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Monday, May 1st, 2006
4:12 pm	Crack Kills. Yeah, don't let crack happen to you, terrible sight. Yeah nothing really happened today besides the usual. Went to class, hung out with Alexis, slept, ate, punched myself in the head for no reason, uhhhhhhhhhh walked down to The Mart of Wall. Yeah... boogers... like everywhere. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA,I don't know why I put that but anyway Alexis' and I's anaversary is Wednesday and I can't give Alexis anything until like 8:30 that night. GAAAAAYYYY. Yeah I love you. Don't do drugs. Bye. Current Mood: content Current Music: Mudvayne [The sniper shot back 1 Time - Shoot Me]
Saturday, April 29th, 2006
10:25 pm	OMG, no one is going to read this!!! I'm back. Current Mood: crazy Current Music: Disturbed: Liberate [The sniper shot back 1 Time - Shoot Me]
Sunday, July 31st, 2005
2:26 pm	Freedom Freedom: An unattainable state of mind and overall being. Many individuals search for this state of being and fail only to realize that freedom, in any cercumstance, cannot be attained in victory through mind and body. One is a prisoner of their own universe, reality, and mind. With the universe being infinite, and having an infinite amount parallels, every choice is chosen and the universe becomes a prison of uncomprehensable proportions, denying the user the freedom of creating it's own destiny. The reality; with it's delusional beings who believe their false truths, and who attempt to convert others to their lies, they slow the journey towards the intended destination. With the reality clouded and producing false truths, the user becomes confused and developes the sensation of hopelessness and struggles to escape from it's prison in which it was born into, and was it's fate to expire within. Seeking seclusion within the mind benefits the user with the sensation of a false freedom which in turn blinds the user, leaving the user with nothing but a life in which it cannot find bliss. Ignorance is bliss. Current Mood: apathetic Current Music: Hatebreed: Choose or be Chosen [Shoot Me]
Saturday, May 14th, 2005
4:07 pm	You Are a Hunter Soul You are driven and ambitious - totally self motiviated to succeed Actively working to acheive what you want, you are skillful in many areas. You are a natural predator with strong instincts ... and more than a little demanding. You are creative, energetic, and an extremely powerful force. An outdoors person, you like animals and relate to them better than people. You tend to have an explosive personality, but also a good sense of humor. People sometimes see you as arrogant or a know it all. You tend to be a bit of a loner, though you hate to be alone. Souls you are most compatible with: Seeker Soul and Peacemaker Soul What Kind of Soul Are You? Current Mood: bored Current Music: Killswitch Engage: World Ablaze [The sniper shot back 1 Time - Shoot Me]
Thursday, May 12th, 2005
8:00 pm	Disorder Rating Paranoid: Very High Schizoid: High Schizotypal: High Antisocial: Moderate Borderline: Moderate Histrionic: Moderate Narcissistic: High Avoidant: Low Dependent: Low Obsessive-Compulsive: High -- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information -- Current Mood: bored Current Music: Drowning Pool: Bodies [Shoot Me]
Wednesday, May 11th, 2005
7:49 pm	Your #1 Match: INTJ The Scientist You have a head for ideas - and you are good at improving systems. Logical and strategic, you prefer for everything in your life to be organized. You tend to be a bit skeptical. You're both critical of yourself and of others. Independent and stubborn, you tend to only befriend those who are a lot like you. You would make an excellent scientist, engineer, or programmer. Your #2 Match: INTP The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can. Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge. Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat. A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor. Your #3 Match: ISTJ The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done. You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings. Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you. Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer. Your #4 Match: ISTP The Mechanic You are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations. A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent. To outsiders yous eem impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable. You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people. You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete. Your #5 Match: ENTJ The Executive You are a natural leader - with confidence and strength that inspires others. Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise. Sometimes you aren't the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow. You are not easily intimidated - and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence. You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant. What's Your Personality Type? Current Mood: bored Current Music: Limp Bizkit: Hot Dog [Shoot Me]
Saturday, May 7th, 2005
5:51 pm	Start a War Alright. Thursday was the banquet which caused me to lose about 3 hours of my life that I can never regain back. Lind and I hung out most of the time but Nick and I screwed around just givin each other kidney shots trying to elude boredom. Jenna was there but I didnt bother to talk to her, with the givin audience the atmosphere wouldnt have been pleasant. While having a conversation with Lind Chief occompanies us and he gives me one of his speaches, he knew how pissed I was about Raiders. It seems I get more of his speaches than any other being. During the awards presentation every time I had the missfortune of seeing Tory on the stage I made slightly vulgar comment, it was quite entertaining, I had Mark laughin a few times. When the time came for the teams I was about to get up and leave just to show my disgust for everything. When I was called up for an award, the one and only thing I received, Cheif handed me the award and I took it, shook his hand, and went back to attention, he glares at me and he tells me to smile, I give him a smart-ass smerk and he just shook his head and went to the others. I swear he tells me to smile more than anyone else I know and everythime I dont I have the misfortune of receiving one of his speaches. During the rest of the presentations and speaches Lind and I just discussed how the whole system was bullshit and what not. When the banquet was over I was the first one out of the building, I got in my car and blasted metal as I left. At that point in my life I was too pissed off to hear anything from anyone. The next day was of the normal schedule. At lunch though Tory comes over, as she does I get up to throw my food away, as I was preceding to sit down she hits me in the leg and says, "What I dont get my hug today", of course I say no and go back to talkin to Tim and Rachel. With my peripheral vision I saw her look at me with one of those faces like, "OMG, whats wrong". I was still pissed so I refrained from speaking to her because we all know that she bitched her way into the team. Well yesterday I went to the movies, hung out with David for a while then watched House of Wax, which was not scary in any way. When Anthony and David Reed arrived we watched Kingdom of Heaven, wasnt all that bad, the fight scenes couldve been better. Then today I just hung out with Zach but Iam gonna try Andrew and see if hes goin anything. Also Static-x put three of their new song on their website, I cant wait for the new album, the songs so far are awesome. Iam out. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Static-x: I'm The One [Shoot Me]
Tuesday, May 3rd, 2005
9:13 pm	Wasnt bad today, had a race with Zach this morning to school and getting home this afternoon. We hung out and did a little ralley race with a friends car. Went to Stake n' Shake cause he had to work and I was pickin up an application, I guess Outback didnt need me. Oh well, Iam having an interview tomorrow though so its all good. If I was up to it Id put in all the details but Iam not, the story's better hear in person anyway. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Drowning Pool: Tearing Away [Shoot Me]
Monday, May 2nd, 2005
8:35 pm	Hypocrisy Yeah, havent posted for a while, dont have much feeling for this thing. The past weeks have been shit. I found out today that Iam not getting Raiders, had a meeting with Cheif and he explained me his bullshit, clouded, delusional, reasons for not giving me the honor of commanding the team. He explained to me that the only reason hes allowing Tory to have the honor of commanding the team is that shes a LET 3 and Iam only a LET 2. He even stated the blatantly obvious, which was that Iam better than Tory. Sure I can understand that she deserves the team given her experience, yet, I can lead a team better, more strict, stronger physically and mentally, dont develope despressing, morale deteriating, demoralizing, stories in which to get attention. Fuck ROTC, all it contains is hypocrisy, unintelligible beings, and corruption. Given the current events ROTC is off the schedule for future years of my high school year. I almost feel sorry for Tory, all of the former Raiders wont be attending the team next year, Zach stated that he wont be returning and Lind said hes just gonna play mind games with Tory, slowly breaking her down. As for Hendricks and all of them, they stated long ago that they wouldnt be returning, have fun with the team Tory. After school I met up with Ellen cause I had to have her take me off the banquet list and to get my money back, she told me to still attend because I was still being rewarded other things but I said fuck it. On other subjects though, Linds back and its funny as Hell, its so great having him back. Well the weeks have been monotonous and boring, itll all change now since Linds out of confinement. Well the weekend wasnt all that bad, Friday and Saturday I hung out with Andrew and he proposed a query. I pondered on it and still in the process. If I go with it Ill basically be set for life, Iam not yet sure though. Other than all of that, thats it. Iam out. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Slayer: Exile [Shoot Me]
Saturday, April 23rd, 2005
10:31 pm	Uncomfortable silence It's quiet... something's wrong. Current Mood: curious Current Music: Korn: Freak on a leash [Shoot Me]
Friday, April 22nd, 2005
4:25 pm	Long Survey About Yourself Created by bleedwithoutreason and taken 25675 times on bzoink! What time are you starting this? 4:00 Name? Zack Nicknames? russki Date of birth? 01/26/89 Sex? Male Height? 5'9' Eye color? Brown Where were you born? Naples FL Number of candles on your last birthday cake? 16 Pets? Scorpion: Luther Cat: Kiwi Hair color? Brown Piercings? None Town you live in? Naples Favorite foods? Ill eat anything healthy Ever been to Africa? No Been toilet papering? HA, yes Love someone so much it made you cry? No Been in a car accident? Almost Croutons or bacon bits? Niether Favorite day of the week? Dont have one, theyre all the same Favorite resturant? Dont have one Favorite flower? Dont have one Favorite sport to watch? Ranger Competition Favorite drink? Water or milk Favorite ice cream flavor? Anything will do Warner Bros. or Disney? Warner Bros. Favorite fast food restuarant? Dont eat fast food Carpet color in your bedroom? White How many times did you fail your driver's test? Zero Whom did you get your last email from? Andrew? Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? If I even had a credit card I would be a dumbass and max it out What do you do most often when you are bored? Listen to music Most annoying thing to say to me? Anything really, its easy to piss me off Bedtime? Whenever Favorite TV show? Uh...? Last person you went out to dinner with?: Zach and his parentals Been out of country? No Believe in magick? Hell no Ford or Chevy? Chevy What are you listening to right now? Kill Switch Engage: Rose of Sharyn Have you ever failed a grade? Negative If you have, what grade did you fail? Never failed Do you have a crush on someone? No Do you have a bf/gf? No If so, what is their name? No gf How long have you been together? *Clears throat* persistant little quiz What are you wearing right now? Shorts Would you have sex before marriage? Yes Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers? No Are you a virgin? Yes Do you smoke? Only once Do you drink? When the time presents itself Are you ghetto? Fuck no Are you a player? No What are your favorite colors? Black and Green What is your favorite animal? Scorpion Do you have any birthmarks? Only one Have you ever gotten your ass kicked? No Who do you talk to most on the phone? Dont talk on the phone that much Have you ever been slapped? Yes Do you get online a lot? Yes Are you shy or outgoing? Shy Do you shower? Yes Do you hate school? Yes, its turning into a prison and everyone there is very stereotypical Do you have a social life? A very small one How easily do you trust people? I dont trust many people Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing? No Would you ever sky dive? Yes Do you like to dance? Hell no Have you ever been out of state? Yes Do you like to travel? No Have you ever been expelled from school? No Have you ever been suspended from school? ISS Do you want to get out of your hometown? Yes, I fuckin hate this shit hole of a city Are you spoiled? Fuck no Are you a brat? Fuck no Have you ever been dumped? No Have you ever gotten high? No Do you like snapple? Nope Do you drink a lot of water? Usually What toothpaste do you use? Whatevers in the bathroom Do you have a cell phone? No, I have no use for one Do you have a curfew? No Who do you look up to? No one Are you a role model? I would hope not Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point? No What name brand do you wear the most? 7.62 What kind of jewelry do you wear? Dont whear jewelry What do you want pierced? Left ear, nose on both sides, at least two to four on my lip, and both eyebrows Do you like takin pictures? No Do you like gettin your picture taken? No Do you have a tan? A farmers tan Do you get annoyed easily? Yes Have you ever started a rumor? No Do you have your own phone or phone line? No Do you have your own pool? No Do you prefer boxers or briefs? Boxers Do you have any siblings? Yes Have you ever been played? Not that I know of Have you ever played anyone? Negative Do you get along with your parents? No How do you vent your anger? Blast metal, or punch walls, or both Have you ever ran away? Yes Have you ever been fired from a job? No, I quit Do you even have a job? Not at the moment Do you daydream a lot? Yes Do you have a lot of ex's? No Do you run your mouth? No What do you want a tattoo of? A design I made with a skull resting in the middle on both sides on my throat, then a little message saying "slit here" What do you have a tattoo of? Nothing What does your ex bf/gf look like? Brown hair, beautiful eyes What does your most recent crush look like? Red hair, blue eyes Whats her/his name? Jenna Have you ever been bitched out? Possibly Are you rude? Ive been called that but I prefer brutally honest What was the last compliment you recieved? I have nice eyes Do you like getting dirty? Hell yeah Are you flexiable? Some what What is your heritage? Irish, German, British, Native American, and some others What is your lucky number? 32 What does your hair look like right now? Uhh... unkept? Could you ever be a vegetarian? I think so Describe your looks? Brown eyes and hair, in need of a shave, slightly broken out If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color? If I had to...black Would you ever date someone younger than you? Hmmm, I dont know Would you ever date someone older than you? Yes When was the last time you were drunk? Dont recall How many rings until you answer the phone? I dont know, 2? Have you ever been skinny dipping? No If yes, when was the last time? Never went When was the last time you went on a date? HAHA, way too long Do you look more like your mother or father? Ive been told my father Do you cry a lot? Fuck no Do you ever cry to get your way? Fuck no What phrase do you use most when on the phone? Fuck or peace Are you the romantic type? Hell no Have you ever been chased by cops? Thats a 10-4 What do you like most about your body? I dont know, I focus more on mind What do you like least about your body? Above statement When did you have your first crush? A long time ago When was the last time you threw up? A couple of weeks ago In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes? Either works Do you ever wear shirts do show your belly? Hell no What about cleavage? HAHA, no Is your best friend a virgin? Haha, Hell no Have you ever fucked someone up? Yes Have you ever been fucked up? No What theme does your room have? In a sense Marines What size show do you wear? 11 1/2 What is your screen name on AIM? Method Man 278 How are you feeling right now? Bored When was the last time you were at a party? Not too long ago Have you ever given a lapdance? No Have you ever recieved one? No Has there ever been a rumor spread about you? I think so What is one of your bad qualilties? I have too many What is one of your good qualilties? Dont have any really Would you marry for money? No What do you drive? A Honda Are you more of a mommys or daddys child? Niether So? What? Well? Fuck you. When was the last time you cried in school? Never Would you ever hook up with the same sex? Fuck no What kind of music do you like? Metal, rock, anything that creates a psychotic standing in people Would you ever bungee jump? Yes What is your worst fear? Dont have one Would you ever join the army? Fuck that, Marines Do you like cows? No If you were to die today, what would you do? Take as many people as I could with me If you had one last word to say to someone before you die, what would it b? Ill come back for the rest Do you like to party? Yes Hearts or broken hearts? Does it matter? Moons or stars? Moons Coke or pepsi? Niether Favorite scent? Dont have one Favorite band? Static-X Would you ever dye your hair red? No How many languages can you speak? One What time are you finishing this? 4:24 Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! Current Mood: bored Current Music: Static -X: Otsegolectric [Shoot Me]
3:38 pm	Current Mood: bored Current Music: Killswitch Engage: World Ablaze [Shoot Me]
Thursday, April 21st, 2005
9:01 pm	OldSchool Haha, its my oldschool AK pic that Max made when we first made these pieces of shit back in August. Wow, the realization of having no life is quite entertaining yet sad at the same time. Well today was alot like yesterday, classes were boring but lunch was hilarious. We were basically talkin about the same shit again but Nick joined us this time, some of the shit he said was so fuckin hilarious. We started talkin about how we used to go paintballin with Will, Josh, and all of them. We started crackin on Joe about how he used to flip his shit if you shot him more than once. It blows, I do believe that hes over in Iraq right now, either that or at Ranger school. But either way, Joe, get Ranger and kill, dont be killed. I skipped fourth again with Adam but we didnt really get to do much cause he had to get shit done concerning the ceremony and banquet. I need to stop skippin fourth though, hey at least Iam finally goin tomorrow, unless I get convinced not to go. After school I went to Linds and we hung out and I informed him of all the situations at school. Oh and Tory's actually talkin to me. Zach told me about a conversation with her, I wasnt exactly listening all that much to him but from what I heard she seems to be in a state of denile, quite entertaining if you ask me. Iam out. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Static -X: Otsegolation [Shoot Me]
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
7:20 pm	Your Heart is Black What Color is Your Heart? brought to you by Quizilla You scored as Latin. You should learn Latin! Though a dead language, Latin is present in science, history, English, and, of course, the Romance languages. Have fun with those declensions! </td> Latin 73% Arabic 60% French 53% Spanish 40% Chinese 33% Japanese 27% English 0% What language should you learn? created with QuizFarm.com [Shoot Me]
5:26 pm	Today was too boring to even write about. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Killswitch Engage: Rose of Sharyn [Shoot Me]
Monday, April 18th, 2005
6:28 pm	Limp Bizkit "Hot Dog" Ladies and gentlement! Introducing the Chocolate Starfish! and the Hotdog Flavored Water Bring it on! Get the fuck up! Yeah! Check, one, two Listen up, listen up! Here we go It's a fucked world We're a fucked up place Everybody's judged by their fucked up face Fucked up dreams Fucked up life A fucked up kid With a fucked up knife Fucked up moms And fucked dads It's a fucked up a cop With a fucked up badge Fucked up job With fucked up pay And a fucked up boss Is a fucked up pain Fucked up press And fucked up lies Well, Lethal's in the back With the fact of the fires Hey, it's on Everybody knows this song Hey, it's on Everybody knows this song Ain't it a shame that you can't say "Fuck" Fuck's just a word And it's all fucked up Like a fucked up punk With a fucked up mouth A nine inch nail I'll get knocked the fuck out Fucked up aids Who fucked up sex Fake ass titties On a fucked up chest We're all fucked up So whatcha wanna do? We fucked up me And fucked up you You wanna fuck me like an animal You'd like to burn me on the inside You like to think that I'm a perfect drug Just know that nothing you do Will bring you closer to me Ain't life a bitch? A fucked up bitch A fucked up sore with a fucked up stitch A fucked up head Is a fucked up shame Swinging on my nuts Is a fucked up game Jealousy filling up a fucked up mind It's real fucked up Like a fucked up crime If I say "Fuck", two more times That's fourty six "Fucks" in this fucked up rhyme It's on Everybody knows this song Hey, it's on Everybody knows this song You wanna fuck me like an animal You'd like to burn me on the inside You like to think that I'm a perfect drug Just know that nothing you do Will bring you closer to me Hooo Haaa Haaaw! Listen up baby You.. can't.. bring.. me.. (bring me).. down I.. don't.. think.. so I don't want some You.. better.. check.. your.. (check it).. self Before.. you.. wreck.. your.. self Kiss.. my.. star.. fish My.. choco.. late.. Starfish.. punk Kiss.. my.. star.. fish My.. choco.. late.. Starfish.. punk You wanna fuck me like an animal You'd like to burn me on the inside You like to think that I'm a perfect drug Just know that nothing you do Will bring you closer to me Hahahaha, I havent listened to this song since 5th grade, ha good times. Not too bad today, it was of the normal schedule, except that I basically got hired at Outback, I just need to go take a personality test tomorrow and itll all present itself from there. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Limp Bizkit: Hot Dog [Shoot Me]
Sunday, April 17th, 2005
11:41 am	Homeworld Hendricks and I are on good terms again, its cool havin his smart-ass humor back. Yesterday I went to the Russians hung out with them and Hendricks. At aroung 5 Paul and I went to the mall, then Bestbuy, my house, and then to his to drop him off. At bestbuy I bought a cheap game that kicks ass. Nothing significant has been happeneing at all recently, Florida blows. Iam still tryin to get a job, I need to turn in my application at Outback and hopefully get hired. While at the mall I didnt bother to look around cause all the places that would hire me didnt need any help. Iam probobly gonna look around today or tomorrow and hopefully find somewhere. Iam out. Current Mood: blah Current Music: Killswitch Engage: When Darkness Falls [Shoot Me]
Thursday, April 14th, 2005
6:29 pm	To be sane is to be unconscious to the truth. [Shoot Me]
Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
7:43 pm	Silence is the true friend that never betrays. -Confucius [Shoot Me]
Sunday, April 10th, 2005
5:00 pm	"Insanity: a perfect rational adjustment to an insane world" - R.D. Laing Current Mood: bored Current Music: System of a Down: Chop Suey [Shoot Me]