My break has been weird so far. Some days have been good, some bad. I've been with Evan for most of it, which has been fun, but I don't know. We've done alot of fun things like going to the drive-in and to the Death Cab For Cutie concert, but today he mentioned that he missed his friends alot. I guess he's right, we both kind of need to hang out with our friends more. It just sucks because he has alot of friends that live right by him that are always free to hang out. All of my friends live way on the other side of the city, and I don't drive and either do they. And it seems like even when someone can hang out, shit just gets screwed up, like I get ditched or something. I don't really have many options, or at least I feel like I don't. I attempt to hang out with people, especially my old friends who I really miss, but it feels like no one wants to hang out.
I've been trying to get Sydney to hang out FOREVER and she won't. She's just too busy with Josh and it sucks so bad. I miss both Hannah and Sydney. But, at least I see and talk to Hannah at school. I never even talk to Syd anymore. I try, I really do, but it just seems like she doesn't care as much as I do. And it sucks. I miss the girl. She hasn't spent the night since the summer. She used to practically live at my house. The past few times we've hung out within the last like 9 months I've gone to her house and it was either me, her, and Josh, or me and her and our boyfriends. Which is fun most of the time, but I miss hanging out with just her and talking and stuff. I've invited her over 230958450968 times and it never works..I dont know what else to do. She was supposed to spend the night the night before the Death Cab concert, but it didn't work out and now she's supposed to spend the night tomorrow night, but who knows what'll happen.
Tonight, Evan's going out with his friends and Erica and Hannah are supposed to spend the night. If all works out, it should be fun. I miss Hannah spending the night like crazy, so it should be cool. I think I really just need to hang out with friends other then my boyfriend right now. I mean, he's such a great guy, he really is. He's one of my best friends in the world and I tell him everything and I know I can trust him with anything. He can always make me smile and feel better and he's always there to talk to, but right now, I just need a girl to talk to and hang out with.
Wow..I haven't made an update this long in a while. I guess I just needed to let this all out somewhere. Well, hopefully tonight should be good. Peacenlove<3