||[Nov. 7th, 2005|07:07 pm]
I haven't written a rambling.talkative entry in a while.. so i decided it's a bout time i do one and let all of the few people who read it know what's going on in my life.|
College is gonig pretty well, i've dropped pyshcology and everything is slowly looking up. I'mr eally enjoying art, although it is a bitch at the best of times, and sociology is really interesting me. I have also made friends with some people i hadn't really liked/gotten on well with in the past, which is really nice, because it shows we've grown up and sorted out our differences. One girl who i've made friends with again.. is one of the most amazing, funny and caring people i've ever met.
Today i went on an art trip, which was great, because my three best friends do art with me, so it was a good day in that respect, but 7 hours on a coach, and shitty music (spice girls, gina g etc) wasn't good at 7 in the morning..haha! Although i do like them on the occasion.. not at 7 in the morning. I'm not a morning person, as a few people'll know.
As for my personal/love life kind of thing..wow. The majority of people seem to think they have the best boyfriend ever... but i think i can safely say i do have him, sorry to disappoint you all, but i really do. I've fucked up a lot of things the past few weeks, and adam's stuck by me so much. Whether it be my fault, or shitty things like pregnancy scares..adam's always there and promised to love me. In his livejournal, after a tiring day i come home & read it, and i swear i have the hugest grin on my face. To know i'm loved the way i am, i can't believe i'm sometimes stupid enough to have doubts or wind him up.. because who'd really put up with the shit i do? After 4-5 years of knowing me, i really do love adam to bits.. give me 600 quid, and i'd happily be off to live with him. & yes..happily leaving everything/everyone behind. But that's only because it's natural in life to seek happiness.. and i believe adam is mine.. i KNOW he's mine. & no adam..i win. Remember i have the boobs [small inside joke]
I could seriously write pages and pages and ugh.. just way to much about how much i miss and love him. After london, i screwed up big time, so bad that me and adam could have broken up.. but being the lovely supportive guy he is, he stuck by me. That's love. And whether i had doubts about us or not, it's always nice to know how loved you actually are. I've never stopped loving him. Never. & i know that i never will. =) i'm pretty sure you're all bored of hearing this now, and i am kinda going round in circles =) but fuck you =P this makes me happy..so i shall ramble a tad more. =) eeee... he's hopefully coming to england again for christmas/new year, which'd be amazing as i've never shared those holidays with someone who i'm madly in love with. I just..i really have no words, and adam, i'm really honestly deeply sorry for everything i've put you through, and i'm so so fucking happy you've stuck by me and loved me. <3 I really do love you =) and like i said..you're stuck with me for life, so yes you will end up marrying me. heh..
It was my 17th on saturday [5th] and honestly..it really sucked..but if it wasn't for *rolls eyes* you got it..adam, i wouldn't of smiled at all.
He'd told me i had a suprise, so waiting the doorbell, finally it rang, and 17 red roses were there.. i just, i was so so shocked i said "what the fuck" to the poor guy giving them to me. I just couldn't believe someone'd do that for me, living so far away and spoiling me like that, and also calling me all day so i could talk to someone.. AND also talking to my mum.. and her approving of him coming over. The day couldn't get much better adam wise =)
UGH i love that boy to bits. He needs to stop being so addictive. I can't wait for christmas now =) i think i'm going to make him a stocking full of really shitty lame and funny presents, and then just..i don't know =) eeeeeeeee I just can't wait.
Sorry for the long ramble..hope you're okay <333