Internet security drives me mad sometimes, my facebook account has been blocked for ages when I try to log in it tells me someone correctly answered my security question right and if I acknowledge it was me I'll be able to log in within 24 hours. I've gone back way after 24 hours and it always says this now. Yes I'm locked out for getting my security question right. There's no help for this, anyone tried to contact facebook? They don't even have a contact link on the bottom of the page. They have a help centre full of FAQs of which this isn't one. I got through to a contact form once that got me an auto reply asking for a screencap of the problem, I got what seemed to be another stock reply with a link to a generic log in page. There's a help forum as well that I've posted on, no answer yet. I made another account in the meantime but I want to use my real one, it has photos that exist nowhere else since my phone and laptop were stolen and my UEA email is stuck to it so I can't rejoin the UEA network. So I thought of going back to twitter, only I can't remember the password I used, it's not one of the more obvious ones and to reset it I have to go through my biggest security hate: the barely readable two words you have to reproduce, I hardly ever get the first try right! After getting through that it asked me for my phone number so I phoned my Mum to see if she had old numbers written down from 2009, once she found the one I thought it might be twitter decided I'd tried too many times and told me to wait. Fucking hell.
Why am I watching Big Brother? It really is dreadful now, I only watched the first 3 series, the people in it and the whole style as completely changed since then. I actually watched some episodes of series 2, my favourite series, recently so I'm able to compare it properly. Then because of how my mind works I use it as proof that the past is better than the present, though in 2001 I still pined for the past what does it say about now if I'm pining for 2001? I'm not really pining for it, more pining for the fact that a lot of things had yet to go wrong so it'd be nice to go back and make sure they didn't but also some good things hadn't happened yet so I'd be afraid of those not happening. What I really need to do is find a way to be at least comfortable with the present instead of outright hating it. I haven't felt that relief since the summer of 2006, I've had moments since then but they've been about certain things, like having a girlfriend while the rest of my life is a mess, summer 2006 really was the last time when I felt relaxed in life as a whole. I still got ill though and couldn't believe stress as a cause of my stomach problems, I was happy, there was no reason for it, it went on in a disruptive way for a year, with various camera involved tests! never got resolved - IBS means "we don't know what's wrong and give up" - then just disappeared on it's own which is a good thing but I'd have liked to know what was wrong. I'd actually rather have that back than have the anxiety, I could cope with the stomach aches and nausea at uni, the problem was my jobs were too active and it was really hot that summer.