Date:	2008-11-05 08:03
Subject:	Dude
Security:	Public
Mood:	accomplished
Music:	The All-American Rejects - Move Along

The man fucking did it.

Date:	2008-08-28 20:36
Subject:	3-4-3
Security:	Public
Mood:	sad
Music:	Coldplay - Fix You

Here again,
I wait 'til you;
wait for me.

Date:	2008-08-24 01:28
Subject:	Yeah...
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	Saosin - It's Far Better To Learn

But seriously, get a life bitch.

Date:	2008-08-10 22:25
Subject:	If Only...
Security:	Public
Mood:	pensive
Music:	From First To Last - We All Turn Back To Dust

...I got a better hold of what you are and could tell myself: I'm living the good life.

Date:	2008-06-27 23:58
Subject:	No I Won't
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	Thrice - The Messenger

So goddamn creepy.

Date:	2008-06-21 23:41
Subject:	This City
Security:	Public
Mood:	awake
Music:	Scary Kids Scaring Kids - What's Said And Done

And when the night ends in a drunken stupor and I find myself lost, following the curved roads that crawl among these giant concrete structures, I think to myself:

This city is gonna fucking eat me.

Date:	2008-05-14 21:47
Subject:	Kent B!
Security:	Public
Mood:	aggravated
Music:	The Ataris - Secret Handshakes

 So, in big cities, it's normal for a 10-kilometer commute to take up to an hour and a half?

Date:	2008-05-11 22:35
Subject:	Times
Security:	Public
Mood:	exhausted
Music:	Death Cab For Cutie - Expo '86

So school ended something like three weeks ago - turned out that my grades were way better than expected - and I've been since wandering between my place and my parent's to unscramble a bit of what I'd become.

Got a five-day notice that I got the job I wanted in Montreal and got four to find a place to live for the summer. After all the mayhem it caused, it's good to finally realize that everything is slowly falling into place and that I'm ready to start by tomorrow. It's incredible how no matter I think I'm confidently driving to where I'm going, sometimes I just feel like I'm only desperately trying to catch the train that rarely stops.

Had a dinner for Mother's Day before moving here, and it was perhaps the first time I realized we were now four generations sitting at the table. Suddenly, all the discussions I've had with my folks about money for moving and school were pointless. It was also the first time I've realized how quickly everyone else and I grew up this year. Dad told me about how I should be done with school fast, how he and my mom are retiring in a few years and things wouldn't be the same then.

It's sad, very sad.

Date:	2008-04-23 17:11
Subject:	Huh?
Security:	Public
Mood:	indescribable
Music:	Protest The Hero - Blood Meat

Well this dude doesn't even need to show up on Dateline...

Date:	2008-03-28 21:21
Subject:	I Used To Love Crappy J-Rock
Security:	Public
Mood:	aggravated
Music:	Metric - Poster Of A Girl

I'm bored. So I turn on the television to MusiquePlus, and Tokio Hotel is playing. I change the channel to MuchLoud, and it's Tokio Hotel again.

Haven't we learned anything in thousands of years of evolution?

Date:	2008-03-21 18:25
Subject:	Oh Noes
Security:	Public
Mood:	crushed
Music:	Coheed & Cambria - Devil In Jersey City

Mental breakdown's coming. I can feel it.

Date:	2008-03-15 16:49
Subject:	Breathe In/Breathe Out
Security:	Public
Mood:	indescribable
Music:	Coldplay - Everything's Not Lost

It's been a pretty odd week for me; not that everything happening was of a great degree of weirdness, but mainly because I've been halfway between being totally jubilant about life, and complete depression.

It all started by the rejection of my candidature for a summer job I've already worked at. I quickly switched from being really angry to being really disappointed in myself. I guess I've overestimated my capacities, the result being to be screwed big time at the entrance ranking exam. But oh, well, I guess I can't blame anyone but myself; I knew exactly what to expect and didn't work much towards attaining that goal.

Now everything else seems to be working okay; good grades are getting in at school and snow has started to (finally) melt in this part of the country. I'm still feeling good overall, but having to find a job that is going to be (for sure) less interesting than the one I really wanted kind of pisses me off.

Let's just blame it on some sort of seasonal bipolar condition.

Date:	2008-02-25 21:22
Subject:	Bigger Than The Sum Of It All
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit

Okay. I don't recall going to a huge arena to watch a ''mainstream'' band. In fact, I usually go to the smallest clubs. I'm so underground. This being said, I can't say that I was disappointed by the Linkin Park concert I attended this weekend. It was, plain and simple, just too good to be true.

Chiodos opened up before even the place was half-packed. I must admit that I've never really listened to their stuff, and wasn't impressed either by what I had heard that far. You know, screamo, how matter you pull it out, is still screamo. But they came up with a pretty decent gig, trying their best to warm up the crowd before the main acts. Made me want to check out their stuff, but nothing more.

Now comes the band that I most wanted to see: Coheed & Cambria. Letting alone the shitty crowd that only made them feel like they didn't belong there for the whole 45 minutes they've spent on stage, I was in awe. Total awe. That band has been one of my favorites for a few years now, and I was quite surprised they played songs from all of their albums, including the awkward Delirium Trigger and the (extremely) epic In Keeping Secrets. Adding a keyboard section and two girls singing back vocals wasn't a bad idea either; it gave a certain dimension to (especially their old) songs. I felt kinda sad, though, that I didn't get to see them headlining; the people there barely knew who they were and the connection simply wasn't there. But hey, I guess I'll have the chance to see them again sometime.

Now for the headline. Where should I begin?

Let's do it from the start. As they set off the tone for the whole concert with their success What I've Done, it was well, a hit after another. A collection of very powerful songs that no one could resist to raise their fist and sing along to. No matter if it was a very introspective piece like Shadow of the Day or a more ''aggressive'' one like One Step Closer, the energy was overwhelming. Period. Even if anyone could argue about their actual musical talent, their capacities to put on a live show are leaving no doubt, plus they really look sincere at doing it. And to me, one couldn't ask more to a live performance than a bunch of musicians that are actually having fun.

I really enjoyed a stripped-down version of Breaking The Habit they've performed during the encore and the smooth, ambient transitions they put out between each song; the whole concert was flowing slowly, yet it was over before I knew it. They also integrated to their live performance a set of five suspended moving screens that displayed visuals in synch with the music. As little as I know about concerts like these, it was the first time I've heard about such technology.

Now I can't tell if I'm going to attend more arena rock concerts in the future (I got a scene ego that's struggling for survival), but one thing remains: I'll never regret going to this one.

Date:	2008-02-18 23:25
Subject:	Headbangs & Singalongs
Security:	Public
Mood:	complacent
Music:	Thrice - Firebreather

Seeing Thrice in concert was probably the closest to a contact with any superior force I will ever have. Jokes of fan-crush aside, I left the venue with a total loss for words; a weird mixture of numbness and contemplation regarding what just happened. 

Because what happened was everything but a concert.

It was a mass communion, a common cry of joy, of pain, of anger. The energy was flowing through all of us, feeling like we were about to raise above this bottomless sea. We were them, they were us.

I don't even know if I can explain any further because of the total state of awe I'm in. I feel like I'll never completely understand it for what it is. For it was hard and it was soft. It was the light of day and the sorrow of nights spent alone.

It was the nothing and the everything. Everything, but ones and zeroes.

Date:	2008-02-08 18:01
Subject:	I Just Came.
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited
Music:	Taking Back Sunday - Divine Intervention

Testament's Alex Skolnick is playing tonight. At my college. For free.

Date:	2008-02-04 22:31
Subject:	Next Time I'll Get Free Beers
Security:	Public
Mood:	accomplished
Music:	Funeral For A Friend - Alvarez

So it took me a semester and a little bit to finally feel like I'm worth being at college.

Maybe I'm a fucking freak, or maybe I just don't try hard enough to belong. But last weekend was actually the first time I felt that at least some people appreciate me in this little town. And what a better way to discover the local music scene than to go at a small Battle of the Bands contest, bringing all the little people we are together on the campus.

I'm rambling, I know. But at least I feel good about it.

Date:	2008-01-16 19:55
Subject:	1's And 0's
Security:	Public
Mood:	impressed
Music:	Thrice - Digital Sea

I can't remember the last time a video moved me like this one did. Thrice's Digital Sea went way beyond what I was expecting from them, having in mind their post-hardcore aesthetic of fantastic landscapes and sceneries like they did with Red Sky.

They went instead with a quite simple broadshot of a store's aisles, constantly deconstructing and reconstructing. The people walking between them do not seem to have any purpose but to being there, wandering, seeing each other but never touching, shifting places at the slow pulse that haunts the melody.

Close to being minimalistic, it was probably not an effort to depict the song. Perhaps it was more meant to make us feel the song instead of seeing it, by switching between the verses' slow synthesized beats and the chorus' spacy atmosphere, with sea-like streams of blue lights from above, before witnessing the final static, where it all blurs as Dustin's voice becomes cracked, granular, digital.

Date:	2008-01-04 00:27
Subject:	Another Year Smoking
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm
Music:	Coheed & Cambria - Radio Bye Bye

2008 came and I wasn't even excited about it.

Oddly enough, it was probably my best New Year's Eve in a long, long time. But it seems that in times like these I just can't stop thinking about what I've done this past year, and most of all, what I haven't.

Because every new year brings for me new plans, new projects, and before the year is even started I almost always begin with the assumption that I won't do a thing. I should play more music. I should travel a bit. I should put an extra effort in everything I do. I should finally try to settle and find someone I'd love. I should stop spending my days in front of that television and work out. I should, I should, and blah, blah, blah.

Every new year tells me that my time's been wasted a great deal. But I just can't help it. It's not even a lack of motivation; it's a lack of power. The power to say to myself: ''Hey, stop being such a sloth and get up''. The power to act for good. The power to acknowledge that I actually can do it.

Now I guess that all that's left is the time I've got in front of me, and my drive to use it for something good. And I think I will.

2008 came and I wasn't even excited about it. But I know it's gonna be a good year.

Date:	2007-12-07 23:59
Subject:	Madonna's Wrong
Security:	Public
Mood:	accomplished
Music:	Hollywood Undead - Christmas In Hollywood

Time goes by so friggin fast.

Whoa. It's been what, two months since I've last posted? Shit. Thinking that I was just starting my first semester at University, kinda lost and uncertain, and now I'm in the middle of the exam sessions, almost done with it.

Time goes by so friggin fast. But speed is not my obstacle; it always seems that my own will to do stuff while I have the opportunity is asleep, numb, keeping me on the edge of regreting what I haven't done.

Time is not too fast for me. I am too slow for time.

The weather was pretty hot in October when I last posted. Now, snow has slowly but surely covered all the green out there, silently surrounding everything that is. And while all of this was happening on the outside, I almost didn't notice from the focus I had on the inside.

The only thing that kinda connected me to a certain external reality was the daily commute, where I was either still sleeping or lost in the sea of others like me that didn't find any comfort in it. But I guess I still feel good in this incomfort; I don't think I am the type of person that would ever get used to a returning motive, time after time, while everything else is happening as I am looking in the wrong direction.

No. I'm losing my time, but I need to at least witness it.

Date:	2007-10-26 22:23
Subject:	Sucks Big Time
Security:	Public
Mood:	annoyed
Music:	Coheed & Cambria - The Running Free

 It's Friday night and I'm still in my fucking apartment because no one calls me. Hurray for being far from home and having nothing to do but post comments on AbsolutePunk.