[22 Mar 2005|06:45pm] [ mood | blah ] if shame had a face I think it would kind of look like mine if it had a home would it be my eyes would you believe me if I said I'm tired of this well here we go now one more time I tried to climb your steps I tried to chase you down I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground I tried to earn my way I tried to change this mind you better believe that I have tried to beat this so when will this end it goes on and on over and over and over again keeps spinning around I know that it won't stop till I step down from this for good well I never thought I'd end up here never thought I'd be standing where I am  I guess I kind of thought that it would be easier than this I guess I was wrong now one more time I tried to climb your steps I tried to chase you down I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground I tried to earn my way I tried to change this mind you better believe that I have tried to beat this so when will this end it goes on and on over and over and over again keeps spinning around I know that it won't stop till I step down from this sick cycle carousel this is a sick cycle yeah sick cycle carousel this is a sick cycle yeah so when will this end it goes on and on over and over and over again keeps spinning around I know that it won't stop till I step down from this for good so when will this end it goes on and on over and over and over again keeps spinning around I know that it won't stop till I step down from this for good sick cycle carousel sick cycle carousel sick cycle carousel sick cycle carousel 9you kno i'm here waiting for you | so if you're lonely

[24 Feb 2005|05:53pm] 01. Who are you, what's our relatiohship? 02. How, when, and where did we meet? 03. What's my middle name? 04. How long have you known me? 05. What's one good thing about myself? 06. When you first saw me, what was your impression? 07. My age: 08. Do you think I'm a virgin? 09. My favorite band at the moment: 10. Color eyes: 11. Do I have any siblings? 12. Have you ever had a crush on me (hah)? 13. What's one of my favorite things to do? 14. Do you remember one of the first things I said to you? 15. Describe me in 3 words: 16. Name 5 things I love: 17. Do you think I'm good-looking? 18. How would you describe me to someone? 19. Would you ever "date" me? 20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did: 21. What do you like most about me? 22. If we could spend a day toghether, what would we do? 23. Have we ever gotten in a fight? 24. Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 mmore years? 25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it: 26. What do you think my weakness is? 27. Do you think I'll get married? 28. What makes me happy? 29. What makes me sad? 30. What reminds you of me? 31. If you could give me anything, what would it be? 32. When's the last time you saw me? 33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same? 34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? 35. Are you going to put this on your LJ and see what I say about you? 36. How far do you think I've gone? 37. What song (if any) reminds you of me? 38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be? 39. Would you make a move on me (oh my lol)? 40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day? 41. What's your favorite memory of me? 5you kno i'm here waiting for you | so if you're lonely

[07 Feb 2005|10:04pm] this weekend: walked home with carly on friday to danielles cause we definitly got kicked out of the volleyball tryouts. yaldo danielle leena mad car alicia and mandy came over to danielles and we hung ut for abit then we to the commnity ed game. came back spent the night. woke up left at 11 then rode my horsey and went to dance. came home and then went to mandys with mad danielle and carly.went to karens for a bit then came back. spent the nigth three and had to leave at 10! went bac to mandys around 5 with madison for a bit UNTIL you couldnt come cause she went tanning. so me and megan and mandy just watched a movie and went in the hottub instead ofwatching the superbowl. came home from amndys around 10. today school and then i stayed after with murph and megan and we made crepes and walked around. went back to megans for an hour then came back to school...MARDI GRAS PARTY was kind of gay but ehh who cares...tomorrow is really mardi gras so me mand mad and mega artedressing up it will be so exciting!. IM LEAVING FOR THE CRUISE ON SUNDAY!!!! so excited 3you kno i'm here waiting for you | so if you're lonely

[18 Jan 2005|04:11pm] IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU?: 01. Cried: NAHH 02. Bought something: no 03. Gotten sick: No 04. Sang: for sure 05. Eaten: umm hmm 06. Been kissed: no 07. Felt stupid: most definitly 08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: ehh 09. Met someone new: i dont believe so 10. Moved on: nothing to move on from 11. Talk to an ex: jake...if he counts 12. Missed an ex: no 13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: 14. Had a serious talk: yes 15. Missed someone: yeah 16. Hugged someone: Umm Hmm 17. Fought with your parents: Yes of course 18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: no SOCIAL LIFE: 01. Best girl friend: Danielle and Brenna 02. Best boy friend: Dane...i think 03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: yes 04. Hobbies: Snowboarding, dance, and riding 05. Pager: umm no 06. Are you center of attention or the wallflower: without a doubt wallflower 07. What type of automobile do you drive: I don't drive 08. What type of automobile do you wish you drove: no idea 09. Would you rather be with friends or on a date: depends i guess 10. Where is the best hangout: doesnt matter 11. Do you have a job: Nope 12. Do you attend church:no 13. Do you like being around people: for the most part WHO: 01. Have you known the longest: Danielle Auer 02. Do you argue with the most:no idea 03. Do you always get along with: yaldo and...? 04. Is the most trustworthy: not sure 05. Makes you laugh the most: everyone 06. Has been there through all the hard times: danielle and brenna 07. Has the coolest parents: danielle and mandy 08. Has the scariest siblings: no idea 09. Is the most blunt: ??no idea 10. Is the smartest: hard to say PERSONAL: 01. Who is your role model: I don't really have one 02. What are some of your pet peeves: people that tip in their chair... theres more but i cant think of them 03. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: umm definitly 04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: mm not that i remember 05. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after : no im kind of random with that 06. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): ...yes 07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: definitly 08. Would you rather be dumper or dumped? umm neither? 09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": Relationship 10. Want someone you don't have right now: no 11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: umm hmm 12. Do you want to get married: Oui! 13. Do you want kids: Yes 14. Do you believe in psychics: no 15. Do you believe in soulmates: who knows 16. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: ..... 17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: 18. Are you happy with you: no 19. Are you happy with your life: decently happy 20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: that fact that people hate me and the fact that i hate people CURRENT: Current Clothes: polka dot short.red shirt.green zipup..wow i match Current Mood: pretty happy Current Music: postal service Current Hair: ponytail Current Annoyance: the fact tat my nails are 4 different colors Current Desktop Picture: collage of people Current Favorite Artist: dont have one Current Favorite Group: Ipostal service Current Book you're reading: cut...again Current CD in CD Player: The killers Current DVD in player: the hot chick Current Color Of Toenails: red Current Refreshment: diet coke Current Worry: uff i dont know FIRSTS: First Best Friend: Danielle Auer First Elementary School: Keith First memory: kindergarten....meeting danielle First clear memory of soccer: ... First real job: None First screen name: uff i dont even remember First self-bought c.d.: it was either backstreet boys or spice girls First funeral: great aunt First pets: toonsie...cat First piercing: Ears First enemy: no idea First big trip: florida First musician you remember hearing in your house: ...barney...i think he counts LASTS: Last cigarette: Never Last big car ride: chirstmas...3hours Last good cry: dont even remember Last library book checked out: that summer Last movie seen: the hot chick Last beverage drank: diet coke Last food consumed:pizza rolls Last crush: josh Last phone call made: ashley Last time showered: about an hour ago Last shoes worn: boots for riding Last CD played: te killers Last item bought: lift ticket Last ice cream eaten: last night Last shirt worn: brown tank top Last website visited: Livejournal ABOUT YOU: Spell your first name backwards- Xela The story behind your user name- ...no story DESCRIBE YOUR: Jewelry worn daily: ring with cross some kind of necklace Bracelets- livestrong breastcancer and rachel mason one Pillow cover: burgundy Shoes: blue and pink nikes, black and creme diesels, birks Favorite shirt: got crabs and iguana joes Piercings: 2 each ear WHO or WHAT (was/is/are/are you) In my mouth: braces In my head: thoughts... Wishing: nothing at the moment After this: Cleaning the basement If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason: would never Next to you: phone table tv chair Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month: if upcoming month means february thenCRUISE Do you believe in love: most definitly Do you believe in soul mates: im not sure Do you believe in love at first sight: no...too good to be true Do you believe in Heaven: Yea Do you believe in forgiveness: Yes Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Oui How long have you been together:1 week..watch out now! Do you believe in God: Yea What do you want done with your body when you die: Cremated If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?: elephant What are 2 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to:new york and chicago What are some of your favorite pig out foods: PIZZA ROLLS What's something that you wish people would understand: What's something you wish you could understand better: people Pepsi or Coke? coke you type with your fingers on the right keys? kind of What is under your bed? nothing got a lucky number? 7 what's something you did that you thought you'd never do? ummm Something you'd love to do, but haven't yet, or don't have the guts to do: bungee off something Do you believe in destiny? Yeaa 2you kno i'm here waiting for you | so if you're lonely

[18 Jan 2005|03:42pm] [ mood | happy ] friday i walked home with danielle. went to joes crab shack for brennas birthday with paige danielle mandy and megan and then spent the night. saturday went snowbaording with brenna. sunday i spent the night at danielles with alicia. monday we went and woke up jake and then stayed there for a while and then went to my ortho appointment....IM GETTING MY BRACES OFF SOON!...after danielle and alicia spent the night and we finished our dance for record mimes. today we went taning and then i went to my lesson and danielle and alicia watched my sisters. yea so thats my weekend so if you're lonely

[10 Jan 2005|04:26pm] hmm havent updated this thing in a while... saturday i had my lesson which was pretty good then i came home, took a shower, and went to brennas. then we went over to megans to work on record mimes until 4. i went back to brennas and then my mom picked me up. sunday danielle brooke and i went to alpine and taught danielle how o snowboard..she definitly got hit on by some little 10 years olds it was niice. we left alpine around 5:30 and i came home. today was good..im going out with josh now! the rest f the dy was pretty boring though... 4you kno i'm here waiting for you | so if you're lonely

[01 Jan 2005|06:31pm] well i havent updated this in quite a while but alicias was very fun...went over there like 7 and we just hung out for a while and then everyone one slept over a ther house after. me melissa josh and vicki stayed up all night it was lots of fun....this morning everyone got up and we had breakfast and watcheda movie and then me and danielle left. i was going to go snowboarding with brenna today but we decided not to...so i slept for 3 hours instead. ahh tomorrow is the last day of break...HOW SAD 2you kno i'm here waiting for you | so if you're lonely

[14 Dec 2004|10:03pm] [ mood | happy ] friday- walked home with danielle then went to little ceasars ad got some breaksticks. that night danielle alicia and i went to see polar express and we were the only people over 8 in there. it was ok though saturday- i went to see the rockettes at the fox theater. i wet over to brennas anspet the night there with her daniele and brooke. sunday- left at 12. came home did ome homework adn then cleaned my room yesterday- didnt go to school. went to the mall and got my hair and eyebrows done. then i came home and did my homework tdoday- went to school then caem home, te some ramen noodles, talked to brenna on the phone, then en to dance FRIDAY I THINK IM HANING OUT WITH CARLY IM SO EXCITED!!!!! so if you're lonely

[06 Dec 2004|08:06pm] friday- went to the hockey game with ashley. i met felicia aww she is sooo nice. i spent the night at ashleys that night saturday- went to the barn. came home. barn christmas party. allie, ashley, mallory, rachel, and i went to zap zone but there were some scary people there let me tell you. got home around 11. watched tv and then went to bed. sunday- went to the mall and got some of my christmas presents today- went to school and thats it so if you're lonely

[30 Nov 2004|07:41pm] [ mood | no mood ] i havent updated in a bit but nothing all that exciting has happened. tuesday i got my biopsy and i came home from the hospital on wendesday. wednesday night we left for ohio and didnt get back til 1 sunday night. monday danielle, brenna, zea, kaz, paige, kaleigh, brooke and i forget who else went bowling which wasnt very exciting so brenna danielle and i went back to kaleighs for an hour. we had bagel bites, spring rolls, kiwi, easy mac and it was soo good! my mom picked me and danielle up at 5 and then i went home and did my homework. today school was nothing exciting. god mrs lashook wont let me switch out of monroe for math god i hate her! other then that the day was fine. intense ping pong was intense as usual. thursday i might be going to the game and the play but i dont know yet 3you kno i'm here waiting for you | so if you're lonely

[21 Nov 2004|08:16pm] x Madison 3 (8:00:21 PM): alright, so i was a little negro boy and i was walking in the forestand i saw this like big patch of nothing like all fiels and there was this old run down houseand so i went to the door to go in it and check it outand there was like this little remote control thing and i wsa pushing buttns and i turned around and there was this zombie guy behind me and he was like LEAVE NOW BEFORE THEY KILL YOU AND BREAK DONW THE HOUSEand so i went home and cried ok and so then my mom was like it was just your imagination and stuff so she was gunna take me to the field and show me there wasnt anything to be afraid of. and so we went and i was there and i was scared once we got there so i took the horse that we rode there on and i went down the street and left my mom there adn then the horse turned into megan duncan and she was like dont go down the deperssion drive and i was like woah what and i turned around and the zonbie guy was coming twards me and my mom was screaming to leave depression drive and so i went and then the zombie had little dogs chasing after me and i was running and we ended up in a regular neighborhood and the zombie had to discuise as a normal guy walknig his dogs when people were looking but when they werent he was trying to get me! --madison's scary dream 4you kno i'm here waiting for you | so if you're lonely

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