Christmas, Daniel, and Bryan Adams

So christmas was yesterday of course, actually it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. We went to my Aunt Karen's and all the girls did this Parrafin Hand wax thing, and then we all played Catch Phrase, the guys won because they kept handing it to us right when it buzzed! Hmpf, lol. It was actually really strangely nice, Christmas is the only time we're all there together, even if the day before we were all fighting, it's strange, I guess the Spirit Of Christmas really does exist, even if we're all in doubt of him.
Christmas Day I spent most the night talking with Daniel, and I took a major step..Giving him my picture
I seriously could not breathe, thinking about how he was going to think of it, or if his opinion would change about me, or if It'd disappoint him, or, I had a million scenarios running through my head, I swear when it loaded i exed out and was starting to get mad at myself. But Daniel of course,..He never fails to be amazing..He told me it had always been about the insides anyway, and He said It was a photo, and that picture or not, he'd always be here, and here's the thriller. You know what he said? We were getting into a tiff about truth v.s lies, and i said "which is worse? A lie that draws a smile, or the truth that draws a tear?" and he said "Oh, you want me to be truthful then, I'll be truthful!" and I said "What, I'm bugging you, I'm sorry!" and he said "No, of course not. I wanted to say something nice and truthful. You're beautiful."



We both had to go because of our older brothers at the same time, and Now I keep referring to his photo..It's really quirky, It was taken in complete darkness on a field trip to germany for disneyland, on a boat! He was wearing braces and he was laughing, but he hated his brace so much, he wouldnt let himself show teeth, and the flash was blinding, as I said..It's such a quirky photo..But I can't make myself Ex out at the same time...

What's going on? It's kinda scaring me...

heh, right this second I'm listening to Bryan Adams, whom Daniel introduced me to, at first I thought it was so cheezy, or boring, or something like that, but now I listen to them when Im not talking to him, they make me think of him. The songs have grown on me, too.

..I refuse to fall for this guy, I mean, it's insane! He lives an entire ocean away! He's too good for me! He's not even interested!

Why am i debating on this?!

It's simply just not an option.

Why is he so confusing??