so i'm pretty sure i've got bronchitis again, due to my throat being a huge hurty fail and my joints being like 'sorry can't move right now', and i'm working on a paper about crime and deviance right now and it just does not like me. but anyway, i've got some stuff sitting on my computer i'd figure i'd share with you guys, but i'm not even sure that i like it for the most part, and i'm not even sure if anyone reads this journal for the fandom anymore because i'm so rarely involved now that i've got a life.

uhhh but yeah this particular piece has been floating around on my laptop for at least 3 months and i only recently finished it. it's based off of a head-canon i have in which derby harrington (from Bully), son of rich oil tycoon harrington sr., gets abducted and held for ransom by faustin, and niko bellic of GTAIV fame gets landed with the stupid brat. i have a few random sections from it written up, and if anybody wants to see more after reading this horeshit that i'm not even sure i like, feel free to tell me.

( Fic under here )

so, life lately has just been a little bit bizarre.
things:

1) got into a car accident, oddly enough. completely not my fault, some guy backed into my car at a 4-way stop like a dumbshit.
2) i have like 6 guys interested in me. halp.
3) i am so completely obsessed with team fortress 2 and left 4 dead 1+2 right now. i want a 360 for christmas. :) and i'mma buy the orange box for my ps3 so i don't have to pay for the online. yeeee. :D
4) i saw new moon. actually so good. also, jacob's fail wipeage at bella's blood with a t-shirt = loloolol. and he got hella cockblocked.

anyway, that's all. expect some L4D fanfic from meee. <3

i now have a real life ot3.
taryn, tekarra and kyle.
<3

the whole concept of the CSI trilogy is bugging me. i mean, why in god's name would they send langston, the lowest of the levels in the vegas lab to go investigate something in both miami and new york. i know he's emotionally invested, but wouldn't they be like 'fuck that, send catherine or nick'. it's sort of stupid and i know that it's because he's the main character, but a lot of shit just does not make sense. also, how he was magically able to ride a dirt bike? looooool. morpheous, you fuck.

i would definitely say in certain cases, it can be instant, mainly with sexual attraction rather than being in love with a person instantly. it has to evolve in order to become more, though, or you get stuck in a trap because you don't trust the person you're around.

i've given a dumb boy three chances before, and i regret every step of the way. i'm never turning back unless i have a better reason than boredom or loneliness, and only if the fuck really deserves it.

not fallen in love, but wanted, maybe.

after last weekend i'm going to hell in a hand basket. and my friend thomas just got let down by the guy he liked, even though i warned him that colin didn't like him that way (aka is interested in the idiot that drove drunk and killed my uncle, austin (who was my age, weird family) and one of my best friends, higgins). why are people the way that they are?

GUYS csi trilogy mondayyyyy omg
all three csis? i could do without horatio but i really really hope there is a scene with greg in which he meets the guy who looks EXACTLY LIKE HIM from miami and it's like 'whoa'. but i'm pretty psyched either way. let's get some nick/greg up in hurrrrrrrr. they're trying to set up nick with this bitchy girlfriend this season and ME NO LIKE. they did that with warrick and then he like peaced out and DIED.

so i may have just pissed off one of my best friends by having semi-drunken threesome activities in her basement at a party. i feel like shit about it, honestly, i do, but it was my male best friend and a girl i am so attracted to it's hard to feel that guilty about it. i just feel more like i broke her trust but sdnfjkkkkkkkk i just don't how how to apologize to her.

sighhhh. why are people so stupid and sexy when they're drunk.

went skating tonight. i hurt sooo bad but it was so fun. and i'm pretty sure that my friend ben wants me, due to the fact that he dragged me all around the rink so fast i would fall right into him, and he stuck by me the entire time even though i fail at skating and he is a super experienced skater.

sighhhh hahaha.

but yeah, getting really drunk tomorrow night. wooooo. work tomorrow morning though, blegh. no, this isn't a very interesting entry, but then again, are any of mine? rofl.

brown eyed girls are my fav. miryo is so hot.

dumped the fuck buddy.

sigh sigh sigh.

hideo kojima, stephanie meyer's number one fan.

suddenly life makes sense.

so, does vamp ~*dazzle*~ you?

it's halloween.

get crunk guys.

i know i'm going to.

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also, halloween is coming up soon! i am a musketeer. one of the three musketeers? do i have two other ones? no. ONE FOR ALL AND ALL FOR ME!

sometimes i really hate men and sometimes i really love their dicks.

so fuckbuddy is still good friends with the last girl he dated (who he may or may not have broken up for to get with meeee, hahah), and she still wants him, bad. so basically we went through a roughish spot and i was like 'dude, do you still like her'? and he was like 'well, i just feel like we're missing out on the emotional thing and blah blah blah'. apparently he fails at understanding what a fuckbuddy is? looool why do i always end up wearing the pants. anyway, we're going to attempt the fucking + emotions thing, which is what he wants, but that usually ends poorly on both ends. we'll see howww that goes. and i have a bruise the shape of his seatbelt in my shoulder. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

anyway my mummy is gone for the weekend so i'm going to attempt another freak fest. hahahaha.

got really high last night.
somehow wound up with 2 phones in my boots.

...

hahahaha.

DAYS:

liking it more than re:com? yes
making me ship akuroku again? yes
making me ship larxene/demyx HARDER THAN A COCK OF ROCK? FUCK YES.

ex boyfriend,

go away. you're a douchebag.

not so nicely,
taryn

sorry fuckbuddy this is not blowjob week.
lolololol.

tonight i had sex on my kitchen table

and the counter

jack's office

piano bench

piano

couch

floor

bedroom

couch again.


...good night

i only vaguely remember what happened last night, except for some kid puking in the bathtub while i sat on the bathroom counter, but i have three broken nails, bruises on my knees (from colin dropping me on the ground while we were piggybacking), and watching kyle go off on a drunken solo jaunt in the woods. also, drunk texts from jon, and we're hanging out tonight. i think he's getting attached.

it's 3:30 and i'm still relatively hung over. hahaha. also, some kid named michael is enamoured with me and sent me this email:

even if you don't have texting anymore, I can still see if the email on your profile works ;-)

random question: you still work at Timmy's?

btw: if you're still on when you get this, depending on whether you're in town or at home, I'm going to be having dinner at Timmy's around 4 if you'd like to give me some company :-) lol if not, whatever, there's always another time lol

Michael

i lied and told him that i smoked too much pot so my parents took away my phone. boldfaced lie, i just got a new blackberry pearl flip and he's seen it. but he's asked me out every day for the last few days, and even though jon's just a fuck buddy, i think i'll pass him off as my boyfriend to make this freak go away. (i've never even talked to this michael in real life. he just used to stare at me in class like some voyeuristic pig.)

anyhow, such is the life.

how is everyone else? i haven't been keeping up with the internet as much as i should.