A few years ago i had this great plan, Id graduate high school, go to cosmotology school, upgrade years later to become a writer, just become somthing. Yet next month im turning 19, i dont have a job, i live with my friends family where i dont even have my own room (although im greatful), havnt graduated highschool.. blah blah blah... Im so confused. is life always going to be this way? Am i stuck in a rut because im a teenager? I just dont know what to do with myself. My esteem has lowered and i see my life slowly falling farther and farther into this bottomless pit.
I feel as if im missing a huge chunk of life that ive been missing a long time now. I want to move on and fix everything I successfully fucked up in the past four or so years. Dont get me wrong im not sad or ungreatful, im pretty damn content, i just dont know if what im trying to do is helping or hurting my future.
Hemmm... I just pray things will come together... I hope everything will work out... and maybe my parents will accept me wanting to move in with chris... yet i doubt itll happen