Well, I've got this thing working. I've adjusted a few things, but if it ends up being too hard for some to read, please let me know and I will change it.
Now that, that's out of the way.. I've been working more and more. At the bar, of course. We get some weird customers in there *shakes head* ...and trying to fix up Midgar more, with some others around here. I guess there is a group of people starting a "Help Midgar" program or something. I've been taking care of Marlene a bit more too. It's quite a hassle with all of this stuff and I don't really have time for myself. But finally, I have a small break. Which is why I am posting here. Although, I should be getting to bed. I haven't seen Cloud or anyone lately either. Usually, Cloud would stop here in the mornings and say hi to me and Marlene, as well as whoever else was around that he knew too. But...he's just stopped coming. I worry about that boy sometimes.
I've also been thinking about stopping by the church where Aeris used to be. I have been having dreams about her death over and over again, except that sometimes the dream rewinds it self. I don't know if that makes any sense, but I see it happen backwards. And in the end, her eyes open and sparkle green, and she smiles at me. It's almost an evil smirk. I don't quite get it, but it makes me curious. If only I had the time to stop by...
I know some people thought I was really jealous of Aeris, but really, I only just envied her a little. She became so close to everyone. Innocent and nice, her beautiful green eyes were always shining with love for everyone. I wished I could be like that... And I still feel bad, wishing I could tell everyone that I wasn't heartless and I did care. I hope, and wish, the others understood. I often sware when her death occured, that I could feel the eyes of everyone else boring holes into my skin. I know I felt jealousy when she went on that date with Cloud. But, I was over with it as quickly as it started.
Wow, I'm sorry, I don't really know what got me on that tangent. I'll end that now.
( To Cloud... if you're around.Collapse )