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| 09:34pm 19/04/2004 |
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but it was a nice day out today! not too windy, not too warm; very nice photography weather. except that i think either my camera or myself was being stupid and thus i took a whole bunch of cool pictures that didn't actually make it onto their own unique negative...i am definitely going to drop the roll of film off tomorrow over at stamp so that i can get it developed and see what the fuck was up with it as soon as possible.
"and i find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad. the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had..." |
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| 08:32pm 31/03/2004 |
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yes that's right, i was jerking him off IN THE MIDDLE OF THE METRO STATION DURING RUSH HOUR. |
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| 09:38pm 22/03/2004 |
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The sun was shining and it was completely gorgeous out today.
I crawled out of a bed in a hotel room at noon, alone, watching gilded rays of sunlight sneaking through the blinds to glitter prettily on the dully metallic surfaces of beer cans stacked high. Slithered into a strappy dress, slid my feet into even strappier shoes.
Looked in the mirror, hair a frazzled mess, one sleeve, spilling dramatically off my shoulder. I studied this reflection, this girl standing there in a hotel room miles from her home, surrounded by evidence of the past nights debauchery.
Platform heels. Lacy dress. Hair disheveled.
The girl in the mirror laughed. It was short, triumphant, pleased. I realized I was laughing, too.
Triumphant? Pleased?
It was then that it hit me that the girl in the mirror was me.
For one moment, I knew with absolute certainty exactly who I was. There were no questions, no confusion. For the first time ever, I saw myself completely in that flat, reflective piece of glass.
For one single instant, I knew who I was, and I was so remarkably comfortable in my own skin, the rest of the world just largely didn't matter.
It passed within seconds.
I was left to stare at that mirror and wonder what I could possibly have in common with this messy haired girl in a thrift store dress. |
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| 01:54pm 29/02/2004 |
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I AM SO FUCKING HOT!! AND TINY! so there. fuck you. ha.
and now for your alls enjoyment:
<1>Guys you know you'd better, watch out (Watch out!)
Some girls, some girls are only about (About!)
That thing, that thing, that thing
That thing, that thing, that thing
It's been three weeks since you were looking for your friend
The one you let hit it and never called you again
Remember when he told you he was about the benjamins?
You act like you ain't hear him, and gave him a little trim
To begin, how you think you're really going to pretend
Like you wasn't down and you called him again?
Plus when, you give it up so easy you ain't even foolin' him
If you did it then, then you'd probably fuck again
Talking out your neck, saying you're a Christian
A Muslim, sleeping with the Gin
Now that was the sin that did Jezebel in
Who're you going to tell when the repercussions spin?
Showing off your ass 'cause your thinking it's a trend
Girlfriend, let me break it down for you again!
You know I only say it 'cause i'm truly genuine
Don't be a hard rock, when you really are a gem
Baby girl! Respect is just a minimum
Nigga's fucked up and you still defending him
Now -- Lauryn is only human
Don't think I haven't been through the same predicament
Let it sit inside your head like a million women in Philly Penn
It's silly when girls sell their souls because of sin
Look at what you be in, hair weaves like Europeans
Fake nails done by Koreans
Come again
Yo! A-When when come again
When when come again
My friend come again
Guys you know you'd better, watch out (Watch out!)
Some girls, some girls are only, about (About!)
That thing, that thing, that thing!
That thing, that thing, that thing
The second verse is dedicated to the men
More concerned with his rims and his Tim's than his women
Him and his men, come in the club like hooligans
Don't care who they offend
Popping yin (Like you got yang!)
Let's stop pretend, the ones that pack pistols by the waist men
Cristall by the case men, still living in his Mother's basement
The pretty face men claiming that they be the "big men."
Need to take care of their three and four kids
But they face a court case when the child support's late
Money taking and heart breaking
Now you wonder why women hate men
The sneaky silent men
The punk domestic violence men
Quick to shoot the semen, stop acting like boys and be men!
How you gonna win, when you ain't right within?! (x3)
Unh-Unhh Come Again!
Yo-Yo Come Again!
bredrin come again!
Sit straight come again!
Watch out, watch out
Look out, look out
(x4)
Girls you know you'd better, watch out (Watch out!)
Some guys, some guys are only about (About!)
That thing, that thing, that thing
That thing, that thing, that thing
Guys you know you'd better, watch out (Watch out!)
Some girls, some girls are only, about (About!)
That thing, that thing, that thing
That thing, that thing, that thing</i> |
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| 05:49pm 01/02/2004 |
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"oh no, i don't have senioritis at all..."
so, why am i not doing my project for ap gov due tomorrow? i swear guys, i will study thoguh. i promise. |
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| 02:28pm 28/01/2004 |
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ok, so all the blades on my razors are too dull and i can't shave my legs anymore. i head over to the nearby CVS to pick some blades up right. why are they so fucking expensive? why i ask. $12-$15 they are. i didn't have that kind of money so i got yet another razor. and it occured to me: i collect razors. |
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| 03:51pm 19/01/2004 |
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i am now sqeaky clean. and a second semester senior. packing is 75% done. and this:
a certain teacher shall remain nameless for completely fucking over a certain friend who will remain nameless for possession of a certain alcoholic substance that shall remain nameless. FUCK YOU! |
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| avoiding homework. w00t! |
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| 04:48pm 07/01/2004 |
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it is insanely cold right now. after i got home i had to go back outside to drop a letter off in the mailbox before 5:00 when someone picks it up. that was not fun. it needed to be done though. i ran halfway there and halfway back. i still can't feel my face entirely. |
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| the world below is lit up like christmas with burning porches |
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| 06:01pm 31/12/2003 |
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i figured i should make an appearance. *appear* hello! in a couple hours i'm going to get ready to go over to a friend's house for new year's. there will be a boy there that i would like to kiss. i think. it's not going to happen.
i realized, over christmas, the magic of this holiday really goes out the window after you're about 10 years old; or find out santa isn't real; or both, i don't know. there was 8 inches of snow where i was though. that was nice.
it's kind of funny because 2 days ago i walked up the streat to the mailbox in shorts and flip-flops. no i do not live in florida.
one of the things...scratch that: the best thing...i got for christmas was an ibook. i'm on it right now baby! and i had my parents order it with a AirPort wireless card built in. i'm online through my next-door neighbor's wireless network. my dad figured that out yesterday. oops. no worries, they won't pay extra. it's a fixed rate. funny though. |
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| 10:01pm 12/12/2003 |
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christmas is almost here! christmas is almost here! i can't wait! |
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| 04:20pm 16/11/2003 |
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i feel fluffy. |
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| 05:38pm 31/10/2003 |
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my mother fucking ruined halloween for me. i don't care if i'm too old for that shit, it's fucking free candy!!! fuck! |
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| 10:38pm 17/10/2003 |
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i can't hear you, i have a banana stuck in my ear. |
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| why does everyone think i'm smart? |
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| 07:11pm 03/10/2003 |
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i recalculated my GPA yesterday since i got my transcript. fuck, i'm going to end up going to some community college next year. damnit. |
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| mmmmm. me hungry. me eat apple. |
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| 05:19pm 26/09/2003 |
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haven't posted in what? a week? school has been taking up so much of my time.
well...that and it's premier week. Friends! ER! w00t! |
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| 12:55pm 19/09/2003 |
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as promised...
so my room is blue now. last weekend i painted my room light blue. it used to be white. was boring. anyway, so now i most definitely need to go out and do something this weekend. tonight. since i did nothing but paint last weekend.
i'm in my lunch period right now; wasn't much hungry. plus i should be typing up my paper for AP english which i have 8th period today. i'll be getting back to that now.
this wasn't the best post in the entire world. give me a break, i'm an lj newbie. school hasn't kick-started yet. but it will. atleast it will be better than last year. junior year is a bitch kids so brace yourselves. |
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| 12:41am 19/09/2003 |
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i am now a sheep. just got a lj account. i'll post a more interesting entry tomorrow or something; but i want my bed right now. i slept in 'til 3 today and i can't do that again.
oh, and if beautifulsuicde reads this wondering why in hell you're the only friend i have listed right now, well it's just that you seem like an awesome girl from your profile. add me back?
anyway, more later children. |
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