smellymonster_

"e reason of presence is only temporary, and will just gonna expect a departure anytime soon." hmm, no doubt she's right.

well, the world is so dumb. imagine somebody whom you loved so deeply before, or somebody who loved you so deeply before, one foolish mistake or a moment of folly, there wouldn't be mercy, all that's left would be hate and regrets that would linger in the deepest depth of your phsyche. my bunk buddy once mentioned to me..."the deepest hatred you have for her really showed the deepest love you had for her before, and vice versa".

i have'nt seen you for sometimes.

I was thinking of what to write about today. badmintion with colleagues after work. they can really play well. anyway, this game of badminton brought me some memory. i remembered, we both shared a game of badminton last year. and i remembered clearly how you pinned point on my right space to win me.

but it meant alot to me.

i was just thinking that day, each relationship is like a scratch and win card isn't it? You get a card and you can hardly anticipated to scratch and see if u 'win'. But more often than not, it says, 'Thank you, please try again.' If you weren't harbouring too much hope from the start, you treat the loss as yet another, but if you were hoping to score, the feeling of seeing the faint 'Than...' Even before u can finishing scraping the silver lining is horrible. Crestfallen, you can only hope for a better chance next time around.

I hope my card says 'Congratulations, you've won

By blogging, this way you can prevent overlooking in what each other have not done. Human basic flaws; they never notice and remember the good things as much as the negative...

To a few, it means that i wont leave now.

To me, it means that have faith in me, i am not leaving.

Honestly speaking, i dread the day of ending. will i see you at the very end? i don't know. life is unpredictable as you told me. but you've laid a significant step in my life. Basically you give me something to look forward to. yes, there are flaws and negatives, does it really matters at the end when you are able to understand and forgive each other?

Despite on rare occasions, when you got me seethed with disappointment and lost, you brought me immeasurable joy on most occasions.

Before i end this,

You are my strength and my weakness. lets walk together.

i drag my fingertips along the
raindrops on my window panel
and i thought of you
just me and you

i have pictures of you
and me tacked up in my mind
we look so happy together

i see your picture
i smell your skin next to me
you've been gone so long ago
and i'm wasting away again

i know you don't know this
neither do i plan to let you know
but i seem to miss you a lot