it can't rain all the time

Mad

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 23:48:53 GMT

I was really mad at something today.
But it went away quickely.
Maybe that was yesterday?
I don't really remember.
I don't stay mad for long periods of time anymore.
I'm kind of stuck in this stagnant period of overwhelming joy.
I don't know what brought this upon though.
If you have any idea, I'd love to know.

Raisins

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 00:38:41 GMT

JUST IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING! IT IS PERFECTLY ACCEPTABLE TO PUT RAISINS IN EL MICRO. THAT IS ALL.

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 00:33:25 GMT

is it bad to put raisins in the microwave?!

does anyone know if there is any good TV on tonight?

i'm in the mood to loose some brain cells.

Quizzzzzing it up.

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 00:21:08 GMT

100 THiNGS....
[1*] First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Torak I think?
[2*] Last word you said: stupid (to myself)
[3*] Last song you sang: I'm Still Hurting - last five years
[5*] Last thing you laughed at: myself
[6*] Last time you said I dont remember: question 1
[7*] Last time you cried: i odn't remember.

[*PRESENT*]

[9*] What color socks are you wearing: none
[10*] What's under your bed: a box of stuffed animals
[11*] What time did you wake up today: 6 30
[12*' Current taste: green tea
[13*] Current hair: brown and half up half down
[15*] Current annoyance: my sickness
[16*] Current longing: for it to be friday
[17*] Current desktop background: a greenish screen
[18*] Current worry: that i got a bad grade on my bio test
[19*] Current hate: nothing!
[20*] Current favorite article of clothing: my black sweatshirt from H&M
[21*] Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex: eyes
[22*] Last CD that you listened to: the shins
[23*] Favorite place to be: in bed
[24*] Least favorite place: the dentist
[25*] Time you wake up in the morning: 630
[26*] If you could play an instrument, what would you play: acoustic guitar
[27*] Favorite color: orange
[28*] Do you believe in an afterlife: not sure
[29*] How tall are you: 5'9 ish
[30*] Current favorite word/saying: elusive
[31*] Favorite book: naked lunch!
[32*] Favorite season: fall
[33*] One person from your past you wish you could go back to see/help: my grandpa.

[*FUTURE*]

[35*] Where do you want to go for university?: UCLA
[36*] What is your career going to be like: journalist?
[37*] How many kids do you want: yeck none.

[*HAVE YOU EVER...*]

[39*] Said "I love you" and meant it: yes
[40*] Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish: yes. i yelled at poor muff puff.
[41*] Been to New York: of course!
[42*] Been to Florida: yeah!
[43*] Been to California: no but next year
[44*] Been to Hawaii: yeah
[45*] Been to Mexico: yeah
[46*] Been to China: i wish
[48*] Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: YES george almost dying/fainting

[49*, 50* and 51*] Seem to be missing?? ok...

[*RANDOM*]

[52*] Do you have a crush on someone: sure
[53*] What book are you reading now?: the cherry orchard
[54*] Worst feeling in the world: monotony
[55*] What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: did i finish my homework
[56*] How many rings before you answer: three
[57*] Future daughter's name: no daughter. but piper is pretty
[58*] Future son's name: holden
[59*] Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no i have my dog
[60*] If you could have any job you wanted: crime scene investigator
[61*] Where you wish you were: in bed
[62*] College plans: to go?
[63*] Piercings: 4 in one ear 3 in the other

[*THE EXTRA STUFF*]

[64*] Do you do drugs: no
[65*] Do you drink: no
[67*] What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: whatever is there
[68*] What are you most scared of: failing
[69*] What clothes do you sleep in: pj pants and a tshirt
[70*] Who is the last person that called you: chris
[71*] Where do you want to get married: never going to happen. but nantucket would be nice.
[72*] If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: i was more motivated
[73*] Who do you really hate: eh. bad people?
[74*] Been In Love: no
[75*] Are you timely or always late: always late
[76*] Do you have a job: no
[77*] Do you like being around people: yes
[78*] Best feeling in the world: being in bed.
[79*] Are you for world peace: yep
[80*] Are you a health freak: depends on what it is
[81*] Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: nope
[82*] Do you want someone you don't have?: yes. jared leto <333333333
[83*] Are you lonely right now: nope
[84*] Ever afraid you'll never get married: i don't want to get married.
[86*] Do you want kids? NO you already asked me this

[*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...*]

[87*] Cried: no
[88*] Bought Something: yep
[89*] Gotten Sick: yes. i am quite fevorious.
[90*] Sang: duh
[91*] Said I Love You: of course!
[92*] Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: of course. i love feeling loved
[93*] Met Someone: yeah
[94*] Moved On: no?
[95*] Talked To Someone: yeah
[96*] Had A Serious Talk: lol me? never
[97*] Missed Someone: yup
[98*] Hugged Someone: OF COURSE
[100*] Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: no, sorry.

well.
that was a waste of time.
but i had fun!
i love doing quizes

Boring

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 02:39:40 GMT

I'm playing this game with my friends and I've realized that I am boring.
Wow.
Fevers really clear the mind.

OH god.

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 00:02:53 GMT

In my feverish state I've come to a completely shocking revelation.

I've kind of figured this for a while

But I've been sure like I am now.
Oh crap and a half.
Too bad I can't tell anyone at all.

Sleeo.

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 23:46:35 GMT

I've been sleeping ever since I got home.
All I dreamt about was sitting inside the school cafeteria and it being Liz's birthday and the chef's from Mount Fuji coming in with all these rice bowls and soy sauce.
I'm delusional.
I think I'm really sick.
I have a fever and my mind is completely void.
So if there are a lot of typo's and errors and thoughts that don't make sense, it's due to the fact I'm sick.
I love being sick.
I love sitting around and staring at things and having a fever morph them into other things.
And when colors randomly go through the air.
Once when I had a fever I thought I was stuck on Mario Cart the video game and I kept falling off the edge of rainbow road.
Another time I was watchign this Melissa Joan Hart movie and I felt like I was shipwrecked and floating on a raft with her and the rest of the cast (which was the plot of the movie.)
My back is really itchy.
I'm realllllllly tired.
I want some ice cream.
It always makes me happy when I'm sick.
I also dreamt about scratching my back which is so weird.
That is all.

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 20:11:54 GMT

Being Rebels.

Cait all decked out in her autumn sweatshirt.

I have my new gloves on and I am ready to trespass!

I dunno what shes doing.

Taking in the lovely scenery.

Standing around being awkward.

So cool.

Such a Franklin Lakes street name.

An old man in this car was stalking us.

Running away from said old man.

Close up on Cait

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA.

Dazed and confused.

I dunno.

HAHAHAH.

We're pretty shady.

Sooo, all in all Cait and I basically terrorized the FL neighborhood.

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 17:25:08 GMT

So yesterday was the crappiest day in such a long time.
I got hit in the head by a peice of candy that one of the footballers threw.
It was so embarrassing.
And it hurt pretty bad.
Then everyone in my biology class was making fun of me because I couldn't arm wrestle Lisa.
She did it with her left hand and I still couldn't beat her and all the boys laughed at me.
I was embarassed.
Then something else happened but I don't remember.
So it really wasn't that bad but I just like making big deals out of nothing.
Tomorrow I'm so excited because I'm going to see the Matisse exhibit.
I love art.
So last night I was grounded (for real adam and mike) because I was mean to my mother.
But I think I needed to just sit in my house for a while.
I watched Meet the Fockers which was horrible.
I think there are fireworks tonight at Franklin Lakes Day.
I don't know if I'm going though?
I think I'm meeting Luci at five but then I may go elsewhere afterwards.
These weekends seem to fly by.
It feels so wintry outside.
It's freezing.
I'm going on a walk with Caitlin soon and I'm muchos excited.
Who knows who we'll meet up with.

Sooo it's Thursday.

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 20:46:54 GMT

Yesterday was quite annoying actually.
My mom got pissed off at me.
I had to walk all the way home from Ramapo which is like, two miles.
But of course, my favorite neighbor Ben tried to save me from walking.
Which reminds me I have to visit him at Three Chicas.
For the longest time I thought he worked at Blue Moon, but this isn't really pertinent.
So I'm part of this Student Activity Counsel thing?
And Mr. Meyer like, hates me.
He kept interrupting me when I was trying to talk.
Jerk.
But I think I want to plan a carnival because who doesn't love them?!
My feet hurt sooo bad from running yesterday.
I didn't wear sneakers *I know I'm an idiot!* but my Birkenstocks.
That fuckin hurt.
During math my teacher told me I was smart.
I got really excited because she always asks me if I understand what were doing.
JUST BECAUSE I DON'T TALK DOESN'T MEAN I DON'T UNDERSTAND.
Jesus.
I'm still listening to the exact same Postal Service song from two days ago.
It's just soooo good.
I love it.
I had the best mocha chip frapp today!
OMGGGG it was amazing and a half.
After school I hung out with Caitlin and Alexis.
It was pretty awesome.
I think I'm grounded this Friday *ohhhhh shiat*.
Corpse Bride is coming out tomorrow!!!!!
Feck yeahh.
It smells like Nantucket in my house!!!!

Comment and leave me looooooove.

So I'm boring?

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 01:07:14 GMT

i'm quite a boring person.
all i've been doing tonight is sitting at the computer.
sure i went running and stuff, but i mean come on, two hours on the computer?
today some one asked me why i hate the phone.
i really don't know.
i'm weird like that i guess.
the phone has always seemed so, i don't know, weird to me.
but anyways i think i'm allergic to water.
but whatever.
so i've been sitting here listening to the same postal service song over and over again.
i just bombed an english quiz.
and of course, since my friend who's mom is best friends with mine looked at her daughters grades my mom wants to see mine.
crap.
what the hell am i going to do with rhetoric terms anyway?
what the hell!
i want to be an actress.
i want to get the hell out of ramapo.
it's turning into a jail.
thank god somethings are good tho.
ugh.
fuck.

Quiz thing.

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 22:08:48 GMT

--Goth--
Do you wear black eyeliner?: Sometimes, but not much.
How much black clothing do you own?: A lot? I like black.
Do you think about death often?: No.
Do you want to die? Not now or soon, like, when i'm 85
Are you a social outcast?: no
Are you pale?: I'm cuban! I never get pale
Do you cut?: No
Do you like Hot Topic?: Ha, I used to. They have some sweet ass shoelaces though.

--Skater Punk--
Can you skateboard? Yep, I'm actually not that bad.
How often do you wear Vans?: Sometimes, my black and pink slip ons but they are getting pretty gross.
What's your sneaker brand?: Converse
Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?: Yepp.
How much do you get in trouble?: Not much?
Do you listen to the bands who are considered posers? No?
How many piercings do you have?: 7. but they're all on my ears? so i guess it doesn't count.

--Prep--
How often do you say the word "like"?: A lot.
Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: Nope
Are the A&F models hot?: Not my type?
How many purses do you own?: lk 2..lol
Is lipgloss a must?: No.
How often do you wear makeup?: Ha. Never.
Ever had a manicure?: Who hasn't?
Rock music is bad, right?: I love it.
Are you ever ditzy? From time to time.
Do you own high heels?: No, I'm already 5'9.
Have you ever said "Oh my gosh"? Oh my god, yes. but not oh my gosh.
Are you a cheerleader?: I was in 8th grade.

--Hippie--
Is your hair long?: Medium
Are you a vegetarian?: I wish, i just love hamburgers and steak too much.
Do you own a tye dye shirt?: Yeah
Do you want peace?: There is no peace with out war. But yeah, of course I want peace.
Do you want to save the animals?: I guess?
What do you think about war?: It's a necessary evil I guess.
Have you ever made a peace sign with your two fingers?: Of course! I was such a hippie back in the day.

--Gangsta--
Are you from the ghetto?: Pshhh yeah. No.
Do you own "bling bling"?: HAHA. Yeah. a g unit spinner.
What do you think about do-rags?: I don't really like them?
Do you like rap?: Eh.
How about hip-hop?: some of it's okay.
Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world? I've never heard tupac rap.
What do you think about afros?: they are funny.
Have you ever said 'fo shizzle'?: fo shizzle. G.

--Frat--
Is life a party?: Not really
How often do you get drunk?: Oh every second of every day.
Do you care about your grades?: They're pretty crap but I do care.
Do you need attitude adjustment?: No?

--Emo--
How often do you cry?: not often
Do you have an ex?: is that emo if i do?
Do you have an acoustic guitar?: i wish!
Are you emotional?: yeah, i'm not like, dead.
Do you like soft music?: i love it
Do people understand you?: my best friends do.
Do you write your own songs?: Nope.
Is your hair dyed dark?: It's naturally dark. like my soul. juuuuust kidding.

--Jock--
Do you play any sports?: Dance!
How important are they to you?:I love dance
How important is your reputation?: Since I don't have one, not that important
Do you pick on the geeky kids?: I am a geeky kid
What do you think about football?: If i had to play it i would get killed.
Are you considered a bully by anyone?: Oh yes.

--Geek--
Do you wear glasses?: Nope.
Do you get good grades? They're okay
Are you smart?: People say I am
Do you use an inhaler?: No
Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets?: no
Does your mom buy your clothes?: no
How often are you on the computer?: all the time
Do you get picked on?: No

This was a waste of my time.

Oh god.

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 00:36:50 GMT

You know sometimes you think everything is so right, and your completely happy with your desicions?
Yeah, well, I'm not.
What the fuck have I done.
I thought things would have been better this way.
I thought that I'd just be able to go about my way not caring.
But I do?
And that's suprising to me.
Because usually I can act without having a conscience.
But I believe I've made a huge mistake.
And I don't think it's reversible this time.
It's happened so many times before.
I was called out on what I was doing, but this time I just didn't care.
But now looking back on everything, I'm pretty fuckin mad at myself.
I'm really depressed tongiht.
Maybe it's because of last night and some weird revelations I came to.
Maybe it's what I've been doing lately again.
I swore to myself this wouldn't happen again.
I swore.
I'm a horrible person.
And yeah, this sounds really fuckin dramatic.
But I'm just really scared.
I need someone to talk to, but I don't know who I can.
I feel really empty?
It's weird.
I'm just having a horrible weekend.

Boreddd.

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 21:32:28 GMT

1. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
2. I will then tell what song and movie reminds me of you.
3. If you were a fruit you'd be...
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you.(or just a good one)
6. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.(or object)
7. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.

Huge Ass Quiz Stolen From Ron my love

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 22:31:55 GMT

What is your name?: Alexandra Jane Starzyk
Are you named after anyone?: Nope.
What's your screename?: cheap0sunglasses
Would you name a child of yours after you?: No, Alexandra is boring.
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: I don't know.
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: Jerky substitute teachers who can't read call me Alexander
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: No, I like my last name.

Basics
Your gender:: Femme.
Straight/Gay/Bi:: straight
Single?: Yes
If not, do you want to be?
Birthdate:: Sept 1, 1989
Your age:: 16
Age you act:: depends on who I'm with.
Age you wish you were:: I'm gooooood, kthanks.
Your height:: 5'9er
Eye color:: hazel but leaning to the blue side.
Happy with it?: Yeah.
Hair color:: Dark brown ish
Happy with it?: Yeah.
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: righty
Your living arrangement:: live with family
Your family:: brother jon, mother, father
Have any pets?: a dog named muffin.

Whats your job?: being jobless.
Piercings?: 3 holes in each ear plus cartilidge.
Tattoos?: no.
Obsessions?: nothing
Addictions?: nothing
Do you speak another language?: francais

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: Not really.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Eh, it depends on the day.
Do you have any secrets?: Yeppp
Do you hate yourself?: Everyone does once in a while.
Do you like your handwriting?: When I try really hard, yes.
Do you have any bad habits?: Not really.
What's your biggest fear?: That everyone hates me
Can you sing?: As well as the next person
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: no.
Are you a loner?: Nope
What are your #1 priorities in life?: Happiness I guess?
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Maybe but I can get pretty boring/annoying.
Are you a daredevil?: Are you kidding?
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: of course.
Are you passive or agressive?: Eh, I'm pretty chill and I let everything including important things slide. I'm pretty extremely passive.
Do you have a journal?: yes
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: strength. When people are being mean about my friends I bitch them out. ::::weakness....I care too much about people/what they think.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: There are a lot of things.

Do you think you are emotionally strong?: Yeah
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: Yeah, a lot of things. I just can't "forget regret", it's not in my personality.
Do you think life has been good so far?: Yeah.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Don't let people make fun of what you believe in
Are you perceived wrongly? I'm really not sure?

Do You...
Smoke?: Nope
Do drugs?: Well I'm no addict.
Read the newspaper?: Yep
Pray?: Sometimes. I wish more than I pray.
Go to church?: no
Talk to strangers who IM you?: Ha, yeah.
Take walks in the rain?: yes
Talk to people even though you hate them?: Yep b/c I don't hate people for very long.
Drive?: Yep
Like to drive fast?: yes

Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: I can't really hear it. I like my speaking voice though.
Hurt yourself?: Who hasn't whether it be intentional or not.
Been out of the country?: yes

Eaten something that made other people sick?: i drank something i thought would make me throw up cuz i didn't want to go to school. it didn't work tho.
Been in love?: no
Gone skinny dipping?: yep
Had a medical emergency?: I dunno.
Had surgery?: No
Ran away from home?: Haha, to asia's house when she wasn't home
Played strip poker?: no
Gotten beaten up?: i got punched in the face when i was in third grade
Beaten someone up?: no
Been picked on?: not really. no one really notices me.

Been on stage?: yes
Slept outdoors?: yes
Thought about suicide?: who hasn't?
Pulled an all nighter?: yeah definitely
If yes, what is your record?: i dunno
Gone one day without food?: yup
Talked on the phone all night?: i fuckin hate the phone
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: no
Slept all day?: yes
Killed someone?: no you idiot
Made out with a stranger?: no
Had sex with a stranger?: no
Thought you're going crazy?: who hasn't thought this?
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
Been betrayed?: Yes.
Had a dream that came true?: if you mean deja vu yeah. but otherwise not really.
Broken the law?: of course!
Met a famous person?: yup
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: no
On purpose?: no you idiot.
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: nope. almost a few times. but i didn't.
Stolen anything?: yeah, once AGAIN who hasn't?
Been on radio/tv?:no
Been in a mosh-pit?: no
Had a nervous breakdown?: haha. yeahhh
Bungee jumped?: no
Had a dream that kept coming back?: of course

Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: of course. if earth was the only planet, it'd just be really lonely.
Miracles?: i'm an optimist that way
Astrology?: sometimes
Magic?: not really
God?: something/someone is up there/around here
Satan?: maybe
Santa?: who doesnt?!
Ghosts?: yeahhhh
Luck?: yeah
Love at first sight?: yeah
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: yes
Witches?: yeah
Easter bunny?: wtf? no

Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: there's so much in the world its impossible
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: no
Do you wish on stars?: yeahhhhh, not that proud of that one.

Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: no
Do you think God has a gender?: no
Do you believe in organized religion?: not really.
Where do you think we go when we die?: we don't go anywhere.

Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: will that make me a better person?
Who is your best friend?: i have some people.
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: liz luci darian asia kaitlin alexis caitlin rachel christie randomly haha.

What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: a certain thing is there for a reason and i'm just gunna have to get used to it.(tough love from ron) annd anything's possible from lizzzzz
Your favourite inside joke?: i can't realyl think of any. "they're protective but not overprotective" "darian's a fat horse" "flinging floosies (oldie but goodie)" "harry and ron" "sex and the city" "bridge my anti drug"
Thing you're picked on most about?: well i always complain about when poeple call me cute so my friends always call me cute. the bastards.

Who's your longest known friend?: alexis and asia.
Newest?: nicole! i met her a few days ago!
Shyest?: depends on the situation.
Funniest?:They are all really funny.
Sweetest?: Alexis, Caitlin, Darian, Luci and Liz (from time to time)
Closest?: liz luci darian asia kaitlin alexis caitlin lauren
Weirdest?: we're all pretty fuckin' weird. thats why we all get along.
Smartest?: they're all smart in our dif. ways.
Ditziest?: beachster
Friends you miss being close to the most?: My Ron and Ashie. But me and Ron are doing a dance together about evolution and I tell Lisa to tell Ashie I love her everyday. And we're starting a billy idol cover bandddd.
Last person you talked to online?: Pettoni!
Who do you talk to most online?: Alexis, Brian Keane randomly. Liz
Who are you on the phone with most?: Lizzz
Who do you trust most?: Liz Luc Lex Dar Dar Adam Cait Laur Kaitlin P and Asia. hahah looooong list.
Who listens to your problems?: Liz Luci and Dar cuz i see them everyday and I complain to them EVERYDAY.
Who do you fight most with?: no one
Who's the nicest?: They are all nice people
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: Ohh yes
Who's your second family?: it depends, mrs petersen loves me, the stiers love me, the tsubotas, and the strauss's
Do you always feel understood?: With Liz randomly yea
Who's the loudest friend?: all of um.
Do you trust others easily?: Not really
Who's house were you last at?: dar's... of course.
Who were you last with: liz my prom date and chrissie
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: i don't like to touch people (hahahahhahahahahah)
Do your friends know you?: yup
Friend that lives farthest away:: cruise people

Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: I dunno.
What do you find romantic?: I don't know/care.
Turn-on?: Hugs : )
Turn-off?: People who touch mah stomach
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel: suprised. haha.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: know them before
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: dun't care
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: yeeeep
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: they find me kinda cute sometiems
What is best about the opposite sex?: they are fun!
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: they are horny bastards!
Are you in love?: no

Who Was the Last Person...
You wanted to kill?: mike. callahan.
That you laughed at?: pettoni b/c of soemthing he said online
That laughed at you?: alexissssssssssss
That turned you on?: mmmm everyone i see
You went shopping with?: liz luci adam and darian
To disappoint you?: none of my palsie's are disappointing.
To ask you out? ummmmmmmmm no one
You saw a movie with?: everybody at liz's on friday,like a million poeple.
You talked to on the phone?: momma
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: alexis?
You saw?: chris liz and annette
You lost?: no one.

Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: yes!
Will it be with your significant other?: i have no significant other.
Or some random person?: no.
What are you wearing right now?: my ramones shirt really gross pants that are tight, a funky belt and my cons.
Body part you're touching right now: my hip bone
What are you worried about right now?: friday, so many fuckin tests
What book are you reading?: wicked
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: fuckin annoyed at this quiz
Are you bored?: yessssss
Are you tired?: yes
Are you talking to anyone online?: yes
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: no
Are you lonely or content?: content!
Are you listening to music?: the thunder outside!

First Weekend

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 16:31:40 GMT

Okay.
I feel so sick.
I just ate the grossest thing ever and it's like, coating my stomach.
I woke up this morning with my ipod headphones around my neck.
It was pretty weird.
I had indentations from where the wires were tightly wrapped.
It was scary considering I watched Se7en last night.
Last night was so much fun.
A whole group of people went over to Liz's house for what was supposed to be a scary movie night.
Well, we only had one movie.
And it wasn't even that scary.
But whatever.
It was fun anyways.
Ugh.
I got my first "See Me" in like, four years written on the bottom of my stupid history paper.
I read some stupid question wrong and answered the opposite of what it was asking.
History this year is so boring and goes by so slowly.
As does math and biology.
Lunch goes by way too fast.
I can't believe I'm back in school.

Day Two

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 20:39:45 GMT

Well, the person I thought hated me doesn't which is good.
Today was just so weird.
I want to go back to my old classes.
I miss having Asia in math.
My mom called the driving school!!!!!!!!!
I'm so excited.
After school today me Lex and Cait cleaned out the acadec file cabinet.
Tomorrow is friday!
Can you believe it?!
I think we should always have a three day week.
I can't wait for October b/c of all the random days we have off.
I felt like I was having a heart attack today.
It was scary.
But I wasn't so whatever.
I hate my last period study hall.
Study halls suck.
I saw Mr. Wasserman in the hallway today and I was like "WASSY! HOW THE HELL ARE YOU?!"
And he smiled and said good good and invited me to come visit his classroom.
Maybe he doesn't hate me as much as I thought he did.
I need some extra curricular activities to start because I am bored at home.
My english teacher Mrs. Whaley went to NYU for undergrad and grad work for english.
This is completely awesome because that is exactly what I want to do.
That or criminal pyschology.
But whatever.
I really just want to go to NYU.

First Day of School.

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 23:26:36 GMT

Well today was interesting.
I didn't know what I expected really.
I'm happy about my UP classes, but Samarro was exactly like frosh year minus the fighting.
One unnamed person really seems to hate me this year.
The problem is I didn't do anything to her.
Whatever.
Ugh.
Stef and I have such a bad studyhall.
I want to switch out and take Asian Civ.
My biology class is a complete mess.
It's a helluva lot better than wassy.
Then again, anything would be better than that.
Lunch was weird today.
I kind of missed Luci and stuff.
Well, a lot.
But whatever.
Tomorrow we have Burkheiser.
Should be muchos interesting.
I have no plans for this weekend, anyone wanna chillaxe?
I can't believe I had homework tonight.
I miss summer already.

Oh NO!

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 14:28:37 GMT

So I kind of want school to start.
I know, I know, I just wrote that I was excited and couldn't wait to go back but now I'm not sure.
Sure, I'll be happy seeing my friend I haven't seen in a while.
But still, this summer has be so nice lately.
I'm really not looking forward to some of my teachers.
Some I am.
Like having Samarro everyday will be fun.
But others I need a break from, already.
I hope I can go on vacation in February.
I know I keep saying this but time has been flying so fast lately.
I can't believe I'm a junior in high school.
I remember when I thought I was old when I was in fifth grade.
Now I know that I never appreciated what I had when I was younger.
I've always been in this immense hurry to grow up.
Now that I'm almost there, I don't like it so much.
I miss the days when my parents weren't screaming at me for doing things.
I miss not having Jon home all year round.
I miss a lot of stuff from my childhood.
But I guess thats a part of growing up?
I dunno.

Wyckoff Fireworks and Such

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 15:46:09 GMT

Well last night was the social event of Wyckoff, the labor day fireworks.

They were actually quite fun.

Well, I've never been one for fireworks, once you seen one, you've seen them all.

(Except if it's at a certain Green Day Concert.)

I saw tons of people I haven't seen in a really long time.

I'm happy b/c Laurel is in my English class and I don't know anyone else in it.

But I'm happy b/c we haven't seen each other in forever.

And hanging out at Dar's last night bashing people with her mom was so funny.

I got to see Chrissie and that also made me happy.

I'm way too happy lately.

But tonight I'm not doing a thing b/c everyone is out so that sucks.

Hahaha.

My neighbor came along to Price Club with us yesterday and he told my brother I should wash my sweatshirt.

Not because I'm dirty, because it smelled like pot.

Ohhhhh lordy.

Hmm.

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 16:16:09 GMT

Well today is the last Saturday of summer.

I'm going to miss these lazy days.

But seriously, bring on school.

I think everyone is ready to go back.

Well, no, Luci isn't but whatever.

Last night I went to a BBQ at Scott's house and then cheered up Dar Dar.

I'm so sorry Dar.

I'm a horrible person to have around at times of saddness.

I always end up saying the wrong things.

Last night I did the scariest thing in my life.

There's this wooden path through the forest near my house and its really long and scary.

Well yesterday I walked down in, and it's steep and has all these twists and turns, in the fuckin dark.

I'm shocked I'm not dead.

So scary.

My Birthday

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 22:02:38 GMT

I SAW BILLIE JOE!

OMG I love him.

Luci is the best for getting me tickets!!!!!

And Liz and Dar are the best for coming.

Thanks so much for all the calls and IMS and such.

I love my friends so much.

BUT I SAW BILLIE JOE!

He is so cute.

He made a really cute face and I fell in love with him.

Again.

He's amazing live.

Ughhh I wish he wasn't married.

Bad Week

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 16:00:21 GMT

So this may turn out to be one of the worst weeks ever.

I feel absolutely disgusting and everything around me just doesn't feel like it should.

But whatever.

My birthday is coming up soon. Thursday actually.

Yay I guess?

It's really hot in my house.

And I feel like I'm about to throw up.

It doesn't help that my moms being exceptionally mean to me.

And I can't sleep.

Still.

Friday Afternoon Wasted

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 21:16:24 GMT

Well today has been a complete waste of my two fridays left in summer. Now only one Friday remains and I probably won't do anything then either.

Hopefully tonight won't be a complete waste. I was supposed to meet Luci for lunch at the ITC but I woke up like, ten minutes before I was supposed to go and I hadn't showered since our hot tubbing it up last night so I was in no appearence to go over and be judged by all the exactly like my mom ladies who do lunch there. So hopefully we can chill tomorrow SDawg??

Dar Liz and I will hopefully meet up some time tonight and take the FLOW area by storm. I just can't stand sitting with Muffin watching TV anymore. It's getting depressing.

S&TC Night

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 03:55:41 GMT

So today was majorly awesome. Well, not all of it. A lot was cleaning crap and stuff, so that majorly sucked.

But tonight me Dar Liz and Luci all finally got together after like, an entire summer of not seeing eachother all together and it was just so much fun. We themed the night sex and the city night b/c we are tools like that and love the show. Liz made cosmo's and we drank and ate fondue. It was so f*ing good. We then hit up Liz's light up hot tub for a fun time but I won't get into that. (Noo, it's nothing bad, just some of our conversations were a little, how do I put this, in depth and not public LJ material b/c a lot of people would be mad or embarassed) I'm so happy we finally got to have our shindig. I missed these girls so much this summer. Since Luci was away or at some tennis camp, Liz was at RSAC (haha.) and hawaii, and I just never really chill with Darian by ourselves (something we should start doing), I haven't seen them all alot.

Well tomorrow Liz Dar and I are going to go gallivanting around the lovely FLOW area in search for a crazy time. If you know of anything going down tomorrow, my cell's good. Orrr you can probably just spot us merrily on our way, so stop by and say hi!

I bought Burkenstocks for my bday today! YESSSS. I've always wanted these damn shoes and now I finally have them.

I have a feeling that this year is going to be amazing. I usually never have this feeling. But this summer has just be so fun that I think it'll carry on and make my junior year. I mean, sophmore year was quite probably the worst year of my life considering all the events that took place the summer before it. God. To think of the mass chaos summer was last year and now this practically perfect one.

I'm just so happy now.

You know what that means.

Something terrible is coming.

Or maybe this time I'll be lucky and things will be awesome.

You never know with me.