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[10 Jan 2008|05:53pm] |
im in one of those fucks moods where nothing ever goes right and you wanna bang your head against the wall repeatadly.I should write a song about it or something.Christmas was pants
i screwed up the one good thing that i got at the moment and im working on making it perfect
again.Start my new job soon and had afew weeks off been pretty sweet sleeping normally and stuff geting addicted to ugly betty a couple of partys but i dunno im not happy i just feel like im in limbo and waiting.
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[01 Jan 2008|12:26am] |
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whys doing the right thing always seem to hurt the most
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[27 Nov 2007|06:14pm] |
why
whenever i introduce my mates to friends iv
met they try to fuck them
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[17 Nov 2007|09:33am] |
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kicked in the balls
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[31 Oct 2007|07:06am] |
living the fucking dream
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[19 Oct 2007|01:13am] |
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im going straight to hel
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[15 Oct 2007|07:13am] |
i want outta this hel hole
i miss her
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[01 Oct 2007|10:21pm] |
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the juice is worth the squeaze
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[01 Oct 2007|07:35am] |
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i dunno how long i can do this
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[28 Sep 2007|06:04pm] |
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bahhi had another doo with my step father lastnight its everytime he has a day off i hate him so much hes a fucking stupid cunt some of hte stuff he comes out with is actually ridicolous every other word is do that and your out and on thursday he grabbed me and throw me out the door so i just went to work and my mother doesnt even so anything i cant wait til i fucking get out of this place seriously good ridense.In other news bens back with rosie (the whore) so hes back to ditching me on weekends and im left alone on a friday night cheeky cunt didnt tel me til four today so icant organise anything iv not had a friday in since i went out with kirsty back in january.Fucking not in a good mood as you can tel.It feels like iv just shot down the drop of the big deeper and keep on going
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[27 Sep 2007|08:36pm] |
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Iv got so much going on in my head right now i dont know what im doing i change my mind from one day to the next thinking im going to do it then just carrying on with it now and leaving it how it is but i cant do this forever?
Past week has been shit i realised how much i had actualy spent in the past month and not actually payed for anyting i was meant to although i do have a
nice pile of clothes thattakes up a good quarter of my room now.My mum says im too materialistic and i got to find other things to please me but shopping is so good recently iv been doing more nad more to cheer me up and then i end up broke so i think i need to find a new facination.Ben come into work the other day pissed from walking from rosies ( i hate that girl why does he persist in going back to her, its his decision il leave him to it) and was going on about moving so i told my manager to arrange my transfer asap and now hes changed his mind (its her its her ) but fuck it i hate it up here and i spend so much money going down i might aswel just live there.Im sticking with the plan and house hunting is going quite wel so i reckon i will be in brighton deffinatly by january.Other exciting things uni i think im gonna go for something fashion orientated its been something im interested in for a while and despite popular belief im not gay i just dig it.
Weekend in bonnie leeds not looking forward to it at allllllllllllllllll
to many people id rather not see or forget about
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[23 Sep 2007|01:20pm] |
blah blah blah i dont know what im doing anymore
why didnt i listen in the first place
loren is crazyyy
and i have posted stamps all over
fucking bouncers thinking there funny
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[20 Sep 2007|08:16am] |
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not a fucking clue
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[13 Sep 2007|07:11pm] |
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Jeez been a while since i was on here and reading the
past entries proper makes you realise what shit you
worry about sometimes but il never change to be honest
girls are stil always at the front and the rest of my
life at the back.So past few weeks have been shit having
the kicthen done and having to stay in because im back at
work and making me realise that the internet is really
really boring i wish i could just go out all the time
like i did last month but i need money.
London this weekend and house hunting i told my mum
its time for me to move out hte other day nad the bitch
agreed then i asked for a allowance again and she said
i earn more than her haha So looks like if i do move out
it wil be on a strict bugget.Back to drinking lambers
and white lighting then.
One thing thats pissing me off is not goig back to uni
this year but i changed my mind at what i wanna do so im
trying to tel myself its for the best but everyones having
such a good time :(
passed my theory though :)
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[03 Sep 2007|04:22pm] |
i wanna be down south noww
not next year
or next month
nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
thatis all
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[21 May 2007|02:32pm] |
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ben ldn brighton pissing it down drinking wine i never gloria staying in getting up late getting drunk at two mumbles not getting it hanging out with brighton lot getting lost and even more wasted sleeping on a bench waiting for elena coming home sleeping getting wasted with pete getting mental at people two for a fiver on wkd going to york seeing lora k buying a stupidly over priced shirt not getting my haircut talking shit hating rosie more rain paint asda trasin TOKYOS reasurance gettin in ben and pete loving it me on stage 1.50 brauhmas' fucked smoking menthols pete throwing up racist taxi driver sick in the cab sleeping on the sofa chilling getting drunk in taps losing at a girl at pool getting up early going to scotland hating it pishing it down getting a lift off some pensioners in a bmx convertable going to glassgow LEO getting pished mojos eating brownies kirsten being late smoking weed in a dirty alley coming taking loads of photos home not wanting to going to edinborugh boring as shit coming home getting in patient and now IM REALLY REALLY BROKE AND IN NEED OF A NEW JOB PLEASE
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[10 May 2007|05:49pm] |
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i right like a girrl haha
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[19 Apr 2007|04:09pm] |
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what a shit week, mums not talkin to me friends are always busy fallen outwith some, lost my phone and ipod and to top it offim working friday.shittttttttt
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[10 Apr 2007|03:45pm] |
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As you have probably gathered from my other entrys stuff comes out on here in a right mess hope you can follow because i lose myself sometimes.
Past week has been so crazy started with the ending of me nad kirsty, done finnished never again at first i thought it was the worst thing to ever happen to me and that she was so good and bla blahh but after my mate sat me down and told me everything and pointed out that infact she was the worst thing to ever happen to me.She messed me about made me sick and just deffied everything i ever did for her and returned it by dumping me yet again after a great speach how she loves me and how i am so much over a fucking text message.Since then iv not realy spoke to anyone about it its stil touchy now because for the second time iv let someone have me and everything i am (this sounds proper gay )and iv just been walked all over and fucked up.Makes me think should i change?am i the one with the problem when i cant stay with a girl for longer than six months.But thats all water under the bridge im back to trying to shag my boss and drinking my life away.
After that bullshit i kinda got a kick in the balls and it made me realise i spend too much time doing nothing in particular.So i called up a load of mates got them road and got psised and called in sick and got more pissed them played on the trampolene went to the park did balloons for the first time got smashed trampolened called in sick again recovered from aq hangover got stoned played fifa bought family guy and had proper loads of fun with real friends because you realise who they really are when you need them.
FRIDAY went to brighton journey was about of a shit dew to the heat and the smelly chinnese person next to me but london was prety empty and too was my train to brighton where i met this right nice french woman.She was right nice before she tried gettting me into brighton church and wouldn't drop the issue i hate people that force views or religion on people i didn't whack out of bottle of vodka and try pour it down her neck.got to brighton mettt the best friend of the time got trashed talked LOADS of shit some im really embarrassed about and should of stayed floating about in my imagination, next time i was real timmed duw to the fact i couldn't remember what i had done or said nad felt sick as a dog so i thought home would of been the best option til i got on the train in ldn and realised brighton is liek a second home?i dont ever know but i always end up there at the moment and it welcomes me more than leeds ever does.Plus its full of amazingpeople.SORRY FOR THE ESSAY
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[18 Feb 2007|10:54pm] |
it was going so well :(
OH WELL :)
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