PUBLIC ENTRY??

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 04:03:49 GMT

It's been forever since I've written a journal entry so I figured I'd write one now. Christmas is in a WEEK. My shopping is all done but when it is completely, I'll be relieved. I have my checking account now so I can save up to see Steph. :] I love my friends so much. I hate boys who fuck with your head. BUT I LOVE MY FRIENDS, SO IT'S OKAY. haha. I decided to dedicate the rest of this entry to them because I'm in the lovey-dovey Christmas spirit..

TINA- Thank you for being a best friend to me these past few months. You've really been there for me when I needed it and I can't thank you enough. I love spending everyday with you because we always have an amazing time together. You take my mind off all the shitty things in life and know how to make me smile. You're always there to talk to and share my secrets with. You really are a best friend darling, and I love you a whole lot. :)

ANGIE- I fucking adore you, plain and simple. You've been such a huge part of my life for 3 years and I couldn't ever bare to lose you. We are the most gangsta kids around and I love it. You're so much fun to be around and I know I can always count on you. Whenever you're around I'm always happy because you always put a smile on my face with your crazy puerto rican ways. I 'laaaaaaaave' you Angelique!

JESS- You're the best little sister I could ask for. I must admit, I've been very worried for you lately but I know you'll make right decisions. I love you so much. You've been there with me through thick and thin and we always stick together. You always make me feel like I have someone by my side through everything. I can trust you, which is what I love so much about you. You COMPLETE me little sister. :D

RYAN- AHEM, MY BEST FRIEND FOR 13 YEARS! We've never gotten into a fight and I don't think we ever would either. You deserve the world. You've been a best friend to me through so much in my life and you're ALWAYS there to talk to. You're seriously like a brother to me and I love you more than Cher loves Sonny. ;) I'll always have your back so bitches need to step off. hahaha.

STEPHANIE FERN SOUSA SPURRIER- Steph, I love you. I don't know how many ways I could express that, but I love you more than anything. You're not just a best friend to me, you're my big sister. You take care of me and look after me. You've been there through everything with me and always helped me through the worst situations. We got so close so fast, then we lost Maleni and held on to each other so tight and never wanted to let go. If I ever lost you, I'd lose the last piece of myself to put me over the edge. When I look at you, I see a huge piece of Maleni. You make my days brighter. I feel honored that you asked me to be the maid of honor at your wedding, and I know Maleni will be right there with me. You have been through so much, you're my inspiration. You're amazing Stephanie. Remember that you have a huge piece of my heart, and we're soul mates. Me, you and Maleni. :) Family is more than blood, it's sharing that special bond with someone and you my dear, you are my family. I'd do anything for you. I love you so much menina.

&& last but not least.. hah..

Jonathan- I wish I could show you all the things you've put me through. I wish I could make you feel the pain I've felt because of you. You're made me feel like shit more than enough times to realize that I don't want to love you anymore. I don't want to feel like I need you. I'm tired of it, and I'm tired of always getting the shit end of our fights. Things were perfect between us, and you fucked it up, big time. I'm not going to take the blame this time. I hope you're happy with your cheap whore. You've made me learn a lot about myself, and my biggest lesson is; I DON'T NEED TO BE TREATED LIKE THIS. I deserve a lot more than you've ever given me. In time you'll realize the huge mistake you've made, and when you do.. I won't be there. I was always there to pick up the pieces when you fell apart. I always put my heart at sake to make YOU feel good about yourself. I'm done with it. I'm tired of being your backup. I'm tired of you kicking me completely out of the picture when you get a new girlfriend, and come crawling back when things get fucked up with them. I'm tired of you taking advantage of my feelings for you. You may not think it, but you're a real fucked up person. You've put me through so much shit in the past two and a half years, and I'm sick of all your shit. I should of realized this a long time ago before I did half the shit I did with you. You fooled around with my heart and my head, you made me feel like you cared about me and wanted me, you SAID you did, then you completely changed and turned things around when you got a new fucking whore. I hope you get treated the same way you treated me so you can get a glimpse of how I've felt. You threw away the best thing that could of happened to you, and all those nights we discussed it, you knew I was right. Congats on life Jon, you really fucked up this time.

... THE END. :]

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 04:03:50 GMT

THE FALL OF TROY TOMORROW BITCHES!! so fucking stoked.

New Journal.

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 06:01:41 GMT

So I decided to make a new journal. heh.
A lot of the journal entries in my old one were.. well, OLD.
Some entries will be friends only, others will be open.
Comment to be added. <3

I'll be there..

PUBLIC ENTRY??

New Journal.