hi

tightropes_ @ 2006-08-12T15:22:00

2006-08-12T22:22:31Z

i am home from hawaii and it was spectacular. update later.

tightropes_ @ 2006-07-25T20:18:00

2006-07-26T03:19:37Z

you taught me exactly who i want to be.

tightropes_ @ 2006-07-02T15:03:00

2006-07-02T22:03:38Z

i'm glad someone hacked into my myspace. really, it makes me ecstatic. can't you tell?

tightropes_ @ 2006-05-31T22:58:00

2006-06-01T05:58:39Z

i feel really really good... and sooooooo tired.

:D

tightropes_ @ 2006-05-21T14:20:00

2006-05-21T21:20:57Z

I think letting you go was the smartest decision I ever made. Even though I loved you so much, I just couldn't deal with the pain. And the times we spent together, holding each other, were the best times of my life. But no matter how much I wanted to keep you in my arms, I couldn't. I couldn't hold onto you, knowing that all you were going to do was hurt me. But right now, even though I still love you, I don't need you anymore. I don't need you to complete me. I just need you to support me and listen to me when I talk. So I guess what I'm saying is, I'm glad we're over. I'm glad I've let go.

tightropes_ @ 2006-05-21T12:33:00

2006-05-21T19:36:00Z

To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.

tightropes_ @ 2006-05-19T16:56:00

2006-05-19T23:56:30Z

i have a feeling marissa didn't actually die and surely she'll be back next season. what what

tightropes_ @ 2006-05-16T07:18:00

2006-05-16T14:20:26Z

please weather don't be 90 something degrees like you were yesterdayyy PLEASE

he looks like he needs some sexual healllinggg

actually that songs' just stuck in my head... but he does!

mi hermano y yo

melanie......what is that face

HEY HEY guess who we are?!

i am always on the left side of pictures.. well right technically.. but left..?
:)
have a good day

tightropes_ @ 2006-05-01T20:51:00

2006-05-02T04:08:54Z

ok i'm so happy with things right now,
i know there are a few of you having not-so-hot of a time, so feel better :(
and if you want to talk, i'm here!

i went to a save-darfur rally on sunday, it was really breath taking and interesting, and i really want to aware all of you of what is exactly going on in the world outside of you right now, because you need to know. and you need to help, all of you can help. for those of you that don't know, there is a Janjaweed malitia that is basically causing a genocide, taking out all the black population in africa, for their land. by "taking out" i'm not just saying killing, there is rape and so many other horrible acts taken upon these people. it's like the holocaust all over again, but a different race (doesn't matter). please help! and visit http://www.savedarfur.org, thanksss!!

"your voice is important, do not be silent"

ok bye :]

tightropes_ @ 2006-04-27T20:35:00

2006-04-28T03:38:24Z

check out my big eye, little eye... ahhhh!!

wow hahaha I look really high in the second of my brother and I, YESS!
I FEEL SO HAPPY, I love it. I'm over all that shit, and it shows.
I've gotten almost all of my grades back up, to atleast B's! :) And
everything is just well. Except Ashley is in Hawaii and I miss her dearly.

I will update later. THE OC IS ON SOOO SOON!

tightropes_ @ 2006-04-19T07:29:00

2006-04-19T14:29:19Z

fuck you. fuckkf86e8uf

i know that i was bad to you at times, but you, you couldn't have been worse.

tightropes_ @ 2006-04-16T23:07:00

2006-04-17T06:07:33Z

i have honestly had panic! at the disco songs stuck in my head since i woke up this morning --
and i still do. what's up?

tightropes_ @ 2006-04-14T22:15:00

2006-04-15T05:16:14Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kwX6KXE26N8

check that out ;)
i love melanie
and her almost 48 hours with me
ok?

tightropes_ @ 2006-04-12T22:30:00

2006-04-13T05:33:19Z

haha, i have some goody pictures.
you won't like them. i <3 you.

cory came on monday to visit for a little bit :)
i was so so so happy to see him, and obviously he was happy to see me
(no.. he looked completely miserable the whole time.) BUT THATS OK
i still <3 him a lot and how he went into the scary haunted bathrooms :(

ohhh and yeah, im azn.

how could i forget mr. barron? he was great. he has a stoma and sat with me at lunch.
he made such a great speach about how you are as a person, smoking, and a lot more. yay.

OH GOD! AND I LOVE TAYLOR!
look what she made :D

tightropes_ @ 2006-04-11T17:40:00

2006-04-12T00:40:06Z

i absolutely want to die
cool

tightropes_ @ 2006-04-08T10:37:00

2006-04-08T17:37:31Z

okay okay!

tightropes_ @ 2006-04-03T20:13:00

2006-04-04T03:20:54Z

these are pictures from my weekend :] enjoyyy

the following our impressions of random people on my contact list in my phone..
we got bored :D you might be one!!

uh huh uh huh

ashleys jacket was amazing, target has the best clothes!

what a pretty face...

more impressions...

oookay okay i just got home from starbucks,
where i met the love of my life for the THIRD time
and he remembered me :D hahaha but yeah i love him ok bye.

LIFE IS GOOD! btw

tightropes_ @ 2006-04-01T02:12:00

2006-04-01T10:13:23Z

ok hi

i'm trying to understand myself and pinpoint where i am
but by the time i get things figured out i've change the whole damn plan

tightropes_ @ 2006-03-31T01:00:00

2006-03-31T09:00:50Z

tonight couldn't have been better
i am so so happy, this is how it's supposed to be

the oc was good 2

tightropes_ @ 2006-03-30T14:32:00

2006-03-30T22:32:52Z

I'M SO HAPPY TO BE HOOMMEEE!! SO SO HAPPY
AND TONIGHT IS GOING TO BE WONDEROUS I CAN FEEL IT
AND SO IS SATURDAY! AND SUNDAY! AND AHHH I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO THAT DEATH HOLE.

I WILL UPDATE LATER

tightropes_ @ 2006-03-27T21:29:00

2006-03-28T05:26:46Z

i'm in san francisco
it is nice
i get home thursday
that's even nicer
i miss everyone ever

there is lots to update on
i will when i get home

goodnight and i love you

tightropes_ @ 2006-03-20T23:11:00

2006-03-21T07:12:07Z

i don't even know how to act anymore
not literally, i'm obviously myself
but i don't know who that is..
understand? god dammit
i need to just sleep

today was nice though, yay ty spencer :]

tightropes_ @ 2006-03-12T20:06:00

2006-03-13T04:09:43Z

that was downtown portland. i reallyreally wanted those motion
blurred lights pictures, and i got them! i like the way they look.

ashley decided to document me washing my foot off..
we went to the park at the water tower real late and i stepped
RIGHT into the biggest puddle/pile of mud. it was sickkkk

god ashley and i had a magnificent time this weekend! haha it was funny.
she's one of the funniest people i've ever met.. TRUE STORY!
but in the next month, if everyone is obsessed with theme songs, i'm going to kill.

melzy and i went to eat and watched tons of movies, which by the way, i cried in each..bawled...

hi! i can hear better out of my ears now :)
except i still sound like a froggish man... YES!!

i have a feeling this trimester will be good for me. i'm really going to try my best, because i want my parents to be proud of me. it's kinda cliche, but my older sister is a big reason they are proud. what do i do to make them ever happy? ... yeah.. nothing really at all. for once i want to show them that i can strive and do good for what i want :) also, aside from academically, this next couple of weeks i'm going to be going through a change.. basically lifestyle change. i'm going to put more care into what i do, what i say, my relationships with people. i want to take all the care i had in people that don't even know me, and add that onto the care i have for my closest companions. ahhh everything is going to feel so good. i already feel really good with myself, and it's been a while. so this is nice. and if i have my friends and family to keep me as content as i need to be, then i don't need that extra attention at all. i do miss kisses a lot though bahahah. i hope everyone had great weekends :)

tightropes_ @ 2006-03-11T12:48:00

2006-03-11T20:49:24Z

i have never been so sick!
i can't breathe, nor hear, and gahhhh! its horrible

tightropes_ @ 2006-03-08T20:00:00

2006-03-09T04:10:14Z

Okay I'm definitely one of those people that always has a crush on a boy. Not like a certain boy in particular, but you know. That's how I am, and I hate it :( I think people like that are just insecure I guess. I never thought of myself being this way, but I guess I always knew I was. It's not necessarily a bad thing. I just don't want to by like this. I want to be able to just not care about anything, any way people think of me. People these days are so fucked in the head socially. It's really annoying. Everyone tries to impress one another, people do things in order to fit in, people do things thinking people they WANT to be friends with will think it's cool (no one does, you just seem like a total and complete annoying moron), people just care way too much. Last year I was exactly what I want to be now. I cared about nothing, except school, family, and friends. I didn't care to dress a certain way, or act a certain way, to impress people. And now I KNOW I do that. I'm not bad with it though, because there is half of me knowing who I truely am, and that caring what people think isn't me. That's seems kind of rude. I care what people think when they TALK to me, and KNOW me to even be able to judge me in the first place. Because then I would never stick up for myself. Because I care. But I know that half or more of the school has judged me, based on knowing nothing true about me, and frankly I don't really mind it. It just sucks because I don't get the chance to actually become friends with most people. Most people judge very easily. Rumors also spread really easily. I've had a couple but I think in high school, they last merely a week or two. It's funny really, because I spread rumors RIGHT after I realize how completely disgusting they are. Why is drama and gossiping so damn addicting?

I really want to have a good talk with someone. Is it weird that when I do have good talks, it's always with boys, and sometimes boys that I barely even know. It's what adjusts me to people. Before I'm even close with them, I always seem to open up really easily. I've done that with all the past boys I've been close to. It's just that every time I talk with one of my good girl friends, I never really have one of those talks I'm in love with. It always just ends up with them agreeing with me, to make me happy. That's good and all but I don't get an in depth conversation. I don't learn anything. I love to death being able to feel like you've grown and learned something new about yourself, and life in general, after a conversation. I know that that's what I'm always missing and I'm hoping I'll find someone soon to talk to. I just want to spill about life. lifeee. life.

I need to study for finals.