What is wrong with me?!?!?!

OMG I'm in the weirdest mood.

I just wrote my ex boyfriend a note on myspace...FYI-I'm deleting my profile.
I hate this guy with true passion. He's done so many things to me that can not ever be forgiven for.
And yet...on top of it all...I have an "addiction" as my therapist once said, to him.
Anyway, he's not allowed to talk to me and yet I wrote him this:

" Hey kid.
It's been a while.
Just saying hi. I'm getting off myspace (probably delete it tonight or tomorrow if I ever get on again) and wanted to check up on you one last time.
It took a surprisingly long time to find geeze. lol.
Anyway, I read your blog (SOOO cute!), and I wanted to say-I'm so happy for you.
Honestly, when I came up on your page I expected a lot of bad emotions to come up. But for some reason, I feel calmer now than I have in a long time. So...thank you.
I really am happy for you. More than any words could ever describe. I just want to give someone a hug suddenly. lol. By the way, I checked out your girl's profile-she's soo pretty! You got yourself a hottie, good job! :)
Wow this is coming longer than intended. I guess I'll talk to you later...or well I guess not. Well maybe. If you do ever want to talk (not implying you do...don't worry, no pressure.)
my email is [---].
Have a great day/life.
Ps-update your pix! :)
Miss ya,
ariana "




WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!