when stars collide `

-- 2007...

2008-01-01T01:40:06Z

So 2007 is almost over, and it's been some year. It's true what they say, the older you get, the faster the years go by. 2008 is going to be a pretty scary year, but we'll see how it goes. Hopefully things work out for the better.

-- merry christmas!

2006-12-25T07:15:59Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS, EVERYONE! :)

I hope you all have a great holiday and make the most of it. The holidays for me are pretty much over, and things didn't turn out the way they were anticipated to, but that's life. So for all of you who celebrate, I hope it's a good one.

-- turkey day!

2006-11-23T19:53:24Z

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!

I hope you all stuff yourselves with tons of turkey and all the trimmings today. I also hope that everyone gets to spend some time with their families. I'm almost 6,000 miles away from home this Thanksgiving, and I wish I could be home, but I'm not. However, I'm determined to make this somewhat of a descent day, so we'll see what happens. I got 5 hours of sleep, and I purposely got up about an hour ago to catch the Macy's Thanksgiving Parade on TV. As corny as it may sound, watching it makes me feel a bit closer to home. For those of you who are home with your families and all, cherish it because there are some of us who aren't able to be with our families ;) Now go on and down all the pumpkin and apple pie you can!

P.S.- Apparently what I thought was my roommate moving around was actually an aftershock from October earthquake that was here. There was just a 5.0 earthquake on the Big Island, which was due to the earthquake last month. I swear, I wish I was home more and more, lol.

- as crazy as it sounds... -

2006-05-16T16:12:33Z

... I'm going to miss this place.

The school that was my last choice and at the bottom of my list during my senior year of high school. The school that I curse at every single day because of the red tape, crappy roads, flooding, shady people, ectera. The school that I dreaded going back to every weekend.

Yet I'm feeling an overwhelming sense of nostalgia right now. This is my last day here, at this school, in this room, till I return 8 months from now. It's so weird to think that two new people will be in this very room in a few months. There's going to be a completely new group of six people living in this suite. While all that's happening, me, Sitta and Michele will be in Hawaii.

It's so odd to think that I'm actually going to miss this place. Sitta and I have been living here for the past two years, and it feels like our 'second home away from home.' There is no guarantee that we're going to get this room back, and I just can't imagine living somewhere else. Even if it's in the same building, it's going to be such a different experience. It's funny how you don't you appreciate the comfort of things till they vanish.

So ya know what? Here's my goodbye to our 'forest' and our chaotic lives here in 320. It's been a fun ride, and who knows? Maybe we'll return soon enough.

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In order randomness on my life... I just got finished with finals. I've had less than 5 hours of sleep since Sunday. I didn't sleep at all last night studying for bio, which I bombed. I slept 2 hours the night before studying for my Italian final, which I fucked up, and I'm STILL kicking myself for that. I doubted myself at the last minute and changed all my answers to the wrong fucking answers. Amazing, eh? :/

I need to go pick up my Italian final paper and my psych research proposal (I got an A on it, and it goes down as an A for my upper division psych writing requirement for graduation!). It's raining cats and dogs here, and I had to take my bio final soaked from the rain and all that crap, but it's over with.

Too bad the academic hell doesn't end here because I still have a list of things to do before I leave the campus today. I also need to register for summer courses at either BMCC or NYIT Mahnattan because nowhere near home offers the course I need. There's so much insanity going on in my head that I can't think straight, and of course, the lack of sleep doesn't help.

Sorry for all the venting. Finals week is always hell, and I just felt like updating this thing ;)

- no day but today -

2006-04-27T02:08:03Z

So I haven't updated this thing in forever. It's the final days (or rather weeks?) of the semester, and after this, I will be, officially, halfway through college. It's ridiculous how fast time flies; it's sort of disheartening. My Spring Break was about 2 weeks ago, and I was

+ watched movies night after night with the one and only WiT ;)
+ caught up on all my sleep
+ went into the city with Sitta to visit Karen
+ saw a bunch of Yankee fans on their way to the game on the train there
+ had dinner at Peep that night with Karen
- got blisters everywhere because of the stupid Marc Jacobs flats that I wore
+ coffee runs <333

Yeah, see how boring my life is?

A bunch of us went to Cedar Beach last Thursday, and it was absolutely GORGEOUS. It was freezing, despite the fact that it was 70+ degrees that day, but it was a great time. The ride there was insane. The houses on the North Shore here are to die for. The beach was small, but the view is just incredible, and the water is crystal clear. It's stupid things like that that make me thankful for living where I do :)

I'm swamped with work, and this is all the week before finals, so I feel like I'm about to just pass out from everything. I barely have time to eat actual food (unless you consider coffee and portions of cut fruit meals), but hey, it's college, right? My schedule is terrible, and when this is all over, I will sleep for an entire day, I swear. But my grades have been good lately, which serves as motivation, I suppose. I got a 98 on my lab report, and I 95 on my bio quiz. Oh, I also got my Italian midterm back, and I got an A on it :D

- bio presentation tomorrow @ 8:20am (= hell)
- bio postlab work due tomorrow
- "Bodies" exhibit @ South Street Seaport during the weekend for my assignment for bio
- psych 310 exam on Monday
- psych 356 research assignment
- chem lab final Tuesday
- psych 310 presentation Tuesday
- psych final research proposals due Tuesday
- italian final paper due Wednesday
- bio lab practical ("lab final") next Thursday
- "Bodies" assignment due Thursday

&&&& FINALS BEGIN.

Besides schoolwork and all, I need to get my ass over to NCC and register for summer courses, so I can transfer the credits back here to take my upper divisions. Then I need to get over to the transfer office and figure out my schedule for next semester at Hawaii and to make sure all the courses are transferable. Then there's the booking of the flights and hotel for Hawaii and housing apps for Hawaii too. GAH. Shoot me now, please! There's too much to worry about with too much stress and not enough sleep.

Despite this utter craptastic life of mine, yay for the Yanks being back in second place! And they are currently tied at 2 each against TB. Boys, you need to make my week better! I just realized that I will have no baseball in Hawaii. That means no October baseball :( Yeah, I could keep up with it, but it's not going to be the same. Fuck.

I am in love with RENT. I watched the movie 3 times in the span of a week, and I am head over heels in love with it ♥ 3 days until the official 10th anniversary! The benefit was two days ago, and I would have given an arm and a leg to be there. Why couldn't I have an extra grand at expense to be there? :/ Le sigh.

Alright, I'm getting off this thing, so I can do my spirograms for bio lab tomorrow. Good luck to everyone with finals and all!

P.S.- A "special one" goes out to the Tremmel family-- stay strong ♥

- holy CRAP! .. -

2006-03-09T21:54:26Z

Holy shit. I got in! It's official: I'M GOING TO HAWAII NEXT SEMESTER!! :D

- allow me to flip out... -

2006-02-12T03:10:13Z

So it's time to empty out my closet because I am going to have one hideous credit bill to pay next month (the parents will not and cannot find out, haha!) because I just emptied out my bank account for a handbag. I am now broke as hell. I am broke because of a bag. Le sigh.

So I am going to be getting rid of practically everything in my wardrobe. Hello Spring Cleaning! Any takers in helping me fund my bills? ;) lmfao.

- "have yourself a merry little christmas" -

2005-12-25T06:25:52Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :)

I hope you all have a GREAT holiday filled with much joy!

- reverting back in time.... AGAIN. -

2005-12-14T09:35:31Z

I got back about an hour and a half ago to my room, and wow. I AM SO TIRED. Today was the last day of classes, and I had 2 exams to take, and I did all that on ONE hour of sleep. I'm sort of surprised that it's already the end of the semester, but hey, I'm not complaining ;) I wish it could be winter break already, so I could be home for a whole month just being a bum! I'm going to be here till the 22nd, and that's the last day of finals. That's fucking terrible.

Drew, Sitta, Amanda, Jaena and me all went out to dinner tonight at Dave's as our "break" from schoolwork and studying and finals. I love those girls :) We got back to campus and ended up playing poker and blackjack for hours, gambling the night away.

There was an accident here last week where a girl got hit by a car and she eventually died :( This girl happened to live in the same hall as Drew, and we overheard Drew's RA talking about the memorial service, and it's just all so tragic. I won't really talk any further about it, but it's just a sad situation. May she rest in peace, and my prayers are with her family.

So for something more uplifting... CHRISTMAS IS COMING! I love this time of the year ♥ I already got most of my Christmas shopping done (friends are all covered, it's just the family's that left). I went out this past weekend and walked all around town, and I bought stockings and decorations and everything, and I just love it. Our Christmas tree is all set up, and it's gorgeous and wonderful :)

So this entry was pretty much pointless, but I just felt like updating. For all you kids in the same boat as me with finals and that junk, BEST OF LUCK. I'm sure you'll all do great, and for all of you with no finals, I am green with envy. I'm off to sleep now and tomorrow begins my official studying torture for finals. Goodnight guys!

- old habits die hard :) .. -

2005-11-24T08:47:30Z

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE! :D

I hope you all have a great holiday filled with tons of laughter and great memories. Enjoy all the turkey and potatoes and stuffing your stomach can take, and then go burn it all off the next day ;) For those of you in college, I hope you all get to see old friends and things of the sort, and enjoy the much-needed break from college hell!

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So I just got home not too long ago from a night out with some friends. My friends and I have a tendency of being with each other out doing something the day/day of major holidays (i.e. Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc.) ;D It was good seeing Samantha again since she was home and all, even though we were just at RISD. We went out to Benihana for dinner (we ended up being half an hour late for our reservation), and dinner was amusing, but the food was crap. The table behind us was a bunch of middle-aged couples/friends who had one too many beers and were loud and obnoxious as hell. So we left, went to Drew's place and ended up watching The Skeleton Key while downing some Smirnoff. The movie was alright, I guess, but I was pissed off with the ending. I'm dying to see RENT! I must see it this break. I must. I must.

I had my bio exam on Monday, and wow. That test kicked my ass to no end. We had to 6 chapters worth of biology and the exam was, literally, on only 3 topics! I was so frustrated after that test, and that was pretty much the general opinion from everyone. But the rest of the week's been okay, I guess. Things could be better, but it's nothing that's too terrible. I have so much work due next week, so sadly, I brought work back home. I wish I could completely cut academics out of my life for a few days :/ I should be doing work right now, but I'm being the procrastinator that I am.

My dad was supposed to go get our regular assortment of pies and cheesecakes from our favorite little bakery in Cobble Hill, but lo and behold, THEY CLOSED! :( We've been going there for years for all the major holidays. Seriously, guys, they had the best cheesecake in all of New York, I swear.

Sitta's going to Woodbury on Black Friday, and all I told her was that she was going to die. She's going with her mom and aunt- how cute is that? I wish my mom and sister did things like that. Anyway, I need to get my Christmas shopping done and fast. You will never ever catch me at a mall or whatnot beyond the second week of December doing Christmas shopping. I just have no tolerance for all that waiting and hassle. From the looks of it, I'll probably be doing half my shopping online.

It's snowing outside right now, and as stupid as it sounds, it makes me happy. The wintertime and snow and all that holiday goodness makes me giddy :D Everyone's back from school, and I feel like there's a million people to see, a million things to do, and just not enough time. Alright, it's like 4am, and I have to wake up in a matter of hours to help my mom make some dishes to bring over to my aunt's for Thanksgiving, and go with my dad into the city to pick up our order of cakes and pies from our alternative bakery.

I hope you all have a great holiday :)

- 21 days later ..

2005-11-19T03:15:45Z

I cannot believe it's been 3 weeks since I last updated, wow. It's been a pretty bad 3 weeks, to say the least, but, hey, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, right? This is probably going to be a long entry, so you're warned! But if you read through it all, and comment, then you effing rock :D The now infamous Roadtrip was 3 weeks ago, and it was

There was drama that ensued, but that's over with, and it was just really unnecessary. Anyway, minus all the drama and crap, it was a pretty fun time. We were gone from 10/28-10/30, and we headed up to Providence, RI to RISD and Brown.

10/28

* Instead of going to my chem lecture that afternoon, I spent an extra 2 hours in the bio lab picking out fucking, disgusting FLIES. We ended up catching the 4pm Port Jeff ferry to Bridgeport, CT. The ferry thing was pretty cool. We took photos of us on the deck with the crazy wind and all, lol.

* So we got to Providence around 8pm, and we met up with Sam at her meeting, and the rest of us went out to dinner at Paragon on Thayer St. After dinner, we just walked around the Brown campus area for a while.

* We saw Sam's dorm, and wow, it's amazing. I live in a SHITBOX at school compared to 15 West there! They have gold elevators and all; it's gorgeous. The architecture is so nice and chic.

* Me, Sitta, Drew and Amanda went with Sam to see her "studio," and it was cool to see how different things are there. They work on their art in studios as opposed to studying in libraries for exams.

* Amanda and Drew stayed for the night at Sam's dorm, and me and Sitta met up with Deborah and we stayed at her dorm, so that was that.

10/29

* We all met up for [late] brunch at The Met (I think it was?), and afterwards, the five of us (Drew, Amanda, Karen, me & Sitta) went to our inn and checked in. Somehow, the place messed up our reservations because we were supposed to be in a suite, but instead, we ended up with a double room. $200 for a double room = biggest ripoff ever. We definitely should've stayed at The Hotel Providence instead.

* So we left our bags and all and we decided to check out Providence Place. That mall is insane; it was like a maze to us. We met up with Samantha, and then Deborah and her friend, Mi Sun, and then met Mi Sun's friends from New York later on.

* I got 2 shirts; one from A&F and one from Jasmine Sola.

* Deborah, Mi Sun and her friends went to go see Saw II, and the rest of us decided to go to The Cheesecake Factory for dinner. The wait was 2 hours long, so we went into Borders to kill time. Starving and being bored to the point of eating cafe turkey and cheese sandwiches and reading New York magazine (which I happen to love) was amusing, to say the least. So we finally got called, went through the whole dinner process, and drama came about and crap, but we'll pretend like it never happened.

* Originally, we planned to do something after dinner, but since all the tension and drama came about, we just decided to call it a day and head back to the inn.

* So we got back to the inn and just had a few Bacardi's and watched random junk on TV.

10/30

* This was a pretty empty day. We got up early, checked out, and began the drive back to New York, HOME.

* After all the drama and crap, all of us just wanted to get home and just have it all be done with.

* We get into the city, drop off Karen at NYU and drive back to good ol' Long Island.

* The car ride back was fun, blasting Pretty Ricky, talking about random stuff and all :)

* We went to Sitta's and saw her little nephews, and god, are they adorable.

All in all, if we were to take away all the drama, the trip was fun. Meeting new people, singing along to stupid, overplayed songs, exploring a new city by ourselves... it was pretty fun. We'll have to do it again sometime.

I've been jam-packed with exams and all that crap for the past few weeks, which is why I pretty much died off the face of LJ until today, lol. But I'm still alive and all that, so "hi" everyone :) It's almost Thanksgiving, and boy, do I need that break. After Thanksgiving Break, it's going to be a TORTUROUS time until finals are all said and done with. The worst part is that ALL my finals are on the last 4 days of finals week. What kind of crap is that? So I'm going to be stuck and the Hell Hole till 12/22.

My scheduling appointment is on the 30th of this month, and I have no fucking clue what I'm going to take. I'm having doubts about almost everything academics related. Then there's also the thought of transferring, still. I'm doing far worse than I was last semester, and this is bad. Really bad. I feel like I've killed my hopes of transferring and getting out of here because of this semester. Why I took on the schedule that I did this semester is beyond me. I must've been delusional last semester. 2 bio courses, 2 math courses, chemistry, and psychology is just too much. I've been living on about 4 hours of sleep a night because I'm up till the early mornings doing work. I depend on coffee (and tons of it too) and Red Bull to get me through my weeks. I just don't know what to do anymore :/ Sigh.

Onto happier and more positive things... Can we get a "hoorah!" for the fact that Matsui's staying for another 4? :) I'm glad that Guidry is now our pitching coach, but it's still hard to believe that Mel's gone. Um, what else? OH. JEET- props, props, and props for another Golden Glove :) And, of course, I must mention this: CONGRATULATIONS TO ALEX RODRIGUEZ FOR WINNING MVP! But I am sad that Tino's option was declined.

I'm late for this bandwagon, but the Laguna Beach finale was terrible. I watched it and just thought "wtf?" Season 3 looks just... ugly. I'm excited for The Hills though because I've always been an LC fan. Run's House is hysterical. Sitta and I love it. Aubrey and Aundrea better make the group for MTB 3 or I will go insane. I swear, all I watch at school is MTV, how sad is that? And after weeks of missing episodes, I saw Sunday's Grey's Anatomy, and I adore that show ♥

So I've bought some clothes and stuff lately, so here's what's been added to

- A&F destroyed Madisons
- A&F Madisons
- A&F Isabella sweater
- A&F tank
- A&F Alice henley in navy
- A&F Margaret shirt (got this in Providence)
- Harajuku Lovers tee (got in Providence)

& this isn't clothing, but it's new:
- Kate Spade planner I'm broke as hell after the roadtrip, so I think I'm gonna do some "closet cleaning" and get rid of everything that I no longer need. Hell, half the stuff in my wardrobe has never been worn, so maybe I'll get rid of the stuff on eBay or something. While I was at the mall last weekend with my mom and sister, I started my Christmas shopping. I got some cute stuff at Urban, and I think I need to head back to the mall again and do some serious Christmas shopping. I usually have all of my Christmas shopping done by the second week of December, so we'll see how it works out this year. First, I need to figure out what to get everyone!

I absolutely love this time of year. The holiday season hasn't exactly begun yet, but all the signs are there, and it makes me giddy, as stupid as that sounds. I came back today, and a ton of my Christmas catalogs came (A&F, Nordstrom, Sephora, the Neiman Marcus Christmas Book 2005, etc.) and it made my day. I love the holidays, can you tell? lmao. There's a possible plan for the crew and I to head into the city to see the Thanksgiving Day Parade next week, so that'd be fun. The city is so beautiful in the winter ♥

This reminds me that RENT is being released in 4 days! I cannot wait to see this movie! Ohmygod, it's going to be so, so amazing. I'm pretty set on seeing is the day it's released, so I'll see if anyone wants to tag along after our group dinner next Wednesday. I'm amped :D

Despite the "beyond miserable" grade that I got for calc, all those hours of pointless, frustrating chem and bio labs, petty fights with friends, tension, lack of sleep, my grandfather having surgery, and just plain STRESS, I'm pretty happy right now. Maybe it's because I have the last remnants of a medium-- in the normal world, it's like an extra large, but it's just a medium for Parkway-- Parkway Mix sitting next to me, and the fact that I'm sitting in my room (that I spent the entire last Sunday cleaning) just doing nothing. I feel content. As of now, I feel as if I'm enveloped in a calm aura, and it's nice. I have my Yankee ticket stub from this summer next to me, and it brings a smile to my face. No matter what situations arise and create negativity in your life, there's always something else there to counteract it. I'm seeing more and more, each day, that there's always good with the bad. I used to be a hell of a lot more pessimistic, but I'm starting to realize the good, as well. As of late, I've had a change in perspective in terms of how I deal and cope with things, and so far so good. I think I just got tired and fed up with always being depressed and just indulging in all that negativity.

Alright, so this has been a novel and a half. I hope all of you are doing well, and I will return to commenting and all that jazz :) Now I'm off to go do something productive, and for this weekend until 10pm Monday, that means studying for my bio exam. Goodnight all!

P.S.- Just for kicks, what's everyone's favorite/most played/top 5 songs for the week?

(in no particular order)
1. "Stickwitu" - Pussycat Dolls
2. "On the Floor" - Frankie J feat. Paul Wall
3. "Stay" - NE-YO feat. Peedi Crakk
4. "Bent" - MB20
5. "Separated" - Avant

- roadtrips are so necessary in life... -

2005-10-28T09:29:54Z

So it's finally Friday. It's been a crazy 2 weeks, and it's been the 3 worst weeks of my entire life. My body is so worn out and just DEAD. I had a psych exam on Tuesday, and we found out today that the class average was an 82. That's pretty crazy. And I just took my bio midterm tonight, and wow, that test just killed me. Absolutely turned me into minced meat :/

Last Thursday, me, Amanda, Drew and Sitta took a random drive out to Port Jefferson just for the hell of it at 1am. Fun times :) One day, when it gets warm again, since we're heading into winter now, we're all going out there and having ourselves a good ol' seafood dinner, lmao.

The Yankees... I'm glad that Cashie and Joe are staying, but sad that Mel left, and well, let's see how this winter plays out for the soon-to-be 2006 Yankees. Still, it's going to be such a damn long winter :( Oh, and a huge CONGRATS to Chicago for winning the WS. I watched every game except last night's (figures, right?), and it's good to see a deserving team win it.

I've been seeing the RENT ♥ more and more, and my god, that movie is going to be so amazing. Is it November yet? Sigh. Now I've got "Seasons Of Love" in my head. But yeah, the movie's amazing, and you should all go see it!

This weekend's going to be insane, but in a good way. My friends and I are taking a little roadtrip up to Providence to visit friends at RISD and Brown :) So we're leaving later today after my class, and off we go! We booked a suite at a hotel up there, and yeah, it's going to be fun. We don't have things planned out, so we're just gonna wing it, which makes it all the more fun. We're coming back on Sunday, and taking a detour, going through the city, and making a stop at NYU. The iPod's packed with music, and we have everything we need, off we go! So I think you should all leave me lovely comments for me to read when I get back ;) Hope you all have a great weekend too!

I really don't know what else to say except that I'm dead tired, I'm sad below the surface of everything because of the turns of events that have happened, but I'm trying to take the high road out. I found out yesterday that one of the kids I knew in my graduating class from high school passed away yesterday. I was in complete shock for about 2 hours, and it's so sad. The kid was going to change the world, and I mean it. I found out that there was an article in Newsday about it, and I guess that's when it hit me. I really don't know what to say. It's just hard to know and deal with something like this.

RIP Gilbert, we all miss you.

- OH, SWEET PAIN.. -

2005-10-12T20:01:27Z

So it's official that this is the worst week of my entire life. Yes, I do realize that it's only Wednesday, but at this point, things really can't get much worse (-knocks on wood-). I feel as if someone beat the living crap out of me; my body and mind are just beat. This is probably going to sound absolutely ridiculous, but I always get this intuitive vibe that lets me know that my life is going to, for lack of a better term, turn to shit. For about 2 weeks now, I've had this feeling, and I guess this week is the week that everything decides to go down.

On Saturday, we had a family dinner because it was my grandfather's birthday, so family from Cali flew in and all. I don't know what it is about family events that always manage to bring me down. It's not necessarily that I hate being there, but I hate the fact that being there causes me to do a 180. I can be in a great mood, but as soon as I step foot into the scene, my mood completely changes, and it stays like that.

On Sunday, I got into a million and one fights with the parents over the stupidest things. I don't know why I even bother to explain things to my parents anymore; it's just not worth it. It's too little too late, so screw it. I ended up missing a good chunk of the Game 4 because I had to get back to this damnhell hole, but I caught the end of game 4.

I normally have 3 classes on Mondays, but I only went to one this past Monday. I only went to chem lab because I have to do the labs or else I will have a big, fat zero as my grade, and I just can't afford that. The weather is a fucking nightmare. I was drizzling on Sunday and Monday, and it only got worse. Monday was just hell. I had a ton, and I do mean a TON of bio lab work to do, and I didn't do any of it until Game 5 was over with, and wow, what a waste of time. I ended up doing everything after the game was over, and I didn't finish till 5am, and I got up at 8am because of people making so much damn noise on the floor. It was just a miserable day. I was falling asleep left and right during my classes.

Yesterday I ended up going to 3 of my 4 classes. Do we notice a trend here that I am skipping classes left and right? Yeah, exactly. Bio lab was so damn frustrating because of certain people (or rather a PERSON, in this case) who just don't seem to understand things and is paranoid about every damn thing. I can't stand people like that. I nearly lost it and snapped. Taking two, 3 hour labs this semester has got to be one of the biggest mistakes in the history of life. It was raining lightly for most of the day, but Mother Nature decided to be nice and let it POUR as soon as I was done with bio lab at 7:30pm. Drew picked me up and along with Sitta and Amanda, we went to dinner at Ichi.

I woke up at 7:30am this morning, looked outside, and it was raining cats and dogs. It took me 10 minutes to decide whether or not I should go to class. I opted not to. I was supposed to wake back up at 8:45am to get ready to go to my calc recitation class (I have to go because homework's collected and graded), but I wake up at 9:37am and the class starts at 9:35am. I ran out of here, got to class for the last 20 minutes or so, and I got my midterm back. Supposedly the grades are curved, which I am so, so, so grateful for if it turns out to be true, but wow. If I didn't feel stupid, I definitely did the second I got those 6 pieces of paper. It didn't even affect me as much as it normally would since this week has just gone to shit anyway.

So that's that. I'm cutting calc lecture right now as I type this up because it's just "one of those days." All I want to do is go to sleep for the rest of the day, and I think I actually might go and do that. There are no classes tomorrow, THANK GOD, and I'm here for the next 2 days by myself. Sitta left around 2pm today, so I'm here all by myself in this cold, miserable room.

This is how I know that something is wrong with me... when I do a crapload of shopping, spend hundreds of dollars, and I'm still stuck with that sinking feeling inside. Over the course of the past 2 weeks, I've been everywhere from the mall near here to Roosevelt Field to SoHo, and I resorted to online shopping. And
+ 3 Pucci scarves (the scarf closest to you, this one, and one in fall green/brown tones)
+ a scarf from A&F
+ the "Hear no evil, See no evil, Date no evil" shirt from A&F
+ a pair of Juicy Couture terry pants
+ a jacket from Urban Outfitters
+ a sweater from Urban
+ 2 of the Simone tank tops from A&F
+ a C. Ronson skirt

and I ordered online:

+ an Ezra Fitch babydoll
+ a cami from A&F
+ a logo tee
+ the Sasha long sleeved tee
(all of the above from A&F)
+ a Primp hoodie

Sigh. Yankees, you break my heart. I still can't believe all this. Honestly, after crying and the whole bit Monday night, I thought I was okay. I really did. Of course, the second I get back to my room, I flip on ESPN, and they show the Yanks getting off their buses, and ugh, god, I just wanted to cry all over again. Of course, I come across (if you guys don't want to look at depressing photos of the Yankees, don't click)

Robinson Cano hits his bat against a cooler. Cano was the last Yankee to leave the dugout after the Yankees were eliminated from the ALDS (does that NOT break your heart?). American League Division Series Game 5: New York Yankees vs. Los Angeles Angels at the Angel Stadium of Anaheim.
(Newsday Photo / Paul J. Bereswill) October 10, 2005

Chien-Ming Wang heads for his car as the Yankees returned to the Stadium after losing to the Angels in the ALDS.(AP Photo) October 11, 2005

Robinson Cano, right, arrives at Yankee Stadium to clean out his locker on Wednesday.(Newsday / David L. Pokress) October 12, 2005

It's all over. I'm still in disbelief. Reading article after article about who's staying and who's going for 2006, it kills me, especially all this with Bernie :( I will have a fucking mental breakdown if he leaves. Everything aside, I'm glad I got to see at least one game this summer, and it was an amazing time. It's been a rollercoaster of a season, but the boys came back and proved everyone wrong. People doubted they would even make it to the postseason, and they did. Hey, at least we can say our guys did better than those bloody guys from Beantown ;) I feel so empty. There's no baseball to watch on TV or anything. Sigh. It's going to be a long, grueling, painful winter, indeed.

I might be making a trip to NYU tomorrow, despite this weather (have I mentioned that it's been raining NONSTOP since Sunday?), to see Karen, so hopefully that'll work out. I miss that girl like crazy. She's my fellow Yanks-crazed girl who cried right along with me after we saw Matsui groundout. Now I'm off to do my goddamn calc online homework. I can only hope that things get better because I don't know how much more of this I can take. Sometimes I just want to drop everything and just not care anymore. If only life were so simple.

- AHHHHH! .. -

2005-10-10T01:03:22Z

My heart is beating like a mile a minute right now, my head is racing, and I feel like I'm going to suffer a stroke any second, but that means only one thing: postseason baseball. It's do or die for the boys tonight, and I'm scared beyond belief, but my faith is in them :)

GO YANKEES!!

edit: I'm choking up because of the crowd cheering for Bernie and the shot of Bernie in the dugout and yeah. I feel like my heart is slowly breaking watching all this. Bernie :(

- :D .. -

2005-10-09T07:36:05Z

So I've been making really, seemingly, pointless entries lately. But this has to be posted, and all you Yankee fans will understand where I'm coming from ;D So I'm watching old, reruns of SNL right now, and it's the episode where Ben Stiller is hosting and Alanis Morissette is the musical guest, and they just freakin showed TINO!!! :) (Cone and Wells were there too, but I don't care for them too much, especially the latter) They had just won the WS, and it just made my freakin day. And to think I almost didn't see it until my Mom pointed out that "my Yankees are on TV!"

Um, yeah, I just had to get that out. The episode was from 1998, and ugh, Tino. So pretty; I think I just died for a second ;) Yeah, I definitely did ♥

- HELL, YES. -

2005-10-02T06:12:38Z

AL EAST CHAMPS, BABY!!!! :D

8th straight title. 8th. Eighth.

And that is all I have to say :D

Hello October Yanks baseball :D

- PISSED OFF.. -

2005-10-01T19:08:50Z

Okay, so my throat is KILLING me today because of the Yankees/Sox game last night. I was screaming my head off yelling at the TV and whatnot, and now my throat is hurting like a bitch. Throat drops are needed, PRONTO. At least I didn't wake up this morning to see the Yanks losing. -prays that the boys win-

+ I'll comment on everyone's journals (I've been slacking, I know), and I'll update with something worth reading soon enough :)

edit: I got this huge envelope from my school just now, and I was scared out of my mind as to what the hell it was. So I open it and in it is my certificate for making Dean's List last semester. Whew!

- IS THIS A CASE OF DEJA VU? .. -

2005-09-22T22:31:07Z

Alright, so the end of the my fourth week of being at the Hell Hole is almost done with. Now there's only about another 11 weeks or so to go. I cannot wait for this semester to be over.

So my birthday was last Saturday, and it just wasn't great, to say the least. The only enjoyable parts worthwhile were the Yanks winning and getting to spend the last hours of my birthday with Barb. Blasting The Goo Goo Dolls, Switchfoot, and the sort at 1am on the parkway with "The Hotness'" top down (I'm talking about a car here, lol) was absolute greatness. Scary people by the Long Island Sound in Queens was absolutely hysterical ;) Fun times and tons of props to Barb for making it all happen!

While we're on the topic of birthdays, my Dad's birthday passed, and Elaine's was last Thursday, so on Friday, I went to the mall here with Sitta and picked up presents for them. My grandfather's birthday is coming up, and family from Cali is flying in, so that's going to be fun. And in T minus 6 days, it's Barb's 19th!!

School's been kicking my ass, and I know that this is not going to let down anytime soon, so I guess I should brace myself for the ride. Calc is absolute torture, and my labs are fucking horrible. I just took a psych test earlier, and I don't know how I did. I only got half the textbook reading done that the test covered because I had to do calc homework, stats homework, and I had a crapload of work the entire week before that, so I had no time for anything. I have a chem lab lecture quiz (who the hell comes up with the course requirements here? Ugh.) tomorrow, and then on Tuesday, I have bio midterms in both of my bio courses. I'm going to DIE :/ I just wish I could just get a moment to stop and just breathe.

And how can I let this entry get by without mentioning that the YANKEES ARE IN FIRST PLACE!? :D Yes, that's right bitches. It's going to be a fight till the end, but I have absolute faith in our boys. God, I cannot look at yankees.com enough times and looking at the standings. Damn this school for having no YES! But it's okay.

Tonight's movie night, so yeah, that's gonna be fun. Sitta and I watched Bend It Like Beckham last week, and we've concluded that Jonathan Rhys Meyers is quite the character. It sucks that he didn't win an Emmy this past Sunday, though :( I'm going to try to get some work done, so I don't feel so guilty about abandoning my studies, haha.

Alright, I'm going to attempt to get some work done. Hope things are going well with all of you!

♥

P.S.- A very HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY to Barb :) Woo hooo!

P.P.S.-

The graphic above was made by Christi (inflixion)-- tons of thanks! How hilarious is that photo? lmfao ♥ It definitely made my day!

- ONCE A YEAR, THIS TIME OF YEAR ROLLS AROUND.. -

2005-09-17T06:16:57Z

So here we go again...

Hello and a Happy Birthday to me...

I suppose.

Do I sound pretty nonchalant, almost negative, about all this? Yes, and it's because I have every reason to be, both past and present. It's my last year of being a teenager, and that is just downright fucking scary. Time is flying by way faster than I imagined.

An actual update will be coming soon :)

Here today and gone tomorrow faster than ashes disappearing into the blistering wind.

GORGEOUS WEATHER MAKES ME HAPPY .. -

2005-09-07T02:17:09Z

So the first week of my sophomore year is done with. My professors are alright, but I'm just worried about calc. Honestly, if I get a C in that course, I'll be happy with it. I still have yet to have bio lab yet because it doesn't start till the 12th (thank god!), and it's 3 hours long. That's 6 hours worth of labs I have a week because of freakin science courses.

I still have yet to get my calc textbook (well, I ordered it online, and it should be arriving anytime between the 6th through the 12th), my bio books, and my psych books. Aren't I the greatest student ever?

Moving onto better things...

Barb and I had another infamous "movie night" on Friday filled with mediocre movies, ice cream and STARBUCKS :D Fun times.

I went shopping in the city this weekend and picked up a few things. How could I not go shopping when it's tax free? ;) Anyway, on Saturday, I went to the Bloomingdales and bought Elaine a Juicy Couture tank top for her birthday. I stopped by Scoop and got a pair of really cute silver Havaianas and a pair of Notify jeans. While I was in Scoop, I hear someone call my name, and lo and behold, it was Karen! She was in the city doing some shopping with her roommate, and it's just odd that in one of the most chaotic cities in the world, I see someone I know. After my sister and I then headed to South Street Seaport and went to the A&F there. I got another pair of Madisons, the Nicolette knit, and I got the the Tessa tee. I didn't get much, but I'll do more shopping once my birthday comes around! Oh, I also got those Aldo dogtags that go to charity for AIDS/HIV :)

On Sunday, I just bummed around the house, and got late minute school supplies with my dad. I had to get a stupid TI-83 calculator, and that damn thing was like $90! College is way too expensive for my liking. Yesterday (Monday/Labor Day), I went to lunch with Barb at Panera and then we got the usual: Starbucks :) I went to the mall to pick up my last paycheck from a few weeks ago, and I got a new Longchamp bag for school. Afterwards, we all went out to dinner together, and they dropped me back off here at the Hell Hole.

The weather has been absolutely gorgeous out lately, and it automatically puts me in a better mood. The Yanks are still 3 back in the AL East, and they're freakin tied right now with TB. What the fuck is this?! It's already September :/ It's okay, I have faith in them.

I missed bits and pieces of last night's episode of Laguna, blah! They're bound to repeat it, though, but looking at the previews for next week... You can't help but laugh at the fact that Jason and Jessica hookup again after everything.

Alright, I'm off to go to calc homework (shoot me!). I hope you're all doing well with school and all!

... AND I'M BACK AT THE HELL HOLE.. -

2005-08-31T01:32:20Z

So I'm finally back here. The place I got rid of for the whole summer, and I'm back. I call this place the Hell Hole for a reason and with good reason. Just ask anyone here, and they'll give you a good reason. I don't want to be here, and as often and as much as I say that, I don't know if I will ever get to transfer out, and that mere thought depresses the living hell out of me.

I prolonged and procrastinated with my packing for as long as possible, but I got it all done. Granted, it was done all the day of and the night before I actually moved, but it got done. I swear, when you're packing everything into duffel bags and boxes, it seems like a car's worth of things (and in my case, my dad's entire luxury sedan was packed to rim), but as soon as it's all unpacked, it seems like nothing. My room is so much emptier this year because I realized what I needed and didn't need to bring.

The second day of classes is already done with and the only textbook I've purchased is my lab manual for chemistry. I still haven't gone through all my classes yet, so I still have two more new ones to get through. So far, here's

BIO 202: It's at 8:30am, and I am NOT a morning person, no matter how much coffee you give me, so it was hell having to live on 4 hours of sleep and then waking up at 7am for a class. Luckily, I know more than a handful of people in there, so that's good, but still. It's 8:30 in the morning. The profs are okay, but I can't do morning classes.

Chem lab: Our TA seems nice, but having to deal with CHEMISTRY for 3 hours straight? I think I might die, considering I hate chemistry with a passion. Not to mention, there are no stools or anything, so I guess we stand for 3 hours playing with chemicals and whatnot. Fun, fun -sarcasm-. Again, I know people in the lab, which was funny considering 3 of us are all from the same graduating high school class.

Calc: Oh god. I hate math and having to get through another semester is going to be rough. It's just me and Drew in the class, so it's definitely going to be an uphill battle :/ The professor is okay, but he's just a tad too energetic about math, but I guess it's better than a monotone prof.

BIO 208: Again, another morning class, and I was literally falling asleep in that class. The professor is descent enough, and I'm beyond glad that everything we will be learning, I have a descent foundation on. A lot of it is either bio or psych, so woo hoo :) I think I'll need to down a Red Bull everyday before I head off for that class.

Stats: The professor is really nice, and I've heard only great things about her, so I'm hoping I do well in this course. Her curve with grading is beyond insane, and in a good way, so I definitely intend on getting that A in this course. Maybe it's insanely stupid of me to be taking stats on top of calc, but hey, a person's gotta do what they gotta do. But Sitta's there with me, so it'll be okay, I hope.

PSY 230: Abnormal psych with Kaplan again, haha! I'm already used to his grading system, how he teaches his material, exams, and all that, so this isn't going to be anything different. He's an entertaining professor, which is always a plus, but I know how this is all going to go down. I hope I do better in this course than I did in developmental psych. Not that I did poorly in developmental psych, but I feel like abnormal psych is my niche. Amanda and both Wendys are in there with me, so that's another plus.

I had no bio lab because bio labs aren't going to start until 9/12, thank god. Bio lab, again, is also going to be 3 hours long, and I'll get out at 7:20pm, so that might be a little tough. I hate walking back to my room during the winters at night. The campus is so damn gloomy and depressing then, and it sucks.

I have yet to go to my calc recitation or my chem lab lecture (yes, such a thing exists here. Insane? I think so).

Here's what my schedule looks like:

Monday - Bio 202 (8:30am-9:25am)
Chem lab (11:45am-2:45pm)
Calc (3:50pm-5:10pm)

Tuesday - Bio 208 (9:50am-11:10am)
Stats (11:20am-12:40pm)
Psych 230 (12:50pm-2:10pm)
Bio 202 lab (4:30pm-7:20pm)

Wednesday - Bio 202 (8:30am-9:25am)
Calc recitation (9:35am-10:30am)
Calc (3:50pm-5:10pm)

Thursday - Bio 208 (9:50am-11:10am)
Stats (11:20am-12:40pm)
Psych 230 (12:50pm-2:10pm)

Friday - Bio 202 (8:30am-9:25am)
Chem lab lecture (12:50pm-2:10pm)

I wish I didn't have classes on Fridays, but I do. I need so much caffeine in the form of Red Bull and coffee this semester, hell, just give me a fucking brain transplant while we're at it.

Moving in was fucking hell. I unpacked before I went to sleep Sunday night, so that was good, but god, does it feel different here. I'm in the same room with the same roommate (she's my friend who I've known since middle school), and Michele's in the next room, so that's good, but it feels weird. I got a new bed with a frame or whatnot, and it is annoying. I've already scraped myself on the edges multiple times as is.

So after two 5 subject Five Star notebooks, a case of Red Bull, Smart Puffs/Pirate's Booty, and sweating my ass off, the official start to this semester has begun. It's sweltering hot here and fucking HUMID, and we have no fans, no AC, nothing. While kids in the next fucking quad have ACs. You have no idea how pissed off I am.

I swear to god, I feel like a part of me dies everytime I come back here. How awful does that sound? But it's the truth. I think that if I were to be attending another school somewhere else, I'd be much happier back at school, but I'm here.

On the up side of things, my birthday's coming up, and generally, people don't feel too happy with their birthday rolls around because it means they're aging, but I don't look at it that way. I think that as you grow older, you also get wiser, and aging is just a part of life, why deny it? At least I'll be home and not here, so that's good.

Well, I'm off to go figure out everything in terms of classes and everything. I hope everyone who's back at school is doing well, and that things are better for you than they are for me!

BACK TO SQUARE ONE.. -

2005-08-25T02:26:37Z

I cannot believe that it's that time of the year again, and I'm heading back off to school. The summer definitely went by too fast, and all I'm left with is a heavy heart. It's been a crazy couple of weeks, and I haven't updated this thing in forever, so here's a massive update, bear with me!

On the days not included, I was working and didn't do much else, haha.

SUNDAY - 8/14

- I worked that day, and before I went, I went out to lunch with Barb to Panera and had Starbucks.

MONDAY - 8/15

- It was another Starbucks day for me and Barb. I got home, and Ali says that he has to return something from Coach, so I went with him to the mall, and I got the brown Bryn skirt from A&F and picked up another bottle of 8 there. Afterwards, we got some food at Panera, where I got some messed up COLD coffee. It was disgusting, even for me, and I'm a caffeine addict.

TUESDAY - 8/16

- I worked from 4pm-8, and Jackie and I had plans once I got off from work. So I changed real quick, left work, and we went to the Witch's Brew. It was a fun night getting to chat and catch up on things and all that.

WEDNESDAY - 8/17

- City day! Ali and I planned on going into the city for some back to school shopping, so we did. We tried to find Barb since she had off, but the girl didn't return our calls ;x Ali's friend, Spencer, decided to come as well, so that was that. Ali and I got Starbucks before we picked up Spencer, and off into the city we went. I didn't get much, but I did manage to stop by Scoop in SoHo and got a pair of Salt Works jeans and a pair of Havaianas, which I later returned because they were just too damn big. I also stopped by Urban Outfitters in NoHo and picked up a few things. I absolutely ADORE the shopping bags at Scoop ;) Ali ended up getting a jacket from Triple Five Soul, a gorgeous blazer from Guess?, a sweater from Banana Republic and some other little things (can you tell we were in downtown all day?). We had lunch at my favorite little place in Chinatown, and afterwards, I got more Starbucks, and all that coffee did nothing for me. We came back, and all went out to shabu shabu for dinner. Fun times, fun times...

FRIDAY - 8/19

- Ryan Cabrera was at the mall, and I was on-call, so I stopped in at work to see if they needed me. But I was mainly there to get an associate contact list, so I could find people to take over my shifts for the next week because I told one of my managers that my last day would be the 20th, but they put me on schedule for the next week anyway. So I stopped in at work, and all my managers were flipping out over Ryan. It was quite the moment, needless to say. Brownie points to Barb for being an amazing friend for taking me there. We didn't stay to meet Ryan or anything, but we did manager to catch a few glimpses of him with his little fedora hat on and all, haha. Oh, and they ended up taking my on-call for that day, so I ended up working that day. To sum up work on that day: it was fucked up.

SATURDAY - 8/20

- MY LAST DAY OF WORK. I ended up finding people to cover my shifts, so it was officially my last day. I ended up working 2:30pm to midnight, so it was a long day. There were a whole bunch of us leaving that day, and saying goodbye to everyone sucked. It's funny how I've only known them for a number of weeks, and yet, it's like you're leaving family. We're one, big, crazy retail family :) I ended up getting an hour break, so I went on a coffee run to Starbucks for me and Jackie, got a pretzel for Brian, and ended up having just soup as dinner. Everyone was all huggy and all that, but it's okay. Hopefully we'll all see each other come the holidays (can you imagine?). Le sigh. I miss my crazies <333

MONDAY - 8/22

- I did basically nothing for most of the day until Sitta called and asked if I wanted to go food shopping with her. Oh, what a funny trip it was. Her little nephew loves bananas, so I bought a bunch for him (this is random, but whatever). I jet back home to make sure I get there in time because Jackie, Nancy, Brian and I (our little Express 'crew') were all going out to a movie and dinner, and Jackie was picking me up, so I was crammed for time. We saw Four Brothers, and it was descent enough. Afterwards, we went out to dinner at Chili's, and I proceeded to get harassed with cameras because anyone who knows me KNOWS that I hate taking photos when I don't want to. But it was fun nonetheless, for the most part. I was dying to find out the score of that night's Yankee game, so I got up from the table, walked over into the sports bar, and asked these two random guys about the game, and lo and behold, THE YANKS WON :D It wouldn't be the first time I've asked random strangers about a Yankee game, haha. We went to the Witch's Brew afterwards for a caffeine fix, chilled for a while, and then left. Everyone insisted that they ALL drive back to my house before we all said goodbye, and that's what happened. We all said our goodbyes and called it a night.

TUESDAY - 8/23

- I got up semi-early for Starbucks with Barb, and we just sort walked around and just talked about things. I got home, had a bit of lunch, and Surge called to see when we were leaving for the Yankee game. We ended up leaving around 4pm, got into the city, parked downtown, and took the subway to the stadium. We walked around for a bit to kill some time since we got there so early. Surge didn't get the chance to eat anything yet, so we went to McDonald's for him, and he bought me a fruit parfait, which I ended up not eating,lol. We get into the stadium, and we got to watch the Jays take their batting practice, which was pretty damn cool. If only we got there earlier for the Yanks ;) There's always next time! But the game was absolutely great. The first 7 innings or so were pretty boring, but getting the game tied in the 9th because of Matsui's solo HR, and then Escalona's single... I felt like my heart exploded with happiness, lmfao. It was a great, great, game. We had loge seats, which weren't too bad because the view was pretty good. I was in a pretty distant mind state, so to speak prior to the game, but baseball does something to me to make my life seem more tolerable, despite all the chaos that's existent :) Oh, and Surge is one insane, insane driver. I swear to god that luxury SUVs are NOT supposed to go that fast on highways.

WEDNESDAY - 8/24

- I had plans to go to the beach with Sitta and Karen, and before we went, we stopped by to visit Sitta's nephew, and the kid is so, so, SO adorable. He's almost a year old! We went to Long Beach for the day, and it was a gorgeous day out. We went a little camera happy, but we got some amazing shots in of the beach and the water. It was a fun day with my girls :)

THURSDAY - 8/25

- Jackie and I decided to go for lunch at Panera, so we could see each other before she headed off to school upstate. We got Starbucks afterwards, and then went to her house and just talked outside on her swing and all. She's up there now already :]

FRIDAY - 8/26

- Barb and I had one of our infamous movie nights. We got Starbucks at 11pm, then went to the supermarket and got junk food and all that, and I got the newest Vogue. We then went to Blockbuster and I bought Coach Carter and Barb bought some DVD with Richard Gere (I think it was?). The Blockbuster here didn't have anything we wanted, so we went to the one all the way down, and rented A Lot Like Love and Friday Night Lights. We only ended up watching A Lot Like Love and Coach Carter, but we shall watch Friday Night Lights soon enough :) I'm such a sucker for sports movies.

TODAY - 8/27

- Today was my last day before I get shipped off to the hell hole again. My parents left early to go into the city to see family friends who are in New York briefly. I didn't even get to have dinner or anything with them today, which is perfectly fine. I've got my clothes packed so far, and I still have everything else to pack. I don't want to go back; I don't want the summer to end. sigh. This is it... This is the end.

Returning students can only move-in between 12 and 7pm, so let the chaos begin. Every fiber in my body is dragging on its feet because I am dreading this so, so badly. My schedule is absolute hell, and I don't have too much faith in myself that I'll make it through this semester okay. I'm taking two bio courses, two math courses, chem lab, and psych (there might be another class that I can't remember). That's hell right there :/ Guys, hope and pray for me that I make it through the next 4 months. Please.

When I'm sad or upset about something, I spend money, and this week has resulted in some major damage to my bank account. In two days, I've ordered:

+ a pair of Notify jeans
+ 3 C&C California shirts
+ a Diane von Furstenberg shirt
+ a More sweater
+ a pair of Juicy Couture jeans
+ a pair of Marc Jacobs pants

That should all be here in a the next couple of days. I feel like a little kid on Christmas day when I get packages in the mail, but my bank account is hurting, badly. I need to break these spending habits of mine. No more clothes for me. My birthday is around the corner, and I can't believe I'll be entering my last year as a teenager. I suddenly feel so damn old. Le sigh. Happy thoughts are due right about now.

The Yankee game today was insane. A five run 9th inning?! Who would've ever imagined! Now we're only 1.5 back from kicking those Boston motherfuckers (excuse my French) out of first place ;D GO YANKEES!

Alright, I'm off to sleep because I need to get up in a number of hours to finish packing and off to the hell hole I go. Wish me well :[ August 28th is finally here, and it's time to accept that...

A NEW ERA HAS BEGUN.. -

2005-08-13T07:14:01Z

Alright, so it's time for a massive update. God bless your souls should you actually read all this ;) I'm really wired right now, so if I suddenly don't make sense, bear with me, kids, thanks!

Tuesday (8/2)

Father dearest had the week off because he felt like it, so we went to the beach. We drove all the way out to Sunken Meadow and went to the beach there. It was insanely hot out, I think it was 95 or something of the sort, and I just layed out in the sun. I got gross tan lines, but hey, I'll deal. It wasn't really that bad out at the beach, but when I got home, it was hell. But a fun day in the sun nonetheless.

Wednesday & Thursday (8/3 & 8/4)

I worked 6 till closing on Wednesday, and I was there till about 11pm. Being the dork that I am, I forgot to clock out because everyone was in such a hurry to get out of there. Then, I had to get up at 6am the next morning because I was called in to do the markups, so I worked 8am-1pm that day. I had lunch with my parents afterwards and that was that.

Friday (8/5)

Oh, this was one hell of a day. Since everyone was home that day, we decided to go into the city. My sister went with to meet up with her best friend who moved to North Carolina, but came up to visit, and her and about 10 other friends had lunch at Hard Rock and whatever else.

I had lunch with the parents in the city and then I proceeded to go to the Met by myself (yay for student admission fees!). I saw most of the Egyptian and Greek exhibits there back in the fall, but I revisited them just for fun. But the main reason I went to the Met? The Chanel exhibit. It was amazing, but the lighting definitely could've been better. The exhibit ended on 8/5, and I went 2 days before it was closing, so it was PACKED. But some of those gowns were absolutely gorgeous. And I do mean GORGEOUS. I picked up 2 black and white postcards of Karl Lagerfeld and Coco herself, and I also got a limited edition Chanel 'through the years' poster. That was a chunk of the paycheck gone right there, but hey, this exhibit is never going to be resurrected, so mind as well live in the moment ;)

During my time inside the Met, my parents just walked around 5th Ave. and Central Park. I met up with them once they were done, and we headed downtown. I took the subway down to SoHo and got a pair of Seven For All Mankind cords, a pair of Loomstate jeans, and a C&C California tee for my sister. My dad got off at 14th and went to Union Square, and of course, he went to Whole Foods. I swear that my parents are obsessed with that place. I mean, $30 for a piece of salmon? C'mon now, at least that's how I view it.

So we came home and ordered in from our favorite little restaurant, and wow, I just realized that I eat out a lot.

Saturday & Sunday (8/6 & 8/7)

I worked Saturday from 1-6pm, and yeah >_<

On Sunday, I was done at 5pm, so I ran out of the store, got a huge black coffee from The Coffee Beanery and bolted to A&F to get my flip flops while on the phone with my lovely WIT. I was in such a huge rush because my parents were coming to pick me up because we had to head into Flushing for dinner with the whole family.

Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday (8/8 - 8/12)

Monday - I did nothing except catch up on my sleep and all that junk.

Tuesday - As always, I went to Starbucks with Barb and had a blast, as we always do ;)

Wednesday - I worked from 6pm till 5am, as you all know from my previous entry. It was hell, let's end it at that. I have bruises all over from walking into things, being hit with things, and being abused by the crazy people I work with. But it was fun considering the managers were too busy and confused to yell at us ;) Props to having certain descent and good co-workers!

Friday/Today

I was online till about 4:30am, and I slept till 11am. I think the lack of sleep I get is slowly catching up to me. I went out to lunch at Panera with Barb, and then we went to- where else?- Starbucks ♥ Fun, fun, fun times. Guys, don't ever have tea and then a venti coffee because you will be fucking WIRED. I got home, and I felt like my heart was beating a mile a minute. So I went out to the tennis courts and played 2 hours worth of tennis. Now I have a ton of blisters, four to be exact, and I am in a crapload of pain :/ It was insanely hot out before, and I was perspiring like crazy, but it felt so good to just run like a crazy person all over the court.

And now, ~~I'm watching~~ I just watched the Mets/Dodges game. David Wright is gorgeous. God, did I just say something nice about the rivals? I kid, haha.

Oh, I got Yankee tickets for the game in about a week and a half. Fun times ahead ;) I think I can die a happy child after that, lmfao. I need to go back-to-school shopping soon with the usual shopping pals, preferably in the city because tax in this damn county is so damn high. I've bought so much crap this summer already, so I don't need to get too much, which is good.

My cell's busted because I can't seem to get anymore than two bars of reception anywhere, and my dad took it to the Verizon store, and they said it needed a new battery. So my dad pays like $40 for the damn battery, and it did absolutely nothing. Zero. Nada. Zilch. So my dad took it back, and they're shipping me a new one, and it was supposed to arrive today, but nothing. I need a functioning, working phone NOW.

Ugh, I'm dreading school already. My schedule for next semester is HELL, and I'll post that at some point later. I need to go to the beach again before school starts. I need to meet up with Janet. I need to see everyone who I miss so, so much! Wow, is my life boring or what?

I trying to change my outlook on things. I've realized that I get too caught up in the small things in life, and I'm trying to change that. Life's too short to be all tripped up over the petty things in life. You never know when your last day is, as sad as that may sound, so you should live every moment to it's fullest. I'm trying to be more optimistic. Life's a learning process, and if you happen to have to go through pain and bleed, it's all for a reason. Things happen for a reason. Don't get too caught up in trying to figure out 'why?' or 'how?' and whatnot. That's not to say not to think and question about things, but don't let it run you. Trust your instincts and trust yourself. Much of life is about acceptance, and it's one of the hardest things in life to do. Just breathe, take a deep breath, exhale, and just move on with life :)

I'm dead tired right now, so I'm off to sleep. Goodnight all ♥

+ Yankees baseball is forever love.
+ Starbucks is love.
+ NYC is extreme love.
+ Avant & Jesse Powell is love.
+ Sleep is love ;)

OHMYGOD.. - (venting ahead)

2005-08-11T10:19:13Z

Ladies and gentlemen, I have just gotten back from work no less than half an hour ago. I worked a shift and THEN did the entire floorset. We just fucking had a floorset change not too long ago (see a few posts back on here), and yeah, we had another one. I was working from 6pm till about 5am, and I was on my feet the entire time. My feet feel like they've been completely bruised, and I'm ready to drop dead. Thank god I am almost done with this place for a while. Thank effin god. Can I die now? I had to go through all of that without coffee, and that in itself is hell for me. I'm ready to go sleep for a long, long time. The best part? One of my managers wanted be to come in for work today at 1pm. No way, get the hell out. A real update with everything will be coming later, but for now, I SLEEP. Retail hell, kids, retail hell.

Le sigh.

DAYS GO BY.. -

2005-08-02T01:33:22Z

Today does not feel like a Monday. The past couple of days have been busy, some good along with the bad. Work is still work, and I've decided to make my last day the 20th. I just need to see my scheduling manager and tell her that.

Wednesday:

+ We went to our beloved mall and bought Laguna Beach on DVD, then went to the makeup counters in Macys, and goofed around the mall and had lunch
+ We then went to the Starbucks on the way back from the mall, but no, we had to deal with asshole drivers, so decided to go to OUR Starbucks with the cool workers there (or as Barb likes to call the guy 'that hottie' lmfao)
+ Once we got back, we spent hours watching 2 of the 3 DVDs, consumed a ton of grande mocha frapps, and went Smarties crazy
+ Yelling at psycho drivers and assholes who cut us off, bitching at construction, and yelling horrible comments outside the windows... all in a day of fun ;)

Thursday:

+ I had work from 5:30pm-9:30pm, and I was doing the fitting rooms, and it went by in a snap. Who would've thought I would ever say THAT? I prefer doing the fitting rooms over anything else, besides the denim wall in the back.

Friday:

- I was originally on-call from 1-6, but if you're on-call, you need to call in 2 hours before your scheduled shift, so I had to get up at 11am. I haven't gotten up before noon in the longest time, and I call in, and one of my managers go 'Oh, we don't need you today.' Gee, thanks a lot >_<
+ I caught up on my sleep, which was good.
+ Barb came over after her shift was done, and we watched the last of the three LB DVDs, and we just talked until about 2am. Fun times :)

Saturday & Sunday:

- One word: work. Ick.

Today:

+ I went out to lunch with my family in Flushing.
+ I had a lychee green tea bubble tea, which was absolutely amazing ♥
+ My Express credit card came in the mail today. I doubt I'll ever actually use the damn thing.
- I got a haircut, and it is way too short for my liking. It fucking sucks. All I can hope for is that my hair grows back fast, and by fast, I mean NOW. Fuck, I really, really, really hate my hair right now. Ughhhh.

My dad took off this week, so plans are just spontaneously happening. We're heading to Montauk tomorrow for the day, so that should be fun. I have work Wednesday, which sucks. There is a pending planning SB '06 for the west coast ;) I want to go into the city sometime this week when I'm off and do some shopping. I'm getting paid this week, and my check's going to be one pretty penny- I can't wait.

What else? Oh, YANKEES! I wish I saw the whole game yesterday (blah on work for that), and I caught the highlights and that come from behind win was beautiful :D Today's an off-day and my life seems so empty without baseball. Depending on my schedule next week, I might be headed off to the Bronx to catch a game during the Yanks/Rangers series. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for that!

Wow, my life is freakin boring. I apologize for you poor souls who read this and my lackluster life :/ Hey, it's better than hearing about my bitching about school and whatnot, right? Hope you're all doing well!

edit: OMFG. Moose is going to be at the Borders at Columbus Circle next Friday. Holy mother effin god. Okay, I BETTER not be working that day!! -fangirl moment over-