i ate so much today. and i was barley able to purge it. i need to quit the puking. it's so unhealthy. it causes heart problems, it straight fucks you up. but its so hard now, the thoughts of bingeing are pretty much, too tempting to control.
i hate it. and i hate myself because i feel weak. i start off fasting so nicely. but for some reason, i always end up bingeing/purging. i want to blame other people for my weakness... they make me eat! but they really dont.
im gonna try a liquid fast. but only low cal/ no cal liquids. tea, coffee, water and sugar free red bull/energy drink. it's going to be hard. yet another diet i'm going to try.
*think f-ing thin damn you!