melancholy so much happened for me and it felt like
so many times happened in just a span of one year.
from my dad`s retrenchment, to my transition to a new school,
to making a greatest mistake in life, to discovering the most painful
truth, to realizing that my mother`s illness, to losing my faith,
and the many hiccups along the way-
i have truly went through so much.
i guess it`s time to wipe the slate clean, and to start afresh.
the ghosts of the past have a habit of returning
once you start reading your older entries,
so i`m leaving
_spasticated to rot.tomorrow, school starts and i hope i will be bombarded with work,
to keep myself focus and all.
guess i`m really an escapist.
i`m always running away from trouble.
so much for my "grabbing life by the balls" attitude
when i was in my secondary school days.
i`m so much a none confronter now.
it`s like everything seems to be really troublesome now.
well, i`m only keeping one memory from last year.
christmas eve with my family.
just that short 10 minute, frozen in time with a picture.
