What I really meant to say...

okay. I'm in a really blah mood.this song "cold" by Crossfade keeps getting to my head.It reminds me of all the times I fucked up in the past,with family,friends and other shit and I feel so bad.The worst is that it reminds me of how I almost broke up with Jackie and almost ended hers and my life.I feel really bad about that and I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo glad she forgave me and that she is still here with me.She makes me so happy.and Mel you are like my sister I'm sooooo glad we're the best of friends.without you and Jackie I'd be nothing.I love you 2 soooooooo much and I'm glad I have you 2 in my life.thank you for everything.

but yeah.I'm leaving my livejournal like this.i might change the name because this doesnt go with the name at all but you guys can deal with that right? okay good.lol I'm only changing it once more and leaving it at that.

Erica you dont have to do my layout.I obviously wont be using it.thank you for going to do it...yeah

thats it.back to my unhappy "Cold" place
  • Current Music
    Crossfade-Cold

! Eat My Shit !

update time again.

all is good

home is still gay but nothing i can do about it.

Jackie and I are great,I love her soooo much and nothing will come between us.

I need money.badly

PS: Erica is making my a layout for my livejournal so it should be fun looking.thank you again Erica.
  • Current Music
    Dead Poetic-Molotov

ITSSSS UPDATE TIME!!!!

Updates in life

-Home is gay.parents are still bitchy about alot of shit but ohwell.3years untill I'm out.(lets see if i can last it here for 3years)

-Jackie and I are great,I couldnt be happier.almost 4months.Although I'm worried about her.She knows why.Dont ask about it.

-My friends are good.there is drama but nothing we cant handle.

-I am almost 15.yay.

-school is crappy.once again I am almost failing everything.thats why for the next 2semesters and a half I am doing everything to pass.If i need it I'm staying after.and I'm doing homework first thing when i get home so there are no excuses.

But thats it.

Ps: once again a new layout.I havent changed my name in along time.I'm not going to.I just get bored of the way it looks lol.so yeah.I hope you like it..again.
ummm my sn is still "left the stage" incase you need me. thats all.
  • Current Music
    Coheed And Cambria-The Velourium Camper2,Backend Of Forever