Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Marissa Leigh's LiveJournal:

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Saturday, September 20th, 2008
2:15 pm	Congratulations Nikki! The rules: Take a picture of yourself right now. Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair...just take a picture. Post that picture with NO editing. Post these instructions with your picture Me, 2 seconds ago. My sisters Bat Mitzvah was this morning, the party is tonight. She did awesome and I'm so proud of her. I love my little sisters ♥. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 27th, 2008
1:52 pm	The baby ♥ So fucking adorable. I'm in love! (Comment on this)
Monday, May 26th, 2008
10:26 am	Freddy ♥ (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 7th, 2008
2:37 am	early update :-P I figured I would update again. My mom got a new dog, it's the love of my life. I got a laptop, which I desperately needed! I stay at my moms about once or twice a week now so that I'm here when she needs to drive me to Roslyn, and on saturday nights because I usually babysit in Merrick. It's nice that I can do this though, and I get to see my sisters even though they annoy the shit out of me. Still looking for another job, deciding on whether I really want to buy a car now (which I'm thinking I should just wait) I don't know exactly what to do but whatever. Things are still ok with Joe and I am happier than ever. I think every day I get more happy about my life and the way things are working out. I have never been so head over heels in love with someone and it feels so effing amazing. I finally get rid of my Nextel at the end of the month! This was a long time coming, finally my 2 year contract with Nextel is uppppp. I have a checking account cause I am oh so mature, and I am finally going to be able to do online banking which will DEFINITELY help pay my bills. Life is good, there are a few people out there though who try to ruin it for me, try again fuckahss :] (Comment on this)
Friday, February 15th, 2008
1:19 pm	I haven't posted in this thing in FOREVER I usually use it really just to read a few peoples journals and that's it but I felt that it was unfair that I went on this and didn't update it at least every couple of months. Things are ok, I'm still with Joe, I have a job, and my drivers license and trying to find another job, and help Joe out so we can get an apartment. Things are ok, theres been rough patches but that happens and it is ok. My mom is out of the sober house & she has a job, and an apartment with her friend. She has a new car, and lets me use it! Things are ok, and I'm happy. Another update probably in a couple of months or so :-P (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 2nd, 2007
1:38 am	I want a dog, the end. Finally started school, York, whatever. Shits nuts. Joe is ok. I'm tired, and have class on a sunday - this bites! Goodnight! (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 18th, 2007
8:23 pm	Update. So sobriety is really hard, and it doesn't feel as good as I thought it would but I'm ok, I really am. Things could be better, but they also could be a lot worse and that is just how I look at things. It's like my motto. I think I'll get along just fine if I let that be my guide through life. I think it's been like 3 weeks since my last drink and even longer since I've smoked pot, it feels so crazy. I tell people and they go, "YOU NOT DRINK?" I'm just like wow, was it really that bad? It's ok though, things will get better. Next week I go up for my 30 days coin at the Friday meeting in Freeport, I think that is going to be a really good feeling. I need to get a sponsor but I'm scared, I think getting a sponsor will kick everything into reality that I am an alcoholic and that I do need help and yeah, I don't know, that scares me. I know I have a problem but the reality of getting and having a sponsor is just a scary thought. Ill be ok though. I love everyone ♥ (Comment on this)
Monday, February 26th, 2007
9:12 am	Sober since: Sunday 2/25/07 and this time it's for real. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 13th, 2007
11:28 am	Semi sobriety is an amazing feeling, I can't imagine what REAL sobriety must feel like. I'm going to counseling twice a week and I'm going to start going to a meeting about once a week and Joe said he'll go with me, yay for supportive boyfriends. Life is ok. I'm ok. I feel good, for the most part and that just makes me happy. I have good friends, a good job, and my boyfriend loves me. I've tuned down my spending but at this point I'd rather be spending money and going to the mall then going out and drinking everynight. Life is beautiful if you let it be. (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 14th, 2007
11:30 pm	I'm seeing The Producers on Broadway the saturday after valentines and I'm excited :] (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 4th, 2007
9:01 pm	Dear Livejournal, I hate you. You are so boring and no fun anymore. That's the reason why I have not updated. A lot of shit has been going on but I really do not care to enlighten you. Love, Marissa. (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 17th, 2006
12:15 am	I hate my life :] (Comment on this)
Monday, November 20th, 2006
10:03 am	My birthday was gay but I saw the boy friday & saturday so that was good. Went bowling with Jon, he beat me, duhhh but it was fun anyway. Finally heard from Alisha yesterday and that made me happy but I wish things were going better with her :[. Blah. Had a job interview, it went well. (Comment on this)
Friday, November 17th, 2006
2:01 pm	My birthday was so fucking gay. And today, today is going to be gay too. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 15th, 2006
11:08 am	Pretty heavy entry....enjoy? I'm going to be 18 tomorrow, it's kinda scary when I actually sit down and think about it. Wow, 18. I've grown so much and learned so much from everything I've done. 4 years ago I didn't care about life, wanted so much to just die and let everything go. I didn't realize how much I had to offer to the world. I was doing drugs [coke, ecstacy, acid] and I just didn't give a fuck about life or any of the people who I now realize cared about me so much. I had an abusive boyfriend and I'd come home with huge cuts and bruises over all of my body. Now, I'm about to be 18 and I'm stronger than ever. Life sucks but I deal, I know that dying isn't what I need to do, that life is precious. I have a boyfriend and although we get into some really fucked up fights, I love him more than life itself and I would do anything to just keep things right between us. I've grown up so much in the past years and for that, I'm proud. Mall trip today to get a nice pair of flats or pumps. Even if I go nowhere tomorrow I just want to dress up and look nice. I know which pants I'm wearing but I just need to find a shirt, and some jewelery or something. I ordered stuff from hot topic & torrid but nothing special really. Everything I ordered from hot topic was sale stuff, just like basic tank tops to wear under hoodies, which speaking of I need to get some, haha. My birthday is tomorrow and I even though after the fight Joe told me we aren't going to hang out without him having money if he doesn't see me, and if we don't go hang out with Alisha & drink I swear I'm going to have a caniption. Hopefully Alisha isn't working untill 11 but if she is I don't care, I still just wanna drink. I took off of work on friday exactly for this purpose so yeah. Friday when I wake up I'm going to go get my nails done and then probably hang out with Joe and then come home on friday night & I think I'm hanging out with Sherri after that, I'm not really sure but whatever. Saturday I think I wanna just spend the day in the city & walk around I guess. We'll see. P.S. Alisha if we don't hang out thursday, friday, or saturday I will kill you :-P. && call me you whore! I haven't spoken to you since like.................sunday! (Comment on this)
Monday, November 13th, 2006
9:45 am	Saw my mom yesterday. Went to shogun with my dad, nancy, aunt & uncle, cousins & my sisters. Had good food & fried ice cream <3. My birthday is in 4 days [4 days till 18!]. Damn it'll feel good to be legal. I'm at work, I'm really bored and kinda tired. I think I'm going to take a trip to the mall tonight. Get myself a pair of uggs, & a pair of flats maybe. Hopefully getting madd drunk on my birthday :-X. And going to a strip club? [Alisha you better come!]. Thats about all, toodles. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 8th, 2006
12:15 pm	I figured out how to make the pictures on my phone default size "xlarge" so when I upload them to the computer instead of them being tiny they'll be like normal sized pictures and people wont have to squint to look at them, haha. Other than that things are going alright I guess. I hate where I'm living but what can I say? Shit could be worse but I really don't see how. I think I might have hit rock bottom. My life really sucks. My moms a crackhead and I'm living in a house with people who treat me like shit & I can't stand. Yesterday I decided that I don't care if I start with Matthew (my dads fiancees son) because he is nasty to me for no apparent reason. Yeah, I may be almost 18 but I don't care. He fucks with me I'm going to fuck with him. I can be immature too. I'm sick of everyone walking all over me. I'm done, seriously. On a better note my birthday is in 8 days and I'm really excited. I took of the day after my birthday so I can go out on my birthday and have fun and whatnot. I need to get the paper signed for school so I can get the reduced price even though it doesn't matter cause I'm going to be going full time. I'm not excited to start school at all though. I haven't decided what I want to do for my birthday. Maybe the day of my birthday I'll spend with Alisha, Joe, and Ryan and we can drink that night so I don't have to wake up early the next morning. Then friday (after my birthday) I'm going to get the paper signed by the Clerk and then go get my nails done (at a good/much cheaper place this time!). Then I think I'm going to head out to Joe's and I'll spend the rest of the day with him. Then on either friday night but probably saturday I wanna do something crazy. I wanna go to a strip club, a club, anywhere where you need to be 18 to get into I just want to go. I also wanna be drunk, heh. I'm just really happy to finally be turning 18. It feels good but I don't know. My dad is taking me to shogun and I'm excited. I loveeeee that place. *sigh* things just need to get better and they should get better REAL SOON =/. (Comment on this)
Monday, November 6th, 2006
11:14 am	Ridgewood is always fun. So friday I went to Ridgewood. I met Joe at the B13 and then we took the bus, got off by Ryan's house and Joe went to Genes to get weed and then Ryan & I walked to Alishas. Joe then met us there and while we were waiting for Al to come to the door they walked to the store and then Alisha said she needed to go to the ATM so we walked Boomer to the store, I waited at the store and then Alisha ran to the ATM and I waited for Joe & Ryan. They bought Olde English, Corona & Heineken. Don't ask me why they got 3 different types of beers. Then Alisha came back and we walked to her house. We drank and whatnot and then around 10 or so Joe & Ryan went back to his house. Alisha was going to walk me to the L but Joe told me he'd come get me. So me and Alisha drank more after they left. Around 1:40 Joe came and got me and then we walked to the L which was running shuttle so we walked outside and got the shuttle bus and then we took it to broadway junction and then got the J. I took that to Jamaica and go there around 2:52 and the train came at 2:57 and I was really happy. Then I got home at around 3:30 and passed out, haha. Here are some pictures from the night: (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 25th, 2006
4:25 pm	Your Nail Polish Color is Black How you're unique: There's nothing about you that isn't unique Why your style rocks: You are a total indie chick... and you can pull it off What this color says about you: "I'm a trendsetter and don't care what anyone else is doing!" What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You? Taking Lily to the vet today so she gets to come into the house :]. I cursed out my dads fiances son, he's a fucking asshole and was talking madd shit about me. Fuck him, he's an asshole. Tomorrow is a "mandatory" meeting at work so I'll go to that. Fun times? Not really but whatever, hah. This weekend I see my boy and the kitty!! :D (Comment on this)
Monday, October 23rd, 2006
10:08 pm	I'm so gangsta it hurts. Sorry, I'm bored and don't really have much to update about. My mom left the Talbot House, now she's in some 28 day program at some psych ward/rehab center at Pilgrim State. I have an interview with a woman for a weekend babysitting job like 1-3 days a month, just for some extra cash. She pays $10/hour, not bad at all. Wednesday I take my cat to the vet, sounds like fun days, lol. Then she gets to come into the house my little kitty. I'm madd excited. Joe and I are ok, he finally said he'd come to Merrick and hang out with me. Whatever. I'm spending some time at his house this weekend though [his grandma said she missed me, it was cute]. I miss my kitty that lives with him, can't wait to see him. Ok, I think I'm done. Ughh work tomorrow :[. (Comment on this)