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Thursday, February 21st, 2008
10:05 pm	so it hasn't been THAT long... ... that last entry was pretty sucky. i was thinking just now how shitty it is to be single. i spent valentine's day waxing my crotch, which, btw, i do NOT recommend to anyone! not only does it hurt, despite how much merlot you gulp down, it can cause an allergic reaction! anywho, back to being single. i'm like, boo hoo, no one to cuddle with or take me out or kiss or fuck or buy me shit or call/text me 100 x's a day telling me how wonderful i am... blah! i had all that and what happened? oh yeah! it truned to bullshit. it always turns to bullshit. one of my nearest and dearest brought this to my attention with their recent/latest/seeminly on-going drama with their other half. at least i'm not driving myself mad, staying awake nights, crying, wondering what some dick is up to or if he is cheating on me or if he has some secret agenda or could dump me at any minute. drama. i've spent the last several years trying to avoid that beast and it always seems to rear it's ugly ass head! well, at least there has been none in the relationship dept. lately. and why??? because i've been single! i do have to say though, a life without drama is quite boring.... ... oh rachel.... Current Mood: calm Current Music: Filo & Peri - The Anthem (Comment on this)
Friday, August 3rd, 2007
2:01 pm	Ok! Since that last update... I got engaged to fucking "Army Boy". Yep. Me. Rachel Hilary Runner was, eh hem, WAS, engaged! Short version: Kept writing messages back and forth via myspace. Received phone calls from the 199 area code once a week. Feelings escalated. Next thing I know we're a couple. Then, dum dum dum DUMB! Will you marry me? Will you give up your life and everything you have worked so hard to get back to move to Germany with me? "I WILL!" Announced it to everyone. Surprisingly, all took it well and were supportive. Why? Guys! Come on! Sweet, sugary sentiments continued to fill my inbox then BAM! Out of the blue. "I can't marry you as soon as I get back. I'm here and in no condition to make life altering decisions. We need to know each other better." Agreed. But that's not what you were all about yesterday! Translation: told his platoon finally. Home boys didn't like it. Bros before hos. Good bye Rachel. A note to myself: You stupid fucking naive retarded bitch! What the fuck did you really think was going to happen with that? You didn't even know this mother fucker! All you knew was that he was a hot make out and gave you some great head! Whoopie! You're Rachel fuckin Runner! You can get ass whenever you want it! You need to stop trying to replace your father with random dicks! No one will ever love you like he did. No man will ever be there for you like him. You're confusing sex and lust with love and yeah, trying to fill a void in your life. WAKE THE FUCK UP! You're 23. You have shit to do. Goals to reach. Life to live. Stop jumping the gun and thinking that you need to be in a relationship. Have fun. Fuck around. Be yourself. When the time comes, if it ever does, then cool. Learn from this and DON'T do it again! You are smarter than this. It's time to open your eyes and accept reality for what it is and destroy that little fantasy world you live in. NOW: I am back in Orlando. Well, Kissimme. I'm living with my friend for two weeks until my apt is ready. I got the job at Disney and I start Sunday. My classes start the 22nd. FinAid came through! Good shit! Looks like I can finally start climbing my way back to the top! Current Mood: determined Current Music: enya (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 15th, 2007
2:14 pm	in need of an update i see.... my bday weekend was fucking AMAZING!!! amphitheater all i expected and sooo much more. my mom tried to fuck it up. she's crazy. she is finally on medication for it. doug tried to fuck it up. you have to get your hair done right now because why? mel blais is fucking awesome! she traveled to the middle of nowhere to be with me and tolerated techno for my amusement! love that goth ho like whoooooaaaaa!!!! was disappointed by a few people, but fuck it. this week has been bullshit. a week from last night, i was partying my ass off. last night, i geeked out on myspace, mtv, and champagne. i didn't go to my 2nd job yesterday. i just didn't feel like it. i'm fired! hahaha!!! i am sooo fucking lazy it is pathetic! i slept in until like 11:30, managed to cook up some pancakes and half raw bacon. after that, i have sort of done the dishes and cleaned up rabbit shit. woo hoo! fireman has flaked again. big fucking suprise! i spend way too much dwelling on certain thoughts and people that i shouldn't. i think it's time to take my med. Current Mood: blah Current Music: keane - nothing in my way (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 15th, 2007
12:19 am	Reasons I HATE Trax: 1. It's not a REAL club! It's a small, stupid bar @ the Quality Inn with a stage and a speaker. 2. It's lame. 3. The music they play is crap. 4. It's lame. 5. Like a hand full of people go there. 6. It's lame. 7. It's NOT Roxy. 8. It's lame. 9. I need a new serpantine (sp?) belt on my car asap before it like explodes or something. 10. On a completely different level, but still LAME! Current Mood: drained Current Music: jt - the karma song for cameron diaz (Comment on this)
Friday, December 8th, 2006
8:45 pm	Fucking Flu!!! I'm suppose to be in Orlando right about now chilling with my homie Zake! Instead, I'm sitting here geeking out on the internet. Thanks Comcast for finally coming out and fixing it! Bastards! I realized I haven't updated this thing in a while! I was reading some of my past posts and it seems that this year has flown by and a ton of bullshit has happened. Fucking Drama! I can't get away from it! I'm sure I will make another "Year in Review" Blog on myspace to document it all. I really like this emo-looking band called a.f.i. I dyed my hair really really dark brown. I am friends with Hayli and Howard again. I actually like my job. (except when i have to massage asses!) I managed to max out two credit cards last month. Some old man nick named me "Pink". I have been having reoccuring dreams of car crashes and... my dad. I'm trying to change some things that I don't like about myself. I still hate Highlands County. Current Mood: Ick!!! Current Music: a.f.i. - love like winter (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 31st, 2006
10:45 am	The concept of "karma"... Karma = "what goes around comes around" So, basically, someone wrongs you in some way and instead of taking action against them yourself, the "eye for eye" idea, you sit back and wait for some unfortunate event to happen to this peron. Then, when something bad does happen, you feel some sort of joy in knowing that they are inconvenienced, unhappy, injured, or even dead. You then rationalize this event as an inevitable consequence and feel a sense of satisfaction. Kind of sick when you think about it, eh? Current Mood: thinkin about some things (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
4:51 pm	56 more minutes... I hate today. I am going home to a nice relaxing 6 pack, several Marlboros, and my cozy lawn chair in the back yard. Aaaahhhh. Current Mood: aggravated (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006
9:01 pm	OOOH yeah! That's the SHIT!!!! FUCK YEAH HOMIES!!! Guess who's having the fucking BEST week ever now! (Well, @ least the best day!) MEMEMEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! I passed my board exam today! WHEW!!! That bitch was fuckin hard too! Thought I bombed that shit right off the fuckin bat. It's amazing when you find you still have the power to suprise yourself. Is that a Kevin Spacey quote??? Anyhow, I am now in the most chill atmospere known to myself. aka the casa de Zach. Soooo many good times have been had here. We're just waiting for the rest of Thursday Night Drinking Crew to congregate. I picked up some pink liquor called " Rated X". A sample shot proved it to be quite tasty! Current Mood: impressed Current Music: sugar ray- mr bartender (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 26th, 2006
3:25 pm	i think zake tagged me too... Guilt What is yours? Explain yourself Culinary: chicken chalupa supremes - tomato they're fuckin nummy!!! Literary: none if i can get myself to ready ANYTHING it's amazing! Audiovisual: 8th & ocean i love watching pretty people and their glamorous lives Musical: techno! it "moves" me! Celebrity: prob Britney Spears i don't know!!! i just see or hear something about her & i HAVE TO pay attention!!! Now I tag:- HAPPY FUCKIN DAY!!! i got my testing code! now it's all up to me!!! come on rach! get off your fuckin ass! get off the fuckin computer! get out of hayli's pool! & outta the bar @ chili's! fuckin STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!! do something with your life besides gradually allowing yourself to be sucked back into fuckin highlands county!!! OMG!!!! Current Mood: anxious Current Music: dht - listen to your heart (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 25th, 2006
8:37 pm	Huh... I don't understand why my cubed steak came out tasting like mayonaise??? Current Mood: puzzled Current Music: spa -relax/indulge/daydream (Comment on this)
Monday, April 17th, 2006
9:23 pm	SO, I woke up with conjunctivitis, made myself bleed, then ran into the wall. Current Mood: retarded (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 22nd, 2006
12:55 am	So, I was bored... Take the quiz: How blond are you? True dumb blond You may not be leagally blond but you are one DUMB ASS BITCH! do you notice ppl shaking there heads and rowling there eyes when you talk? no i didnt think so your prolly tp dence to notice. I bet you are the type of person that is only popular because you are hot!!!! but dont worry if you screw the dean you might get in to a decent college Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook! > WARNING Rachel is radioactive. Wear protective clothing at all times. Username: From Go-Quiz.com You Are Spring! Hopeful Playful Sweet Fresh Airy What Season Are You? Your 80s Heartthrob Is John Stamos Who's Your 80's Heartthrob? Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: shakira - hips don't lie (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
2:06 pm	Just a quickie... ... I have to be at the gyno is less than an hour! So, I have been home for two days now. Whooptie-freakin'-doo! I have got virtually nothing done. A bout (sp?) of depression hit me yesterday and I spent most of the day sleeping or looking around my room wondering "where the fuck am I gonna put that" and "why the fuck isn't this fitting there?!" It was a frustrating experience! I hate moving! I did, however, manage to grill up some rather nummy steaks for mi madre y yo. I texted Mel once I had the grill "blazing" to let her know I was thinking of her. Her "make me proud mama" reply brought tears to my eyes. Today I managed to junk the old, shitty comp and hook up mine (obviously). My comp makes dial-up not seem so bad, but still this shits gots to go! I've been pampered w/ the DSL for far too long to deal w/ this mumbo jumbo! Some weirdo lady who cleaned my teeth earlier got off on how gorgeous my mouth was. Kinda freaky! I'm in this sorta double bladed sword situation w/ my long time crush/obsession Mark. Y! Y! Y!????!!!!!! WTF? I'm still at the dunno status. I know what I should do. I know the right thing to do. I know the moral thing to do. The thing that Nat and my mom and mother would advise me to do. BUT, since when the fuck have I EVER listened to any of that reason!?! Zake is suppose to be back in Fla today. I hope he calls me soon! I miss my #1 soul homie!!! Ok, all for now. Gotta spend some time on a "summers eve" before my next appt.!!! Current Mood: refreshed Current Music: darude - out of control (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 12th, 2006
9:26 pm	Only TWO (2) dos days left of school! YIPEE!!!!! No more waking up at the ass crack of dawn to travel down Aloma with a bunch of shit for brains retards that don't know how to drive just to get to my ghetto ass school located behind a Home Depot and periodically rub my hands all over some of the nastiess fuckers I have ever encountered without ANY compenstation. Nope! From now on if you are skanky, you gotta pay me to touch you! So, I wake up this afternoon to find a text from Zach letting me know that his brother has passed away and he is in MD. He said that he might not be back in time for my party! I feel really bad. His brother is gone and I know how it feels to lose a close family member. I feel really, REALLY bad, like devastated BAD that he may not be back for the party though. Zake is one of my bestfriends. My #1 SOUL HOMIE! It just wouldn't be the same if he is not in attendance. My computer still sucks and I am typing this via UCF comp lab. Somehow, they have yet to delete me from their system. It's really fuckin cold outside and I have to venture outta here and walk through the frozen tundra of the parking lot to get to my car! Not looking forward. Current Mood: cold Current Music: wings - band on the run (Comment on this)
Friday, January 27th, 2006
11:58 am	I'm looking around my naked room. The most of my possessions are already gone. Things I bought with such pride to decorate my new room. A room that I had all to myself. A room that I could do anything with because it was mine. All mine. All of the pinks. All of the roses. All of the vibrance. Gone. It sets in. I am leaving soon. Too soon to even dwell on without my eyes beginning to water. Soon. Soon I will be ripped away from this life I have come to know. Come to love. Come to need. My friends. How I will miss you. How lucky am I to have met you all? My quaint little group. My click. My "homies". What will become of our Thursdays once I am gone? Will you all keep on? Will you strive to keep the tradition alive or will it die with my departure? What shall I do on my lonely Friday eves? My friendless, lifeless Friday eves? Too sad! Too much! Too soon! Too hard! The good times. The bad times. Our ridiculous scwabbles that brought us closer together. Being an only child I was accustomed to being alone, but by moving here I was given the gift of "sisters" and "brothers". I love you guys! I am going to miss you all dearly. Current Mood: sad Current Music: beethoven - moonlight sonata (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 24th, 2006
10:46 pm	Uh! Oh yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Uh! Oh yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Boom! I fucked your boyfriend! I fucked your man! Boom! I fucked your boyfriend! He stuck it in!!!! ~ this is dedicated to squint eyed ugly bitch! ~ Alrighty, so here we go! Now that the Bday weekend is over and I was able to reveal the horrible truth to Mel Blais, Saturday morning I woke up NOT so lucky. *hint *hint (Mel, I know it would have been shitty for you to find out that kind of info via LJ.) THE B-DAY weekend of one Melanie Dana Blais: FRIDAY - Club Paris. Down grade! Seriously, who enforces the kicking out of under age drinkers policy anyways!?! BIG *F* to U stupid security guard! SATURDAY - party. Gothed out to the n-th degree. SUNDAY - Disney. I actually got to see Tinker Bell fly this time! Like I said, I can die happy now! MONDAY - tattoos were in the plans, but due to some complications were a no happen. Mel did however manage to get multiple ink spots today. Getting back to my misfortune. Early Sat morning after the club, I caved to my stupid emotions. I ended up hanging out with him and of course had to have one last fling before he Grey Hounded it up to OH. I don't get him though! He all the sudden wants to act like he's in love with me? Like he's going to get his shit together while he's up there and like come back and sweep me off my feet? He starts calling and emailing me??? WTF? x's like a million! I wasn't really sad when he said bye, but I was extremely exhausted, kinda still buzzed, and not thinking clearly at all. I've sort of been getting little spurts of missing him, but nothing major. All this shit he has said before. I think he's been trying to get his "shit together" ever since he left the womb! Since I saw him last Thursday, he's been in contact with me every day. Every day until today when he said he would get more minutes on his phone and call. Nope! Whatever. I'm not suprised. Typical. Current Mood: indifferent Current Music: twenty fingers - BOOM! (Comment on this)
Friday, January 20th, 2006
12:35 pm	*** Wednesday night, Mel Blais and Rach Runn had some mighty good times in Tuscawilla burning some shit, burning some other shit, drinking some Bud, and discussing how they were going to be slaughtered along the horse trail. *** Last night, in the usual Thursday tradition, Rach was hanging out with Zake, Liz, and Steve-O. Good times were had just chillin', playing a drinking game, raving to some hardcore Darude, etc. THEN, Rach notices that she has a missed call from Mel Blais. Promptly, Rach returns this call to find out some most unexpected and startling news: her bestfriend is hanging out with her X boyfriend. WTF??? In her chipper, carefree, and way too drunk mood, Rach invites them on over. Suddenly, within minutes of disconnecting the call, Rach realizes that this is a quite fucked up situation and calls Mel back. Hysterical at this point, Rach hands the phone off to Zake in hopes of making some sense of what is happening. As it turns out, one Destin Leeper is fleeing the state in fear for his life due to some crazy, Bithlonian rednecks. Mel happened to run into him at work and took him with her on a mad dash for some duct tape. So, Mel brings over this refugee who, as always, feeds Rach some incredibley retarded bullshit lines and excuses. In her drunk stage, Rach eats this shit with a spoon and of course, wants this loser to come home with her so she can watch out for him and help him out. Then, she takes one look at her friends, huddled together a few feet away, standing outside in the freezing cold at 4 am, all for her, for the soul purpose of being there for HER. She lets this guy drive her home seeing as how she is far too intoxicated to do it herself. Mel follows close behind and retrieves the perp just as he exits the ride. Rach wakes up this morning with a sigh of relief that she is waking up alone. Current Mood: grateful Current Music: puddle of mud - blurry (Comment on this)
Monday, January 16th, 2006
10:24 pm	computers, hypocrites, and pedophiles... My computer was apparently struck by lightening seeing as how it refused to turn on after a freak thunderstorm on Friday. Fuck the weather! And FUCK Dell! Can't you bitches have a fucking store where I can take my stupid comp so one of your "experts: can fix it rather than having me sit on the phone for 3 fucking hours with one of your Indian, I speaky very little English, techs! And why the fuck do you insist upon outsourcing your damn calls to these people anyways! What a great fucking idea: Lets transfer angry Americans, most of whom are severely racist, with high tech computer problems to people who can't speak any fucking English! It'll be tons of shits and giggles! After 3 hrs of troubleshooting w/ soft & hardware depts they tell me I need a restoration CD which did not come w/ my system. Sales was not open over the weekend & prob won't be tomorrow either (MLK). $105.95 to tolerate Abu sounding motherfuckers who could not help me. Fuk-ov! As I've already stated on my myspace blog, there are several people that are on my shit list. It's taken a lot to not put their shit on blast. I'm just about done with holding back. Of course now, it's just kind of pointless seeing as how the main player in the game already knows the strategy and then some. Sometimes, I underestimate people. On a different note, though none the less shittier, my aunt told me she saw my X w/ his big bellied 16 yr old girlfriend. WTF! Why is he not sitting in prison somewhere w/ a big, black cock in his ass?!? If I had gotten knocked up that young I would (1) be having an abortion AND (2) be watching my father as he beat the living shit out of the dick that did it to me! (OH! Wait! My dad did beat the living shit out of him! I was never knocked up, but just the act that makes you that way was enough for him! ah, regrets, regrets, regrets!) Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: eminem/nate dogg - shake that ass (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 10th, 2006
2:23 am	Back again, A new beginning.... So, the situation that occured last month that made me stop writing in LJ was a complete misunderstanding that was resolved later that evening. However, I have just continued to boycot writing for the past few weeks for whatever reason. I suppose for my sanity, I should keep this thing up for the sole purpose of venting. I really don't have much at the moment. Just wanted to put in an entry that informs I have returned. Blah, blah, blah.... yadi, yadi, yadi... Until I have something worthwhile. Current Mood: dirty (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 22nd, 2005
10:50 pm	The End Due to recent events, I am done with LJ. To all the mother fuckers who read it and decided to spread the business of my life to everyone they know, fuck you. You sick bitches can now find better things to do with your pathetic lives. (1 Comment |Comment on this)