.nautilus.

.gaY.

2008-08-04T04:56:42Z

happy pride y'all !@#

.gaS.

2008-06-04T19:43:39Z

i never really paid much attention to the rising gas prices until a few days ago. i put gas in my car... and it cost me about 50 bucks!!
heh... and despite the ridonkulous gas prices... i'm still thinking about getting a new car. i've had the one i have now for about 7 years, and it's getting pretty ghetto...lol.
i did a little research yesterday (well not really, since i only looked up 2 cars..lol), and found that i can't afford a hybrid... or at least the toyota prius. the other car i looked at was the mazda3 sport, which is a little closer to my price range. though, i'm not sure if i need all that space in a car just for me.

i dunno ... anybody have any suggestions ??

.won't u help to sing : these songs of freedom.

.uncLe.

2008-06-03T23:51:26Z

holy crap ... my sister is in labor right now .... i'm going to be an uncle !!

.u're like a rock : in a fast flowing stream.

.conFide.

2008-05-25T20:27:30Z

the past week or so has been a bit intense for me.... wanting what i can't have ... fixing things i can't fix .... saying things i can't say ... being mad... happy... helpless ... orgasmic .... lost.

yup ... definitely wierd week.

.i caught myself : reaching for your hand.

.tRainer.

2008-05-06T05:10:03Z

so i set up some sessions with a personal trainer (she's really hot) this month, and today was my first day. before we got started, as we were stretching, she was telling me how she was going to concentrate on my core and that it would be a 'light' workout.
...now... i think personal trainers have a different definition for 'light' then to those who haven't steadily worked out for about a year..... holy frack.... she kicked my ass today.
it was a non-stop session for an hour... with maybe 3-4 breaks... only long enough to take a sip of water, and then get back in to it...... ugh, i'm soooooo out of shape.

.i always think of u : inside of my private thoughts.

.dAte.

2008-04-26T03:51:15Z

i went out on a date last weekend, and it was rather interesting....lol
i haven't been on a date in pretty much a year, and before that, a considerable amount of time before the last date. so i was quite nervous. i felt like i was new, some virgin boy who didn't know anything about anything..lol.
anyway ... we met up at moxies on davie for dinner. it started out a little slow, it felt like i was the only one trying to put in any effort in to the conversation. but he later told me that he's usually shy on first dates, and doesn't really open up until after a few drinks.
the dinner was nice, and we started to get a flow going. among the number of things that were interesting about him, is that he knows sign language. and one thing i first noticed about him was his nails... they were really long... and i couldn't figure out why... until later...
so, we chill there for awhile.... having more drinks... talking... and then we head to my place because he had just rented some movies. we watched aeon flux, and drank more.
after the movie he suggests for us to go to the odyssey (which is kinda wierd to suggest for a first date??). i agree, cuz i knew of some other friends that were going to be there.
we get there, and by this point, he's starting to feel the alcohol, and starts to open up a lot more about himself...lol.... he tells me that he suffers from depression, and has been for a number of years, and starts to tell me about the different kinds of meds he's on. the more interesting type of pill he takes is one that prevents him from having an orgasm (i had no idea anti-depressants could do that!!)... anway... this was the first red flag that popped up for me.
we have more drinks... dance...and then he starts to tell me more about him. he starts talking about this other guy that is at the bar, and says that this guy probably doesn't recognize him that night.... and i'm like...why?.....he then tell me that he's a cross-dresser.
now..... me being me...was intrigued by this, and start asking tons of questions. is this a gender issue... what's your wardrobe like... how long have u been a cross-dresser.... why are u dressed up as a boy tonight... etc etc. he was pretty comfortable with my asking so much about him... probably because he was getting drunk....lol
afterwards, i couldn't stop thinking about what it would be like.... to date a cross-dresser. the bad part of me was thinking of how neat it would be to date him.... for the novelty of it all.... to be able to say down the road.... i dated a cross-dresser.... i of course stopped thinking about that... cuz of how evil that is.... and also because he's a nice guy, and someone should date him because of that.
so anyway, the drinks are really starting to take a toll on him... cuz he starts to stumble...lol. and also.... he starts to think that it's a good time for him to start teaching me sign language. so, for a good portion of the rest of the night, he stopped talking, and started signing to me. i of course thought it was hilarious, and played in to trying to understand what he's trying to tell me....lol. suprisingly, i was able to get the basics. but still, it was wierd having some guy signing to me at the club. it was also kinda neat too.... it attracted attention from others... ppl were buying us drinks and shots (maybe because they thought we were handicapped??..lol).
so the night is coming to a close... i walk him to the bus stop for the night bus... and he goes home.
all in all.... it was quite interesting. i could see myself being friends with him. i haven't put much more thought in to if he could be dating material. my friends that were there that night said he was cute.... but they couldn't see me being with someone that is short.... oh ya.... he's short...lol.

.if this is your land : where are your stories.

.stePs.

2008-04-25T04:49:18Z

i went to a conference in victoria a few weeks ago. the theme of the conference was on sports and rec. programming for youth, which was kinda interesting. one of the workshops, they were giving away free pedometers. at first, i was like... pfft.... who uses these.
but ... ever since then... i'm addicted !!....lol.... i like checking out the number of steps i've taken throughout the day.
i also set a goal for myself... that i'll gradually increase the count over the course of the summer. so far, the most steps i've made in a day have been about 18000.
so ya... i'm on the road to getting rid of my muffin top =P

.drag me : through the fire.

.ticKet.

2008-04-24T01:42:20Z

ugh ... i got a traffic ticket today for the stupidest and smallest thing. and i'm being charged soooo much for it !!

stupid fuckers.... lol.

.close your eyes : and float.

.sMell.

2007-12-12T20:59:25Z

i like the smell of sex .... yup.

.tell me all your secrets : and your torments.

.meMories.

2007-11-06T11:53:24Z

you know what's neat .... feeling all alone late at night .... talking with someone that's close to u ..... walking down memory lane .... both of us letting eachother know funny things about what was going on in eachother heads in certain situations that we didn't know before ..... and then feeling all better.

.u must have wanted : the world to know.

.drAg.

2007-11-01T12:42:19Z

so, i talked about reaching a new level of gay earlier .... well .... since then, i've reached a couple of new heights....lol.
first.... check out this other website: click me to see more gayness

second ... i went out with a couple friends tonight, to the odyssey. there were some costume competitions. my friend was in drag.... and faired well... but didn't win.
well.... we bumped in to the winners after the bar at the pizza place.... and a crazy fight errupted !! .... they were harsh yelling and going at it all along davie. i was trying to break things up and mediate everything.... to no avail....lol...fuck .... it was stupid. everybody was checking things out as they passed by....ugh..... so much drag drama.

.i don't care : what the future holds.

.celebriTies.

2007-10-31T19:01:03Z

so, i feel like i've reached a new level of gay....lol

i went to the celebrities website to check out how much tickets are for the halloween night. i also browsed their galleries just for kicks..... and guess who i found?? .... me and jackie !! haha, the pic was taken like 4 years ago, when he and i were together:

click me for the pic (4th row, 2nd from the left)

.arms outstretched : trying to take flight.

.neRd.

2007-10-25T03:58:49Z

whoa .... i haven't posted in a long time.

not that there wasn't anything to talk about, lots of stuff happened during my summer. though i admit, it was quite tame compared to last summer ..... and by quite, i mean a lot. i wonder if it has to do with getting older. since my bday this past weekend, and getting sick right afterwards, i've had a lot of time to walk around in my own thoughts. one thought being paramount, turning 26 is like gay death....lol. it's totally stupid, but..... there it is.
anyways.... being sick sucks.... but i think i'll be ok before the halloween weekend.
here's a pic of me and stephen at 'nerd bent' a few months ago.

.every morning : i walk towards the edge.

.rePort.

2007-07-10T13:44:00Z

yesterday was my first day back to work, coming from my camping trip. preparation for, and during the trip, takes a lot of time away from administration that i have to do for about 2 months. before i got too busy, i asked one of my staff to take the lead with one of the larger reports that needs to be written. so i was rather tee'd off to find out that nothing was done at all!! ..... which sucks considering the report is due today.....lol
i just spent all day yesterday, and all night writing it up ..... i just emailed it off at like....6:30 am.
ugh .... i need sleeeeeeeep.

.i heard it through the grapevine.

nautilus_ @ 2007-07-04T18:15:00

2007-07-05T02:23:50Z

so i just got back from my trip that i go on every summer with my work. i always feel gross returning to the city.... everything is so fast, concrete, and noisy. i'd rather be out on the water, and in the bush.
anyway, as i was compiling all the pictures taken...i realised i didn't post the pics that were taken of my trip last year.....so here they are, behind the cut:

each morning, i'd wake up with a member of the squamish ppl's, who would sing a 'greeting of the day' song before sunrise.

some of the waters that we paddled

some pose shots

me and a few others explored one of the sites we set up camp....and came across this....sooo beautiful there....the pictures does no justice.

it's awsome to be away from the city ... and only have nature surround you

watching the sunset

i learned how to fish

some of the vpd and rcmp officers that came along

someone took a close up pic of me at one of the beaches

another pic of the rock we were at

view from one of the washroom stops

there are various canoes/kayaks that come on the trip....tandem....dugout....and northern dancer types.... the one below is the one that my work has. i'm always at the front.

.u gotta lick it : before we kick it.

.fligHt.

2007-06-15T01:03:09Z

so david has been in toronto for some time now ..... and came to van and stayed with me for a couple of weeks about a month ago i think.

here's david making me my favoritest dish ever.....curry spaghetti

his visit also saw my fridge actually have something other then beer in it...... i opened it up, and saw food in there...... so i of course had to take a picture of this rare occasion.

we made plans for me to visit toronto when i can take my vacation in october......and if i can manage it right, with my ATO ...... i'll have a month to spend over there (as well as a possible trip to moncton to visit dalyn). i checked flights today, and they aren't as expensive as i thought they were!!

.let me push u : up against me.

.teePee.

2007-06-11T08:00:08Z

i learned how to make tee pee's

.everyone is leaving : i'm still with u.

.inteRnet.

2007-06-10T01:48:53Z

so, dalyn and i used to live together....for a short period. he was the one that got the internet hooked up. but, he moved to the other side of the country. after talking, he suggested to just keep using the account, and wait for it to get disconnected.....this was in november sometime. finally, last night....the internet got cut =( .... it was a nice 8 months of not paying a bill though...hehe
i guess i'll have to make an account of my own now =P

.all i do : is think of u.

nautilus_ @ 2007-06-02T18:27:00

2007-06-03T01:40:10Z

so my friend phil has been visiting from toronto the past week .... and it's been tons of fun. it's too bad we didn't have the camera on tuesday. but we did last night.

phil, thomas and i went to the oddysey...

we met some fun german girls that were in town for a few days...

we took ppl back to my place .... and here's thomas spreading himself out in my retro foyer...

some other ppl we met at the bar were some americans .... here's some of them in my kitchen...

a lot of us were pretty inebriated .... here's me trying to play a guitar...

we then went to the beach for some guitar and songs from phil when the sun came up...

after everybody left .... then came sleep...

tonight we go to jackie's farewell party ..... he leaves for kenya for a few months on some aids program thing, i think they'll be teaching the smaller village communities about aids n' such.... so that's cool.

.if u knew my story : word for word.

nautilus_ @ 2007-05-10T18:22:00

2007-05-11T01:33:16Z

so i chilled with jackie on the weekend. he invited me to the graduation thing for emily carr....there were some neato people and art.....anyways...here are some pics of the day on granville island.

i decided to take pics of our shoes.

jackie couldn't get over how the thin bars were holding up the sailboats.

somebody had a good time on the docks the night before.

we started to follow some geese and their little geeselings along the seawall

they came on to land after i started to make noise for them to come to me =)

jackie took a pic of me staring off in to the scenery....holy crap my hair was long (i got my haircut the other day).

.those shoes are mine : betch.

.misTy.

2007-04-16T08:34:19Z

a friend of mine was cleaning his computer of old files, and he came across some pictures of me from awhile back. this pic made me miss misty....she was so cute. when she was small, she would always claw her way up my chest to chill on my shoulders........when i was on the computer, reading, or watching tv..... i was her favorite.

.it would be so easy : to sing a song about u.

.evaLuation.

2007-04-16T01:20:47Z

it's now been 6 months since my promotion to coordinator of my program. it's definitely been an interesting ride....dealing with a bunch of challenges that all seemed to pop up just for me, just as i started in my new role....lol. i got through it though, and apparently handled everything really well. i had my first evaluation on thursday. i got 100 percent in most areas, and others were above expectations .... yay me =)
as part of appreciation for what i've been doing, i've been given 3 goals to achieve within 3 months, and then i'll get another raise!!...the goals are totally achievable too ... yay me =)

.don't let your heart get heavy.

.pillOw.

2007-04-07T23:37:30Z

i miss:

-giving him wet willies
-curry spaghetti
-being held
-always winning in mariokart
-laying in bed, and that being the whole world
-wrestling, and often getting hurt
-the weezing coughs
-being looked at, and thought of as beautiful
-crazy conversations on utopian societies, the law of attraction and why i'm always right
-trying to find a ticklish spot
-being tickled
-jiggles, insulation, rhino skin
-when kissing, blowing in his mouth when he least expects it
-cuddles
-random clothes that are 'very david'
-hitting him in the face with a pillow when he's looking the other way
-and lots of other stuff

.days go by : and still i think of u.

.frAnce.

2007-03-27T20:04:10Z

i went out last week with stephen...he stole my cardigan for the night .....but he still has it =P

ryan came out with us too .... we went to celebs for this crazy dj from france. we couldn't believe how the place was packed, even when cover was $40 !!

but before we left for celebs, we had a few drinks at stephen's place. that's where i decided to steal one of ryan's gay shirts....i totally wore it out too. i felt a little too gay, since it was a breeders ground that night...... i didn't wear the shoes out, but i wore them while at stephens....lol

.check out the hook : while my dj revolves it.

.cabLe.

2007-03-15T19:04:19Z

it's been about 5 years since i've had cable for tv. when christina and i got a place together, she and i decided that cable was the devil, cuz it took away from studying time, took away from chillin' with friends, and generally killed your brain cells.....which it totally does !! =P
well, it appears that i needed tv again. cable comes free with the apartment that i'm now living at (oh ya!! ... moving... a whole other story that i'll have to talk about later). anyways, i've totally bought in to tv....cuz it's the devil like that... i bought a remote for my tv, i'm such a lazy ass, and i already have my routine for the day....lol
i wake up .... watch star trek deep space 9....then ellen....then star trek the next generation .... i go to work .... and when i come home.....i start to watch fraiser and south park .... and some simpsons here and there.
ugh....it's only been like.... a few weeks....lol

.there's nothing : like u and i.