I feel like the dark cloud over my head has been removed and I can see and feel the light again :) Ohhh how I've missed it! I hate it when I'm sad and gloomy, but it's really hard to rise up alone. I'm not a very strong or independent person I think, often I rely on happy things/people/events to cheer me up whenever I feel down. And when circumstances are tough, its hard to stay tough too. That's why I'm so eternally thankful that I have You, You who lifts the dark, grey cloud of doom from above me, who carries me in my pain, who silently wipes my tears away and mends my broken heart, who knows the deepest, most painful struggles and emotions I face, who loves me despite my turning my back on You in the darkness. You loved me, and You're telling me to turn my eyes to You, to forget about the world, to stop comparing myself to the world because I'm grades above all that I'm striving after, that there's no need for me to find my worth and meaning in this chaos because You've already established me in Your house! You stayed by me as I fought You, wanting something more, more, more, and not finding that joy anywhere except in You, I turned back to You, and You accept me again, just like that. I feel like I always lose You in the night, but now I realize that You've always been near, waiting for me to hold on to the hand that You've reached out to me :)
O soul, are you weary and troubled? No light in the darkness you see? There’s a light for a look at the Savior, And life more abundant and free!
Turn your eyes upon Jesus, Look full in His wonderful face, And the things of earth will grow strangely dim, In the light of His glory and grace.
Through death into life everlasting He passed, and we follow Him there; Over us sin no more hath dominion— For more than conquerors we are!
His Word shall not fail you—He promised; Believe Him, and all will be well: Then go to a world that is dying, His perfect salvation to tell!