when senioritis hits

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 17:25:04 GMT

yo people,

THIS IS MY LAST ENTRY AS SENIORITIS_.

i will not delete this name though for record purposes.

I am now moving to the username "ipetmyfish" which is much more fitting for me now. I am no longer a senior, but now a freshman...that actually DOES pet her fish. This fact is true, just ask Marco.

so anyways, also, so you all know, I'm also getting the aim sn "ipetmyfish" but i'm still keeping iamheids.

see you all. and thanks for keeping up with my insane name changes.

p.s. marco you HAVE to change your sn. it's so not true either.

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 03:06:38 GMT

yeah so we just have

a bit

of rain

not too much

a few drops

we needed rain, right?

a few...

showers.

and...uh...

sprinkles.

summertime showers.

and stuff.

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 02:48:44 GMT

duude.

sunset + CNU = awesome

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 06:08:50 GMT

guys...

we're going to COLLEGE!!!!!

HELL YES!!!

post your favorite photos of your college too!!!

Heidi

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 17:47:36 GMT

Rocks

-Marco

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 21:06:54 GMT

hello peoples

i have to say...tody when i took a shower, there was a ray of light coming in through the window which hit the water and formed a rainbow, and also the water was moving in two directions, from the shower head and from hitting my skin...and the way the light was hitting it was so beautiful.

anyway, last night was marco's graduation. it was a lot of fun. tomorrow is mine. plus my party...plus project graduation...hmm. should be a fun day. then sunday i'm going to kim's as a surprise.

I'm so busy lately!! too much going on!!!!!!!!!!

photo feature:

me and jenna swinging in the hammock.

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 06:35:25 GMT

why y why y why why whywhywhywhywhywhyyyy yyy y y y

y y e e y e y e yyyy eeeeee

why does why sound sound like y in english
and y sound like e in spanish?

why do ladybug like bugs ask for help
y que estas haciendo
y que estas haciendo
qiero ir al bano y ir a la playa y quiero ser con tu y tu y tu y tu vida
"tu vida esta haciendo algo malo, algo malo esta haciendo tu vida"
y nada esta de acuerdo con mi y no estoy de acuerda con ellos
pero cuando algo pasa y cuando yo salgo
seras con mi dondequiera y cunadoquiera tu quieras
quiero tener luz y quiero tener tu
y queiro que tu tienes cualquiera quieras...
a veces tu pelo no esta perfecto pero tu siempre eres perfecto
si, si? sabes que estoy diciendo? yo se que sabes porque somos juntos.

y estoy floja ahora...este es porque no esta accentos.

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 03:46:20 GMT

Hey Amy,
Today I received the Nikai camera in the mail. When I opened the box, I noticed that the product smelled strongly of smoke. When I opened the actual camera box, I saw that parts of the styrofoam were stuck onto the bag (maybe from being in the box for long periods of time?), and when I got the actual camera out, I noticed that the flash had a crack on it.

Honestly, I'm really disappointed in the product, but I don't want to give you negative feedback for something that can be worked out easily. I'm requesting a cash refund because the product was advertised as new with no flaws. Of course I understand that you cannot refund shipping. I would greatly appreciate if you could take the product back for the $9.95 cash refund, and I could still leave you positive feedback for a smooth transaction.

Thanks for your understanding,

heidi

sometimes...ebay is frustrating.

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 05:48:11 GMT

i want a wallettttttt
and a skirtttttt
and stuff.
i'm so material right now.
then again, i'm really tired.

i was gonna play the sims but now i just want to sleep.

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 19:51:57 GMT

last night i had such a realistic dream. parts were funny and parts were sad.

i took a pregnancy test and found out i was pregnant. i asked marco how he knew what it said, "marco, was there a positive or negative sign?" and he said, "there was a smiley face...and it said, 'haha, someone's been messin' around!'" the pregnancy was so real. every time i have these dreams that i'm pregnant, they seem more and more realistic. in the dream i knew kristy was pregnant, and i felt more secure knowing this, so i would have a pregnancy buddy. then she told me she had a miscarriage. i felt so alone. i was due in feb. my stomach was growing, and i loved the feeling, but i hated it too. i wanted to go to the doctor to get my pregnancy vitamins. i hadn't told my parents. marco was indifferent.

then i woke up.

today, kristy told me she lost the baby.

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 06:09:01 GMT

today was great. so was yesterday. well, the whole weekend.
friday night was vegetarian/meat bbq; it was really good. we played flashlight tag (but i'm afraid of the dark) and also had another RV party. Stephanie, your RV is awesome. winnebago or not...haha.

saturday wasn't perfect sailing conditions, so marco and i just hung out. his new puppies are soo cute. they went outside for the first time on saturday. later on marco came to my house, and we went out to dinner at Los Toltecos...goooood mexican food. he spent the night which was cool, and today we had a lot of fun. in the middle of the afternoon we fell asleep on my bed and took a 3 hour nap. that's probably why i'm still up right now...it felt so nice though.

I have so much to catch up on...sorry for not updating in so long. there have been so many fun times--the reason i haven't updated isn't because I have been a loser every weekend, it's because I've been doing so much that I dont even have time to come online and make a journal entry!

so here's an explosion of (old) photos...

so these are definitely late. maybe i'm posting them at a bad time...or maybe not?

old concert--battle of the bands.

marco's new puppies...first walk outside.

and lastly...kama sutra "for the RV" a.k.a. marco shirtless and me doing some freak-show move in the background...and KHAI took this one haha. COURTESY ERIC!!! =D

p.s. i have NO idea why photobucket or lj resized some of the pics but not others...they are all supposed to be the same size...wtf.

p.p.s. all pics (except kamasutra) available in larger sizes and prints upon request. heidiphotographer@gmail.com

Mon, 08 May 2006 02:20:01 GMT

eric's journal inspired me to update.
but then i realized that out of alll the stuff that's happened lately,
i have really nothing to say about it, or maybe i just have so much to say that i can't say it?
it's like my studdering problem,
when so many words want to come out of your mouth at the same time,
they trip and fall and get jumbled up
like a big pile of something,
and it never makes sense,
except to god.
and god never tells.

the bible says,
cry to me, cry to me and ask for help and forgiveness
and i will shout out to you, "I am here!"
god never said that to me,
in fact, god never said shit to me!
he just said, "heidi, what are you doing, there's a bee in the house and a bolongni sandwich waiting for you in the bathroom when you go there to type and bead a necklace and why is there honey on the counter heidi, WHY IS THERE HONEY ON THE COUNTER HEIDI! and why is the handle sticky, the handle is always sticky!"
and the things god said to me always jumbled up with the things that my parents said to me when they were angry,
angry about stupid things like the kitchen and how my bed sheets were tangled and my car was touching the grass just enough for the leprechans to get angry, too.
so i told jesus, "jesus, i'll tell you what, put your hand right there, yes right there, and if you have the power to heal, you will do it."
and jesus didn't do it, he just stood there at the end of my bed like a stinking statue, except some kind of wind was hitting him just the right way for his shaw to sway with it, and the wind mattered more than me! THE WIND MATTERED MORE THAN MY LIFE! than my sadness, than my hope, than my dream, my dream that maybe this ridiculous bunch of nonsense could be real
because then i could go to church and feel, and really FEEL the message, even if it was just a bunch of bullshit!
but again, jesus didn't do it, he just stood there, while i cried and cried and he stood! why did he just stand there? i'll tell you what, if jesus ever moved an INCH after he died, it certainly wasnt for any crying girl, that's for sure, because he must be deaf. and blind.
and speaking of which, i'm sure hellen keller talked to jesus
but it made sense to her, because since she couldnt hear or see him, he was in her MIND
people are hellen keller
people are hellen keller
christians are hellen keller
RELIGIOUS PEOPLE ARE HELLEN KELLER
open your eyes, jesus isn't moving
and god never shouted shit
he never will, he just sits up there and looks at you
HE JUST KEEPS LOOKING
HE JUST KEEPS LOOKING, he just keeps fucking looking at you until you're so frustrated with his nonresponsiveness that you just want to explode
and he just looks at you some more, then you'll turn away
then you'll turn away, and then you'll see what i'm saying
you'll feel it, too.
but no, you're hellen keller
you can't even read what i'm writing right now
so go figure it out for yourself
and even if you dont, it's your problem
if you'll be in your bed late at night
and god is on your ceiling
and jesus is at the end of your bed
and neither one is responding, they're just laughing
they're just fish in the sea of the bible
which is just dust anyway
and they'll just BE there, and you'll be crying so loud
and NOTHING will happen

except for the things you do yourself.

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 06:44:41 GMT

can't sleep, too excited.

this is the MOST ACCURATE one of these things i've come across...

You know you live in Northern Virginia if...

1. You know the entire lyrics to the Eastern Motors Car comercial song, and sing along every time it comes on.

2. You take a major highway to school (95, 66,28, etc)

3. You constantly complain about there being nothing to do, even though you are right next to DC

4. You have at least 2 friends who have no idea what their parents do because its "top secret" government work

5. 50% of your senior class plans on going either to Mason, JMU, Tech or UVA

6. When people ask where you're from, you tell them DC because its easier to explain

7. You've never told someone you're from Virginia without putting "northern" in front of it

8. When you and your friends get bored you all whip out your cell phones and start playing with them

9. Its not actually tailgating unless your bumper is touching the car in front of you.

10. A yellow light means at least 5 more cars can get through.

11. A red light means 2 more can.

12. It takes you 30 minutes to drive 10 miles

13. Your local news is national news

14. If you hear the word "sniper" one more time you're going to slap someone

15. You actually know what the black boxes at stoplights are for

16. Even if your high school is only a year old, its already overcrowded

17. You have over 500 students in your graduating class

18. Despite the fact that Virginia fought for the south in the Civil War, you are NOT, under ANY circumstances, a "southerner"

19. You are friends with people from at least 2 other high schools

20. You know at least 2 people who drive a mercedes, BMW, Lexus, etc.

21. You know at least 2 people who ows a put-put/ chent-mobile/ gheto-super-car

22. The cars in the student parking lot are woth 3x those in the teacher parking lot.

23. You are amused by visiting relatives who are actually excited to see Washington DC

24. You are amazed when you go out of town and the people at McDonalds speak english

25. You can cross 4 lanes of traffic in under 30 seconds

26. There are at least 3 malls within 20 minutes of your house

27. There are at least 6 Starbucks within 20 minutes of your house

28. You or someone in your family has a Smart Tag

29. Homework/Extra credit for a class has been to visit a museum in DC

30. When traveling, you have your choice of 3 airports

31. You eaither love (as in would kick ass for) the Skins no matter how much they suck sometimes or you hate the Redskins because of their constant sucking.

32. An inch of snow and you miss 3 days of school

33. All the potholes just add a little excitement to your driving experience

34. Stop signs mean slow down a little, but only if you feel like it

35. A rich white kid driving a BMW while blasting rap music is a common occurance

36. You call things "ghetto" even though in most of the rest of the country it'd be high class.

37. You think the only fun thing to do is get drunk or go to DC clubs... after getting drunk.

38. Your elementary, middle, or high school has been rebuilt or remodled in this past 2 years.

39. Crown Victoria = undercover cop

40. A slow driver is someone who isn't going at least 5mph over the speed limit

41. You understand the meaning of "If you don't get it, you don't get it"

42. Subway is a fast food place. The transportation system is known as Metro, and only Metro

43. You've taken a wrong turn somewhere late at night and ended up in a bad part of DC(ex. anacostia)

44. Most of Loudoun County is the "middle of nowhere"

45. They just tore down the old farm house across the street and put 12 new houses in its place

46. The word Hfstival actually means something to you

47. Someone has honked at you because you didn't peal out the second the light turned green.

48. You've honked at someone because they didn't peal out the second the light turned green.

49. Rush hour lasts all day

50. For the cost of your house, you could own a small town in Iowa

51. Helicopters and airplanes flying above your neighborhood is a normal occurance.

52. 9:30 isnt just a time, its a place.

53. If you stay on the same road long enough, it will eventually have 3 new names.

54. You have to dial the area code to call your neighbor

55. You live 5 minutes from at least 2 high schools, but you go to one thats 30 minutes away.

56. You know at least 3 alternate routes to avoid sitting at a stop light.

57. You can't pull up to a 7-11 without seeing at least one cop, and usually there's another cop sitting not too far away.

58. You refer to distances in minutes, not miles.

59. When you put on your turn signal to change lanes, the people next to you speed up.

60. Talking on metro in the morning is prohibited

61. If you're a female, getting honked at while wearing sweats/ work clothes is a regular occuarance

62. Going inot a place and seeing only one or two white people around... and liking it!

63. At NOVA, the N stands for knowledge!

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 19:05:03 GMT

just finished reading "Night". It was a good book..puts you in disbelief...can't believe it happened just 60 years ago. I had the urge to cry while reading it today, but I couldn't in math class.

How could we have let all this happen?

Hitler, you were a genius.
a horrible genius.

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 20:30:22 GMT

Sorry people...I've been so busy. Here's the concert photos from the catscan/yellow people/maya renfro concert! (battle of the bands photos will come later)

these last few with maya can also be found on my deviantart =) http://sunsetchaser.deviantart.com

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 00:10:54 GMT

Every town has a corner, where I'll see you and your friends, too.
Hang out looking cool. Saying the same things over and over again.
Sometimes we all feel stupid, we say the wrong things. You're not the only one.
Sometimes we all get left behind in a race of style--it's a dumb thing.

You will wait for me.

-death cab for cutie

(and I will wait for you.)

the next person that asks me if i'm going to break up with marco before college...don't even bother, here's my answer: how dare you assume that my relationship is THAT insignificant.

it is fate.

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 05:28:30 GMT

Your Scholastic Strength Is Innovating

You are the master of new ideas, techniques, and ways of looking at things.
You are talented at structuring thoughts, decision making, clarifying, and making deadlines.

You should major in:

Marketing
Psychology
Desgin
Cognitive Science
Economics
Photography

What Should You Major In?

VCU requires art major applicants to draw 6-8 of the items in the portfolio...even if they're photographers (like silly me). yet...they don't require artists that draw to take photographs!!! WTFISTHAT.

last night i dreamed that i was on a cruise again. WTF you have to be 25 to go on a cruise. that is crazy talk.

p.s. crazy talk is the new phrase. everyone's doing it. so you should too.

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 13:29:44 GMT

Sun
Mar 12

Partly Cloudy
72°/51°

SPRING IS ON ITS WAY BITCHES!

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!111111!!!1

almost straight edge...but not really.

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 05:26:43 GMT

allright peoples, this entry is totally different from the last...and it regards the annoying topic of ALCOHOL. basically i'm really fucking irritated at how many times people have given me crap for not drinking. well, usually i have to just say that i dont drink (because no one has time for a reason at a party) but now i will rant about exactly why i dont.

reasons why i dont drink alcohol (and dont understand why anyone else does):
1. It tastes fucking disgusting. No one really likes alcohol. Most people hate it and just get used to it (which brings me to the next point...why?)
2. Everyone else is doing it. Which probably means that it's not a good idea. One time I told someone that I didn't like alcohol, and they said "well dont worry, neither did I...but I got used ot it." haha, wow. How can I put this...why would I WANT to get used to it?
3. Because it makes you lose your inhibitions. Oh, that's always good. First of all, I can lose my inhibitions just fine, it's called going to a party and having fun. I've done it before. When you completely lose your inhibitions, you're "up for grabs," literally. There's even a rule in college that goes "if you pass out with your shoes on, you're free game." last time I thought about it....I didn't want to be "free game."
4. You're stupid and lack judgement. If someone wanted to make out with you, you're more likely to do it...which means that you're also more likely to make other stupid decisions such as have (unprotected) sex or drive drunk. Also, even if you're just walking around, you stumble a lot easier and have a much higher risk of injuring yourself. The #1 injury in most ER's are caused my college kids jumping off of balconies...no joke. And dont think for one second that they were sober.
5. You can get really sick. For me especially, just a sip of alcohol makes me sick. But for a lot of people...drinking too much can make them sick (picture this...vomiting on someone else, or even better, on yourself). to me...that's just not pretty.
6. There is only one kind of "good" drinking. So dont try to pull that bullshit on me. The kind of drinking you want me to do doesn't involve sitting at a table drinking red wine with dinner. Besides, if that WERE the kind of drinking you were trying to persuade me to do...believe me, you wouldn't be persuading me to do it. yeah, you know i'm right.

EAT THAT!

anyways...

you all have heard of those straight edge kids, right? the ones that have XXX on their hand and dont "drink, do drugs, or have sex"? yeah, these kids are lame. so i am making a new group, called XX. it's where you dont do drugs or drink alcohol, but you can still have sex. oh yes, now it's perfect.

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 04:33:14 GMT

the time has come for me to tell you that my mom is sick. my mommy is so very, very sick. and to anyone who is reading this, i tell you it in sadness but thankfully not depression. i am sorry to the people that i didn't tell earlier--my best friends, the ones who are so close to me. i thought before that my mother's illnesses were a thing of the past; something that i wouldnt have to worry about for a very long time. well, again my mom is drained of color and energy, of smiles and warmth.
my dad called me from an out of town trip to tell me about this, mainly because my mom couldn't (or didnt want to) tell me about it. he asked what i knew, and i knew nothing, so he said, "your mother has cancer again, and i'm afraid that it's not good. there are spots in her spine and half of her pelvis, all bone cancer." well, marco was at my house at the time and my mom was close by, so i saved my emotions for later. eventually i told marco but i never told anyone else. i didnt tell my teachers especially, because i don't like it when they are easier on me than other students. so here it is now, my sad secret.

i knew i was in trouble just five minutes ago, when she walked her baby-walk to me, with her weak legs teeter-totting forward and her arms outstretched towards me, ready for a hug. she'll get close, close enough for me to wrap around her skeleton, tower over her head, and rub her painfully arched back. this is the place where i see her, this is the place where i can't escape, this is the place where i have to come face to face with my worst enemy, what i pretend doesnt exist--my mother's worsening state. i see it in her face, in the light purple shade around her eyes.

i saw a shirt yesterday that read, "the worst day in anything is better than the best day in school," and thought it was very clever, and almost agreed...but then i remembered the small figure that i hug every night and the words "i'll get better" in the faintest of voices, and think of how spoiled the wearer of this tshirt must be.

so i end here, in this wide open space. i don't know what will come, or not come. all i can think to myself is, "i wonder what the children in liberia are dreaming of right now..." and this provides me with much comfort.

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 06:42:40 GMT

And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breathes as I said to myself that I'd already taken too much today
As each descending peak of the LCD took you a little farther away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that out memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds
But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground as the TV entertained itself

'Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said that
"Love is watching someone die"

So who's going to watch you die?..

-death cab for cutie, "what sarah said"

contemplative

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 05:04:56 GMT

i've been thinking a lot, about the world, and people, and humanity, and society...and the easy summary on my mind would be "society is so fucked up," but I have more to explain.

one thing I thought about was how (and yes, many people have brought this up before) violence is treated much less seriously than sex, especially on tv. movie with a sex scene in it? rated R. movie with violence in it? depending on the type of violence, it could still be PG.

so, which is worse?

someone committing suicide in a bathroom with a loaded gun...

or someone exposing their naked body?

if you had a five-year old kid, which photo would you show him or her, if you had to choose? personally, i would rather my child see a sex scene than a scene involving guns or other fatal weapons being used.

well anyway, I was talking to my best friend about the past, forgiveness, regret, sorrow, revenge, hate. and I was told that what I said was beautiful. so maybe I should share just a bit of it?

the way i see the world, on a very broad level, is that the human race is just a bunch of people trying to live. many different people start out with many different things...health problems or good health, wealth or poverty, etc. and these things, needless to say, can make a difference in the way each person lives their lives. I think that behind most every action, there was a reason that it was performed...whether it be a good reason or not. but all you can do to negative actions is try. try to forgive, try to understand. out of every single person in the world, who is on your list to hate?

well, i'll try and guess a few of the most popular...
- osama bin laden/terrorists
- president bush
- person at school or work
- ex boyfriend/girlfriend
- someone who hurt you
- someone who hurt someone you love
- the person who is lower than you
- the person that is higher than you
- yourself
- people who hate you

but each one of these people has something in common with you...they are all human. "see yourself in others...then whom can you hurt?" or whom can you hate? terrorists believe that what they do is right. bush isn't always at fault. that person at school or work has a difficult life, too. your ex was only human. that person who hurt you regrets it. that person that hurt someone else doesn't even realize how many other people he hurt. that person lower than you deserves a chance. that person higher than you doesn't have it so great, after all. you are not perfect, just like everyone else. and bringing me to my next point, hating the people that supposedly hate you is just not helping anyone.

I once thought of this scenario: what if tomorrow, a random man was to pull out their gun and shoot my father? of course this is a horrible thought, and i would be completely devastated and depressed. I would be angry and frustrated. but I also thought...what if law enforcement found the murderer? immediately this person comes to mind as someone that is completely logical to hate. but after much contemplation, I was sure that I would not hate this man. after much time for grieving, i would want to contact this man. so I see him with his stringy long hair that hasn't been brushed or washed for days, and his unshaven face and orange jumpsuit...then greet him and hug him. just like i did to the man that came to our school to talk about his battle with HIV/AIDS. i would hug him so tight and cry for his unfortunate life. what I did to come to this conclusion is think of if I were him. why would I kill a guy? because I am crazy? because I am on drugs or drunk? because I am stupid? maybe because I am unloved? and although these reasons are not good reasons at all to kill a man, they are truths nonetheless. so as I imagine this scene and slowly try to understand such a horrible act, I start to cry because I realize that this man has not only wasted my father's life but his own. to hate this man would be unproductive. to ignore him would be expected. to love him would be extraordinary. so what if I went up to this man and hugged him and whispered in his ear, "I love you...don't you know?" or "i forgive you for what you did, really." or "i want to help you get better". not only would these words mean so much to this alleged horrible murderer, but they would help to heal the depression i had about the death. and how would he react to me saying such a thing? hard to tell...but what if my words had a positive effect on him? what if i could help him get through therapy? what if the only thing he ever wanted to hear out of anyone's mouth was "I love you"? because maybe he hadn't heard anyone say that that he could remember. some people have no one to love, or no one to love them.

so what does this all mean? that revenge gets us nowhere. that hate doesn't only get us nowhere but actually moves us backwards. so I think that maybe we should all work on seeing ourselves in others. not so you can love everyone, because that's redundant...but because if you turn a negative relationship into a positive, you can better their lives and yours too.

one last thing...there is a group of kids at my high school that are either physically or mentally disabled, or both, so they attend special classes. one of the girls has some kind of mental abnormality, but doesn't realize it. and just recently she's been going up to some of the "higher than thou" kids in the school, because she wants to hang out with them...she wants to talk to them. and at first, this guy kept ignoring her calls by walking away or just not answering. sometimes he would tell her to go away. but just last week, I saw her talking to him. and although he didn't look very excited, he was answering her back and making a small conversation. to anyone ever in that situation...what would you rather do? look cool in front of your friends or make a person's day that might not live as long as you? i smile.

the result of boredom: end of the year survey

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 02:41:42 GMT

In beginning 2005...

Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:
nope

How old were you?:
16

What was your outlook on the world?:
very realistic, yet full of future dreams.

How were you doing at school/your job?:
School: not too well at the end of 11th grade, couldnt wait for it to end
Job: none

What did you most look forward to?:
summer

Did you make New Year's Resolutions?:
i dont think I do formal ones really

What was your biggest worry?:
mom's health

Who was your best friend?:
Mike, Mitika & the Vienna gang, Kristy, Kimberly, Nicole, Emma, Jason, Jenny, Kerri, Adriane, Will, Alicia, Katy, Katie, Jasmine, Jeremy, Matt, and of course my dog.

What did you do with your spare time?:
photography, hung out with friends, read, and went online.

What did you do for fun?
same as above.

In the middle of 2005-- the summer

Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:
yes

Had your outlook on the world changed?:
slightly. I lost more faith in humanity. haha.

What did you spend your summer doing?:
spending a lot of time with marco.

Did you get a tan?:
not really, because i didn't leave VA...maybe a little.

Who'd you hang out with, mainly?:
Marco, Marco, Marco.

Did you go visit anywhere?:
Marco's house? washington dc, and other places that i fail to remember...

What was your biggest worry?:
spending less and less time with my poor sick mom. yeah, pathetic.

What was the most fun event that happened?:
well, lots of cool stuff with marco. no really.

And as the year drawns to an end...

And how's your relationship status now?:
still awesome with Marco.

How old are you?:
Seventeen.

What major changes have happened since the year began?:
I'm slightly less of a pushover. I make money. I don't babysit much. I'm even more anxious for college, and I'm in a great relationship. I'm also a lot more involved in photography.

Is your life any different from when it started this year?:
of course

What thing that happened stands out in your mind?
Going out with Marco, and getting my job at petsmart.

How have you changed?:
My outlook on life is a lot different...it's less of a deal, I guess. hard to explain.

What was the most embarrassing moment?:
I know I've had some, but I can't remember them.

When was your lowest point?
beginning of the year, i guess Jan-Feb

Are you happy with how the year went?
yes for the most part

What thing would you change if you could?
someone...FIX MY MOM

For 2006...

What do you plan to not do that you did this year?
lets not think negative now.

Do you think it'll be better than this year?
HELLLLLLLL yeah. but then again this year was pretty great.

Do you think it'll be WORSE than this year?:
i'm hoping no. but how the hell do i know?

What do you plan to do next year?:
Go on vacation, go to college...which is a vacation...live away from home...

What are your pre-New Year's resolutions?
huh?

Who are you spending New Year's Eve with?
My family in california. or maybe the bed? i'm kinda tired.

And to wrap it up..

What one thing would you like to say as the year is almost done?
I know I'll miss this year sometime. but not now.

and now, what you've all been waiting for...

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 06:04:04 GMT

well well well.
giftmas is the time of year when people do what? give gifts! and so i am inclined to give all of my bestest friends something to think about during this wonderful winter break.

"Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it."

and that, everyone, was said by buddha himself. and approved of by me.

cheers and happy thoughts!

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 06:56:58 GMT

so, i dunno about you guys, but i find this drawing absolutely hilarious.
some kid from my boyfriend's school drew it.