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| Saturday, March 22nd, 2008 | | 2:17 am |
motivated, and ready for life.
after sweet sixteen and seventeen, you enter eighteen, then you move on to new nineteen. yea, that's what being 19 represents for me. a new start, dusting away my thick layer of procrastination to strive ahead to fulfil what i think i can achieve.
i wouldn't say i've grown much since last year, at least definitely not vertically. heh. i don't think i've matured as a person, but i'd like to think that i've settled down more character-wise. especially since the release of a-level results, which are much less than ideal. waiting for the release of the results was like, you know, looking at your wife go through 9 months of pregnancy. you know you will have a responsibility growing right in there waiting for your hands to carry it, and you hope everything's going to be fine and dandy. but when it finally arrives, even when you think you're prepared, it's definitely going to change your life, and make you sit down and make sure you got the future plotted out properly.
if you ask me how i feel about my results, i'd say a tinge of regret, and a fine dose of guilt. regretting that i never fulfilled what (my family and) i think i can achieve, and guilt that i let my mum down, the taxpayers who paid virtually my entire school fees thus far down, and myself down. it limited my choices a lot, and yes, i'm even worried as to whether i can make it into the course i applied for. but most importantly, it brought me back down to earth, because only now have i truly asked myself what i want to do in the future, and how i plan to go about achieving this target.
in the past, i had an inkling what i want to do. that is not enough. i now know that i must be sure of my path ahead, and i need to put in effort to get it. i now realise the greatest motivation is not guilt or greed, but is simply self-motivation. i used to think that self-motivation meant telling yourself to work hard and hopefully through that your spirits will awaken. in actual fact, doing this means you are using external factors as an internal motivation. this is unworkable and untenable. there is only one secret to self-motivation: desire. only through earnest desire to achieve an objective will a person start a project and go through it thoroughly to the end of it.
the problem i had existed on two layers. the obvious (external) one: the lack of desire. so how do i go about solving this? i can't. i had to go deeper. therein lies the second layer: the lack of a want or target. how could i have self-motivated when i did not even know what i truly want in the future? it is with great shame that i realise this so late in my life, but like the old saying goes: late is better than never.
i wanted to type 'perhaps', but now i know this word should stop existing in my dictionary. do, or do not, there is no try. i want to be a better person, and i want to achieve better grades to get into a good course for university. how will i go about doing that? i plan to re-take my a-levels after i'm done serving the army, which will mean that i go into university one year later than my peers. but once again, late is better than never. i want to prove to myself, not my mum or friends or anybody else, that i'm better than what my current grades are. and i will prove it.
two years from now, i will look back at this post and smile with no regrets. i will.
Lee Choon Hong Vincent
22/03/2008 |
| Sunday, April 8th, 2007 | | 11:39 pm |
hey people. ive shifted to http://vicente-7.blogspot.com/from now on, this account will only be used to view friends blogs and for commenting purposes. yups (: |
| Monday, January 8th, 2007 | | 11:04 pm |
havent blogged in a long time... so i shall do so since im in the mood to do so. even though theres a maths test tml... but it doesnt count anyway, so (:
the entry to 2007 was a very bad one... tansy and i got our handphones stolen while playing pool at this arcade at simei, because we were going to downtown east for the countdown party with the rest of the o1 ppl. but we had no mood to party and stay out after that... with the police statements and whatnot. sigh. finally got a new phone yesterday (which meant i survived one week without a phone! -cue gasp-), which made me happy because i can message ppl whenever i feel like it and i wont feel lost because i cant contact others. zzz. oh yarh, so if u sms me and i asked u who u are, dont be offended yea cuz i might not have ur contact in my replaced sim card. yups.
the soccer team has been having friendlies since i came back from chiangmai trip (memorable trip, which i will blog about one day once the recollections start pouring back)... against srjc, sajc, rjc, and against njc just last saturday. only played against srjc and njc, missing the middle two due to leg infection (DONT think about legs with wounds filled with pus). hey, i called you not to think abt it alright, so its not my fault if ur lunch/dinner is defying gravity as of this moment :D lost all the matches, but tts not the point. what i felt was demoralising was the way we played against rjc and sajc (especially so), but then again, i think how we played against njc was really encouraging. losing hurts, but at least we are learning (as seen from the njc match?) as we go along, and tts what is important right now. hopefully we will better ourselves after every match. |
| Friday, October 27th, 2006 | | 3:55 pm |
three heroes were due to meet at the summit of mt. normanton for a slayfeast in the forest of heroesIII. ZX-thecool and V-thedark sat in the dark, silently acknowledging each other's presence, and the third's absence. ZX-thecool called upon one of his minions dreadKnight to swiftly deliver a message, but before it could reach V-thedark, an efreetSultan intercepted the messenger and brought the message to its owner.
the slightly charred piece of parchment was written in oldEnglish cursive: "do ye think KTK-thehot hath pangsehhhhhed thou and I?"
the look in V-thedark's eyes told a mixture of anguish, fear, and a tinge of anger. his journey to the summit had been arduous. he had thought of passing up on the slayfeast, but his allegiance to the brotherhood erased that possibility. his body was weary. but he knew once the slaying starts, it could easily go on for 10hours. but one of them was not there. perhaps not just yet.
swift as the wind, ZX-thecool nonchalantly swept his arm across the still air in front of him, catching a Small-MessageScript that was dropped by a royalGriffin that just soared by. his face painted a picture of excruciating pain, and his mouth seemed to form the words "就是这样 lorrrrrr". but he remained silent. he threw the Small-MessageScript to V-thedark, and soon after, it became apparent that the exasperation at the situation was shared by both heroes. as disappointed as he was that the slayfeast could not start on that moonless starlit night, V-thedark was relieved to be able to recuperate first.
good news greeted V-thedark when he was woken up by ZX-thecool's shaking: KTK-thehot had arrived. the mischievious glint in the heroes' eyes meant only one thing -- they were going to make the forest an dungeon and inferno for the creatures of the wild. alas, two sweet hours later, KTK-thehot had to take a bow and leave for the horizon. he had more urgent matter on his hands. undaunted by the minimal support they had for each other, they scoured deeper into the forest of heroesIII, slaying creatures one after another. the exhilaration they got after each kill pushed them on mentally and physically. it was only after a long while that V-thedark looked up into the skies (to actually search for a levitated creature) when he realised that dawn was fast approaching. but the looming prospect of having no daylight in the forest was only an empty threat; they had almost reached the other end of the forest. when they finally stepped out of the pwned forest of HeroesIII, they realised the slayfeast had lasted 10 hours without them realising it. it had taken them an entire day, but at least it was fun while it lasted.
till the next slayfeast, ZX-thecool and KTK-thehot.
Current Music: Eminem - Lose Yourself |
| Thursday, September 14th, 2006 | | 10:12 pm |
hey ppl... didnt update ytd cuz i fell asleep right after i came home. shall explain the statements now =)
1. i get a kick out of having fighting fishes fight each other.
just a truth, i do. and this is something that none of my friends (including close ones) know about. but only hee and seng thought it to be false.
2. i used to own an xbox, then i sold it to buy a ps2 which has slower reading speed and less memory capacity
something my closer friends will know about. did have an xbox, but i didnt like the feel of the controllers. preferred ps2 controllers, and thus the switch. but i rarely play console. so what a waste of money =/
3. i have two mixed blood cousins who i am very close to.
their names are ryan and russell. ryan is 11 and russell is 7. they are nepalese (mum's side) chinese. incidentally, russell shares the same bdae as tansy, but russell's birth date is 09/09/1999. cool huh?
4. i enjoy swimming, and like to compete with my cousins every now and then to gauge my standard.
dead giveaway for anyone who knows me and talks to me, and not just by a name basis. i dont enjoy swimming at all, cause i cant swim well. my tan is from soccer, and zilch of that comes from swimming.
5. i am addicted to smelling an ointment.
the reddish ointment you apply to the tummy area. im addicted to the smell. dont ask why.
6. i have spent less than 1000 sgd (of my own money, meaning i dont ask from parents) on my personal items.
ps2=400-450. ipod=450-500. wallet=60(my lost one)+40=100. crumpler=180. do your maths. and oh, i didnt ask any money from my mum to buy any of the above items. except for crumpler, which my mum forked out 40.
7. number 7 is my favorite number.
same as 4, i think. anyone who actually knows me will know that my favorite number is 7. and it's 7 because i idolised beckham, and it just stuck.
8. i once aspired to be a rapper, and i learnt to spew loads of profanities from there.
once idolised eminem, and i still enjoy his raps these days. and i thought rapping was cool and something within my range of abilities.
9. i used to live in yishun blk321, at unit #04-321, and i thought my birthday was march 21st because of that.
incredulous, but true. a part of my childhood that i will always remember.
10. during p5, at the height of about 1.36m , i could outjump (high or long) and outsprint most (>90%) of my yearmates.
i reckon only those in o1 will know about it. im kinda sad how i did not grow (and train) and lost out in athletic ability =(
11. the proudest achievement is that i was individual champion in p5, clinching the 100m and 400m titles.
actually, this is false, cause i achieved this in p4 in catholic high. but tts not the gist of the question, so tts not important. i was overjoyed with my 100m victory, cause i was the 2nd best qualifier, and kinda had no confidence in beating the top qualifier. but i just pia-ed and somehow won him. 400m also just pia. heh. and the best outcome was that i got pulled into track&field, which was a huge wish of mine at that point of time (mum refuses me to join track in lower primary in northland primary).
12. i aspire to emulate myself after justin timberlake and luozhixiang, because they are artistes who are great dancers and look really hot.
not something i told anyone, but i guess its rather obvious cause of mad. anyhow, i still enjoy dancing, and its more of time allocation and unwillingness to overdevote myself that made me choose soccer.
13. i have (relatively) rather bad hand-eye coordination.
i think this is why i really suck at sports involving hand-eye coordination, like tennis, table tennis, badminton. most of the time, im above average in sports because i can run quite fast. so just pia only. i think unlike most ppl, my leg-eye coordination is actually better.
14. i started out playing basketball when i was young, and only really started to like soccer in upper primary.
quite obvious huh. im rather bad in bball, and you dont get to see me play it much. though i wont mind playing it. definitely never my first sport.
15. my relatives used to tease me (whenever circumstances allow) about how my dad is so shuai, and then asking me what happened to me.
well, if you want to see how my dad looks like, im sorry. cant get my hands on his photo, and in the event tt i do, i dont think i will ever scan it in. only my mum has it, and i dont intend on keeping them cuz she takes good care of them, and any photos with him in it is precious to me.
16. i am funny when i dont intend to be, and i am unfunny when i intend to be funny.
haha. i guess this is a truth i only learnt this year. but im trying to be funny when i want to be funny ok! =P hopefully im improving la...
17. i trained myself to be a defender since i was young, because i enjoy destroying opponents' play and not letting goals in.
started kicking about from about 6. but didnt play on the court at all. it was only at p4 in catholic high that i started playing in "games". and i was always playing striker then. i still remembered how i always tried learning to "bend it like beckham" because i idolise him. oh, and i learnt how to outside foot my shot thanks to veron, cause i thought it was zai to be able to curl the ball both ways. then went on the rightwinger, tried am unsuccessfully (clueless as to what to do, as opposed to winger's clearcut job of beating defenders and crossing the ball), then played defence cuz o1 had no defenders other than tay, and they suppose i play defence better than they do (which is not saying much actually, lol). but i suppose i did train myself to be a defender once i was set in that position about sec3, cause i wanted to help my team well, and it was easier to get a "first team" spot in o1 when playing defence anyway. and the latter part of the statement is extremely true now. yups.
18. i was in my upper primary school's math quiz training team (something like olympiad team)
this is something i really thought all of you will think is false. cause my studies so ji noob now. sian... but yarh, my maths was actually pro in primary sch. and lets just say something screwed up somewhere sometime along the way.
19. my favourite soccer player is vicente rodriguez, because i think his name is latin for "vincent" and he's pro too.
quite a few ppl thought this to be true. my email is vicente simply because i think putting "vincent" is quite sian, and vicente is "vincent" anyway, just in spanish. i think vicente rodriguez is qiang, but i dont idolise him. my favorite players are actually cristiano ronaldo, lionel messi and thierry henry.
20. i like talking to myself, and because of that i suspect im schizophrenic.
i think this is worryingly true. i talk to myself when im walking home from the interchange, exchanging words with myself on anything from the mundane stuff to motivating myself. i hope this is smth you guys do too. heh.
scorers with
5 correct:
4 correct: hongyu, yian, geordie
3 correct: kelvin, zhengxun, meiling, chehao, zeqi
2 correct: haoran, shaun, edmund
1 correct: |
| Tuesday, September 12th, 2006 | | 9:21 pm |
tagged by kelvin! aka azurefroz on lj =D
One. Think of 15 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself. And they’ve gotta be true.
Two. Come up with 5 false statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.
Three. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.
Four. Post them on LJ and let people guess which the five false ones are!
Five. Get 5 others to do the same.
1. i get a kick out of having fighting fishes fight each other.
2. i used to own an xbox, then i sold it to buy a ps2 which has slower reading speed and less memory capacity
3. i have two mixed blood cousins who i am very close to.
4. i enjoy swimming, and like to compete with my cousins every now and then to gauge my standard.
5. i am addicted to smelling an ointment.
6. i have spent less than 1000 sgd (of my own money, meaning i dont ask from parents) on my personal items.
7. number 7 is my favorite number.
8. i once aspired to be a rapper, and i learnt to spew loads of profanities from there.
9. i used to live in yishun blk321, at unit #04-321, and i thought my birthday was march 21st because of that.
10. during p5, at the height of about 1.36m , i could outjump (high or long) and outsprint most (>90%) of my yearmates
11. the proudest achievement is that i was individual champion in p5, clinching the 100m and 400m titles.
12. i aspire to emulate myself after justin timberlake and luozhixiang, because they are artistes who are great dancers and look really hot.
13. i have (relatively) rather bad hand-eye coordination.
14. i started out playing basketball when i was young, and only really started to like soccer in upper primary.
15. my relatives used to tease me (whenever circumstances allow) about how my dad is so shuai, and then asking me what happened to me.
16. i am funny when i dont intend to be, and i am unfunny when i intend to be funny.
17. i trained myself to be a defender since i was young, because i enjoy destroying opponents' play and not letting goals in.
18. i was in my upper primary school's math quiz training team (something like olympiad team)
19. my favourite soccer player is vicente rodriguez, because i think his name is latin for "vincent" and he's pro too.
20. i like talking to myself, and because of that i suspect im schizophrenic.
i tag: tayhaoran [cooltyrant], seng [seng], alfred [alfree], shaun [pyromage].
TAYHAORAN YOU MUST DO K! =) |
| Tuesday, September 5th, 2006 | | 11:25 pm |
im wrecked by my own emotions. since young, i have been described as a person with a short fuse, quick to ignite at the very faint of sparks. rage has been synonymous with my image. and this rage in me is like those popular price tags; its so hard to get rid of it, and no matter how hard i try, remnants of it remain. the truth hits hard: anger is meaningless, because it amounts to nothing.
what is the point of getting angry? i found out that no matter how much i felt that my anger was justified at that point of time, i will come to regret that i ever lost your temper then. why? because things can be solved through other various actions or words, or in some circumstances, the lack of them, which is to walk away. furthermore, what is achieved in being angry? the only point that is made is that i am unhappy and displeased with what had happened, but the real consequence caused through showing my anger is that the other side will be unhappy as well. theres absolutely no point in losing temper at anyone -- it only serves to worsen the situation.
a bond between two individuals are like mirrors; so long it once cracked, the scar of that crack will always be there, no matter how faint. any unpleasant issues can be talked over, instead of arguing and apologising to each other later on. the latter situation is unnecessary and definitely avoidable.
i wish to share a story that i read some time back. in brief, what was narrated was that there was a lad who had a very bad temper, and in an attempt to keep it in check, his mother instructed him to hammer a nail into the piece of wood in the backyard everytime he lost control of his temper. initially, the wood was riddled completely with nails by the end of the first week. slowly, that lad learnt to cope with his emotions, and slowly, the piece of wood was changed only once every month. finally, one day, he took that piece of wood to his mother and proudly told her that he did not hammer in any nails that week. what she then did was to bring out all the pieces of wood he had used, all completely filled with nails. she told him, when a piece of wood was used up, you can simply use another one, but every piece of wood will always have your mark of anger. it will always be there. just like when you lose temper at a person, the friendship was always have those "holes" that your "nails" (those stinging words, sarcastic remarks, etc) leave when it is hammered in, even after you apologise and try to take these nails out. im apologise for my lousy narrating, but i felt this story is very apt.
also, when i lose my temper, i lose control of my emotions. my tolerance level will be lower than usual, and i will tend to snap at the slightest twitch. in other words, i become illogical when i become angry. the haze of anger obscures my vision and causes me to lose judgement of what is happening and consequentially my own actions. when that happens, im being unfair to those around me.
when my anger subsides, i will then realise how stupid and petty i was in losing my temper. its stupid because ultimately, no matter what had happened, regardless of how frustrating and annoying events that occured could be, -they had already happened and can never be reversed-. of course, being frustrated and annoyed is human nature. theres nothing wrong in feeling these emotions. what goes wrong is when we allow these emotions to build upon themselves inside us and allow these torrents of negative feelings to overwhelm us, eating us up from the inside, eventually causing them to overflow the dam that is our anger threshold. be frustrated, be annoyed. but take a deep breath, and move on. its only a few pieces of liver, so let us all eat our bak chor mee in peace.
Current Music: 林俊杰 - 只对你说 |
| Tuesday, July 25th, 2006 | | 9:28 pm |
ripped off hee =D (even though he hasnt answered for me yet... haha)
"
Comment on this entry and:
1. I’ll respond with something random about you
2. I’ll challenge you to try something
3. I’ll pick a colour that I associate with you
4. I’ll tell you something I like about you
5. I’ll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I’ll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I’ll ask you something I’ve always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your blog
" |
| Sunday, June 18th, 2006 | | 9:14 pm |
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| Wednesday, June 7th, 2006 | | 10:21 pm |
ares camp was funfunfun! haha.. shall talk abt it later. first, i shall do a quiz! =D
instructions: name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. dont read the questions before you write, and tag 5 people to do the survey.
1. haoran
2. alfred
3. ryankheng
4. kaixuan
5. celestine
6. xiaoying
7. clarice
8. zhangwei
9. liwei
10. pheiqi
11. tamsyn
12. cassandra
13. amy
14. kailin
15. genevieve
16. zhengxun
17. geordie
18. kelvin
19. seng
20. yarn
Questions:
1. How did you meet #14?
... can i not talk about it? :$ a certain incident at a certain bus stop ^^"
2. What would you do if you had never met #1?
i will be sadder. cuz life will have a lot less laughter and we wouldnt own in soccer together anymore. therefore i shall cry. boohoohoo (are you touched, tay? =D)
3. What would you do if #20 and #9 dated?
nothing. their choice wad... just a bit weird only la =P
4. Would #6 and #17 make a good couple?
haha... both are nice ppl la... but whether they make a good couple, i wouldnt know la =D
5. Describe #3.
bigteddybear =D
6. Do you think #8 is attractive?
yes also die. no also die. i dunno, can?
7. Tell me something about #7.
her dancing is zai =) and shes not as dao as i first thought she was =P
8. Do you know anything about #12's family?
yea, #13. both of them are "sisters" =P
9. What is #8's favourite?
volleyball? haha dunno =P
10.What would you do if #11 confesses that he/she likes you?
lawrence will kill me =P nah just kidding =D
11. What language does #15 speak?
english? and touchrugby terminology. haha =D
12. Who is #9 going out with?
i would like to know too!
13. How old is #16 now?
17yearsold
14. When was the last time u talked to #13?
yesterday... sadly =(
15. Who's #2's favourite singer?
heesuhui =D
16. Would you date #4?
nah, im her ah gong... LOL =P
17. Would you date #7?
nah, no common topic/interest except dance. haha
18. Is #15 single?
should be =D
19. What's #10's last name?
qi? lol
20. Would you ever consider being in a relationship with #19?
we already are! brother from another mother! xP
21. What schools did #3 go to?
taonan, chs, hci?
22. Where does #6 live?
no clue -.-
23. What's your favourite thing about #5?
shes funloving =D
24. What do you think of #13?
female version of tay! lol... very nice, caring and fun instructor =)
25. What do #4 and #19 have in common?
how about nth? lol
26. What special qualities does #17 hold in your life?
no matter how little interaction we had at times, we have a special friendship tt i will always treasure. and i know tt he will always have my back covered if i need help (:
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the camp.
to those who didnt go for the camp becuz they heard from apollo and artemis it sucked, it's really such a pity. though the first day, admittedly, wasnt tt good, it was because we were not acquainted with the instructors style of handling us, and on our part we werent enthu enough (nt "warmed up" yet). and the end of this day sucked by how much i sweat just by sleeping in the tent.
then the amusement for the rest of the camp started. on the end of the first night, before the supper, amy and cassandra (our fun sistercombo instructors) talked to us before supper. and they were very nice and patient despite them (being part of all the instructors organising the camp) getting the receiving end of the stick from ppl's comments. really appreciated it, especially now, when thinking back, they were on the 3rd consecutive camp already, and they were stuck on ubin for -that- long. damn grateful to have them as our instructors (:
2nd day of camp did rafting, jetty jump, then teamchallengepyramid. easily the funnest activities of the entire camp. so 2nd day serious rocked! and WHAT was constantly singing when moving abt... ICEKACHANG and mourinho. oh, on a side note, the food and bathing amenenities are actually pretty good, so yea, add points to camp =D heh... actually didnt really feel very sad when leaving ubin, just tired and actually rather happy tt im finally returning back to mainland singapore. but later at nite, when i was with tay in alfred's house watching tv, it just struck me tt im no longer with WHAT and the 2 cute silly instructors... nearly teared la. sigh, feeling really nostalgic just thinking abt the WHAT moments and all the fun times we shared -sniff- =(
WHAT: to the fun we shared over the 3d2n in ubin, cheerios =) you will always be my favourite dessert (ooo la la! =D)
Current Music: you are my ice kachang... |
| Thursday, May 25th, 2006 | | 10:28 pm |
was walking home from the bus interchange when i raised my head and realised the abundance of faint twinkling stars in the skies.
very often, we are blinded by the frighteningly bright lights of night life that blights us, and we trudge on with nudges of encouragement, seemingly meaninglessly living days that are (almost) replicas of the day before, doing what is expected of us. numbed by the repetitious routines, dizzied by the pace of these cycles, we often give in to fate and live through life as it is offered to us, hoping for little moments of joy that might come by. otherwise, we try to take fate into our own hands and try to shape our destiny. why the needless effort? if only we can take a step back, raise our chins from the fatigue that plagues us, and notice the many treasures you already had -- treasures which you never thought you possessed, not because they did not exist, but they were just too faint for your weary eyes to notice. they might be faint, but at least they are there.
we are like little planets; while we spin on our own axis day after day, every night the same journey, we revolve around the sun too. (the sun is our society, which can give us warmth, but yet also cause major disturbances to our lives with its occasional flares.) even the church initially proposed that the Sun revolves around the Earth. but we must not cease to remember that it is us the collective whole that contributes to the society, which gives us warmth in return. it is only through this harmony of the individual and the society, that a beautiful solar system can be created.
tilt up your head, and you will realise you've been missing what you've already had all along. push on with contentment, yet desire to better. c'est la vie. |
| Sunday, May 21st, 2006 | | 9:25 pm |
dance night 2006
hwa chong's inaugural dance night. mad had only about 3 months to prepare for it -- the choreography, costumes, lighting, blocking of items, the scuttling from one venue to another for dancers with multiple items, the downs and ups of confidence in ourselves, and the practise practise and more practise. i guess the dancers will remember it all. at least i will..
for those who came for the matinee, i hope you guys enjoyed the show, despite the rather subdued atmosphere. for those who came for the night performance, i think we should really apologise for the lack of seats... only during the finale did i realise i couldnt even see the steps! i was really damn touched seeing a sardine packed auditorium when it all came to a close =) anyway, a BIGBIGBIG thanks to the audience! seriously, you guys were an integral part in making dance night such a blast. the atmosphere was so electric and encouraging. the rapturous applause after the first few items really pushed us on and gave us greater confidence. and i think it really made us more determined to push ourselves to our best to make the night unforgettable. and unforgettable was the night for us, and i hope it was so too for the audience =)
the korean-chinese dance. if there was an underdog, this was it. no matter, the kc dancers made it look superb, and made it enjoyable for the audience. some friends even said it looked real good. if this dance is a lesson, what i learnt from it is tt, it is only when you enjoy this lesson will you take the most from it. do it well, enjoy the process, and i believe the audience can feel the zest in the dance as well. thats what i believe, in the least =)
the chair dance. i think it looks cool, and i hope the audience will share the same sentiments. huiyan did a great job choreographing it (as well as the fan dance), and i hope the dancers did the dance justice by doing it well. many thanks to huiyan (choreography) and germaine (partner) for the great experience x)
as a whole, i hope everyone enjoyed hwa chong dance night (touch) 2006. from those on the seats to those on the stage, it wouldn't have been possible without anyone of you. thanks to the dancers for sticking it out together, and the audience for being so indescribably fantastic (you guys brought the house down!). once again, a big thanks to everyone making 20th may possibly the most unforgettable night ever in life =)
special dedications
huiyan:
thanks for being such a fun senior. the bimbo side of you really makes practice much more fun xP and you're so damn good at choreography you made it hell for the next ares fac dance i/c to take over! haha... you rock! (:
kegan:
i swear you're the most caring senior ive ever seen. nvm tt, ur so zai, so willing to teach, so fun, and best of all, u have no air at all. couldnt have asked for a better senior in a cca... you're my role model! for personality and buttshaking too ;)
samantha toh:
your silliness and DEPENDENCY really amuses me la! haha... thanks a lot for the note you wrote... i really appreciate it =) and do learn to speak better chinese k? if i understand more of ur cantonese than chinese, theres gotta be smth wrong somewhere =P
germaine:
my chair dance partner! my mum said smth about you that i cant write here. go comtemplate if u wish =D
haha.. you're zai in ur hiphop dancing, and u're a b-girl too! -kowtow- really admire ur willingness and courage to try out new moves. thanks for taking effort to keep practising the partner part of the dance with me, and the gift (very yummy cookies) at the end of the night =)
michelle:
ares rocks too k! lol... another zai dancer (apollo dance i/c wad... of cuz zai rite? lol =P) who didnt celebrate with us after dance night becuz she was having some fine moments -cough-alone-cough- xD thx for taking the effort to do a little smth for all of us =)
those who came and support me, and took the special effort to give me a little smth:
to: sengchehao, shaunseetow, tayhaoran, ryankheng, timothyyap, samuelravichoudhury, marian, wanyi, eve, and mort importantly, my family members for coming down and spending time in supporting me. i really appreciate you guys' presence. it just made the night that much more precious =)
(p.s. i love my hair last night! i was cloud for one day, lol... =P)
Current Music: Missy Elliot - Lose Control |
| Sunday, May 14th, 2006 | | 10:31 pm |
just to do lj filler. best time to do it... since i got bio and chem test tml anyway.
[ ] I have read a lot of books.
[ ] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[1] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[ ] I have been to Canada. (Twice.)
[2] I have been to Europe. (erm...lost count.)
[3] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[4] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[ ] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[5] I have been snowboarding/skiing.
[6] I have played ping pong.
[7] I swam in the ocean.
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[8] I have seen fireworks.
[ ] I have seen a shooting star.
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I have almost drowned.
[9] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[10] I have listened to one CD over and over and over again.
[11] I have had stitches. (zomg in my lip)
[ ] I have had frostbite.
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[12] I have stayed up 'til 2 doing homework/projects.
[ ] I currently have a job.
[ ] I have been ice skating.
[ ] I have been roller blading.
[13] I have fallen flat on my face.
[14] I have tripped over my own two feet. (cuz of my weirdly oriented feet that forms an inverted v =/)
[15] I have been in a fist fight.
[16] I have played video games for more than 3 hours straight. (I manage 12 hours after exams.)
[17] I have watched the Power Rangers. (do u know theres a secret episode where green ranger's crush was revealed? her name is celestine. damn cool rite? =))
[ ] I attend Church regularly.
[18] I have played truth or dare.
[19] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[20] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[21] I've called someone stupid.
[22] I've been in a verbal argument.
[23] I've cried in school.
[ ] I've played basketball on a team.
[ ] I've played baseball on a team.
[ ] I've played football on a team.
[24] I've played soccer on a team.
[ ] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I've played softball on a team.
[ ] I've played volleyball on a team.
[ ] I've played tennis on a team.
[25] I've been on a track or cross country team.
[26] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.
[27] I've climbed a rock wall.
[28] I've lost more than $20.
[29] I've called myself an idiot.
[30] I've called someone else an idiot.
[31] I've cried myself to sleep.
[ ] I've had (or have) pets.
[ ] I've owned a spice girls CD.
[ ] I've owned a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] I've owned an N*Sync CD.
[32] I've owned a backstreet boys CD.
[ ] I've mooned someone.
[33] I have sworn at someone of authority before.
[34] I've been in the newspaper.
[35] I've been on TV.
[ ] I've been to Hawaii.
[36] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been on the other side of a waterfall.
[37] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[38] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[ ] I've watched the 3 stooges.
[ ] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[39] I've watched Looney Tunes.
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker/I have stuffed others into lockers.
[ ] I've been called a geek.
[40] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[41] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[42] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[ ] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[43] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[44] I've written poetry.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[45] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[ ] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[46] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[ ] I've had/have siblings.
[ ] I've been to a rock concert.
[47] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[48] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've been picked last in gym class.
[49] I've been picked first in gym class.
[50] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
[51] I've cried in front of my friends.
[52] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages
[ ] I've played completed Halo 2.
[53] I've freaked out over a sports game. (how can liverpool comeback win AGAIN?! =()
[ ] I've been to Alaska.
[54] I've been to China.
[ ] I've been to Spain.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[55] I've had a fight with someone on AIM MSN.
[56] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[57] I've had serious conversations on any IM.
[58] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[59] I've been forgiven.
[60] I've screamed at a scary movie.
[ ] I've cried at a chick flick.
[61] I've watched a lot of action movies.
[62] I've screamed at the top of my lungs.
[ ] I've been to a rap concert.
[ ] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[63] I've lived in more than 2 houses.
[64] I've driven on the highway/been on the highway.
[65] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day/been in a car that went more than 40 miles in a day.
[ ] I've been in a car accident.
[ ] I've done drugs.
[66] I've been homesick.
[67] I've thrown up.
[ ] I've puked on someone.
[68] I've been horseback riding. (at the zoo, lol =P)
[ ] I've filled out more than 10 myspace/LJ surveys.
[69] I've spoken my mind in public. (sch assembly counted not?)
[70] I've proved someone wrong.
[71] I've been proven wrong by someone.
[ ] I've broken a leg.
[ ] I've broken an arm/fingers.
[ ] I've fallen off a swing.
[ ] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 minutes straight.
[ ] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[ ] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.
[ ] I've lost my backpack.
[ ] I've come close to dying.
[72] I've seen someone die.
[73] I've known someone who has died.
[ ] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.
[ ] I've done modeling.
[ ] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[74] I've taken something/someone for granted.
[ ] I've realized how good my life is.
[75] I've counted my blessings.
[76] I've made fun of a classmate.
[ ] I've been asked out by someone and I said no.
[77] I've slapped someone in the face.
[ ] I've been skateboarding.
[78] I've been back stabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[79] I've lied to someone to their face.
[80] I've told a little white lie.
[81] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[ ] I've fainted.
[ ] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[ ] I've pushed someone into a pool.
[ ] I've been pushed into a pool.
[82] I've been/am in love.
Current Music: Apollo Faculty Dance |
| Monday, May 1st, 2006 | | 11:59 pm |
When you are born, everyone else are strangers, even your family. They might be related to you by blood, and the old adage may proclaim that blood is thicker than water, but there had been countless cases of fathers selling their daughters to prostitution and mothers forcing their daughters into committing incest with their fathers. Where has the maternal instincts to protect a child gone, I lament. Even animals have it in them to guard their offsprings from predators, but yet these parents send their children into the mouths of these predators. You can never know who to trust, do you?
Developing relationships are but taking risks, be it bolstering the bond you share with your family members, forging the friendships you have, or fanning the flames of your feelings. Every emotional bond you share with someone is like a piggy bank, and every investment you make into this relationship is akin to putting coins in it. Until you start putting something into a piggy bank, you never know if it is spoilt and holds what you have put into it. Sometimes you shake the piggy bank just to hear whether there's something inside, but the sound might just be a deception. You never know until trying moments arrive and you crack open the piggy bank to see if it has faithfully kept with it what you have given it.
You know there are some worthwhile friends out there, but you never know who they are. Strangers who step into your life may be mere acquaintances now, but they might well be true friends who stand by you in the future. Then again, you never know who are the people who backstabs and lies their way to their goal.
You have to put something in a relationship before you know whether they are worthwhile friends. The problem is that humans will never want to invest in something that they know will never pay dividends. Without putting in anything into a relationship, you will not know whether it holds water. But if you dont know whether if the relationship will be worth it, you will not want to devote anything to it. Catch-22 situation.
To strengthen a friendship, you must share a deep emotional bond with the person. Only when you share a deep emotional bond with a person, will you share with him or her on a deep level. However, for that emotional bond to be forged, there must be some sharing in the first place. There's no chicken without the egg, but there's no egg without the chicken as well.
That standstill situation do not occur because humans do take risks. But in relationships, any injuries sustained from a fall can be devastating. In some cases, it etches such a deep scar that these people are often unwilling or reluctant to give relationships another shot. This is true for platonic relationships as well. When a supposed friend betrays you and tells the entire world about the secret you told him or her, can you bring yourself to trust in someone else? How do you know if this someone else will not betray you like the previous person did? How do you determine which piggy bank will hold what you put into it?
Current Music: Phantom Of The Opera - The Music Of The Night |
| 12:25 am |
incident number one:
it was friday, and i was rushing back to woodlands for my acupuncture session. waited for 961 for damn fucking long outside coronation plaza. luckily had alfred's accompaniment, because otherwise i might have just rotted and melded with the bus stop. meanwhile, saw the most lightning within the shortest span of time ever in my life. there will be about 15 lightning bolts every minute, arriving in bursts of 5-10. and the coolest thing was that several lightning bolts that flashed right after another were exact replicas of the previous. and this happened quite a few times. kind of cool. then 961 finally arrived after like 20 minutes. its possibly the worst bus service amongst all those that goes along bt timah road. screw it.
kind of pissed already by the long wait because my mum was like scolding me for not making it on time, because of me not giving allowance for travelling time. its not like i didnt, its just that i didnt expect myself to wait 20 minutes for one stupid bus. and the most sian thing is that every time you wait super long for a bus, it not only means that you wasted lots of time waiting, it also means that you are probably not going to get any seats at all, and will have to spend the whole 40 frigging minutes journey standing with a back pain. feels like a person who got cramps while swimming and drowned in a baby pool -- damn loserish.
barely got into the bus, and was damn sian standing on the steps. looked at the plaque that stated that the bus was allowed to have only 23 standing passengers, and immediately counted more than 10 in a one metre radius from me. then moved in slowly. that wasnt the worst thing though. the bus speed was like a quicksand -- kills you frigging slowly. i mean, you know you gonna die, but it just have to suck you in slowly. cheebye fuck is it? (and i wonder why it's called quicksand. its like the ball used in softball. its fucking hard, and its called softball. go whack the head of the person who named it, and i would like to see him call it softball again. that lanjiao head.)
you know tibs buses have a space right in front of the exiting door just for more people to stand? finally inched myself there. then PHWOAR. FUCKING SMELLY. i was like, is there shit on the ground? then i decided my shit smells better than that. its a cheebye lao tiko who cant stop stratching himself that smells like he styled his hair with his diarrheoa, did his facial with his vomit, and havent bathed in weeks. its seriously THAT bad. nvm la. i mean, some people maybe nose born spoilt wan mah. dunno they are smelly... and fine la. maybe can still try to forgive them. tolerance makes the world a happier place. but FUCK NO. he must be a fucking pervert. there were two st marg gals standing at the corner, and tt smelly fucker was like inching towards them SUBTLELY. eh lao tiko, if you are reading this, give you some advice. even if they cannot see you moving so SLOWLY, they can fucking smell your diarrheoa-greased hair coming closer. and the cheebye fucker was so fucking obvious perving at a nygh gal standing slightly in front. nah bei, lim pei simply cannot stand it. typed a message on my phone and told the smss gal to be careful. kinda molested is traumatising already. kinda touched by some fucking smelling lao tiko is just tormenting. then the smss gal got off the bus with her fren the next stop. disgusting old pervs.
incident number two:
had ares outing last night. was kinda fun... and my class got most sporting class! and the most funny thing was that right after they announced that 76 is the most sporting class, they asked everyone to do fac dance as a finale, and almost everyone ran off! most hilarious. wenhui and algernon got fac princess and prince. both are goodlooking, so no complaints there. after that went out with tayhaoran, ryankheng and alfredgoh to play pool at paradiz. thereafter spent the night at ryankheng's house, sleeping at 4am. woke up at 2pm, and went to eat lunch and played soccer near greg's house. blahblahblah, boring life. shall not go on.
now the interesting part. after dinner at ryankheng's house and a little ps2, tansy, tayhaoran and i headed home. tayhaoran and i took the northsouth line, and i started recounting to him incident number one. and right after he alighted at novena, karma decided to fuck me in the backside. knn! the moment he stepped out of the train, a smelly fucker (though he was decently dressed) boarded the train and sat beside me. the moment he sat down, i was hoping he was at least not some gay paedophile perv. chee bye.. his ARMPIT SMELL attack is SUPER EFFECTIVE la. OHKO'ed me. and i ran off to another corner of the train to breathe. dun blame him, cuz we all know what male testerones can make you smell like. but those who know tt they got BO should just get a strong deodorant to mask their fragrance. SERIOUSLYNOSERIOUSLY, those who dont know whether they got BO, please ask your friends for their most frank answers, and act accordingly. theres nothing wrong with being ugly, its just whether you try to do anything about it. likewise, theres nothing wrong being borned with BO, its just whether you try to do anything about it.
Current Music: Ronin - Black Maria |
| Friday, April 14th, 2006 | | 9:35 pm |
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| Sunday, April 9th, 2006 | | 8:47 pm |
| Your IQ Is 135 | 
Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius
Your General Knowledge is Genius |
wahhh! im smart! lol =P
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| Thursday, March 30th, 2006 | | 1:08 am |
In my opinion, the only possible solution (which I believe is the fuel for lifelong marriages) is that of mutual acceptance of each other's ideal of loving each other. The key word is acceptance, which is of greater significance and value than mere tolerance.
A person would love his/her partner the way that the person wish to be loved, and this can lead to the other side not feeling loved, for the person on the receiving end might not realised that the other party is already showering him/her in her/his own way. For example, some people prefer romance to be loud, while others prefer the subtle type of romance. This preference will consequentially determine the method in which the person chooses to express his/her love.
While many couples moan about the lack of concern shown by their partners, I believe there is not a lack of concern on either side, by rather what exists is the lack of appreciation of whatever the other party does. What you are willing to do for your boy-/girl- friend (for example, talking on the phone at long stretches just to hear his/her voice), does not mean you should expect him/her to be willing to do the same. Any expectations have the possibility of leading you to disappointment.
To be truly happy, I think one must take the extra step of noticing the subtle changes your partner make for you, and be grateful and appreciate of this changes he/she make just so to make you a happier person. Most importantly, you should never expect your partner to change for you simply because he/she has done it before. You should regard anything that makes you happy in this relationship as a bonus, and not as a personal demand -- while you will be happy if he/she spends personal time with you, remember that for you to be able to spend time with him/her, he/she is freeing up his/her own time for you, and -that- is a bonus, because it already shows he/she is reciprocating your love. Never expect or demand your partner to do anything for you simply because you do it for him/her, because it only serves to place stress on your partner and makes the relationship strained. Notice and accept the way your partner shows his/her concern for you, and count your blessings for it.
I think a relationship is just like the business world -- where "the rich gets richer and the poor gets poorer". When the relationship is happy, both sides are willing to do more for each other, which thus makes both sides even happier. When the relationship is strained, both sides will do less for each other, or do the same as before albeit reluctantly, and this will cause further disappointment and unhappiness, eventually putting greater strain on the relationship. The strength of a relationship is therefore tested when any strain is experienced by either side -- whether or not the relationship is mature enough for the unhappy side to open up and tell his/her partner about how she/he feels, and consequentially and most importantly how the other party respond. Just like the stock market, a relationship has its many ups and downs, affected by internalities (quarrels) and externalities (rumours). When the company is listed on the stock market, its ups and downs are unavoidable. The important point thus, is for both sides to work together despite of differences in ideals, so as to never allow the company to go bankrupt.
Current Music: David Tao - My Anata |
| Tuesday, March 28th, 2006 | | 9:56 pm |
Many people have claimed to love, and while some are merely too caught up in their infatuation with a girl, there are others who have indeed truly tried their best to love someone. What does loving someone constitute? It is easy to be befuddled by the many romantic notions that are fleshed out on the googlebox or the big screen, and therefore it is important to be realistic. There's no single definition for love, but I believe it revolves around the extraordinary capacity that one possesses to care for that person, because it is exactly this capacity to care that makes the person want to do things that he or she will not do for platonic relationships.
Because A cares about how B is doing, A desires to know what B is doing, simply for the peace of the mind. Now, even in this society that proclaims independence of individuals, A is dependent on B -- clinging on to every of B's words, just so to know how B is feeling, and allowing his or her own mood to be affected. Yet this can possibly cause B to be unhappy with A's tendency to be clingy, and henceforth leading to unhappiness on both sides. The brain-wrecking nature of loving someone thus surfaces. Truly loving that person, you will want to care more about him or her, and dropping any signs of pretence show your concern in every possible way. Yet the more you care for that person, the greater your tendency to be clingy will be. What should thus be the solution -- to not love the person as much and being true to your feelings not care for that person as much, or to love that person just as much but control the extent of your concern so that both sides will be happy? The latter choice will be what most people will choose to pick. However, this begs the question: what's the point of loving someone in such a fashion? Many people have headaches over their clingy girl-/boy- friend. A question that should be given to them, is whether they will prefer to have a girl-/boy-friend who is clingy because she or he really loves them, or one that is not clingy but does not love them as much. This argument takes on the stand that love and "clinginess" are mutually inclusive -- how else will you show your love to let them know that you care? In fact, if you do not care to show your concern, (which is a prerequisite of not being clingy while truly loving the person), doesn't it already show that it does not matter to you whether he or she knows that you care? The only counter-argument will be that, so long your partner knows that you care, that is enough. But realistically speaking, wouldn't you want your partner to show concern for you, even if you knew he or she cares for you deep down?
Love is actually long-term infatuation -- while love is a long lasting flame, infatuation is a blaze of emotions, but essentially, both are fire that can either bring your heart warmth, or leave you as ashes in its wake.
Current Mood:  coldCurrent Music: Jay Chou - Feng |
| Wednesday, March 22nd, 2006 | | 10:44 pm |
before the day passes... i wish to inform the world that i've finally turned 17 =)
something in the afternoon kind of really killed my mood... but thanks to the m.a.d. people (kelvin and liuqian especially), my spirits picked up! they really put a smile to my face la... the fun they inject into my life is just irreplacable ((:
shall try to talk more about my life's happenings (mainly today, cause my memory sucks =P)... in case some of you out there do actually want to know more about my life... so here goes a birthday special blog entry! =D
haha... been failing everything, from chemistry (i got 8.5/20... then minus 1 mark because i handed in 10seconds late? stupid tiger lee)to biology (expecting... but it's expected anyway? lol)... and i expect to fail econs as well. im turning into one big joke... bah ><
so yarh... now today! the maths lecturer really cartoon la... make stupid jokes and analogies until i cant sleep but just give the -_-|| face. lol... plus my class a few people (me included =D) keep making bird noises to kajiao her. too bad she nv hear lehs... maybe lao ah ma already cannot hear? haha... after that was ct session... talk dunno about innovation cock la... damn jian lor. only tell success stories... how about the many people who go bust after spending all the capital without proper planning? like telling us gambling very good! see, my mother just struck 4d last time ah! buy more 4d! UH HUH. lol..
then after that, when going back to class bench, saw seng and tansy going to play soccer, so just tagged along. soccer was sian la... nearly completed one livewire run... but didnt finish it. dammit. nvm la... soccer is to relax wan. so dun have to care about winning xD haha... gong gu really sucks man... made almost everyone there wanted to hantam him only la. rough with people, then people rough him straightaway complain. stupid sia...
then, when subbing out, i went to my hp (which i left alone at the side for approx an hour?)... and read a meesage tt totally stunned me and made me feel... stupid? and down as well... oh well. felt really panned out for the next 1.5 hours. played a bit more soccer... but totally no mood and feeling to play liaos... anyway, seng, thanks for the sms =)
so decided to go mad. tried to cheer myself up by dancing apollo and ares fac dance, but still felt very down. hais... then kelvin and liuqian was being so nice. they were just sitting beside me and being with me when i was down and out. thanks you two! =) then go played volleyball... so fun! haha... the peeps really cheered me up man... with all the inane fun and laughter that came with every silly moment while playing. lol... then wanyi really brighten my day up with her mudpie (OMG, it's really DAMN nice. ask all the mad ppl! haha, everyone had a mouth =)) and her present for me. haha... thanks loads if you're reading this =)
knew so many "new" mad ppl today... people i nv talked to in the past. haha (:
eventually, after ms chen came and rehearsed with us like 3 eights, everyone started streaming out... other than of course, kelvin meiling liuqian ainan and me! haha... nicholas missing cuz he had to go dentist way earlier. so yups. went to coro to slack about... but didnt stay for long la.. cuz liuqian got curfew and everyone also tired le.. the rest is just a mundane journey home.
so thereby marks the end of my birthday marked by peaks and troughs... nevertheless, im older by 1 now. im 17... finally =) (better start acting my age xD)
really have to say this: m.a.d. people made my day a really great one. my birthday rocked because of you guys... THANKS LOADS ((: Current Mood:  bouncyCurrent Music: Music Of The Night |
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