i had this crazy dream the other night. i dreamt that I was having an affair with my married co-worker/boss (who i kinda have a crush on.. but shh). the whole this was weird, but it was so REAL right down to the last detail. the dream started out with us in the back room of work talking like we often do and then we ended getting closer and closer until we kissed, very passionately, and from then on the affair started. at one point his wife saw us in the car together and she walked over all suspicious and i made myself cry and acted like i was having a hard time and i needed someone to talk to so i called him to come get me and she believed us. it was so weird. It's been bothering me ever since i had it and im not sure why? i almost could swear i had the same dream a few years ago before i started working, but i didn't know who the person was back then.
i don't know.. our relationship is weird. sometimes he says things, not inappropriate things but things that just make me go hmm. he used to tell me that he would wait for me to come in because it made his day so much better, and he is always hugging me and hitting me, and telling me im pretty.. i always write him notes,( and if i stop he acts all hurt and asks me to write more) and today i went to work and he had left a note for me because he left for vacation on friday and i didn't get to see him first. i was very happy. alright i sound like a big fucking idiot now i know..

I never meant for you to leave but you did and I wasn't ready. You left without a word and it hurt so badly. I never felt so much pain. You said you would always be there and now that promise has been broken. I am so scared that I will never see you again and I never got to say goodbye. I wanted to tell you everything and nothing all at once. I love you and miss you. Please come back into my life. Don't just leave and never return I wont be able to live. I lost a love so dear to me you will never know what you mean to me. I never got to say goodbye so here is my last try. Goodbye to you. You’ll be here in my heart. Don't ever let go for you are in my soul. I will never forget that last kiss which felt like love. You ran away from what could have been and now I have to say goodbye to a true friend. Now I sit with a broken heart never to see the true day. I will miss you forever and a day. With tear running down my cheek I sit here and think. I will never find the one true love for he has run away. Saying goodbye is hard to do especially when it's saying goodbye to you.

Love Always and Forever,
Melissa