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[10 Jun 2010|02:41am] |
1) 90% of my friends know me as nsq. Don't ask me why it's nad- as a username.
2) Most of my entries are friends-only. Leave a comment if you're adding me.
3) Friends-only entries are filtered as I separate friends into customised groups.
4) Public entries are mostly pictures and random thoughts.
5) You can leave anonymous comments. It doesn't bother me.
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| 807. GOODBYE |
[11 Jan 2008|11:55pm] |
807 entries on this blog.
And I'm leaving it.
The end of 2007 marked the end of whoever I was before. Reading entries on this journal makes me feel very disconnected. People closest to me and friends of livejournal would probably know what I mean. Even if you don't, I know there are people who do (like my girlfriends). I no longer the recognize the girl who typed all the entries back then in mid-late 2007.
I got rid of certain possessions of mine which reminded me of her. And because this journal contains all the emotions and thoughts from her (which I no longer want to associate with), I'm leaving.
I'll be adding up (some of) my current livejournal friends on my new livejournal, so you'll still hear from me :) I will add you guys in in... less than 24hours :)
I'm out!
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| 803. Tomorrow |
[05 Jan 2008|12:32am] |
Arrangements for the future are always provisional. Tomorrow is not just another day. It is a new world, born out of the womb of the night.
Sometimes, things are best when spontaneous.
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| 784. Crazy. |
[15 Dec 2007|01:38am] |
My main motivation to work like a mad girl (I've got a second job already, at TCC) is 2008. I left Junior College to do what I want to do and I'm going to do it all on my own. I'm not going to ask money for my education anymore and no matter how crazy it sounds, I'm going to do it. Someday, I'm going to look back and laugh at the people who didn't believe in my choice.
Because of that big decision I made, it made me realise that I should never ever compromise what I believe in just to please others.
I know, I am crazy to have 2 part time jobs when I can earn more with 1 full time job. But I'll rather earn less to have fun, than to earn more and dread waking up to work every morning. I still love serving people no matter how irritating they can get.
:D
Just watch!
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| 782. MCS Farewell @ ECP |
[13 Dec 2007|02:44am] |
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( smiles )
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| 772. Once again |
[06 Dec 2007|12:42am] |
Found.
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| 771. Authentic |
[04 Dec 2007|02:29am] |
Involvement; no longer trapped. Passion, hope, optimism and energy; I recognise all of that. I will no longer succumb to the roles you or anyone else has assigned me.
It's my game.
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| 768. Vietnam |
[24 Nov 2007|10:53am] |
( I miss Vietnam )
Let's go to Cambodia?
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| 767. 11 November - 23 November |
[23 Nov 2007|10:55am] |
I'll definitely remember this OCIP trip. I spent my time clearing my stuff and catching up with mum ever since I got back, going through the stuff that I bought. And I kept hearing the words of Ms Wong.
"You're pampering your nieces and nephews too much! STOP!"
90% of the stuff are for them :)
I'm still smiling because of the surprise at the airport. Thank you Sufi, Farhan, BESTFRIEND (SO GAY, BUT I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY!!!!!!) and Fareez (Thank you for the blue (!!) roses) for surprising me at the airport (3AM!). The boy sent my friends to town and then he popped by my place for a short chat.
ASHIKIN! DEENA! FAD! FARR! AHHH I MISS YOU PEOPLE LIKE MAAAAAAAAAAAD!!!
:D
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| 760. The essence of time |
[29 Oct 2007|01:16am] |
Sit back, relax. Chill.
I'm so enjoying life :D
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| 759. Far |
[24 Oct 2007|10:33pm] |
Hello Stranger. You're such a fucking turn off, meluat. But I can't deny, you're attractive. I just.. never thought..
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| 752. Selamat Hari Raya |
[14 Oct 2007|08:02pm] |
To all muslims, Selamat Hari Raya.
Maaf Zahir&Batin! :)
With much love,
Nurul Nadzirah
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| 745. Kris |
[10 Oct 2007|04:54pm] |
I went on Youtube and decided to listen to an old favourite from my younger days:) I still like the lyrics.
Ada kalanya manusia akan lupa
Terlelap didalam buaian asmara
Jangan percaya tipu daya dunia
Tangis dan tawa tak kan kekal s'lamanya
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| 743. Quality of being |
[10 Oct 2007|12:02pm] |
Quantity of doing definitely does not equate to quality of being. Sometimes, I feel most productive on days when I sit still, drown myself in reality in silence and let my mind rest at peace. Mind activities.
Today I thought of a word: Coward. I heard that many times whenever I refuse to take on a path chosen by others. How do I make others see that my choice is not out of cowardice? Cowardice saps confidence, lost of opportunities, lays waste to talents, multiplies miseries unnecessarily
Maybe it's cowardice to YOU because YOU lost your confidence and didn't dare to take on that path YOU wanted, YOU lost the opportunities when they were presented to you, YOU wasted YOUR talents and YOU faced miseries.
As for me, I am set for the new journey and I'm going to welcome all the opportunities and challenges that will come my way. And InsyaAllah, I'll be fine.
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| 740. Breaking the patterns |
[05 Oct 2007|04:17pm] |
Suddenly, I fear growing up. I feel very vulnerable as I am exposed to hundreds, millions of messages that shape perceptions about myself and my life. And that, I don't know if I can trust. I no longer know the difference between how things really are and my own interpretations. At least for now.
Almost 3 years ago I made up my mind on what to do for my future. I still hold on to that dream. I'm not going to answer questions of 'Why are you doing this?' because every decision I make, I'm going to take full responsibility and I don't owe anyone any explanation. This time round, I'm going to stick to it. I am going to stick to what my heart and head tells me to do. Not you. Not my brothers' words. Not my mum's words.
Sometimes it feels like I'm starting from scratch, almost like building someone new out of this soul and body who picked up different packages of wise words throughout the 17 years or so. The hardest thing to do is to filter those packages now, go through every single thing and to pick out what I believe and not what people want me to believe.
And the most powerful thing to me now? Trust.
Because I trust myself that I am able to take care of my well-being: physically, emotionally, psychologically and spiritually. I am still learning how to do this, but I will master it someday.
The journey has just started.
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| 724. SMILES! |
[26 Sep 2007|12:30am] |
WORK TODAY!
Though there was no crowd and it was boring, I got to work! :) Ice-cream girl is back! :D
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| 716. Quote |
[18 Sep 2007|09:33pm] |
I don't wish to be everything to everyone
but I would like to be something to someone
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| 706. B&J |
[09 Sep 2007|02:41pm] |
I
WANT
TO
BE
BACK
AT
WORK
SOON
!!!
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| 694. SMS with the boss |
[26 Aug 2007|01:59am] |
Me: Hi! Nurul here. I was already in Outram but had to take a cab back to Tampines because I left my Berry in a cab. Sorry will be late!!
(I meant my BlackBerry)
V: Kesian makcik. Tertinggal buah kat taxi.. :)
I was so slow that I actually took a while to realise what he was talking about!
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| 686. Unbelievable |
[19 Aug 2007|12:47pm] |
A girl cried and someone asked her what was wrong.
"Nothing", she said.
"You don't cry for nothing, unless you have nothing"
She stopped crying. Even if everything else was failing and crumbling, there's him to be thankful for.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
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