Below are the most recent 17 friends' journal entries.

Friday, August 29th, 2008
laurenloveless	2:38p	i love this game. going away for the weekend. i need this. my head is so cloudy. i wish i had the answers. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 28th, 2008
laurenloveless	10:36a	for the first time in a long time, i feel really happy &excited about something. oh how i hope this feeling lasts. 'you're the light wiping out my batteries. you're the cream in my airport coffees' (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 26th, 2008
kaylyssa	10:58a	MY APT!!!!!! Okay we finally finished the living and dining rooms. I need more pictures for one wall but it's pretty much done. It'd also be nice to have a cooler coffee table. Anyway. I took some pictures but they are shitty and blurry. It's a dim rainy day. It is SO MUCH brighter in here even on a dim day than with the green. But first, here I am riding off to my first day of school. My mom picked me up from it so now my bike is in the flash flood outside :( damn it HAHAHAHA! "BYE, MOM!" ( more like interior dickorating ) (25 Comments |Comment on this)
laurenloveless	10:09a	how adorable is rayden? ♥ (Comment on this)
Monday, August 25th, 2008
laurenloveless	9:03p	i'm sorting out my secrets. i'm hoping everythings not lost. (Comment on this)
kaylyssa	7:33p	Disaster Oh my God my French professor left us (to teach third-graders immersion French), and WE had a NEW LADY! I walked into class and blurted out, "Where's Miss Galvagni?!" like it was elementary school; later the new lady gave a little speech about "I know you liked Professor Galvagni but I hope that you will like me, too." She looks like the lady that gave me a C. The rest of school (including the rest of French class) was really good and stimulating. I had no speaking problems and I felt relatively comfortable in my human skin even wearing mom shorts and a bowl cut. Now I am trying to read a trillion essays so that I don't have any hdubs to do on my bday (TOMORROW!!!). (2 Comments |Comment on this)
kaylyssa	10:09a	Cold Feet Well it is almost time for me to leave for my first day of school. I'm nervous. Today I have contemporary lit, advanced expository writing, and french II. My schedule looks menacing: conlit exwrit french My mom is making me toast. I am riding my bike. I can't find my pencil case. I wish I had a long hair disguise but I have the shortest hair in the world! I'm so old! I wish I was taking math and biology. No matter what by the end of the day I will have familiar old french class: same notebook, same book, same teacher, same kids. My mother found my pencil case! Why am I a writing major!! I haaaate writing class and I don't want to goooo! I will go into med school science linguistics help help help Bon bon come to school with me (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 24th, 2008
captianmurphy	4:10p	grammatical degredation Why in the hell does Firefox's spell-check dictionary include contractions such as "outta" and "gonna"? Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: MIA - Paper Planes (1 Comment |Comment on this)
laurenloveless	1:02p	october, i need you. (Comment on this)
Friday, August 22nd, 2008
laurenloveless	1:10a	constant ; the ocean on my birthday. myself &alexis at the beach. [complete in jeans and hoodies] rayden reading. &hearts [[completion]] (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 20th, 2008
kaylyssa	11:45p	The law won't help me I'll help myself . A friend alerted me to this and was able to take a screen shot: Apparently, Justin Williams has come under the impression that because the state has decided not to go forward with a criminal case, that I am not going to prosecute in civil court either. He seems to think he has been tried and proved innocent, when in fact he was not even ever charged with a crime. He seems to think that he signed a restraining order today for fun, and that he will be received with tearful apologies back into our community. Interested parties may find this entry from my personal journal interesting, which I typed up from a handwritten list earlier this year and kept private until now. It is a list of "reasons I Should Break Up With Justin" that I wrote in September or October of 2007, a year and some change into our relationship. Horrifyingly, I was so brainwashed and battered that I kept referring desperately to that list all the time, as an anchor to a reality I no longer belonged to. Only a year of therapy, a lot of help from friends and family, and a bunch of awesome personal strength and smarts made that list real to me. It's real to me now. And unfortunately, it's not even the whole story; it is the barest skeleton of the horrible prison my spirit was kept in for a year and a half. I've also decided to make the entry I wrote the morning after the incident-in-question public again. I am an honest person and I have absolutely nothing to hide. Really, I am doing fine. I am not going to let this monster ruin my day to day life. Nobody can take my intelligence from me no matter how hard they try. I'm smart enough to get through this and be a successful person. But I have suffered. This is a Big Deal. Being in a relationship, if you can even call it that, with Justin Williams was the worst and most horrible thing that has ever happened to me. He took from me things I can never get back. He probably took my health from me, and he definitely took my sex life. He took the joy of meeting new people and falling in love and turned it into something terrifying. I will never be the same. He is not an innocent person. I am not the only woman he has injured, scared, manipulated, trapped, and hurt. He IS dangerous. Seriously: if you have ANY QUESTIONS, just ask me. (44 Comments |Comment on this)
laurenloveless	12:28p	secrets ; &hearts. i love this. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
kaylyssa	11:02a	Dates Brandon took me to see Pineapple Express last night. It was really funny. Lots of NC dudes are doing well in Hollywood and I am proud of them even if I do not know them. I was so upset yesterday that I forgot to do anything and now I have a lot of errands. Am I the only person in the country that does not pay her bills even though she has money to pay her bills? I have a lot of hospital envelopes I am afraid to open up but why does time warner cable have to suffer for it? After the movie we picked up Kara and met Robin and her date at the common market to play bananagrams. I only won a couple of times. Then we played picture sentence picture. I think as a whole my friends and I are working on being real people and also meeting new people that are better for us, which is why we can play word games now and then go home. vs (3 Comments |Comment on this)
laurenloveless	12:08a	My Avaline Say you'll be mine Won't you come and let me whisper in your ear Way down yonder in the old corn field For you I've pined Sweeter than the honey To the honey bee I love you Say you love me Meet me in the shade Of the old apple tree Eva-Iva-Ova-Avaline &hearts (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 19th, 2008
kaylyssa	2:11p	"Justice" The DA has decided not to prosecute. Edit: basically, in Mecklenburg county, since there are "so many" cases like this, the DA gets to pick and choose which cases she wants to take, meaning she only picks the ones she knows she can win. There isn't time to willy nilly arrest every rapist there ever was, if it's a woman's word against a man's and nothing (?) else. My detective assured me it's not because she doesn't believe me (whatever), just that she won't take a case she can't win. She didn't think she could convince a jury of 12 that what happened to me really happened to me. But I did all the right things blah blah blah. What, ever. Fuck this stupid, huge, mean, soulless country. I'm very upset. (28 Comments |Comment on this)
kaylyssa	10:54a	Consider all this; and then turn to this green, gentle, and most docile earth; consider them both, the sea and the land; and do you not find a strange analogy to something in yourself? For as this appalling ocean surrounds the verdant land, so in the soul of man there lies one insular Tahiti, full of peace and joy, but encompassed by all the horrors of the half known life. God keep thee! Push not off from that isle, thou canst never return! But why say more? All men live enveloped in whale-lines. All are born with halters round their necks; but it is only when caught in the swift, sudden turn of death, that mortals realize the silent, subtle, ever-present perils of life. And if you be a philosopher, though seated in the whale-boat, you would not at heart feel one whit more of terror, than though seated before your evening fire with a poker, and not a harpoon, by your side. Melville on animal rights: "...[E]veryone knows that some young bucks among the epicures, by continually dining upon calves' brains, by and by get to have a little brains of their own, so as to be able to tell a calf's head from their own heads; which, indeed, requires uncommon discrimination. And that is the reason why a young buck with an intelligent looking calf's head before him, is somehow one of the saddest sights you can see. The head looks a sort of reproachfully at him, with an 'Et tu Brute!' expression. ...[N]o doubt the first man that ever murdered an ox was regarded as a murderer; perhaps he was hung, and if he had been put on his trial by oxen he certainly would have been; and he certainly deserved it if any murderer does. Go to the meatmarket of a Saturday night and see the crowds of live bipeds staring up at the long rows of dead quadrupeds. Does not that sight take a tooth out of the cannibal's jaw? Cannibals? who is not a cannibal? I tell you it will be more tolerable for the Fejee that salted down a lean missionary in his cellar against a coming famine; it will be more tolerable for that provident Fejee, I say, in the day of judgement, than for thee, civilized and enlightened gourmand, who nailest geese to the ground and feastest on their bloated livers in thy pate-de-foie-gras." Current Mood: right on (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 17th, 2008
laurenloveless	11:33a	a song ; i cannot pretend that i felt any regret cos each broken heart will eventually mend as the blood runs red down the needle and thread someday you will be loved you'll be loved you'll be loved like you never have known the memories of me will seem more like bad dreams just a series of blurs like i never occurred you may feel alone when you're falling asleep and everytime tears roll down your cheeks but I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet someday you will be loved. [[he says he's left her for good. he says he wants to see me. i say i just don't know. i have to ask myself if its worth it]] &hearts (2 Comments |Comment on this)