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LiveJournal for the girl with the broken smile... </3.
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| Saturday, July 8th, 2006 |
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M- well, it's been almost 3 weeks. honestly, i never expected to find someone as amazing as you. you're constantly saying that you dont deserve me, but you cant even see what a great person you are. or, you're just modest, which sometimes i think you are. its a great thing, and its one of the reasons i really really like you. youre so different than any other guy ive met. you're everything i could have ever wanted. i thought i knew love, until i found you... and it made me realize what ive been settling for all these years. you had your friends drive all the way to my house only for 5 minutes just so you could see me before you had to go out that night. no one has ever made me feel so special before. i just wish i found you sooner... i dont want to think that i have to leave you. i was so excited to spend the last two years of high school, maybe even more... with you. this is more painful for me than youll ever know. i get this feeling in my gut whenever i think of you upset, it pains me so much to know that youre not happy, and we cant be together. ive cried almost every night this week just because i havent been able to hold you and tell you it's okay. the only time ive ever felt truly complete in my life has been when you have your arms around me. it makes me feel at home... and i feel infinite. i wish i never had to leave your side. i dont know if i'll ever be able to tell you all this, or if we have a future together, but im going to try to accept the fact that if its not supposed to happen, it's not. i hope one of these days ill truly be able to believe that. ill be seeing you... keep in touch, babe. you are the best thing that's ever happened to me. love, me |
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| Monday, January 2nd, 2006 |
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Weekly Flirt (LAST WEEK) 12/26/2005 - 01/01/2006 Follow your instincts early this week and you'll learn lots more than you probably wanted to know about that certain someone. It's all good -- and it will help you make up your mind about them once and for all. You'll want to snap into action right away, but outside forces will get in the way on Wednesday and Thursday. After those roadblocks, the weekend will be fun and lead to a stronger romantic connection if you're up for it. On Sunday you'll be left to your own devices and might find puttering around the house to be unusually rewarding. ---------------------------------------- Daily Overview (YESTERDAY) 1/01/2006 Are you really always the innocent bystander, or are there actions you could be taking to change the outcome of certain events? It's time to watch your behavior, speech and intentions if you want to grow. ---------------------------------------- Daily Extended (TODAY) 1/03/2006 When it comes to work, you're one of the few signs who'll do more than you have to, automatically, without mentioning it, looking for credit or trying to make someone else look bad because they didn't get to it first. Of course, this often means that you can be taken advantage of if you're not careful, and this is one of those times. If your antennae are telling you there's something wrong with this situation, or if whomever has asked for your help with a situation that's not quite aboveboard, ask a friend for an objective opinion. Daily Extended (TOMORROW) 1/03/2006 Still not in the mood to get to work? Well, then, don't. Now, as dutiful as you are, just thinking along those lines sends a chill down your responsible little spine, but that's all the more reason for you to take the day off and see how the other half lives -- the half that actually considers 'mental health days' just as important as physical health days. Oh, go ahead! Join the ranks, even if it's just for now. Spoil yourself. ---------------------------------------- Monthly Romantic (THIS MONTH) January And a happy romantic New Year to you! Well, well, well, if it isn't you by the punch bowl, flirting and batting your eyelashes and doing whatever it is you do until the wee hours of the 1st! Who, pray tell, has tickled your New Year's fancy? Be sure to get their number and give them yours before the party's over, because they could be somebody you don't want to lose track of this year. As dawn, well ... dawns on the 1st, get ready to experiment a little with finding new ways to navigate your emotions. That's going to be one of your big projects this year, so get started now. The 5th, 6th and 7th, double-check your finances before you commit to any big-ticket dates, and on the 13th, remember that it's a Friday. Stay away from a potentially unlucky dating situation -- go out with your friends instead! On the 19th, 20th and 21st, you could find yourself making a decision regarding someone who could turn into a romantic partner. Cool! Get ready on the 26th and 27th -- it's romance time! could horoscopes get ANY more true? wow..those are creepy.. & right on target. <333 |
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| Thursday, December 29th, 2005 |
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i am about to punch someone. |
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| Tuesday, December 13th, 2005 |
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hey..wow. i havent been on lj for almost a year. this is so wierd, i never really thought id come back to the online journal thing, but as long as this is private from my friends then im good. i guess ive been okay this year, my summer was awesome. when i came back for school things got rough with my friends, i felt like they didnt want to be near me anymore. but eventually things changed, and i found my place, and all was well. i would occasionally have the minor freak outs, but other than that i was pretty much set. i recently started going to a therapist though, because ive been negative about my school and a lot of things in general.a lot of frustrations have been pent up inside me, but im working towards changing that. winter break is right around the corner, and im definitely in need for a rest. after a nice week of thanksgiving break of staying up late and partying, and then a long 2 1/2 weeks of school, i need to catch up on sleep and then get right back to partying right through the start of 2006. im so pumped. anyway, i just found out that im moving, which is interesting.. i think im pretty happy about it actually, except i havent told my friends that. i dont want to make them feel bad. so yeah, i guess im generally pretty damnn happy at this point!! i LOVE the holidays, just the feeling, buying presents for people, singing christmas songs, baking cookies, snow.. i cant get enough of it. i should get back to my math hw.. later<33 -anonymous |
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| Sunday, January 9th, 2005 |
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i can't tell you how much school is getting on my nerves. i mean i have good friends and everything, i really do, but they get annoying. very annoying. most of them can be soo materialistic sometimes. i wont lie, i am too, but with them it can get irritating. like they get allllllll this expensive stuff for christmas- everything juicy, tiffany's, burberry, a&f, everything designer. it's not that i don't like or have things from those brands, and that i dont get anything for christmas, but its just that they all get SO MUCH of it. usually i get one large present for each holiday, which is fine with me. and i rarely get presents from family. my family members arent as rich as some, so it discourages and even embarasses me when my friends list all this stuff they get, and then ask my what i got. and i say a few things, and then they go so did you get any toher stuff? is that it? and it really hurts me.. b.c i feel like its all they care about. and another thing... when my friends' birthdays come up, all they can think about is presents presents PRESENTS. its alllllllll they talk about. ooh, i cant wait til i get my presents! so what do you think youre gonna buy me? have you gotten my gift yet? i think i'm getting this. it bugs the HELL out of me. i never get alot for my birthday anymore, and i feel like i'm a disappointment to them because i dont receive bunches of things. im applying out this year.. to a school that i am so in love with!! its so awesome....... i cant even begin to describe. i want to get in so badly. i know i probably wont, but i really need this. --anonymous |
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| Tuesday, December 28th, 2004 |
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hey its me. as you can probably tell i'm really bored, since i just updated like 2 minutes ago.. anyway, there's something on my mind. a friend's recent lj entry got me thinking. i'm not gonna use her real name, so let's just call her jen. jen wrote in her lj: "i wish you knew the reason why i can't trust you anymore". she went on to talk about how she keeps on "remembering the things you did to me" and how she "can't be friends w. you" or some shit like that. i don't get it.. and she thinks i use her. hah. does she even realize how she uses me to get rides to dances??? she doesn't talk to me for like 2 months ((and MOST of the time whenever i do talk to her she's either really bitchy/won't say more than hi to me)) and then she goes all fake-nicey nice on me and is like "will u give me a ride please please i love youuu". yeah, well i don't buy it. AT ALL. so i think i'll just ignore you and never talk to you again since that's obviously what you want me to do. if you're even TALKING about me. if not, i'm not taking any of this back. this is how i've felt since our first fight, even if we patched things up. you're never going to change and you're never going to stop doing what you've always done to me. despite all the good times, you've been a backstabbing, whining, friend-hogging, critical bitch and i don't think i'll ever be able to forgive you. remember that time last year? when you knew VERY CLEARLY that i still liked my ex- bf. and then he asks you to dance and you say yes and blatantly rub it in my face. THEN you go pretend that you "didn't know it was him". again, I DON'T BUY IT. i wasn't born yesterday, sweetie, i KNOW you knew. and even though it's stupid to be angry about that, even though i don't own the guy, even though i had already broken up with him, it definitely hurt that you danced w. him and rubbed my nose in it, then you pretended to be all innocent. that was what hurt A LOT. and you'll never know how much it did, because i really loved him. we were so close. and even though i'll never be with him again, you just had to do it, didn't you? and then you did the same thing to another friend of ours even a few months ago. this proves to me that it's all gonna be the same. i know i'm not perfect, but let's not get into that. this here is about you and what you did to me. thanks a lot. goodbye and have tons of fun with your new friends because im sure they're really great. <3 anonymous |
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hi. this is my first entry in this journal. i prefer to leave my identity unknown, but if you have stumbled across this journal somehow, feel free to read it. i really don't care who reads this journal, nor do i care if no one reads it at all, as long it doesn't reach anyone from my school. i have a different livejournal that all my friends read, but it doesnt really fit the description of a journal. i wanted a place where i could actually write what i was thinking about people and situations without making some huge predicament out of it. so, i decided to create this. as you see i have no friends listed, only my interests. this is done on purpose. so if you are reading this now, feel free to comment. <3 anonymous |
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LiveJournal for the girl with the broken smile... </3.
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