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I'm getting a new El-jay name. I need ideas. Because this next one is going to be mine for a long time.
I need to know if I should make my new journal Friends Only..

I sit and watch you leave
my life forever
I know you'll be gone so long
my last words are nothing
and I tell you I care
and nothing more
I cant say how I feel
so I

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New copyright...


I know, this is sad.
It makes me almost as sad as it makes you



.I Think I'm only pretty when I try.
.When I try, I usually don't halfway through the day.
.When I do my hair, makeup and everything else, it's not to impress someone, it's to make me feel better about me.
.I hate having a best friend that hates another best friend.
.I feel like Katie doesn't need me in Westland anymore, She has Tiffany:o(.
.Sometimes Molly lies about retarded things, and it pisses me off. (hahaha)
.I've done pot once, and I hope to never do it again.
.I've smoked more then once.
.I've smoked with Rachael and Nicole.
.The last time I smoked was in November, and I don't plan on doing it ever again.
.I never told anyone this because I was scared of loosing someone like Jacqui or Ali, but in this situation, I'm hoping they can look past that part and look at the part of where I don't want to do it again.
.I'm scared for people like Donna, & Rachael.
.I was sad when I was best friends with Donna.
.I never liked Nicole Storyan, but I feel bad for her about Donna & Rachael.
.I'm doing this because I want to do this for me, not for you.
.I try to make people laugh on purpose, because I feel like I fit in when I do.
.My blonde moments are not on purpose, or to make anyone laugh, they're totally and completely real.
.Before I dated Kyle & Max, my last boyfriend was at the beggining of 7th grade.
.I'm picky about who I date.
.I can't believe, still, to this day, that I ever thought about giving myself to Kyle.
.When I smile, it's usually to try and show people I'm not sad, when deep-down, my entire world is crashing down.
.I hate having 2 friends fight, because I always seem to have to calm one of them down.
.I'm going to stop doing this because I've run out of things to put, if I think of more I'll make a Part II.
  • Current Music
    The sound of my computer running

Friends Cut./145.

Comment to this and I'll keep you.

I'm doing a friends cut...because I don't want people who never read this, to have the permission to be on my friends list :o)
Because I'm a bitch like that.

So comment to this and I'll keep you.
You have until January 20th...random date. Yes...

I'll keep this 'un-friends only'