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[23 Jan 2009|04:14pm] |
well i really never use this thing. its been since like 05.
shits been crazy let me tell you
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| you encourage the eating of icecream and you would somersault in sand with me |
[22 Nov 2005|09:04pm] |
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i ended it.
i dont know if i like it. but im a bigger stronger person because of him and its him that truely showed me what it takes to deal with pain and a million emotions flying around.
i feel good. for now.
i love my friends and i dont know how id be functioning with out them. and p.s jessica moved into my house for a while
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| were still strong. :) |
[28 Oct 2005|11:18pm] |
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two people get to know each other.
hands shaking, sweating body, butterflies on stomach. they pretty much know there is something special about each other. but what is it? and what if it doesnt work out? what if the butterfly feelings disapear and give place to tears. what if?
two scared people get away from each other.
- everything is good. work is good. and pinback is good
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[01 Sep 2005|08:16pm] |
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coldplay was amazing. that by far was the best concert ive ever been too. lighting up a j as they started to play was fun.and just for your information, ive currently been married to the bob dylan. pass it on.
im soo mad that school starts in less than a week. but im excited for winter because SNOWBOARDING. im going to alpine next week to get my season pass. i cannot even explain how much fun ive had this summer.
highlights of this summer:
+coldplay concert
+getting my liscense
+ann arbor days
+allman brothers concert
+magical nights
+getting lost in detroit, hit and run accident.
+meeting new people
+patching up severed friendships
+my birthday
+being done with the law
+car
+chainsmoking
makes me think about the past.. so here it is
( last summerCollapse )
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[18 Aug 2005|08:39pm] |
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so me,nita,hannah,karen and dennis got in a little hit and run accident yesterday in the eastside of detroit. its not bad at alllll. and yes just so you all know. i think im so fucking cool because i went to detroit. i just thought id rub it in to you how gangster i am. well moving on. we almost got shot at for throwing up the wrong gang signs in the wrong side of town. met a man who was T.I's twin. we found it neccessary to buy 25$ worth of popcorn chicken at two different eastside detroit KFC locations.
im going to miss summer so much. i dont even want to think about it. i never want this feeling to go away. im so relieved. so happy with not having anything to do.
im out. off to drive and smoke. like everyday. and i love it
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[09 Aug 2005|07:48pm] |
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everything appears well from all angles. i miss him. your cold touch has been absent too many days in a row.
i fear ill loose my mind if it is not returned. im excited to play with nit and the crew when i get back. ha
ill be back on saturday kidss
if you love me. let me know
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[31 Jul 2005|12:21pm] |
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well my birthday is tommrow and i got the best present ever.
i got him back. i have a car. i have my liscense. i have love.
i know its a roller coaster. im ready for the ride though.
i feel at ease. still smiling. this past week has been fun.
im sad that summer is almost over soon. im going to enjoy it to the very fullest :) daily trips to serendipitys.sleeping in late. free doughnuts:compliments miriah. swimming. late night marijuana calls.partying too hard? i love this summer.
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| maybe someday i wont feel so lonely, and ill walk on water every chance i get |
[20 Jul 2005|10:44pm] |
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everyday is something new.
i live day to day.
ive been stuck on hold on this relationship telephone for weeks now.
"ride it out" is my motto.
and if its so damn wrong. why do both of us enjoy it so much?
im so much more. ive got so much more to give than some horny bitchy blonde. but i refuse to envy her, simply because shes nothing i wish to be.
i cant wait for the day when im on top again.
im feeling great tho. despite everything that should be bringing me down, i havent felt this good in a while.
ps. im going to see miya today. were going to birmingham then camping out in her backyard
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[11 Jul 2005|07:07am] |
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everthing was different today.
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[05 Jul 2005|08:09am] |
wow.things definetly changed. for the better i think this time. its taking everything in me to be ok. and i have to be.best friends is good. but i am going into hibernation for a while
i survive on the breath you are finished with
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[28 Jun 2005|09:39am] |
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summer has been sleeping in late. and waking up to those blue eyes. 100000 degree weather. staying out in the sun the whole time.eating magical foods.tripping in the rain.grateful dead sex and falling alsleep tangled in arms.my skin is in the worst condition. itching from bug bites, still peeling from previous sunburns. theres nothing better than wearing only the sheets on his bed and singing "fix you" by coldplay while visons fill our eyes.... ha me and jordan have decided to make that whole concert a non stop make-out session (:
i started dreadful summer school on monday. 2 days down 10 days to go. i see it as a way for me to get BUFF ha. i love it when it rains so hard you cant see out the window.you know what else i love? MY HUSBAND. he may possibly being going up north with no electricity and no way of contact for 10 days! holyshit.. ill misss him alot
im overwhelmed by happiness and smiles.
i know my livejournal has died because i mean who doesnt have a myspace? comment for kicks because i miss comment wars, also the flattering and the not so nice comments are surprisingly missed as well
p.s i wanna party this weekend
when men on a chessboard, get up and tell you where to go
and you've just had some kind of mushroom, and your mind is moving low
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[17 Jun 2005|10:58pm] |
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so now i will take another trip to psychedelia tonight with my husband. i have a prior commitment to go see star wars with my stepdad this morning im goin to gain an estimated 6 pounds today while i stuff my face with popcorn and candy. marshbank yesterday and the day before was just magical. i love everyone who was there.i ignored the bad vibes i was getting and allowed myself to just have a good time. cigarettes are becoming the death of me. sadly my state of addiction is far beyond controlable.this has been such a good summer so far. and someone named katie got a 96' ford taurus with leather interior. :) by july youll be seeing me riding the streets of the W.L.. im so happy. there are rays of lights sprouting out my ears.
i live for today
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[15 Jun 2005|02:41am] |
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playing with my hair and brushing my eyebrows untill i passout in the warmth of your arms. ill spend every night like that. its finally summer and i couldnt be more happpy. im much more calm and relaxed now and im carefree for one of the first times ever.im going to go chain smoke,listen to my ipod and sit in the sun today. and no my hair isnt red. the sun does crazy things. like burn the hell out of my shoulders. i look like a freak half of my body burned half resembles an albino
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[04 Jun 2005|06:06pm] |
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things are finally back to comfortable.
i went antique-ing today and got this kick ass cuff braclet.
comming back from upnorth tommrow. miriah is my company while im up north.
so pumped for school to be over and done with.
too bad summer school is two short weeks away. i definetly am sacraficing lots of my summer.
i miss soccer and being active.
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| i will get by. i will survive |
[27 May 2005|12:42pm] |
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time is the greatest medicine
time can bring me to pure happiness
DEMF is going to be just amazing
and i gotta admit im a sucker for the st marys fair :)
feeling much better considering the situatuion ive been tangled in
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[23 May 2005|09:30am] |
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does anyone think its possible to be addicted to hommus? because ive been craving it constantly for a straight week. so this is howw this weekend became one of the greatest ive ever had. thursday night i have a phone converstation that forever changes how i thought it was going to be.i heard loving words and absolute bliss on the other end. friday was the biggest roller coaster. babysitting a sleeping african american girl while shrooming. had the greatest trip. kissing and feeling.coming down. ballin my eyes out. running with barefeet into his arms.loving till the sun came up. and falling asleep and waking up with my head on his chest. i dont know exactlly how to explain the situatation but ive been assured this time its alright. no matter what happens.this has made me more than strong. when it comes to weed, best friends turn to monsters. and by the way i know a boy who can manipulate even the strongest minds.i diddnt even have to think twice about letting it all go. whos cares anyways? the most amazing boy in the world loves me. thats all i could ever need.. noone comes even close to comparing to me. ive had a million and one words and feelings thrown at me. and surprise suprise they made me completely happy. lets hope this
lasts and if all else fails.ive become a very strong individual able to deal with dilemma very well.and one last thought id like to give a great big FUCK YOU to all those two faced FAKE people out there. you deserve all the misfourtune in the world.
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[20 May 2005|03:39am] |
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ive decided to make this weekend magical . litterally. banister turns the big 1-8 and theres a big party in his honor. i only go to school for 5th hour. me and ian making dreadlocks and me and stevie being the only people signing along and appreciating the bob marley that we listened to. summer is needed.my pale skin needs color and i need freedom.. in spite of all the unhappiness i know i should be feeling right now. im nothing but smiles and laughs. tonight i go see all my AA buddies, and slowly commit suicide by smoking a pack in one sitting.
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[15 May 2005|01:55pm] |
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id give anything to spend all my days with an altered reality..laying in the sun surrounded by love from all angles.only in dreams do we feel invincible like this. i feel like i need a wakeupcall from this dream but it doesnt seem to be coming my way. i miss the world and i want everyone back
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[10 May 2005|09:25am] |
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i think god made a carbon copy of me and gave him a dick and a guys name.its funny when you least expect it.things change and leave you with a new perspective. i know the stories and i know the past. we are both throwing a very important part of our past out the window for a while. its really better that way.glad im not in it alone.today it felt as thought i was laying next to a person ive known all my life. laughing about nothing but runny noses being sexy and this past weekends crazy chain of unfortuante events.
but i dont dare try to get down that deep right now.i reallyy learned my lesson.which is trust your instincts in spite of what everyone around you has to say.
now i suppose ill go read my book and take bubble bath.
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[09 May 2005|03:09am] |
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fight fire with fire.
he left me for so much less. but he needs to see that on his own. im done looking out for people who choose not to listen to anything i say. i kno how much i was loved. and that right there satisifies me enough to be done.
you think you can play this game while i sit home and cry.
im done with the tears. and last night felt soo good.
i would have stood on loon lake road all night just like that if i could.on my tippy toes.under those stars, in the arms of a stranger that just about knocked me off my feet.
but i refuse to be taken advantage of or hurt.
taking this all in real slow motion. just to be safe
it might be real it might be fake.
but who am i to jump to conclusions.
im riding this out. and even if im still alone.
i have a feeling this time its ok.
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