'Maybe I would become a mermaid....I would live in the swirling blue-green currents, doing exotic underwater dances for the fish, kissed by sea anemones, caressed by seaweed shawls. I would have a dolphin as a friend. He would have merry eyes and the thick sleeked flesh of a god. My fingernails would be tiny shells and my skin would be like jade with light shining through it. I would never have to come back up...'

Mmmer, I hate everything, everything is crappy. I suck at everything and nothing ever works out for me.

And I'm stupid and fuck up things with people, and then also miss out on oppurtunities and fuck up things even more and get my feeling hurt to much.

-angry, angry, angry, angry-

-sad-

everything would be so much better if I didn't have emotions because right now I feel so lonely it's unbearable...I just want to crawl into someones arms, and curl up in them, just that I know that someone is there. Just for even an illusion that someone cares. Even if it's just for a moment.

I have no-one...

In the immortal words of ladyjaida
"Love is stupid.

It has something to do with hormones, is influenced often by misplaced affections, becomes tinged with aggravation in the face of too little sleep, and really has nothing to do with too much chocolate. " -- It Must Be The Flu

Pearl remembers my ass.