see, when you recognize a problem in someone who you feel (forgive the cliche) is your "soulmate"... you realize that you're seeing the flaws in yourself. Same for the strengths, of course. BUT THE FLAWS WILL TEAR YOU APART. Because it makes you angry at them, but more angry at YOURSELF and it shifts from placing blame to realizing that YOU ARE AT FAULT, pretty much regardless of the situation. It happens. We've been going at it like that every night for a week or two now. During the day, we're levelheaded and admit to each other and ourself that... half the arguements we have don't make ANY FUCKING SENSE AT ALL. But what I have noticed... is that, we're both bipolar and our relationship goes through bipolar cycles. It's sort of hilarious. I still love the fuck out of him, and don't think that will change no matter how much he frustrates me. He bought me the SHITTIEST car for $800 but at least its getting me from point A to point B and just in time to BUST MY ASS over these last couple weeks of school. I'm seriously going to be the luckiest, most bad-assed bitch on the face of the earth if I manage to pass all my classes, especially since I have been neglecting Bio with wreckless abandon. When I was in a bland relationship with no fighting and stable, dry, level emotions... no passion, good or bad... I WAS DOING SO WELL IN SCHOOL. I've been seriously thinking about taking a semester off before I start at FSC. I mean, it's looming so near and I haven't even begun to get my ducks in a row. I'm thinking about working fulltime for a semester and trying to save a bunch of $ and starting in the fall instead. I need a break...my parents are going to be SO PISSED when I tell them. But I guess there isn't much they can do about it. They're already "disappointed" with me because of several things, why not add one to the list. Um, blah blah blah. I'm at my parents house right now... they have all the Christmas shit up already, but it doesn't feel like home like it used to. My sister moved into my old room... painted over my walls which were cluttered with sharpie drawings and poetry. It's so odd. And the new dog drives me crazy. I miss my cat so bad but she's too old to be moving. I don't know. I want to melt back into home and adolescence. It's not going to happen. |
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| Tuesday, November 14th, 2006 |
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I kicked ass on the CLAST. AND .... I Got my ACCEPTANCE LETTER to Florida Southern. |
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| Monday, November 6th, 2006 |
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WOW! I am so glad that my cat died and I totalled my motherfucking car IN THE SAME WEEK. JESUS LOVES YOU, TOO! |
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| Monday, October 23rd, 2006 |
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My new baby! He's a Red Chihuahua. My dad named him Dinero. MONEY MAKER! |
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| Saturday, October 21st, 2006 |
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| Saturday, September 16th, 2006 |
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| fuck. i am the biggest mess i have ever been. | ||
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| Friday, September 1st, 2006 |
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I have two flat tires, I missed my class, my cell phone isn't working and I'm soaking wet! It's only 11 am! AWESOME DAY. |
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| Thursday, August 31st, 2006 |
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www.kittenwar.com Who is going to that thingy at Alan's on Sat.? |
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| Tuesday, August 29th, 2006 |
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Google the word "Failure". What is the #1 result? |
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| Saturday, August 5th, 2006 |
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Mike Rowe of The Discovery Channel's "Dirty Jobs" has made Lindsay's list of fuckable old-enough-to-be-my-dad men. Brad Pitt currently tops the list, followed by Val Kilmer and Mike in a close third... |
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| Monday, July 10th, 2006 |
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Instead of confronting my problems and insecurities, I let them brew for months or years, let them slowly eat me up until they self-destruct and I abandon them without any regret or looking back. People usually get hurt, but I'm too chicken shit to do anything else. |
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