So what's new? A LOT.

Well, I'm graduating this year and I'm not too excited. Well I am but not. I don't want things to change yet I guess. BUT I am going to be attending the University of New England at Westbrook College Campus for Nursing. I went and visited today and my first impression was TOO SMALL. But then I got a look at everything and teh calss rooms and the people and decided "I'm gonna like it here." There are prolly only 300 people living on campus and there are like 18 boys this year. But what'd you expect if you school had nursing and dental hygene haha. But I don't care about that. Kyle shouldnt be worried haha. It is right in Portland so I have plenty to do. I can have my car on campus. The main campus in Biddeford is only 20 minutes away. So now after seeing it. I'm more excited. Let's just say I'm not as freaked. So thats my news of college.

I am quiting skating. I am going to take my Novice moves test in June so after that I am done. I have just had enough with it. It isnt really interesting and as fun as it use to be for me so I decided on being done.

So I guess thats all thats new with me. I'm definatley going to miss everyone nest year. A LOT.

<3

"All I Want For Christmas"

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas
Is you...

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You...

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need -
won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You...

All I want for Christmas is you baby...

Start with 100%, and take away 1% for everything you've done/that's happened to you on this list. Put the number you are left with in the subject line EXAMPLE... if you did ONE thing you would put 99%

Smoked.
Drank alcohol.
Cried when someone died.
Been drunk.
Had sex.
Been to a concert.
Gotten a handjob/fingered.
Recieved oral sex.
Been verbally sexually harassed.
Verbally sexually harassed somebody.
Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Been to prom.
Cried at school.
Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
Went streaking.
Given a lap dance.
Had someone of the opposite sex in your room
Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
Kissed a stranger.
Hugged a stranger.
Went scuba diving.
Driven a car.
Gotten an xray.
Hit by a car.
Had a party
Done drugs
Played strip poker.
Got paid to strip for someone.
Ran away from home.
Broken a bone.
Eaten sushi.
Bought porn.
Watched porn.
Made porn.
Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
Been in love.
Frenched kissed.
Laughed so hard you cried.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Laughed yourself to sleep
Been Stabbed
Shot a gun.
Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
Watched an animal die.
Watched a person die.
Had sex and/or messed around somewhere with atleast one person present.
Pranked somebody
Put somebody in the hospital.
Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
Kissed somebody of the same sex.
Dressed punk.
Dressed goth.
Dressed preppy.
Been to a motocross race.
Avoided somebody.
Been stalked.
Stalked someone.
Met a celebrity.
Played an instrument.
Ridden a horse.
Cut yourself.
Bungee jumped.
Ding dong ditched somebody.
Been to a wild party.
Got caught stealing something.
Kicked a guy in the balls.
Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
Went out with your friend's crush.
Got arrested.
Been pregnant.
Babysat.
Been to another country.
Started your house on fire.
Had an encounter with a ghost.
Donated your hair to cancer patients.
Been asked out by someone that you never though you'd to be asked out by.
Cried over a member of the opposite sex
Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
Sat on your ass all day.
Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
Had a job.
Gotten cut from a sports team.
Been called a whore.
Danced like a whore.
Been mistaken for a celebrity.
Been in a car accident.
Been told you have beautiful eyes.
Been told you have beautiful hair.
Raped somebody.
Danced in the rain.
Been rejected.
Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
Punched/slapped someone in the face.


60% for me. Wooo.

Copy the letters and post your name at the top...
delete the person who reposted this (that way it doesn't get all messy)

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K- You like to try new things.
A- You always want some action.
T- You have an attitude, a big one.
E- You are popular with all tpes of people.
L- You are always smiling and making others smile.
Y- You always make everyone experience great.
N- You can be very "FUN"
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A- You always want some action.
B - You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
C - You definitely have a partier side in you, and arent shy to show it
D- You have trouble trusting people.
E- You are popular with all types of people
F - Fake.
G - You are very friendly and undestanding
H - You are not judgmental
I- love is something you deeply believe in
J - Everyone loves you.
K - You like to try new things.
L - You are always smiling and making others smile.
M - Success comes easily to you
N - You can be very "FUN"
O- You love foreplay
P - You are very friendly and undestanding
Q - You are a hypocrite.
R- You are a social butterfly
S - People think you are sexy, especially your bf/gf
T - You have an attitude, a big one.
U- you usally r hella tight
V - You have a very good physique and looks.
W - You are very broad minded.
X - You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- you always make every experience Great
Z- You're uber coolves you.

"Strange & Beautiful ( I'll put a Spell On You)- Aqualung

I've been
Watching your world from afar
I've been
Trying to be where you are
I've been
Secretly falling apart
Unseen
To me
You're strange and you're beautiful
You'd be
So perfect with me but you just
Can't see
You turn every head but you don't
See me
I'll put a spell on you
You'll fall asleep
I'll put a spell on you
And when I wake you
I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realise that you love me
Sometimes
The last thing you want comes in fisrt
Sometimes
The first thing you want never comes
I know
Waiting is all you can do
Sometimes
I'll put a spell on you
You'll fall asleep
I'll put a spell on you
And when I wake you
I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realise that you love me

"Cry"- James Blunt

I have seen peace. I have seen pain,
Resting on the shoulders of your name.
Do you see the truth through all their lies?
Do you see the world through troubled eyes?
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

I have seen birth. I have seen death.
Lived to see a lover's final breath.
Do you see my guilt? Should I feel fright?
Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?
And if you want to talk about it once again,
On you I depend. I'll cry on your shoulder.
You're a friend.

You and I have lived through many things.
I'll hold on to your heart.
I wouldn't cry for anything,
But don't go tearing your life apart.

I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me, and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

"A Thousand Beautiful Things"- Annie Lennox

Every day I write the list
Of reasons why I still believe they do exist
(a thousand beautiful things)
And even though it's hard to see
The glass is full and not half empty
(a thousand beautiful things)
So... light me up like the sun
To cool down with your rain
I never want to close my eyes again
Never close my eyes
Never close my eyes

I thank you for the air to breathe
The heart to beat
The eyes to see again
(a thousand beautiful things)
And all the things that's been and done
The battle's won
The good and bad in everyone
(this is mine to remember)
So ...
Here I go again
Singin' by your window
Pickin' up the pieces of what's left to find

The world was meant for you and me
To figure out our destiny
(a thousand beautiful things)
To live
To die
To breathe
To sleep
To try to make your life complete
(yes yes)
So ...
Light me up like the sun
To cool down with your rain
I never want to close my eyes again
Never close my eyes
never close my eyes ...
That is everything I have to say
(that's all I have to say)

"I Want To Be Loved"- Bon Jovi

I had a roof overhead
Had shoes on my feet
Sure I was fed, but no-one was there
When I was in need, yeah

So who am I now?
Who do you want me to be?
I can forgive you, but I won't love you
I aint the same scared kid I used to be

I'm gonna live
I'm gonna survive
Don't want the world to pass me by
I wanna dream
I aint gonna die
Thinking my life was just a lie
I wanna be loved
I wanna be loved

I found a picture
A so called family tree, yeah
I broke all the branches, looking for answers
Don't you know that aint how it's supposed to be

I'm gonna live
I'm gonna survive
Don't want the world to pass me by
I wanna dream
I ain't gonna die
Thinking my life was just a lie
I wanna give
I'm willing to try
Willing to lay it on the line
I wanna be loved
I wanna be

I aint gonna cry
I dont wanna scream
But i got so much left unsaid inside of me

I just wanna be loved
I wanna be loved

"Tears and Rain"- James Blunt

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

I have to sort out my life...



You know there is something wrong when you cry at least once a day, usually twice, and you really have no idea why. When there is soo much bothering you and you can't seem to do anything right. You get so frustrated and the why you deal is to cry and cry and cry. You always feel better after a good cry but then you wonder whts worng with you? Why are you like this? Why is everything going so fucking wrong? And then you cry more just because. I hate it.



I seem to hate everything right now. Oh God, I can't wait for college!!



I need a new life...or atleast a better one. I need something or someone that makes me feel good and not shitty. When I go to bed, thats when I let out how I feel. I can't help it. Then when you talk about it to people, it just makes you feel worse. Oh man, this sucks.



I don't like feeling lonely and lost. I wonder if I will ever be found or if it is even worth being found.