i feel...emotionally constipated right now. i have all these feelings and emotions, and i don't know what to do with them. i've taken a step backwards. that's why i hate being home. i did absolutely nothing today, i didn't talk to anyone, i didn't see anyone. that's absolutely the worst thing for me right now. i need to be around people.

i feel like crying. all the tools i used to get myself over scott are no use right now. i...i don't know what to do. i feel completely lost. i feel so alone. i'm really sad.