All our secrets they are tailored trouble - January 9th, 2006

Today, i was strucked with something very unexplainable.
there was a sudden surge to my heart
and it became very heavy, and i was extremely bothered by it.
my heart was so heavy, and it was very bad omen.
it was like something bad happened to someone closed to me
and i was very trouble with this feeling.

it got so bad, my head started hurting.
thinking that it was my mother, i rushed home.
i didn`t dare to call to check because-
if something really bad happened to her,
she wouldn`t be able to pick up the phone.
and if nothing happened to her, she`ll probably scold me
for being retarded.

so i rushed home.
i enter the house, called for my mum.
no answer.
panicks, start looking around my house.
then when i got into my parent`s bedroom..

i saw my mother changing the baby diapers.
breath.
i swear i didn`t breath from the time i stepped into my house
till i reached my parent`s room.

major scare,
but this really affected me.
my head hurts like hell after that and i felt like puking.
bloody sucky feeling.

i don`t know what i would do if this ominous feeling came true.