This Is For You

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 22:27:24 GMT

I don't know what to say anymore i wanted to make the world a better place and i hoped people would want to do that too. looks like many voters in key states seemed more worried about same-sex marriage than the war in Iraq i just dont get people ! religious assholes. i blame the fox news channel.it's the most popular news channel, and it's veiws are totally right-wing slanted.oh well. i guess it's four more years... no more queers.

Fri, 09 Jul 2004 03:25:31 GMT

I wan't to tell you a story..

"The Most Foolish Traveler in the World."

A Foolish traveler was on a journey. He was so foolish that he was easily tricked by others. He was tricked by the villagers, and lost his clothes and shoes. But, since the traveler was a fool..Even when the villagers thanked him with lies saying "you saved me!, he believed them...And kept saying, "Be happy, be happy!" In the end, the traveler became bare-naked, and was so ashamed. So he went inside the forest. But this time...He met the monsters living in the forest. The monsters wanted to eat the traveler's body..So they began to trick him with lies. If ciyrse, the traveler fell for it... so he gave away his legs and arms, one by one. In the end, the traveler only had his head left. then he gave away his eyes to the last monster. As the monster ate the traveler's eyes, it said..."Thank you. I'll give you a present in return." and left something behind. But, it was just a piece of paper that had "Fool" written on it. Yet the traveler began to cry. "Thank you! Thank you! I've Never gotten a present before!" "I'm happy! I'm happy! Thank you! Thank you!, he said...and poured tears out of his already gone eyes. And then the traveler..died soon after.

Sun, 04 Jul 2004 06:53:46 GMT

psychobilly music

Outlaw Heart

desert night under lonely stars. crusing down the highway takes me farther from home. whiskey and regret... neither can erase the fact that i have done wrong. so now i'm on the run. the law is on my trail. let down the only girl that ever seemed to be the one for me, so now i wander alone. alone in a cheap motel room. praying to the Lord above. burden of the past rests so heavy on my shoulders. my conscience carries the weight of blood. cigarette smoke and shadow. a neon cactus in the night. did what i did because i thought that i had no choice, but there's always another way. i look to the moon and stars, somewhere underneath them she's there. never spoke the words of love i hid in my heart. if she heard them now would she still care? wonder if she's thinking of me? does she hate me for what i've done? how i wish that i could change everything and go back now that my last chance is gone. it's gone. moon, will you tell her for me, i'm sorry for all the trouble that i've caused. if only i could find a way to return to her someday, for i long to hold her in my arms. but i fear that i'm not long for this world, because i will not go out without a fight. i'm running forever and if they should catch me... one last thought of her before my gun is fired.

This is a really good song.

Sun, 30 May 2004 09:39:11 GMT

Yeah i'm german......i love my badself!!!

Sun, 30 May 2004 08:51:41 GMT

You're Germany!

You have a really ugly past, one that defies description.
This gives you tremendous guilt, but you've coped with it and flourished
into an awfully good person, considering. You've finally made peace with
yourself, in so many ways, and you've been able to build on that for a bright
and capable future. You've become so enlightened that you're probably
a member of the Green Party, or at least listen to their demands.
Take the Country Quiz at the Blue Pyramid

Tue, 25 May 2004 01:47:26 GMT

Man I'm so happy school is done with but I miss every one like really bad like yeah I was thinking im never going to see most of them again and I was kinda sad. I never really did not like anyone but I am happy im out. I knew a lot of kids but I did not really have a lot of true friends. And I'm thinking of going and looking for a job I don't think I can live here to much longer. I mean I love my DA and ma but I want to live my life even if the means falling down in the mud. I mean the hand to help me up would be good. I hope I don't fuck up im really lost right now in my life and I don't know what way to go. I mean I look at other people and they are going to do something like more school or getting a job. The real fucking world fucking sucks. I think im going to go into the army I mean maybe not for the rest of my life but just to get started. I need help and fucking work. I need something to do im going to go crazy having no school to go to and people telling me what to do and when I guess I get all of the BS when I get a job. >>>>Things to do<<<<<

Thu, 13 May 2004 03:17:22 GMT

It's been along time....But I'm back I think now that my friends have gone off in to xanga land I'm free......Kinda sucks but I don't really care. I'm almost out of school 2 weeks that's it then I don't know what I'm to do. My dad wants me to get a job and go to school. I think that's looking like the best way to go. really am thinking about going in to a bio job I want to work with life its self I find myself happy went I'm in the woods or around a lot of trees I don't know maybe I'm just weird like that. The Navy Guy that comes to my school I think I made him mad. I told him that I was not joining and thinking of the army as if, I'm a lover and a world leader like I'm a fucking foot soldier..ha ha ha .
I really wish there was still a Soviet Union so we could not be in this gay ass war that has no real point what so ever maybe you see a point if you do please tell me cause I'm not seeing it. I have so much fucking work that has to be done and they say school gets ez at the end of the year..........That's about it I'm out.....HACK THE WORLD!!!!!!!

Mon, 05 Apr 2004 02:40:19 GMT

I've given a lot of thought on this I wish I was brave, I wish I could feel no pain
I feel so mad I feel so angry, I feel so careless so lost confused again I feel so cheap so used unfaithful! I shake this off pretend its all okay
is there someone out there who feels just like me?

Have you ever had a song make you cry? I dont know whats wrong with me....

Fri, 02 Apr 2004 00:29:25 GMT

fuck it. Fuck it fuck it fuck it.
it would suck coming to a new school almost at the end of a year. yeah i talked to a girl the other day. She lives in ohio kinda far from me but she seemed really cool. I only talked to her online but cool never the less. I was going to ask for her number i dont know if i should i dont want her to think of me and some guy just trying to get game as the black man would say. DAVE CHAPPELLE Kicks ass. He is one funny guy.

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 01:00:12 GMT

Hey hey boys and girls

yesterday kicked ass i had a really good time with my friend allen. That is one cool kid. I found out i can go to school on my dads GI bill. That is a good thing. And today i did nothing got some water and thats bout it.

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 19:59:43 GMT

I act differently towards different people. They... just bring out certain qualities in me. It seems like I have hella big mood swings (which I do have quite a bit) but it's more about who I'm around. I don't know if this means I lack self and substance, but I do know it means I'm pretty strange.

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 08:25:14 GMT

I can't get this the way i want it.....Man this shit can piss you off when its not doing what you want........anyone if you can help let me know.

Tue, 23 Mar 2004 18:53:57 GMT

I'm just a bastard, but at least I admit it
At least I admit it

Mon, 22 Mar 2004 15:44:52 GMT

MAn i had a fucking kick ass time hanging with everybody who went and saw dawn of the dead man that movie kick ass. And they got my movie coming out. Starring Brad Pitt and orlando bloom. Man my movie is going to kill. The movie is Troy yep go watch the trailer for it and tell me what ya think?

Man....last night i wanted to go out to some place nice i told my dad i would cover it. And he would not go he said that we would do it next sunday....i was kinda pissed but i got over it because i know how he is. i don't know why but man is my house so boring i mean all i do is sleep and read. No one wants to hang out.

Thu, 18 Mar 2004 04:31:48 GMT

Hey.....ok where should I start ok my fingernails they are sliver right a guy told me that only girls do that...I was like why do you fucking care I don't down the shit you do....that kinda had me in a bad mood then I said fuck it I do what I want and I don't really care if kids like it or not. my hair why do I dye it because I like to....yes my hair is dead so what brain storm MY HAIR....Yeah your all cool Yo man-- Let's get out of here!
Word to your mother!

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 02:04:43 GMT

man.....I had a good day for some reson i feel good and happy. I don't know i talked to my old and good friend and he is the best kid i know. Yeah i guess people are pissed at me now i care but i dont think they want me as a friend. I dont know.....i never know what to say to people i am so fucking dumb i fuck every thing that i like up. i dont want to push people away but it seems thats all i do. I have only a few good friends and now they hate me. man.....i'm such a fuck up. i'm just going to go fuck off now....man the only one of me friends even talks to me....fucking im so not cool. I think im going to go drink and do some drugs now.....fucking all i got now......and no one cares if i do it or not. man i tryed to stop hanging out with all the bad people that do that stuff but i guess nothing good lasts forever. i dont know what is wrong with me. i think i need help i fucking think about killing myself more then i ever did. i just sit here thinking about what if i did it this why could i live? i dont want to live if i try to killmyself but knowing me i would fuck that up too. Man......i guess i have nobody to talk to. my mom and dad are no help....i tryed talking to my dad but he does not understand what i need him to say or i want to hear him say. i dont really know what to do with my life. I don't know.........thing i hate is not know where i stand on something. i kinda with i was in china where they give you a job and thats why you do thats who you are....i know descend into stupidity once more. But lets keep that on the downlow

Yeah Yeah yeahs-- kick ass

I may go to the flow some kid i know wanted me to come and hang with him and some of his friends....idk maybe i will......

Mon, 15 Mar 2004 05:08:49 GMT

I found out that the house next door to me got sold i was like ok thats cool maybe more kids to hang out with. But i saw who they sold it too. Some fucking mexicans Man I really hate mexicans they are so fucked up i hope they dont make it like 90 people in one house. Man i alot most fucked one up today talking shit about me and my friend.....Fag This is the usa not fucking mexico so fucking speak english. ...ah ah fucking boarder jumpers piss me off. And yes i know some of the shit he said. They did ever thing they needed to get their green card. then they are ok. i hope they move out. Sorry if you read this and dont like what i say but hey they piss me off. all the work it took for peopel to come over here and they just walk right in and bush saying hey its ok take our jobs and money.

I dont hate all of them just the ones i have seen.

Sun, 14 Mar 2004 22:55:35 GMT

This journal shit is crazy i was thinking no one reads this shit.....but they do. YEAH everyone who reads this dont because its all not true....i just play on this. So yeah its all bullshit. Sorry to people who read this and got pissed off.

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 03:35:07 GMT

You still think swastikas look cool
The real nazis run your schools
They're coaches, businessmen and cops
In a real fourth reich you'll be the first to go

Dead Kennedys

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 03:33:49 GMT

Ten guys jump one, what a man
You fight each other, the police state wins
Stab your backs when you trash our halls
Trash a bank if you've got real balls

Dead Kennedys

Thu, 04 Mar 2004 01:19:22 GMT

Man i feel like shit. it looks like i have no friends but whats new....no one likes to hang with a loser kid like me.
Man i feel low like i want to kill myself low.......
I think of what i could do to get them to like me....what could i say or do.......Man i'm lost once more......

Mon, 01 Mar 2004 23:41:41 GMT

"... We'll tear your soul apart!"
"The box: You opened it, we came."

Mon, 01 Mar 2004 23:41:10 GMT

Talking shit is what i'm good at.
Talking shit is what i'm good at.
Talking shit is what i'm good at.

Ha ha ha trick ass bitch think i'm talking to you. Lol funny. I pissed off my friend the other day. I should think about what i say. Sorry to that friend it was a joke. Man i'm to much of a dick to them so sorry to ya. But fuck some people who think i care what they think!!!!! I don't care nope.
HA HA HA HA EVIL DEEDS ARE DONE WHEN THE KIDS GO TO BED.

For the strength of the Pack is the Wolf, and the strength of the Wolf is the Pack

Sat, 28 Feb 2004 00:14:55 GMT

hey kids

I think i'm going to ask this girl i like out and if she says no then its ok because we are cool like that. Man its hard being white when ever race hates your people for shit in the past. And my ex is dumb she does not know anything of the world and nothing of real life and one day she is going to find out of real is it. Man people today irked me. About meat i dont care if people eat it or anything but be nice about it with people who dont. Fucking bullshit kids are dumb talking about not likeing people because they dont eat meat. kinda dumb i mean i dont like kids on how they look and act with me. if your nice then im a great guy but if you get on my bad side....lets say i can be really mean. but im a nice guy i try to be nice to everyone i know. but fuck it if your going to be mean to me then its on. man i got to work tomarrow with my dad....YES

work = MONEY

later much kids

Fri, 27 Feb 2004 05:26:06 GMT

Did you think that I would cry,
on the phone?
Do you know what it feels like,
being alone?
I'll find someone new.

A year has past, the seasons go...