hey folks, lots going on right now, I am sooo excited for the summer despite some of the factors which I thought would be working against me.
I have decided to accept my offer from Ryerson, I will be taking philosophy and music courses, and hopefully get into residence. This will probably only be for the first year, and then I will transfer elsewhere, where there will be an actual department for these subjects.
I decided Ryerson for its convenient location to other opportunities in my life, for its approach to electronic music and its English department.
I'll probably be visiting Montreal an awful lot as well when I'm overwhelmed by Toronto, so that will still be very much in my life. However I think people have this weird stigma about Toronto, although it can be draining, certainly not to the extent people make it out to be draining.
I am also not doing summer school *yay* I';m doing 2 correspondence courses instead.
A lot of doors have been opening for me this summer
this Saturday I am meeting with someone from digitaljournal.com who is interested in having me model for them, and wants to get me some other gigs in the modeling industry,
and I am also starting with some film work which I will reveal on here quite soon
so I'm in Toronto this weekend for a modeling gig and film stuff and the next weekend I am in Toronto as well for zee hop and probably the film and modeling stuff as well.
Then the weekend of the 22nd I shall have my Kingston birthday party that Friday (or saturday depending what happens). Then saturday I'm to Detroit (hopefully) for a final fantasy concert and then Windsor to see some friends, probably party it up at some Detroit clubs (I just felt like lil kim or something saying that >_<, at least crack won't be involved eh?).
Then last weekend of July I hope to be in Montreal for zee Montreal pride, hopefully go up with Kenny and brad, perhaps matt blake as well, I want to show brad and Matt around :P.
Then in august I was thinking of having a Toronto birthday bash on the 6th, not sure where, but I'm definitely going to make it crazy.
On the 12 I start za secret project, for two - three weeks then off to NYC for another yet to be revealed project
a very crazy fun summer indeed. I'll be mowing a lot of lawns for this :D
but anywho where have I been the last week?
Buffalo I say! I suppose I was just tieing up some loose ends with mikey...there were some residue feelings amongst such, I wanted to see if circumstances had changed enough, for a possibility of a prospect with him and I. I suppose I was a bit naive and engulfed by the past. I am a very nostalgic creature XD. The past is what ignited my curiosity to see him, I'm sure everyone has gone through that. I did love him. You know, it sounds cliche but I still do, in that ideal world which isn't tarnished by situation and circumstance, but I guess those things which don't make us work are all values to variables within his personality, like I mean circumstance will always change but I think to some degree he will always have the things in his personality which made us not work, so they could be brought out at any moment. I guess it was with me too, though...I have that same thing.
Its really based on a clash of egos I suppose, thats what I've figured out amongst all this rambling, however I guess there are other things to consider, like how he deals with our differences (such as ideas in religion and sex), how he deals with any potentially bad situation in general. I can't handle it at all. Its so fucking vexing for me.
I don't know, again I'd give it a third chance in the future if I'm single, when he's older. Not to say that he is immature in general, but I think time and exposure to the adult world could help the problems of ego, I mean once you reach the big city you get a culture shock, its far different from living in Barker. But for now it is time to move on, that chapter of my life was revisited, but I have far transcended those events. But I am not closing it for good for good. After all it was 2 years of my life.
And you know I am thankful for the time I was given last week and mike's general hospitality.
Before buffalo I had a fantastic weekend at pride. After finishing exams I zoomed off to Toronto on Thursday and when I got there I went straight to Stefan's. The first thing he did was slam down a red rave (energy drink) on the table for me. lol I was like * you know me toooo well*
We talked of exes and the colors of his walls, and friends and life. It was nice. I then zoomed downtown and immediately ran into justin and andi. Then princess and patrik and several other people congregated at a bench and we just hung out joked around, I finished my third energy drink *yikes*
and bantered on. Then andi and I went to ignition early, and he, being the fine gentlemen he is, got me a volunteer spot with prismtoronto (http://prismtoronto.com) which got me a vip pass to all the events, the whole honchulata. Ignition was amazing, I actually ran into 3 people I knew which was absurd. I drank red bulls, jaggermeister, vodka, but as I usually do while dancing, sweated it all out. The music was fantastic, it was like this electro deep house (best way of describing it)
I loved dancing to it.
Afterwards we met up with Justin and friends and walked to this guy named Jason (but everyone calls him britney)'s house where we lounged around till like 7am watching movies and such. Justin and I walked around till we found shoppers drug mart which was open all night and I got some products and we ate at McDonalds. mmmmm hot cakes.....
Then we took the street car back to Stefan's and took his bed as he was going for work.
On Friday we woke up, got ready and headed over to Terry and Brandon (bently's) house.
I err... um.. 'naired' there for pride and we ate McDonalds as well :P
oooooo I love my McDonalds.
After this we headed back downtown, got some booze, put it in cups justin went off for dinner, I walked around with a guy (apparently his name was adam) and became increasingly drunk. Church street was buzzing, it was insane. I was interviewed by city TV, and had my picture taken randomly a few times. I ran into a friend Chris.
I just enjoyed the buzz in more ways then 3 :D
Later I ran into Justin again and I was superbly drunk at this point.We hung out at church and Wellesley ran into tones of folk, including several Kingston people.
I ended up smoking pot which I usually never do, but to hell, it was pride,
We walked around some more,ran into princess and Patrick again and then i went to bitchslap...alone?
I was insanely drunk and high so it didn't matter, I ran into so many people as well and gathered a group...
the owner of 5ive also said I should submit a demo to him for DJing which I certainly will do soon, he gave me his card.
You know, to be honest I remember little about that night, the last thing was talking to Nick Factor in Burger King, I don't even remember what I did that night, other then that I got home late and that it was similar to Thursday. I hung out with Justin too. Geez thats weird I totally don't remember anything but that...anywho I know I got back at Stefan's and in Saturday morning I met with some folk, walked around and then went to Aqua. Which was awesome I volunteered there, drank a bit more, and danced to this amazingly hot deep house. Aqua was this big awesome water party during the day, I loved it. Then I went back to the mall, picked up my cell phone which was being charged, went downtown drunk again, ran into oodles of people from like Windsor, detroit, Toronto, kingston, Montreal, even England, it was like this big collaboration. After this, I went back to a friend's hotel and hung out with them, and then went to Joi where I volunteered but it was dreadful. I was worn out and had blisters and instead of like 2000 people in a small space there was 7000 people in a small space it was raverish.
I got to meet Boy George though :P
I just said hi and he said hi back, it was brief, he was DJing and I was backstage.
After this I hung out with some windsorish friends till like 9am, then woke up, tried to go to the parade which was packed, i couldn't walk anywhere, then ditched it hung out with mikey (TO) and then back home, then back downtown, hung out around 5ive again and then back to stefans, had a loooooooong sleep to revive myself and then that day I left for buffalo.
so thus, my friends, was my insane pride weekend, the first one in Toronto at least.
I dunno I mainly came for the party and friends, I'm not all about the "I'm GAYYYY RAWWWW!" thing
but toodles I suppose
this is me cracked on saturday night, with blisters
its like this is matt,
this is matt after pride
I'm not as fat as I look, I promise