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Everyone says I'm ridiculous to even bother counting down, but fuck them. They have no idea how much the decreasing number on this shit means to me.

Word's out, I finally had the chance to material an idea. And very keen to work on it asap, so thank god the lull period is here.

My paul frank specs are finally fitted with lenses, and i'm trying to get use to the reduce surface. Lol. It's been a while since I've been wearing my other big frame specs.

No pictures yet, but I will post soon.

My goal of buying a 5dmk2 is slowly crumbling, instead I am having thoughts of getting a 7D instead. Will have starting doing my research first. I find it so hard so save money. I've finally saved half of what's needed for a 5dmk2 (with much difficult no thanks to my spending habits) and I am proud that i've saved more then i have ever saved in my whole life.

I really need to start getting into the habit, lol. Last online shopping knock a big chunk out, and the recent uniqlo sales didn't help. But at least for uniqlo i only spent below 30 bucks for 3 items. mmh.

Cleaned my room yesterday and it's looking rather bare now, since my brother moved back into his room (together with my ps3!). There's always that desire go to IKEA and buy things, but since I'm on the saving mood I need to stop giving myself chances to do impulse buying.

Recently i told hy what was starting to eat me and i thought it would be better once i let it out, but apparently it doesn't help. it's still going on very strongly. why oh why must it come at this point of time?

Had to friendlock the previous entry just for safety sake. So for my friends who want to find out what happened, just grab a lj account and add me.

Guess what came in the mail two days back?

I R lazy, so I simply grabbed my mom's point and shoot camera instead of firing up my dslr, so go figure on the picture quality (I hate the flash). Anyway I've went ahead and made the lens (which cost me $95 for multicoated lens) and also shortened the watch strap.







The loot came in perfect quality, so I have nothing to complain about. I'm kinda happy to find out that the watch used to cost 200 USD, and I bought it for so much less. I love the watch, though it has a habit of pulling my fine arm hair between the grooves. Something that I need to get used to.

Oh and I'm too lazy to read the time from it, I'm too used to relying on my phone for the time.

Have I ever talked about the upcoming Norwegian Wood adaptation film by Anh Hung Tran? I think i didnt, so here's my 2 cent: I HATE IT.

Okay I know it's not fair to comment even before the film is released (2010, wow i cannot wait to watch how bad it is), the idea of a non-japanese shooting it already bugs me. Can he capture those quiet japanese nunances of the book? This is like my all time favorite Murakami book (though the more I re-read Dance Dance Dance the more it's rubbing the shine off NW).

The only person I know that I can trust Murakami's work to is Jun Ichikawa, whose adaptation of Tony Takitani, is perfect in my eyes. And did I mention how awesome Tokyo Marigold was when it screened in Singapore?

I mean seriously, Ken'ichi Matsuyama as Toru? Epic fail casting already. TORU IS SO NOT L DESU. NEVER EVER USE POPULAR PEOPLE FOR MURAKAMI'S NOVELS, RULE NUMBER 1. Rinko Kikuchi is no Naoko too.

HYPERVENTS.

Okay ya ya ya, even though I'm flipping at the details, I cannot wait to watch this film. 2010 please come soon.

i find it increasingly difficult to sit down and write anything. i keep having so much ideas and dreams, but they are all just fragmented pieces of ideas that don't gel.

i wished i had more willpower.

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Had plans to buy a new pair of specs from Paul Frank was planning on getting them locally before I accidentally discovered a cheaper alternative online. Even after shipping and throwing in the 15% discount code (BLKFRIDAY), it is far cheaper than buying it here ($350-400).

And I ended up buying a watch too because I couldnt resist how beautiful it looks. Gotta love black metal watches. Oh the pain and woe on my wallet. How am I going to buy my mbp and dslr at this rate!

2 words: FUCKING KICKASS.

Okay so I cheated, but hell this female beatboxer is damn good. Love the collab with the piano.

Still have a couple of pictures from the other day, from hy's sony cam. Not exactly the best set of pictures, but I shopped it to bring the colors out.

Went for my specialist review today at TTSH for my knee/shin problem and the doc said it was something to do with cartilage or something and I had to go for physio. Thighs are too tight or something and are causing a lot of force to act on it.

I should probably go get an ECG for my chest pains, but then I decided there that I will adopt a wait and see. Medical isn't exactly 100% free for a NSF, much to dismay when I found I had to pay for my consultation today.

Anyway, got to book back to camp now. Gah.

I imagined how wonderful it would be if indeed we could be lovers. I longed for the warmth of her skin on mine. I pictured us married, living together. But I had to face the fact that Sumire had no such romantic feelings for me, let alone sexual interest. Occasionally she'd stay over at my apartment after we'd talked into the small hours, but there was never even the slightest hint of romance. Come 2 or 3am and she'd yawn, crawl into bed, sink her face into my pillow and fall fast asleep. I'd spread out some bedding on the floor and lie down, but I couldn't sleep, my mind full of fantasies, confused thoughts, self-loathing. Sometimes the inevitable physical reactions would cause me grief, and I'd lie awake in misery until dawn.

It was hard to accept that she had almost no feelings, maybe none at all, for me as a man. This hurt so bad at times it felt like someone was gouging out my guts with a knife. Still, the time I spent with her was more precious than anything. She helped me forget the undertone of loneliness in my life. She expanded the outer edges of my world, helped me draw a deep soothing breath. Only Sumire could do that for me.

- Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart

We bought hy a collector edition of the golden half from thirtysix|36 at sunshine plaza for her birthday and went out to marina barrage to give the baby a test spin. Still waiting for the pictures to be developed, but thankfully we brought along a dslr too.

Been a while since we last went out in the day, so you can finally see us basking in the sun. i'm pretty sure we are no cullen since we aren't sparkling. okay bad twilight reference.





































Photos taken with a 400d + Tamron 18-55mm lens

And yeah, i finally did a couple of things i wanted to do that i haven done in a while: camwhoring, jumping shots and having a hell lot of fun.

Shot with a 500d with 50mm f/1.4 lens.

Myself and my fellow specialists from my platoon. Pictures of them taken by myself, the rest by the owner of camera who was given a LOA to bring his in. Lucky.

i'm really tired of my military life. it's tedious, monotone and uninteresting. i haven had fun in the longest time ever because i find people around me so lame. they laugh at the stupidest of thing, see things so narrowly and nobody ever has an intellectual discussion about anything remotely interesting to me.

i know i don't belong there, even though i give my very best in doing my job and still do a decent job at it; at the end of the day the result is still the same, whether or not i've lived up to expectations.

i want to get out fast. there's so many things out there that i want to do, and i screaming inside of myself crazy each day when i can't do them. i want to go to film festivals when i want to and not be restricted to weekend screenings, take pictures with my 10d which is collecting dust already, shoot a million of short films, go to airports and do crazy things, crash at my friend's place and play, find love in a bookstore, dance to electronic music, shopping and regretting later, repainting the walls of my room, furniture shopping and completely redesigning my room, drink shitloads of sake and binge on salmon sashimi like the old days, talk to strangers about how awesome whatever film is, laugh at drunk people, picnics by the river, kissing and holding hands, finding the deeper purpose of why the fuck i'm here and a whole lot of other things.

if the world's ending in 2012, then i only have 3 more years to do all of that. and dying at 25 is the perfect age so just let me do what i want so i can live a fulfilling life, rather than be wrinkled, disabled, dying from whatever cancer shit and waiting to only die.



i haven jumped like this in a while.

dear god,

let me meet someone who is cuddly and soft, petite with short hair, great fashion sense, intelligent and understanding and knows the difference between 1050p and 1080i. Well actually that last part is not necessary but it's just for kicks ya.

then i'll mess it up, screw up big time and be back to square one. because i wasn't programmed to know how to reciprocate right?

i'm never gonna meet that someone am i?

Took a walk with the best friend last night and finally found out what was bothering him all this while. Always thought that something was up with him, ever since he started with this whole newfound drive to change himself. That wasn't him.

And it wouldn't help one change the situation anyway.

Talking to him only made me realized I was quite the opposite in his situation. I would choose to be trapped in the same moment, replaying it over and over again rather than try to change anything.

And... my scripts have always been the same, probably because of that.

I'm feeling a lot worst these days. It's about time this mask I wear fades off.

Oh meh, this blog is freaking dusty now. Time for a little update. Life, is as usual. I've been more busy now that I'm the official arrow board for all video related projects that my OC has up his sleeve.

Not that I'm complaining since I get all the practice I need, but it's a real bitch when you don't have your own mac to do the edit. Been ninja-ing people's macs and even returning back to school to edit (which the head of film isn't too friendly about, sadly).

I've started writing again, this time I'm writing a novel instead of a script, I think I'm finding it hard to put my ideas in a script, so I've decided to just write it the way like a story book first then see whether it's possible to convert it.

Watched 500 days of summer last weekend, and it was so good it made me so sad. It captured exactly the feel and mood I wanted for Fragments. I have much to learn. I got the OST and I'm digging every track.

I need to get the dvd.

It's been a while since I updated.

Currently still in camp, so thought I did pen a bit of my thoughts here. My first batch of recruits graduated yesterday, leaving me a sense of achievement and yet loss. To be able to shape a platoon of different people into a cohesive team is my greatest joy. It really does bring satisfaction to the mundane-ness of army life.

But it's all gone now. And I'm back to zero tomorrow when my new batch of recruits come in. Unfortunately for us, we are taking back-to-back intakes with no break inbetween. On top of that, next batch I will take on the role as a platoon sergeant, which in some degree would take me away from my men. I like the scope of a section commander better, but I can't say no to new challenges, and of course, better pay. Hah.

I hope my next batch is as solid as this batch. Otherwise I'm gonna miss my first batch alot. Ah wells.

/me needs to get back to my 1 day platoon sergeant prep course now.

Haven posted in a while, not because I have nothing to write, but because there's so much things going on and most of that I can't talk about because it's all army related stuff. Gah.

But the highest key note is that my OC has announced that I will be promoted to become a platoon sergeant next batch. Am quite excited and a little worried at the same time. I think I'll be able to pull it off, but I'm still wet behind the ears.

I'm spending too much effort in camp, and I haven been working on any scripts lately. This sucks. Ah wells.

Couples of new stuff over the week, am lazy to take a picture of them so text only.

First up, I went to the official opening of Ion Orchard and bought a very nice leather belt from Pedro. 20% discount on that! Ion Orchard in my honest opinion is just so so. There are a couple of nice stores, but not enough new unique ones.

The brother bought me a nice set of audio technica earphones (ATH-CK300M) for my birthday. Very niffy looking, sound-wise it's not too bad too. I'm not really an audiophile so it's good enough for me.

Met up with kimberly today, finally someone that speaks film! Been so out of the loop so it was really refreshing to get updated. She also passed me a copy of her short film Homecoming Carr. It's pretty good, considering it's just a solo project.

Also, I've been training on my Noel for Blazblue and I must say I'm finally better at her, no more a Drive spammer! Lulz.

And... am very tempted to sub Aion Online. It's been confirmed that Singapore won't be locked out of the US servers. And and and.. the art makes me wet my pants. Nevermind the fact I'll only be able to play it on weekends. =/