| Time for a new beginning |
[18 Aug 2006|11:34am] |
Last night I was talking to my boyfriend Robin on MSN and somehow we ended up talking about my livejournal account. As some of you have probably noticed, I've had this same journal for over 2 years and many things have happened and changed during that time. I've had lost of subjects to write about and this writing into my online diary has been some kind of a therapy too eveny once in a while.
However, now I feel like I need a new start after all these things happening to me this summer, moving out of home, finding an amazing boyfriend, starting to study again... All that... So I created a new account here on livejournal, here's the addy:
http://rhyn4h.livejournal.com/
Go and add me or just keep lurking. :P
This is the end of this chapter. ♥
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| Those were the best days of my life...so far. ;) |
[02 Jul 2006|12:51pm] |
Ahh... I finally have an Internet connection at the apartment and some time to write too.
I got the net already on Monday but I had my gorgeous boyfriend here so of course I couldn't spend heaps time online. I didn't want to either 'cause it'll take about a month till me and him can meet the next time.
So yeah, Robin came to Finland on 20th June and we just hit it off right away. After 3 or 4 days we started talking how amazing it is that this is only our first meeting and yet it feels like we've known each other for ages. :D He's so wonderful... If I listed all the great things about him it'd get boring for you to read so I'll just write that I love everything about him. ^^
I had the best 9 days with him and he's only been back to Sweden for a few days but I already miss him. I doubt I can ever change the sheets in my bed. *rolls eyes* *^^*
Here's an adorable pic of us. Aren't we just cute? :adore:
I started working at the café on Monday and it's been really nice actually. The people I work with are nice and even though lunch time is heaps busy it's still always fun. I like working there, I really do. :)
Oh well... Time for me to go clean the apartment. Robin spoiled me during the time he was here by doing the dishes and tidying around while I was at work so now the place looks like a mess. :P :D lol
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| SUMMER!!! Woohoo!! |
[19 Jun 2006|12:05pm] |
It's been a while since I've updated my livejournal. I'm sorry for that. I don't have Internet connection at the apartment yet, well, if I had a laptop I would have the connection already too but there were some problems with the company I ordered a laptop from but we're discussing about it and I'll get one soon, I hope.
I'm done with all the 4 entrance exams now. Woohoo! I'll get to know about the teacher training place already on 30th June how did it go and if I got in... Keep your fingers crossed for me!! And later, around 21st July the other 3 places will send their infos to me. I'll be waiting for the whole summer but it's ok. ^^
My sweetie will come to Finland tomorrow, I'm so excited!! Yay! I've waited for this to happen for *so* long and it's so amazing that there's only one day left. <3
But... of course there's gotta be something to make everything feel real. All the nice things happening all at once was too good to be true anyways. I told mom on phone yesterday that I'm having a visitor coming over for 9 days and she just said that she can't talk about it with me now and hang up. About an hour later I got a message from her that said "Have a nice summer and the rest of your life." + some other things about how her heart's in tiny lil pieces and how she wishes she could be happy for me but all the worrying my doings cause to her is too much to bear or something... How nice.... I'll give her a few days to recover from the shock. I'm kinda disappointed 'cause I really hoped that she'd talk about it with me and would be willing to meet him but nope... She doesn't even want to understand.
I'm kinda on my own now... I'm afraid to go home so I just returned my old cell phone to Valtteri to our mail box and didn't give it back to him myself. I don't know what the others think of me right now so I'll just avoid every relative for a couple of days.
Thank god I live alone now.
Oh well... Everything will be just fine after a while... I really hope so.
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[16 May 2006|09:48pm] |
At the temple, there is a poem called "Loss", carved into the stone.
It has three words, but the poet has scratched them out.
You cannot read "Loss"... Only feel it.
Quote from the movie "Memoirs of a Geisha"
Went to see that movie with Sari on Friday and these words just hit me so hard. It's so true. One can't describe what loss feels like... it's only for one to feel, not explain.
I lost a dear friend of mine in October and I still think of him every single day. I doubt he'll ever fade away from my mind or my heart. He'll be with me in my thoughts for all my life. Through good and bad, just like he always was.
I miss him. :/ He'd be so happy for me, I'm sure. I have so many great things happening in my life that I'd love to have him around to share the joy with. But in a way I know that he is around smiling... ^^ I can feel it.
I had some other stuff to tell too. I'm gonna go to a job interview on Monday about a summer job at a café. It would be such a nice place to work at. The café is at the same building with Lapua's library and only about 4km away from the apartment I'm renting. Yay! :)
So... at 3pm my time on Monday, keep your fingers and toes crossed for me. :D I really want that job! :D :D
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| Well that’s where I belong and you belong with me |
[21 Apr 2006|08:14pm] |
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I can't believe it's Friday night again. It was just yesterday when I was out with Milla, having a good time. But I guess I've got to believe it's already been almost a week. :/ So weird.
So on Monday I went to the apartment straight from Milla's place to clean a bit with my aunt and her spouse. I washed the windows the most of the time, but it was really nice. The place seems much nicer already. I'm gonna love living there, I'm sure. Omg, I just can't wait.
Tomorrow I'll go there again if I'm feeling better than I am now. I'm sick. :/ I've been at work though but only 'cause I had to. I've been organizing this second hand store -kind of a happening at the school with the teachers and me and one of the teachers have been the most active ones so I knew loads of stuff and how it's gonna work and where's this and that and bleeeh. So I thought in the morning that sure I can survive through 5 hours... Besides if I stayed at home, the pre-school boy would've had to stay at home too. And that would've made me feel so bad. :( Oh well. I'll get better soon.
Uh oh! He<3 called me on Wednesday. *^^* I was so nervous and I bet I sounded like a dork. :S Buut... I promised to be more talkative the next time we call each other. :P
Do you ever have those moments on phone when you just notice yourself that all you say is "blaablaablaa"? :/ I'm afraid I was like that but I was too busy concentrating on what his voice sounds like. :D *^^* Oopsie. He's just... ah... gorgeous. <3
I've applied for 6 studying places now. *takes a deep breath* I'm crossing my fingers to get in to one of them. I can't take another year off. It'd be just wasting my time. :( Oh well... We will see.
Wish me luck.
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[09 Apr 2006|09:58pm] |
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I bet every single one of us human beings has sometimes the feeling of being afraid of himself/herself. I've got that feeling right now at the moment and it's stronger than it's been in weeks.
I'm not talking about being afraid that I'd hurt myself or anything like that. I'm just afraid that my mind will play tricks on me and by having doubts about things and thinking too much of the past I'll ruin something so very beautiful in my life.
I've been so lucky to get to know the sweetest man on Earth but yet I'm thinking what if it's all different IRL...? What if he doesn't like me and thinks I'm extremely boring and the time spent with me is the worst he's ever had? What if I don't like him and he's come all the way to Finland to see me? What if...? Argh. I drive myself nuts with these thoughts 'cause I *know* it can not be much different from what we have with him now. We have known each other since October 2004 and we still have loads of things to talk about and always, ALWAYS can make each other smile and laugh. He's so amazing and there's nothing I wouldn't like about him.
I guess it's totally normal to be sceptical about things like this but I hate myself for even having these thoughts. :(
I'm afraid that my mind will fuck with me and that I let these doubts affect so much to my feelings that I become scared and want to take a step back. That's not what I really wanna do. Not at all. This waiting is just a bit frustrating and 'cause me and him haven't exactly talked about things like these in a while it makes me feel...insecure. I've fallen so badly for him but I don't want to get my heart broken again. I'm willing to take the risk though 'cause I know he's the kind of a man who can make me the happiest girl on planet.
I just... *sigh* I wish I didn't have this much time to think about things.
When the night falls in around me and I don't think I'll make it through
I'll use your light to guide the way cuz all I think about is you
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| Listen to your heart / there's nothing else you can do. |
[06 Apr 2006|07:27pm] |
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So yeah I'm not a teen anymore. Kinda funny feeling actually. Nothing changed really, except the fact that I'm now able to buy my own tequila and can go to better nightclubs on Saturday nights. :D
My birthday was a good one and the a couple of days around it were too. On Sunday 26th I had some relatives coming over and we had a good time. The cake I baked was absolutely delicious and everything else was too. It was nice to see my dad sober for chance and he even behaved! :O
On Monday, which was my *real* birthday I only took a cake to work and spent the evening eating more cake and just chilling and being online and writing tons of text messages. :D
Tuesday was just a normal day at work and after work I stopped by at Lapua and went shopping at Seinäjoki. My sweetheart had sent me 12 absolutely beautiful red roses for my birthday but 'cause I live in the middle of nowhere I went to pick them from a florist at Lapua instead of getting them delivered to my door. I don't mind tho. They were the most wonderful roses ever and the first flowers I've ever gotten from a guy and I know he put so much effort on getting them to me on time that it's just adorable. I think I've met the most wonderful man there is on this planet. You all should envy me. *^^* Honestly.
Hmm... Work's goind well. Been working as a teacher's substitute kinda a lot lately. Which means more money and awesome job experience for me. :)
We have more snow over here than we have had during the enrite Winter. I'm sick of now. Someone please come take it all away from here. :/ It is not nice at all to have 60 cm of snow when we're supposed to have Spring. :(
I'm gonna move to aunt's apartment in May or June and it will be AWESOME!! I can not wait to get there. ^^ Just thing of al the freedom and fun I'm gonna have. :D Yay!!! I've already invited a bunch of ppl to come to visit me... *sigh* I wish it was June already.
Pic not taken by me.
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| I'm lovin' it! |
[17 Mar 2006|04:52pm] |
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Today in the morning when Esko gave a lift to work me and him talked about how early the sun rises nowadays. A couple of months ago there was total darkness around 8:30am but now the sun's all risen and everything's so beautiful. ^^ It's *so* much easier to get out of bed too when there's a bit of light outside. Doens't matter if it's -25C 'cause the weather doesn't seem at all bad 'cause of the sun.
I wish it was Spring already 'cause I'm getting sick of the snow. I miss all the green we have on summer time. .__.
Another thing that I'm loving today is... my new hair. ^^ Went to the hair salon yesterday and they cut and dyed the hair and I'm really satisfied with the result. The lenght is almost the same but with layers and the color is blackish + copper. :P
I think I'll go watch some Friends now. ^^
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| 13 days... Only 13 days left... |
[14 Mar 2006|10:32pm] |
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Not much happening in my life nowadays. It's all about work and chillin at home, really. We had Winter holidays for a week 2 weeks back. The most of the time I just did nothing at home but for the weekend, 3rd - 5th March, me and Valtteri went to my aunt's place. We had a good time with her and her spouse. It was nice.
Even though there's not much happening around me, I'm still incredibly happy. It feels so good to know that there's someone out there thinking and dreaming of me. Someone I care about. Someone I love to spend time with. Someone to write sweet messages to and the best thing is, that I know he feels the same for me. ^^
Humane - Angel
Make it last just keep it pure
Reckless guilt does not exist
Raise this mast and leave the shore
Blind are all who can't resist
While you sleep I sit and wonder
If you are flying in your dreams
My heart restrains and all come undone
When this angel rises from her sleep
Minds intwine and grinding softly
Perfected senses but not seen
Sometimes a blur and most confusing
A dream like this has never been
While you sleep I sit and wonder
If you are flying in your dreams
My heart restrains and all come undone
When this angel rises from her sleep
So I'll always be around
There to hold you when you fall
Hope you will always be around me
'Cause when you smile inside I float up high
While you sleep I sit and wonder
If you are flying in your dreams
My heart restrains and all come undone
When this angel rises from her sleep
In case you're wondering "13 days to what? O_o"... well... to my 20th bday. .__.
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| \o/ Woohoo for winter holidays!! |
[27 Feb 2006|03:09pm] |
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And boohoo for Finland losing the gold medal in men's ice hockey to Swedes. ;____; Daaaaaaaaaamn. What a disappointment. :/ Oh well... Life goes on.. right? ... RIGHT?? O_O
My weekend was ok though. On Firday I went to Sari's place for a bit of chillin and wathing hockey, Finland - Russia. And well... one of the highlights of the day was that she actually won a 32" TV from a show, "Funny homevideos". Apparently the clip she sent there was the funniest of the year! Go Sari, woohoo! \(^_^)/
On Sunday Sari came to my place then to watch the finals... and after the game we were so exhausted and disappointed and sad and everything... :/ We watched a movie but it was so boring so it didn't really cheer us up either. .__. Oh well...
Saturday was fun though. I didn't really do anything but the night I spent camming to Sweden and managed to talk to 6 different ppl in the same conversation window. :D haha It was hilarious.
I'm on winter holidays for a week now. Ahh... <3 For the weekend me and V will head to my aunt's place... I hope it'll be fun. ^^ We will see.
What a scattered post but that's the best I can do at the moment. Bleh. ^^
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| As good as it gets... |
[20 Feb 2006|09:04pm] |
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Yep... My life's sooooo unbelievably great at the moment. :D I've got to work as a teacher's substitute for 2 days last week and will work as one for the whole week. After this week we'll also have our winter holidays for one week and it's just fantastic. :D I don't have much planned though so I'll just stay at home the most of the time spending time with Valtteri, I guess. And for the other weekend me and V will head for my aunt's place to do all kinds of stuff like every year around this time. :)
Uhm... I went out on Friday night with Sirli and had such a good time. I really neeed a night out 'cause it's been ages since I've done that the last time. It's been like...so long that I can't even remember. O_O Me and Sirli drank quite a bit and went to the local club where I saw lots of familier faces, a friend of mine who worked as a DJ there and who I haven't seen in 2 years and I saw my cousin too, to name a few. :) So yeah. We had fun and the night was jsut a success. Had no fellas "dancing next to me, tryin’ a feel my hump, hump" though but it's only a good thing 'cause my heart is kinda taken by the sweetest man on this planet. *^^*
So yes. I have a huge crush on a guy who I have been talking to since October 2004. O_O I KNOW! For all that time we've been talking and only recently really "found" each other. *^^* It's so sweet though. He's amazing and I'm so lucky to have got to know him. :)
One last thing. ^^ I found out on Sunday that my aunt is not going to rent her apartment for the summer and she lets me stay there if I wanna! We had already talked about this for a bit in January and then she was still looking for someone to rent it from March on (???) but no she had told my mom that she won't and that I can move there. :D So of course I'll stay there for the summer! Damn right I will! An own apartment only max 2km away from the city of Lapua. I'd live there all alone and it has one bedroom, living room, tiny lil hall, kitchen corner, bathroom + sauna. :D OH!! And a terrace kind of a thingie! Woohoo!! :D It's going to be awesome. ^^
That place has no Internet connection though... Buuuut... I guess I'd survive... O_o; It's damn worth it tho!! :D I'm so excited. I wish it was summer already but I've still gotta wait a few months. Unfortunately. .__.
This is me and Sirli on Saturday night, btw. :) Isn't she just gorgeous. *^^*
Oh well. I'm off to watch a bit of Olympics. ^^
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| A beautiful quote |
[29 Jan 2006|06:12pm] |
"Since beauty itself is nothing other than the refulgence of the divine countenance and light which is found in things and shines through a beautiful body, women - who reflect the divine - were much more lavishly endowed and furnished with beauty than man. Whence follows the wonderful softness of the female body to sight and touch, her tender flesh, her fair and clear complexion, her shiny skin, the beauty of her head decked with long silky hair shining and supple, the great majesty of her face with its cheerful demeanor, her face the most fair of all creatures, her neck of a milky whiteness, her forehead large, high, noble. She has penetrating and sparkling eyes, which unite with grace and an amiable gaiety; the slender arch of her eyebrows rises above them, between them a beautiful open space, descending from which is a nose straight and properly proportioned. Under her nose is a red mouth, which owes its beauty to the symmetrical disposition of her tender lips; when she smiles we see her dainty teeth, well placed, as white as ivory, less numerous however than those of men, for woman is neither a glutton nor as aggressive as man. The cheeks and jaws impart to her a tender softness, a tinted rosy glow and modest demeanor; she has a delightful chin, round and with a charming dimple. Under this she has a slender neck, long enough, elevated above round shoulders. Her throat is delicate and white, of medium size. Her voice and her words are agreeable; her chest, large and prominent, makes for a harmonious unity of flesh and of breasts, with the same plumpness on each side both in the firmness of the breasts and in the roundness of both them and the belly. Her sides are supple, her back rises straight up; she has long arms, her hands are well made, her fingers slender with fine joints, her hips and thighs full, her calves plump, the ends of her hands and feet rounded off; all her members are full of vitality. In addition, she has a modest bearing, propriety in her movement, dignified gestures, and is, besides, in her whole body of a universally attractive proportion and symmetry, figure, and carriage... "
Heinrich Cornelius Agrippa von Nettesheim (1486-1535)
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| Happy 10th Birthday, Valtteri! |
[29 Jan 2006|02:35pm] |
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My little brother Valtteri had his bday on Friday. :D I can't believe he's already 10. I still remember him at the age of 5 and I doubt he'll ever really grow up in my eyes. :) He'll always be my little bro no matter what.
We've had some relatives coming over yesterday and V's friends and godparents will come today. The table's full of everything good and I'm having a hard time staying away from it. lol But I've got to. I don't wanna gain back the kilos I've lost since Christmas. ^^
I've been working as a teacher's substitute for 4 days this week and man that takes a lot of energy. It's great job experience thought and all and I love it, of course. But the kids are just so full of energy and they won't be interested in the subject you're trying to study if the teacher's not all excited about it. That's the reason why I haven't been updating my journal lately either or haven't commented on my friends' posts. :/ I've just been too tired to do anything else than chatting after work.
I played with the camera again yesterday and took a pic of me an Valtteri that turned out to be really adorable. :) He's too sweet and I love him more than anything else in this world. <3 ^^ Check us out!
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[16 Jan 2006|04:29pm] |
The scarf that I've been knitting is finally ready. :) It's 180 cm long and I love it! :D
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[16 Jan 2006|03:02pm] |
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Another weekend's over again. Hmph. I wish there was 3 days in every weekend. It'd be fantastic, dontcha think? :P
I did nothing on Friday night. Well... if chatting online, knitting scarf and watching Friends doesn't count. ^^
Saturday was our cleaning day again so mom woke me up around 11am (I still can't believe that she let me sleep so late. O_O). I didn't clean that much tho, just put all the things on their places in my room and ironed a bunch of pillowcases. So it was nothing really. I wasn't even annoyed. :P
Then mom got this idea that me and her could go to Seinäjoki for a bit of shopping! 15 minutes later we were in the car heading for Sjoki! :p It was fun... I didn't buy much stuff and neither did mom but at least it was heaps more fun than just staying at home. ^^
On Sunday I did nothing again. lol Just killed time online and knitted. lol Oh and went to vote for the president. But none of the candidates got over 50% of the votes so there'll be a second round between Halonen and Niinistö on 29th January.
I also had singing group's practise yesterday from 7pm to 8:30pm. It was fun. I love singing. ^^ I've been thinking that maybe U should play the clarinet again soon. I haven't even touched that instrument since June and I'm so ashamed. :( But there's no point to play just at home for myself. I need to be a part of an orchestra or go to lessons to be interested in playing. I wish I had a sister or a friend who'd play piano so I could play with him/her. But no... BLEH! >:( I don't wanna forget about everything either so I guess I'd better start playing again. I love music and I love to play but it's just not interesting enough nowadays.
Oh well... *sigh*
Lay down,
your sweet and weary head.
Night is falling.
You have come to journey’s end.
Sleep now,and dream
of ones who came before.
They are calling,
from across the distant shore.
Why do you weep?
What are these tears upon your face?
Soon you will see.
All of your fears will pass away.
Safe in my arms,
you’re only sleeping.
What can you see,
on the horizon?
Why do the white gulls call?
Across the sea,
a pale moon rises.
The ships have come,
to carry you home.
And all will turn,
to silver glass.
A light on the water.
All souls pass.
Hope fades,
Into the world of night.
Through shadows falling,
Out of memory and time.
Don’t say,
We have come now to the end.
White shores are calling.
You and I will meet again.
And you’ll be here in my arms,
Just sleeping.
What can you see,
on the horizon?
Why do the white gulls call?
Across the sea,
a pale moon rises.
The ships have come,
to carry you home.
And all will turn,
to silver glass.
A light on the water.
Grey ships pass
Into the West.
Annie Lennox - Into the West (LOTR: Return of the King -soundtrack)
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| You're just like everybody / Why would I wanna be like you? |
[11 Jan 2006|03:57pm] |
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You know what... I'm actually feeling pretty damn good! :D I don't know why but I just am. ^^ Work's going well and I went to see a dermatologist today and that went all fine too.
Some days ago I ended something I had going with a guy online and I'm surprised that I feel a bit relieved. I had been stuggling with that thing in my mind for weeks but was just too scared to say anything. But now that I found out something about him and did a lil round of stalking too, I'm 100% sure I made the right decision even tho it still hurts a bit. (For example, I can't listen to the song "My Chemical Romance - Ghost of you" without crying 'cause 1) I was listening to that song when we had this lil chat and 2) he's got that song up on his myspace profile). Hmph. It's just weird now 'cause I haven't been talking to him since that day and I thought we could at least stay as friends and all. I guess we still are... But it just feels so weird. Hope it all sorts out.
I stood in for 2 hours for a teacher today. Yay. Then I had to go to see a doctor, a dermatologist. It went well and I got the "stuff" I wanted to get. :)
Uhm... Nothing else to tell. :/ My life's just work and killing time online + taking walks and working out a bit. Sucks to have no friends around here. :(
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| Long...long...LONG survey. :D |
[08 Jan 2006|10:13pm] |
Time started:
--10:14pm
First Name:
-- Riina
Single or Taken:
-- single
Sex:
-- female
Birthdate:
-- 27th March 86
Siblings:
-- A lil bro. So adorable. ^^
Eye color:
-- blue-green-gray-brown... changes color too.
Shoe size:
-- In European size 38-39
height:
-- 161 cm... about 5'3 I guess.
Innie or Outie:
-- Innie
What are you wearing right now:
-- blue jogging pants, red top, greyish socks. lol It's Sunday! Don't judge me. :P
Righty or lefty:
-- Righty
Can you make a dollar in change right now:
-- A dollar? Nope. :D Never had one in my hands. :P
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Relationships
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Do you have a BF or GF?
-- No.
Best place to go for a date:
-- Don't know really.
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Favorites...
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Favorite place to shop:
-- ..?
Favorite kind of pants:
-- just black trousers. They go with amost every shirt. ^^
Color:
-- black
Number(s):
-- 6
Animal:
-- Dolphin
Drink:
-- hmm... this one that has Sprite and sour apple liqueur... Mallorca? I dunno what it's called.
Sport(s):
-- ice hockey. :P
Fast-Food Place:
-- ...?
Month:
-- July
Movie:
-- A Beautiful Mind
Juice:
-- orange
Breakfast:
-- tea and toast
Favorite cartoon character(s):
-- ...?
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Have you ever
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Given anyone a bath:
-- Nope
Bungee Jumped:
-- Nope. I'm gonna tho.
Made yourself throw-up:
-- Nope.
Gone skinny dipping:
-- Yep
Eaten a hot dog:
-- Nope. :D
Put your tongue on a frozen pole:
-- unfortunately. :D
Loved someone so much it made you cry?
-- Yes.
Broken a bone:
-- no.
Played truth or dare:
-- yeah
Been in a police car:
-- no
Been on a plane:
-- yep
Been in a sauna:
-- Oh yes. Once a week at least.
been in a hot tub:
-- yeah
Swam in the ocean:
-- yes
Fallen asleep in school:
-- no
Ran away?:
-- not really.
Broken someone's heart:
-- Yeah.
Cried when someone died:
-- Yes. :,/
Cried in school:
-- yep
Fallen off your chair:
-- yep
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?:
-- not ALL night.
Saved e-mails:
-- Yes. Many of 'em.
Fallen for one of your best friends?:
-- Hmm... kind of. ^^
Made out with JUST a friend?:
-- Nope.
Used someone:
-- Yeah.
Been cheated on?:
-- Yes.
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What is...
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Your good luck charm:
-- A necklace I got a while ago. I believe it'll bring luck to my life. ^^
Best song you ever heard:
-- Can't name just one. :/
Stupidest thing you have ever done:
-- Let myself fall for a man I should have never even spoken to. :/
What's your room like:
-- hmm... boring? But I like it tho. :P
Last thing you said:
-- "Hyvää yötä!"
What is beside you:
-- on which side? :P
What kind of shampoo do you use?:
-- loreal for colored hair.
Best thing that has happened to you this year:
-- this year? hmm... nothing that awesome has hapened yet.
Worst thing that has happened to you this year:
-- spent the new years at home? That sucked so badly.
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Have you had..
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Chicken pox:
-- yep
Sore Throat:
-- lots of times
Stitches:
-- yes
Broken nose:
-- no
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Do You
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Believe in love at first sight:
-- more like in infatuation at first sight
Like picnics:
-- Depends on the company.
Like school:
-- Kind of.
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Would you/what is
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Eat a live hamster for $1,000,000. dollars:
-- No way!!
If you were stuck on an island, what people would you want with you?:
-- Hmm... I would like if I had a bunch of my friends with me there. But I'm glad if they weren't stuck there and could like normally. :P
Who was the last person that called you:
-- Grandma.
What makes you laugh the most?:
-- I laugh a lot... Dunno what makes me laugh more than some other thing.
What makes you smile?:
-- good conversations, chillin with friends... Valtteri... ^^
Who is the last person
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You yelled at:
-- Mom... or V... o_O Not sure.
Who broke your heart:
-- Hmm...Mikael.
Who told you they loved you:
-- Eren.
Who is your loudest friend?:
-- hmm... I dunno.
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Do you/Are You:
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Do you like filling these out:
-- When I'm extremely boresd, yep. :P
Do you wear glasses or contacts:
-- neither.
Do you like yourself:
-- Nope.
Do you get along with your family:
-- Somehow.
Stolen anything over $50:
-- No.
Obsessive?:
-- hmm... every once in a while.
Compulsive?:
-- ..? not really.
Anorexic?:
-- lol I wish I was... for a short while. :P
Suicidal?:
-- No.
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This or That?
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Skiing or Boarding:
-- Skiing
fall or winter:
-- Winter
Silver or Gold:
-- silver
Diamonds or pearls:
--- diamonds
Sunset or Sunrise:
-- sunset
Sprite or 7up?:
-- sprite
Orange juice or apple juice:
-- orange
Cats or dogs:
-- dog
Coffee or tea:
-- coffee
Phone or in person:
-- in person
Are you oldest, middle, youngest or only child:
--- oldest
Indoor or outdoor:
-- indoor
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Final questions
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How many people are you sending this to:
-- None. I'll just post this on my weblog. :P
What are you listening to right now?:
-- nothing! :O omg.
What did you do yesterday:
-- cleaned the house, ate, spent time online, went to sauna...slept.
Where do you want to get married?
-- ...? I don't know.
If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?
-- I wish I wasn't this shy.
Are you a good driver?
-- haha :P I can drive but I ain't good at it. ^^
Are you a good Singer:
-- Been told that I have a beautiful voice... ^^
What do you dream about:
-- Being happy with someone...?
What time is it now?
-- 10:40
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[01 Jan 2006|02:56pm] |
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Oh how the time flies. I just noticed it's been weeks since my last post. I've been either too busy or just too lazy. lol
Christmas was really nice though. Probably the best xmas I've had in my life so far. everytyhing was just so nice. ^^ We were at my aunt's on Friday the 23rd and Santa visited us there. ;) Grandma and grandpa were there too and we had a good time.
on Xmas Even we just did the traditional stuff... Slept late, watched tv, went to the sauna and to the church and then to my grandma's for dhristmas dinner. :) The dinner was so good and I ate way too much. :D haha Like every year. When we had eaten, we all (me, mom, Valtteri, Esko, grandma & grandpa) headed for our place and spend the evening here. :) Exchanged presents and ate some more and had a good time. So lovely.
I got some awesome presents (new cell phone, mp3 player (20gb), new fantastic speakers, System of a Down - Hypnotize, Staind - Chapter V, Anne Geddes calendar, some money, too much chocolate and a cookbook for veggies to mention a few). :)
On 25th I went to dad's place. Stayed there for a couple of hours and then we went to my aunt's for a dinner. :) There were total 17 ppl eating there and it was nice to see 'em again, especially my cousin's son Rasmus (4,5 months old). Isn't he just adorable? *^^*
Hmm... on 26th I stopped by at Lapua to see a bunch of friends for a couple of hours but yeah... hmph. It was ok but I felt kinda left out. I don't like that feeling. :/
During that week I did some shopping too. Bought like... a skirt (so pretty), 6 tops, a shirt...hmm...a bunch of cd's (8 or something *rolls eyes*)... uhm... some xmas stickers for next year and stuff. :) Spent loads but I've been working the whole Fall dammit!! :D Was nice shopping with mom on Friday for 8,5 hours. :D So great.
NYE wasn't that awesome though. I spent it at home wit the family + my godmother and her spouse. We played Trivial Pursuit and eat chocolate and other goodies... Valtteri and the men were excited about the fireworks so we all went outside around midnight to see some. :) I took pics too. :P Yeah yeah yeah... the fireworks were prettier too but I wanted to actually see some of them so I couldn't take pics all the time. :P
Anyphew. I made no promises for the coming year. I just hope it'll be a good one. :)
And you ppl who read my weblog, hope the year 2005 was great and may the year 2006 be even better! <3!!!!
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| Forever in my thoughts and heart you'll remain |
[13 Dec 2005|10:04pm] |
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People who either talk to me or read my journal know that about 2 months ago I lost a really close friend of mine. Even though I never really got the chance to meet that guy he meant so much to me. I still think of him daily and wonder what he'd say about this and that... *sigh* I miss Ed so much. :/ And the fact that I'll never be able to really talk to him anymore... is so...frustrating. I miss his jokes and the teasing and the pieces of advice he gave me...
A few weeks ago I got a package from USA that had a beautiful necklace in it. The necklace that belonged to Ed was sent to me by his family. I'll never be able to thank them enough for sending me something that will help me to remember Ed as the time passes and the memories I have of him won't be so strong anymore. I'll keep that necklace safe so that I'll have it forever and I can take it with me when I need a bit of luck or someone to protect me.
I hope I'll be able to visit California sometime. I'd love to meet his family 'cause they've been so sweet to me during these months. I'd also love to see the tree that was planted for him from me. And well... just to see how he lived too.
I got Ed to love Poets of the Fall so I'm going to add a piece of their lyrics. These lines are from one of my fav songs, Stay
Morning comes slow today
Memories push through from yesterday
Where will I be tomorrow
What will I have to show
From my life
Stay, I need you here for a new day to break
Stay, I want you near, like a shadow in my wake
Flow with life down the drain
Memories and force of will sustain
Where will I be tomorrow
What will be left to show
It's the little things, little things, little things, that make the world.
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My dad's a freaking idiot!!! ARGH!
Now why can't he just date girls at his age? Why the girls gotta be 20 years younger than he? WHY THE FREAKING GIRLS GOTTA BE AS OLD AS I AM!!!???
Thank you, dad, for ruining my day again.
No... I don't think I'll see you on Tuesday at the school where I'm gonna sing with the group. You won't be there. You're never there.
Not once did you stop at Kaustinen when I studied there, for 3 years.... You're an idiot.
Someday...I hope you'll realize what you've missed.
You don't even know me.
Hope you'll this Xmas at least give me a card. That's heaps better than forgetting totally about me like you did last year. And don't say that "you had no money". That's no excuse for forgetting.
Hope you really care for that girl tho. Wish she's not just your fuckbuddy. But if possible... I don't ever want to meet her. It'd be too embarrassing.
I wish I could be proud of you. But I guess that day will never come.
I wish you were proud of me. But I guess you don't even care.
Thanks alot.
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